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"Do you know? In fact, sometimes I feel tired..." Ji Ruhan, who was still trying to struggle, stopped in a daze when he heard a faint sentence in his ear.

"I am also a person, I also have emotions, I also have shortcomings, and I also have my own consciousness, but people only want to see my perfect side, like a perfect doll for them to enjoy." Pei Qing Speaking of this, she took a deep breath. It is hard for ordinary people not to care about the eyes of the people around her, let alone her job is a job that is exposed to everyone's eyes.

"The first time I realized this problem was when I first entered the industry. At that time, I was new to this job. I had no experience, no acting skills, no connections, no background, and I didn't graduate from a major. It couldn't be worse... But I still don't want to give up, so I have been participating in various auditions, trying everything, as long as there are a few seconds of shots, I will not miss them." Pei Qing signaled Ji Ruhan to get up, and she also supported the sofa He stood up, took two cans of beer from the small refrigerator, and drank them down on his own.

"After half a year of hard work, I finally got a supporting actress. I was so happy at the time, I felt that all my hard work was worth it..." Pei Qing's eyes looked a little blurred, as if lost in memory.

"I thought I just had to work hard to act well, so I watched those famous actors act every day, thinking about it every day. In fact, I only had 4 words, but I still wanted to play this role well, so I stayed in the crew for a long time. 4 months, I am very happy, I have learned a lot...”

After taking another sip of wine, Pei Qing continued: "That day when the production team wrapped up, the director said: 'Everyone will play together for one night, and no one is allowed to leave.' Then the director had already spoken. At that time, I must be It’s a good thing to go and get to know more people, isn’t it? So I went there unprepared. When I opened the door of the KTV box, I saw the director, but he didn’t sit at the end In the middle, he gave up the seat to a fat man with big ears, do you know how fat that man is?" Pei Qing looked at Ji Ruhan and asked with a mocking smile.

Shaking his head obediently, Ji Ruhan didn't speak.

Of course Pei Qing also knew that Ji Ruhan didn't know, and she went on to say: "As soon as I entered, the director waved at me and pulled me to the side of that man. I have a poor capacity for alcohol, and I became dizzy after a while, and my eyes doubled, but I didn't let myself lose consciousness completely. I used the excuse to go to the bathroom, and wanted to go outside to blow some air to sober up. Guess what." Pei Qing fell down this time. Without asking what Ji Ruhan meant, she paused and continued.

"As soon as I entered the bathroom, I was dragged into the cubicle by that fat man. The strong smell of alcohol and the greasy smell on his body made me almost vomit... He was impatient to take off me. clothes, while trying to kiss me, I was stunned and almost let him succeed, but I struggled fiercely, he drank alcohol and couldn’t move, he was kicked in the stomach by me, he squatted down in pain, I was very I was scared, and I wanted to run when I opened the door, but he grabbed my hair and slapped me. At that time, his consciousness was already very blurred, and he couldn't control his strength at all, so he beat me to the ground. "The two bottles of beer quickly drained after a few words, Pei Qing shook the bottle and smiled wryly, the disgust in her eyes was deeply buried by the indifferent expression.

"No one has ever hit me. When the pain stimulates the paralyzed nerves, I only have one feeling. I want to escape. I don't want to be in this **** place anymore. What kind of dream? Go to hell... I'm lying on the ground on my hands and feet And I climbed to the door of the bathroom. When I opened the door with difficulty, I saw the director. I was very surprised. I hoped that he could come and save me. I shouted to him: "Help me, please, please." Please...' I yelled desperately, but he kept looking at me coldly, without even moving a hair. Damn, no one will come to save me." Ji Ruhan didn't see what was going on at that time, and Pei Qing's tone of retelling was also light, but she could feel how desperate she was at that time, and she hugged her with some distress , Gently patted her shoulder.

Pei Qing, who had already drank 5 cans of beer, had slack eyes, and there was a hint of obsequiousness in the corners of her eyes and brows, and she said with a smile on her lips, "Are you feeling sorry for me?"

The pain in Ji Ruhan's heart is far greater than the shock. The pain in her heart seems to be crushed, making her breathing harder than usual. She nodded firmly, and kissed Pei Qing's eyes, tender and tender.

The corners of the eyes seemed to be brushed by a feather, the itchy touch made Pei Qing close her eyes unconsciously, a little bit of sweetness spread in her heart until it enveloped her whole heart.

"I was thinking, how good it would be if I didn't go, and I even thought darkly why me? Anyone can do it, why me?" Maybe the alcohol started to play a role, or maybe it was the people at the time. Emotions began to erode her current will, Pei Qing's voice was crying, and her whole body trembled like a crumbling leaf in autumn.

"Do you know what the first thing that fat man said when he caught me? He said to me: 'What do you think you are? I make you cry and you cry, and I make you laugh and you laugh. You do this. Okay, you have to do what other people want you to do. What can you do when you run out now? Who will care about you?' He grabbed my hair viciously, forcing me to look at him. I'm so helpless, I seldom cry, but I couldn't control it that day..." On the verge of collapse, Pei Qing had tears in the corner of her eyes.

Ji Ruhan hugged Pei Qing's hand even harder, listening to her digging out the nightmare-like past word by word, she felt that her heart was also broken into pieces.

Unable to restrain himself anymore, Ji Ruhan lifted Pei Qing's head and kissed it. This kiss did not contain any sex, it just fell on Pei Qing's lips inch by inch as if comforting.

Feeling the various emotions brought about by this kiss, Pei Qing didn't respond in a hurry, and just let Ji Ruhan walk wantonly on her lips.

The temperature inside the car was slowly rising, and the breathing of the two of them also became short of breath, but neither of them wanted to stop, until Ji Ruhan was so breathless from being kissed, and Pei Qing couldn't help but give up.

"At that time, I realized that an actor should not only act in the play, but also outside the play, because people don't judge you only by your acting skills. Satisfy their desires. When someone more powerful than you appears, you have to live according to his wishes, otherwise you will be ruined if he says a word..." Pull out the secrets in my heart to another It is not so easy for people to see, but the relief after speaking is a relief.

Pei Qing smiled and leaned her head on Ji Ruhan's body, smelling the unique fragrance of her body.

"Then...then...what about after that?" The goddess hasn't said what will happen after that...so worried...

"Huh?" Pei Qing, who was already in a daze, was a little slow when he heard this question.

"Forget it..." After all, I still feel sorry for Pei Qing, Ji Ruhan is afraid that Pei Qing will have to recall bad things again, so after thinking about it, let it go.

Before he was so drunk that he lost his ability to think, Pei Qing thought for a while and knew what Ji Ruhan was going to ask. She hooked Ji Ruhan's nose and said, "Of course it's okay~ It just so happened that Xiao Ji was at that ktv that day, and he passed by to save him." I, at that time, I couldn't compare with him. At that time, his speech was already very important, and I was saved after saying a few words, but in fact, I was very unhappy. I was like a commodity. After bargaining, I decided my way out..."

"Is that why you desperately hope that everyone will like you?" Grasping the point of Pei Qing's words, Ji Ruhan asked without waiting for her to finish.

"Hahaha, yes, everyone likes me, so I won't be abandoned, and I won't fall into the situation I was in back then." Only Pei Qing knew how much pain the understatement carried.

"So, don't abandon me. If one day everyone doesn't want me and you abandon me, I..." Pei Qing's words were three points serious and seven points teasing, which made Ji Ruhan feel very uncomfortable.

"No!" Ji Ruhan interrupted Pei Qing: "I will never, never want you, Pei Qing."

Perhaps Ji Ruhan's expression was too serious, and Pei Qing, who was still smiling at the corner of her mouth, put her smile away: "Then I believe you."

The author has something to say: Come on! !Xiao Hanhan discovered Pei Qing's other side today, it's too cruel for two people to abuse dogs if they are together~~