Don't run after school

In Zhou Baoshan's memory, the summer when Cheng Jin's parents divorced was extremely chaotic.

That summer, Cheng Jin's pressure cooker first exploded and caught fire while cooking, burning down the whole house.

When thick smoke came out of the house, it woke up the neighbors who were taking a nap. When the fire truck came to fight the fire, many people came to watch.

Cheng Jin didn't know it at the time, when he rushed to the door with Zhou Baoshan, he froze in place for a few seconds, and then danced happily.

Many adults looked at the eight-year-old child with sympathetic eyes, and shook their heads one after another, saying, "Oh, you see, this child is so frightened that he is so scared."

"That's great, I don't need to do my homework." Cheng Jin clapped his hands happily, and the air was full of joy.

Because there was a fire at home, he could only temporarily stay at Zhou Baoshan's house.

Turning off the lights at night, when the two of them were chatting with their arms on their pillows, Cheng Jin said: "My parents have been arguing for a month, and they helped me check my homework before, but now they don't even ask me."

"Don't you dislike them checking your homework?"

"I don't like it." Cheng Jin thought for a while and said, "But I don't like them ignoring me even more."

Zhou Baoshan said: "My parents never cared about me."

"I heard them mention divorce in the quarrel that time." Cheng Jin said, "Li Chengcheng in the class is a child whose parents divorced. He doesn't even wash his clothes every day."

Zhou Baoshan didn't speak, and closed his eyes silently.

Cheng Jin continued: "My father and mother often ask me who I will live with if they get divorced."

"Then who have you been with?" Zhou Boshan asked.

"I want to be with my dad." Cheng Jin said, "I'll spend all his money, and then I'll be filial to my mom when I grow up."

"Your father treats your mother...... not good?"

"Well, I've seen him beat my mother." Cheng Jin said, "When he drank too much, he dragged my mother's hair and beat her. My mother would lie on the sofa and cry."

"Then your father is not considered a man." Zhou Boshan said, "Neither is my father, they have no sense of responsibility."

Not long after that, Cheng Jin's parents really divorced.

The day they officially separated was the end of summer, and the weather was so hot that it was smoky. Everyone on the road was drowsy, with their heads down listlessly.

Before Cheng Jin could even say goodbye to Zhou Baoshan, he was forcibly dragged and loaded into the pickup truck together with the furniture.

Cheng Dingfang opened the car door in a bad mood. Out of the corner of his eye, he saw his son huddled in the car, holding a potted plant in his arms.So, he closed the car door, came to his son, and snatched the flower pot from his son.

"What do you want this shit for?" Cheng Dingfang's voice was deafening, with a kind of unquestionable and intimidating force that is inherent in every parent.

"Give it back to me." Cheng Jin gritted his teeth and looked at the dark brown plastic flower pot in Cheng Dingfang's arms. A small piece was broken on the edge of the pot, and the soft soil fell down piecemeal along the gap. , Seeing that they were all about to fall to the ground.

The pot of mint grass was one of the summer assignments assigned by their teacher - planting mint seedlings and writing an observation log for the whole summer vacation.

His mint and Zhou Boshan's were planted in the same pot, and two small green tips just emerged, and the tender green leaves trembled violently with Cheng Dingfang's movements.

"Your mother planted it for you?" Cheng Ding Fangzheng burst into anger, raised the flower pot and threw it hard on the ground.

"Give it back to me!!!" Cheng Jin yelled heart-piercingly. The process of the flower pot hitting the ground turned into a slow-motion motion in his eyes. The moment it landed, his self-esteem, childhood , and the expectation of more than half a month, and the joyful mood that just saw the seeds germinate, all shattered to pieces.

——Hey, Zhou Goushan, do you think it will grow so big that it can't fit in a flowerpot?

—Yes, we will plant it in the yard at that time.

—Okay, okay, when it grows bigger and bigger, a yard will be full of mint.

— it will be beautiful.

— I've seen them in the country, and they can grow up to knee height.

——Cheng Jin, when it grows so tall, maybe my mother will come back, right?

——Well, yes, it will definitely be.

Cheng Jin cried and jumped out of the car, squatted on the ground and collected the soil in the flower pot bit by bit with his small hands, pocketed it on his T-shirt, and said while scratching, "I'm sorry."

This sentence of sorry seems to be said to Zhou Boshan, and it also seems to say, I'm sorry, I didn't protect you well.

Later, when the truck drove away, Cheng Jin's entire white T-shirt had become stained.

At this moment, Zhou Baoshan suddenly ran out of the house and followed the truck, waving at him while looking at his dirty T-shirt and shouting loudly: "If, in the future, no one will wash your clothes for you, I will help you Ah, my house—has a washing machine."

He seemed to say something else, but Cheng Jin couldn't hear him anymore.

He only saw Zhou Baoshan who was tired from running, panting and holding his knees, standing on the side of the road, farther and farther away from him, farther and farther... until it became a small black spot in his sight...

Later, Cheng Jin mentioned this matter to Cheng Dingfang again. Like all parents, he completely forgot about the flowerpot and losing his temper.

It seems that Cheng Jin remembered wrongly.

When the words "sex.violence" came out of his mouth, he seemed to breathe a sigh of relief. For so many years, the secret that had been kept in his heart had grown into a towering tree in his heart, and now he finally saw the light.

It took so much courage for Cheng Jinguang to say this, it's hard to imagine how tolerant his mother was to endure in silence for so many years before divorcing Cheng Dingfang who had made up her mind.

Zhou Baoshan patted him on the shoulder, when the bus arrived, the two of them came out from the back door with their heads down, both of them were unhappy.

Zhou Baoshan went to the drink shop and bought a cup of white peach oolong for Cheng Jin, with ice, it is said that this fruit tea contains ten times more sugar than milk tea, drinking something sweet may improve your mood.

The two walked to the stadium and sat on the rusted parallel bars.

Cheng Jin said: "I always thought that my mother didn't want me anymore. I didn't know the truth until I heard my sister talk about it not long ago."

Zhou Baoshan bent the knee of one leg and supported it with his hand, while the other leg hung down from a high place, straight and straight. He lowered his head and swayed twice, watching the soil on the sole of the shoe fall to the ground.

"I don't know the details. It's probably... raped within marriage." Cheng Jin said, "My mother used to want my sister and me not to divorce, but she couldn't bear it anymore..."

"Once I was playing hide and seek with my sister and friends. My sister and I hid in the closet at our house, and then my dad came in drunk and treated my mom...sexually, violently, and then my sister smothered me. He closed my eyes and didn't let me see, hugged me tightly in his arms, and the voices I heard will never be forgotten in this life..."

"It feels so disgusting. I feel disgusting when I think about it. I can't stop the nausea from head to toe." Cheng Jin said, "I keep these memories in my mind all the time. It's cloudy and smelly."

Zhou Baoshan nodded, understanding a little bit.

Cheng Jin let out a long sigh of relief, feeling much more comfortable after saying this.

Zhou Baoshan lowered her head and asked hesitantly: "Your brother, when he came to see you last time, I thought he looked at you in a wrong way, is there something wrong with him..."

"He's sick." Cheng Jin frowned, grabbed the drink bottle and said, "He likes men, the promiscuous kind."

Zhou Baoshan gritted her teeth and cursed, "Fuck."

"The reason why I insisted on dropping out of university is because one of my roommates is him." Cheng Jin said, "The other two roommates are from other places, and they don't even talk to me."

"Isn't he several years older than you?" Zhou Baoshan asked.

"Because our dormitory was transferred, he was only one year older than me. There was no bed for the sophomore. The counselor knew that we were relatives, so he let him live in the same dormitory as me." Cheng Jin said.

Zhou Baoshan really wanted to ask Cheng Jin if this goddamn bitch had done anything unreasonable to him, but he couldn't ask.

"he……"

As soon as Zhou Baoshan said the beginning, he understood.

Cheng Jin raised his eyebrows, "He doesn't dare, if he dares to move, I can chop off his dick and feed it to the dogs."

But He Yi would still send some harassing text messages to Cheng Jin frequently, and sometimes send him some messy photos from their circle, Cheng Jin couldn't help feeling sick every time he saw it.

Cheng Jin deleted him several times, but because of family matters, he added it back.

During the one-year period of being a roommate, he was so annoyed that he felt uncomfortable every day when he thought of going back to the dormitory to sleep at night.

Therefore, I felt relieved after dropping out of school.

Zhou Baoshan was very curious, "Then do you watch pornography? Can you...be hard...to get up?"

Cheng Jin raised his hand and said, "Guess what it is?"

Zhou Baoshan said, "Five."

Cheng Jin clenched his fist and punched him on the chest, "Not only am I tough, but my fists are also tough."

After returning from the playground, Cheng Jin found out that Boss Ji had posted homework assignments in the group of the poultry group, ten yuan a class.

"Damn, I seem to have assigned a lot of homework this week." Cheng Jin lay paralyzed on the bed and didn't want to move at all, "Hurry up and see what's there."

"Number of words, plus five papers, and others." Zhou Baoshan was paralyzed on the bed like him, staring at the top of his head with blank eyes, "I'll go and see my brother first."

After he finished speaking, he stood up, kicked off his slippers, and walked away copying. After taking two steps, he turned around and said, "Remember to copy for me."

Cheng Jin strode up and strangled his neck and asked, "Do you know what a strong man locks a man?"

"Brother, I was wrong." Zhou Boshan raised his hands in surrender, "Let go of me first, I'll go make milk for Little Holland."

Cheng Jin let go of him, and followed him downstairs.

"Oh, by the way, what are the names of your younger brothers and sisters?" Cheng Jin had lived in the family for such a long time, and never thought of asking about it.

"Gouzi, two dogs, three dogs." Zhou Boshan jumped down from the stairs and touched the tops of their heads one by one.

"Playing."

"Zhou Jin, Zhou Chen, Zhou Zhou."

Cheng Jin nodded, watching Zhou Baoshan deftly take out the baby bottle, pour one-third of the water into it, then pour milk powder into it, then shake it twice, throw it from behind to his chest like a magic trick, and then take it out from behind Pass it to my sister.

The younger sister stared at his hand intently, snorted and said, "Childish."

At this moment, the chandelier in the living room flickered and suddenly went dark.

power cut.

"Ah, ah, ah, brother, brother."

"Brother Chengjing hug me."

The two cubs were watching cartoons, and they were so frightened that they cried loudly. One hugged Cheng Jin and the other Zhou Baoshan.

The younger sister curled up on the sofa calmly, tugging at the corner of Zhou Baoshan's clothes.

"Wait, brother go check the circuit, you stay here with brother Cheng Jin first." Zhou Boshan patted the third child's little head, coaxing softly.

The third child was the most afraid of people, and he didn't know Cheng Jin that well. He turned his head, looked at Cheng Jin with tears in his eyes, and then shook his head crazily. The pear blossom curly hair on his forehead shook like a rattle.In order to prevent Zhou Baoshan from leaving, he plunged into Zhou Baoshan's arms and whispered, "Don't go, brother don't go."

Zhou Boshan was very helpless, patted Cheng Jin on the shoulder and said: "The main switch is just opposite the shoe rack at the door, you go and pull the switch, and then there is a scaffolding in the grocery room upstairs, you climb up to check if there is a fuse Burn out."

Cheng Jin turned on the flashlight of his mobile phone and successfully found the electric switch and scaffolding of their house.

But when he climbed up, he couldn't see clearly what kind of burnt fuse was on it.

He wanted to take a picture of the above situation with his mobile phone, but in a blink of an eye he found that he had just put his mobile phone on the shoe rack next to him for convenience.

Cheng Jin didn't want the trouble of going down and up again, so he stepped on the scaffolding and went straight to reach for the phone.

The finger is still a little away from the phone.

He leaned forward a little, stretched his upper body, curled his fingers, and hooked the phone.

Before he could regain his footing, the scaffolding fell down with a clang.

Cheng Jin fell heavily to the ground.