son, i don't bend

After leaving Tongcheng, I walked another hundred steps forward, and I saw a large group of people scattered in an open space outside the city.They formed a group in twos and threes, and only two or three people walked back and forth between the crowd with broken bowls, looking very miserable.I looked dumbfounded, "What's going on?"

The little beggar replied: "They are the same as us, they escaped here." Escape should be a common situation in ancient times, whether it is a natural disaster or a man-made disaster, there will always be a group of people wandering around with a glimmer of hope.The little beggar pointed to two men lying on a pile of hay and said, "My father and elder brother are there."

I hugged him and walked over, and the little beggar rushed to the side of the two, "Father, brother, get up, I've brought food back." The two hummed lightly, and slightly opened their eyes.I put down the silver and helped the little beggar to lift the two of them up and lean against the city wall.

The little beggar opened the food box, and the tangy smell of meat lifted the two of them up a bit.The little beggar grabbed a chicken leg with one hand and handed it to the two of them. "Thank you benefactor."

My throat was choked up in a panic, "It's okay, you eat quickly." The little beggar walked away with the food box as soon as this party had just eaten. A trace of anger.Holding a chicken leg in twos and threes, each took a bite.

I couldn't say a word for a long time, and an inexplicable sourness welled up in my heart.Oh shit!If I had known earlier, I would not have come!All the good mood is gone.Everyone rested for a while, and I said, "Why did you make such a mess?"

"Hey! God is not merciful!" The old man sighed, "A few days ago, there was a torrential rain, and the Pinghe River flooded, and all the villages and towns in that area were flooded. Some people fled to the west, Our group fled to the north..."

"Don't the officials care about you?" It is said that parents are officials and parents are officials. If the people are in trouble, officials should take action.The old man snorted weakly, "Don't talk about being an official. Before the fire, the group of people in the county government ran away. The officials will not care about our lives. In their eyes, our lives are more important than our lives." Ants are cheap..."

I just don't listen.After being stunned for a while, he got up and said, "Old man, I have something to do, so I'm leaving first."

The old man thanked me again and again, which made me feel very uncomfortable. I didn't help much, so why bother to say thank you.I took the money and left, and the little beggar hurried over, "Big brother! Big brother! Return your box, thank you."

All the disaster victims kowtowed to me one after another, and said repeatedly: "Thank you, great benevolent man." I dared not look any more, and went into the city with my money on my shoulders.Every extra step, I feel that the silver on my shoulders is heavier.I'm not a savior, I can't save anyone.

I'm not a savior, I can't save anyone.Rescuing suffering and suffering is the work of Guanyin Bodhisattva, not mine.I am poor and white, and I am a dead person who has occupied someone else's body. I can't save myself, let alone save others.

The pain in my shoulder was getting worse and worse. I hid in a side alley and put down the sack to check. There was no needle prick in it. Why did it hurt me so much.I hugged Yinzi and stayed for a long time, saving, not saving, struggling for a long time, my selfishness finally lost.To be born as a human being is to have a personal appearance after all.Money, paper, if you don't bring it with you when you are born, you don't take it with you when you die.Taking advantage of my determination now, I hurried to buy rice and medicine, and hired a few cars to drag my things out of the city.

When we reached the entrance of the city, a soldier guarding the city grabbed the little beggar by the ear and yelled, "You bastard, how many times have I told you that you cannot enter the city!" The little beggar knelt on the ground and said anxiously: "Officer Lord, please do me a favor! My father is coughing and vomiting blood, I'm going to ask the doctor, please let me in."

As soon as they heard the word 'vomit blood', the faces of the guarding soldiers changed, and they took a step back in unison.When I was buying medicine just now, I accidentally heard that the prefect ordered them not to enter the city because they were afraid that they would carry the plague.A few days ago, a county town in the west received refugees. As a result, the whole city was infected with the disease, and hundreds of people died.

One of them drew his sword and pointed at the little beggar, and shouted, "Get out! Get out! The prefect has an order that refugees are not allowed to enter the city!" Seeing the situation, everyone also drew their long swords and pointed at the little beggar.Still unwilling to give up, he knelt on the ground and kowtowed, "Please, sir! Let me in, I'm just going to invite a doctor..."

"Go away!" The soldier leader stepped forward impatiently and kicked the little beggar to the ground. "I don't have time to spend with you. I warn you one last time. If you dare to enter the city again, you will definitely be sent to hell!"

"Hey! Officer, why are you so angry!" I stepped forward with a playful smile and comforted me twice.The little beggar got up from the ground and looked up, there seemed to be a glimmer of hope in his eyes.The leader of the soldier was not very polite. I stuffed a big white ingot into his hand, and patted his shoulder angrily. Strange."

The soldier leader glanced at me, I scanned the carriage behind me, and after weighing the money in my hand, he asked, "What's in it?" I laughed twice, "It's just a little grain." The soldier leader left Approaching the cart, he pulled out the saber at his waist, cut a big cut, and sprinkled white rice outside.The driver who was driving hurriedly pinched the gap.

The corner of the soldier's mouth raised, as if mocking, "I can help you for a while, but I can't help you for a lifetime. What's more, those refugees are not relatives or relatives to you, so why do you bother?"

I still smiled, "Maybe it's because I've had nothing to do!" The soldier's leader suppressed his smile, put away his saber, raised his hand, and said, "Let's go!"

"Thank you, sir!" Smiling, he patted the horse's butt, and the coachman led the horse forward.When he left, he picked up the little beggar and held it in his arms, "Does it hurt?" The little beggar wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes and shook his head: "It doesn't hurt."

When we came outside Tongcheng, the refugees saw me and the convoy behind him, and there was no sound for a long time.As if I didn't believe what I saw, I gave a dry cough and said in a loud voice, "If you are strong, come and help set up the stove and move the pot, fetch water and cook."

Everyone was overjoyed when they heard this, and they all knelt down and kowtowed, "Great benefactor, great benefactor~" It was just a gift of food, and the word "great benefactor" was still not counted.At best, I was an excellent successor to socialism. After being bowed down by the refugees with a shy face, I picked two flesh-and-blood young men to help the driver unload the iron pot, wooden barrel, and bowl from the cart. For chopsticks and other objects, several people were picked to carry buckets to fetch water, and several people picked up firewood to light the fire.

I led the white-bearded doctor to feel the pulse of the seriously ill one by one.The doctor moved people with the same symptoms to a pile, and after several rounds of synthesis, he prescribed three prescriptions, so I set up another three pots to cook the medicine.

The firewood was burning, and the porridge that had been boiled earlier was already boiling.The two coachmen and I served porridge to the refugees together. The full pot of porridge was quickly eaten up.After a short break, I stirred the pitch-black herbs with a large spatula.This herbal medicine is really delicious, and it smells so bad that I spit it out.The soup and medicine were gone, it was getting late, I was too tired, I found a secluded place, closed my eyes and fell asleep.

In the early morning of the second day, the coachman and I packed the remaining rice. We worked hard for a long time before we finished packing the leftover pallet of rice from yesterday.I knocked on the iron pot, "Everyone be quiet! Listen to me, I, Shu Tong, a commoner, have little ability, so I can only help you here. Now I will distribute these grains and money to you. It’s not much, but it’s enough for you to buy a piece of land to settle down. Now please line up to get the rice grain, don’t crowd, don’t fight, everyone has a share.”

The voice was about to fall, and everyone got up one after another and formed a long line.Seeing the queue line up, I began to distribute rice grains.After all the money and food were distributed, amidst the collective thanks of the refugees, I turned around and strode towards Tongcheng.It is rare in life to be so brilliant and unrestrained once.I am not a savior, but I have tasted the feeling of despair and helplessness, and I also know the state of mind when I am rescued from a desperate situation.Although it was only once, the time I was rescued by Bai Xuanhan in Xinzhang City was enough to make me remember my whole life, and I couldn't help...I thought of that face of Bai Xuanhan again.

The thousand pieces of gold are gone, and only the last five taels of silver are left.Looking at the pedestrians coming and going, I sighed, "Go back to the pre-liberation overnight!" Wandering aimlessly on the long street, Eleven Niang came to meet me.If it weren't for my good eyesight, I really wouldn't have recognized the person in front of me as Eleven Niang.At this moment, she had changed into a long light blue dress, the tattoos on her arms had been covered up, and the green clothes fluttered, not as seductive as the red dress, but more charming.

I greeted her with a smile, "I said why my eyelids keep twitching today, because I'm going to meet a beauty! I haven't seen you for a day, and you are even more charming." The corner of Eleven Niang's mouth slightly raised, " Mr. Shu, your mouth is covered with honey? Why are you talking so sweetly?"

"Eleven Niang doesn't believe me? I never tell lies." I waved my hands again and again with an aggrieved expression on my face.Eleven Niang poked my arm, "Yo, I'm still wronged. That's all right, all right, I'll treat you to dinner as an apology."

Of course it is good, I was busy looking after those refugees yesterday, and I didn't eat much, now I only have five taels of housekeeping money left, I really dare not squander it. "Then I won't be polite." I rubbed my hands secretly, thinking that I would take a fortune from her.Eleven Niang led me to the largest restaurant in Tongcheng, and I followed her into the restaurant when a waiter with a white scarf on his shoulders shouted, "Eleven Niang, everything is ready, please come inside."

Eleven Niang frowned slightly, and replied, "I see." Are you ready?Could it be that she planned to invite me to dinner early in the morning?I realized it later, Zhao Yi's face...is so fair and gentle, the more people look at it, the more pleasing it is.

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