Evening sunshine in autumn attracts beautiful clothes

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When night falls, I can't wait to put on heavy makeup, wear a variety of brightly colored wigs, and shuttle through the chaotic lights of the bar.

During the day, apart from catching up on sleep, I wandered around classrooms and cafeterias like a walking dead.

Occasionally, I would appear in the head teacher's office and listen to her pointed admonitions. In her eyes, I was the kind of hopelessly bad student, and her earnestness towards me was just a superficial effort she made to maintain a certain image. .

After all, the first class I took after graduation didn't want anything disgraceful to happen to me.

I can't feel any humiliation from her contemptuous eyes. People who grew up with all kinds of white eyes and ridicule can no longer feel the lethality brought by eyes.

Regarding the idea of ​​letting me drop out of school, she gave up after trying many times to no avail, and only asked me not to have too much deeds during her teaching period.

The sky in autumn is always blue and clear, the white clouds float high, and the sun shines in every corner.

Such sunshine always leaves me nowhere to hide.

During the day, I am like a plant that lacks sunlight, rotting and afraid of seeing myself festered and corrupted in bright light.

I have been abandoned by the sun for too long, and I have long been unable to adapt to any bright warmth. Only in the dark can I hide myself perfectly.

The light from the bar illuminated the extremely long fingers, reflecting a white halo, and the huge royal blue mechanical dial on the wrist looked very valuable.

Lee just stared at me like this, his eyes burning.

She just came back from abroad, and she didn't hide the aggressiveness in her eyes.

She bluntly expressed her strong interest without hiding anything.

Her fingers are longer than the average person, with obvious joints, short cut nails, walking back and forth on the edge of the wine glass, long wavy hair, evil smile, and a slim skirt that wraps her figure perfectly.

"I was attracted to you the first time I saw you, you are so unique!"

I smiled and nodded, thinking about how many women she had teased with such touching words, and reconfirmed that I was not the first woman she treated like this, nor would I be the last.

But maybe she doesn't need any sweet words, she is 180cm tall, with slender limbs, perfect figure, unruly eyes, and evil smile, she only needs to move her fingers a little, and countless foolish men and women will fall for her.

Shanny is one of the pioneers, with an enchanting figure, soft eyes, smiling and affectionate sitting beside Lee, touching her fingers intentionally or unintentionally.

He once drank down ten glasses of strong whiskey in tears, squatting in the bathroom and throwing up just to win thousands of dollars on the guest's table.

She once said that no matter men or women, as long as they can afford the price, there is no dignity that cannot be let go. The determination in her eyes makes people shudder when she speaks!

It seems that the well-dressed Lee is her target for tonight. There is a fire shining between her eyes. Shanny, who has sharp eyes, can always see the true desire of every guest.

At this moment, she is extremely weak, and urgently needs the support and protection of someone with a strong heart like Lee. This is a boring plot.

I retreated knowingly, sat back on the sofa, buried my head in Xiaolu's neck, closed my eyes and fell silent.

I have a bad capacity for alcohol and have never practiced drinking. A glass of high-purity whiskey can make me dizzy.

Xiaolu is the only person I can call a friend here, we don't talk much, she has a job selling alcohol here, she is not very positive about it.

Waiting for DJ boyfriend A Zhe to get off work every day, the three unconscious bodies will support each other and walk in the lonely street, which is different from the bustling bar street across the street. The houses and streets there are old and deserted, and there are many for rent old house.

We sublet at opposite ends of the street, and they always drop me off first.

Little Green would push me into a dark house, help me to the bed with the dim light outside the window, and never turn on the light, because the bright light would hurt my eyes and the deepest part of my heart, only Only when I am intoxicated in the dark do I dare to enter this most secret place.

At dawn, I would flee in a panic, so I, who never studied seriously, was never absent, and was even the first to arrive in the classroom, which made the class teacher unable to find a reason to dismiss me.

I have lived in the house for six years, only because I was treated with tenderness on a quiet night, I dare not enter it during the day, and I dare not even see everything here clearly, just as I dare not see the scene of that night. To cherish the one time memories because that's all I'm going to spend the rest of my life thinking about!

Xiaolu will help me clean up during the day, change the sheets, and the fragrant detergent makes me feel comfortable.

Just like such a kind and gentle little green, leaning on her body and smelling the fragrance on her clothes made me feel at ease.

Selling wine seems to have no real leisure time, but whenever I need it, she will stop, be my human body pillow, and let me sleep soundly.

The deafening sound in the bar does not have any effect on my deep sleep, as long as there is Xiaolu who makes me feel at ease, I can sleep peacefully!

I don't know how long I slept, I opened my eyes dimly, the bar had already been replaced, I smiled contemptuously, I was not unhappy, I just confirmed my thoughts again, and smiled obediently into Xiaolu's gentle eyes.

Her soft fingers caressed my wig. In the dark, I can no longer tell the color of my hair today, maybe dreamy purple or butterfly blue, these are not important, the important thing is that they make me look coquettish and cold.

I like the touch of being touched by such soft fingers. Once upon a time, there was such a kind and gentle person in my life. There were such gentle hands touching the direction of my heart. I was envious of it several times. The owner of those hands did not hold grudges.

Because people who can be treated by Zhiqing wholeheartedly should not be too bad, but I still don't like the fragility she shows at any time always affects Zhiqing's whole heart.

My smile withdrew very quickly, and I became indifferent. I had an irresistible intimacy with Xiaolu, and I also had a fear that could not be ignored.

She always easily reminds me of Zhiqing's warm smile, caring words, affectionate eyes, such vivid, clear, and touching moments in those sunny days, even if none of these are for me.

But she kept reminding me of the tragedy of facing up to Zhiqing.

Xiaolu has long been accustomed to my being treated with closeness and distance at times. She patted me on the shoulder, nodded and smiled and left.

I got up and went to the bathroom, and patted cold water on my heavily painted face, dipped a paper towel in the water, and wiped off the color on my face vigorously. The cold water relieved my headache.

In the dark corridor, the intertwined bodies, the blurred eyes, and the obscene laughter let me know clearly that I am still living in an abandoned and corrupt life.

Facing the strong rhythm, I smiled wantonly and danced...

Feel free to hug the men and women around you, and get comfort from those fresh and unfamiliar bodies.

I could see the pity in Little Green's eyes, but so what?I am such a rotten person, a person who is destined not to be happy, rather than not knowing the so-called struggle, it is better to accept it calmly.

All the people I love will leave me, mom, grandma, and my sunny day!

I won't have a lover anymore, and I don't want this curse to continue.

I once thought about committing suicide, a person who can even give up on himself proves that there are no more fetters in the world!

My disappearance will not have the slightest impact on anyone in the world.

However, if I disappear, the memory of Qingqing that belongs to me will also disappear, and I don't want such a wonderful memory to pass away easily.

So, I want to use the rest of my life to remember every moment that ever touched my heart!

Xiaolu helped me out of the bar, it was already 3 o'clock in the morning.

As long as I don't have an appointment, we will basically go home at this time.

I leaned drowsily on Xiaolu's slender shoulders, my eyes hurt so much from the gorgeous lights at the door, I closed my eyes, and followed Xiaolu's movement closely.

Suddenly, Ah Zhe yelled loudly, awakening us who were drowsy. Following Ah Zhe's surprised gaze, a car in the shape of a black square iron box was parked in an open space not far away. The shape is particularly striking.

"What's the name of the ghost? I'm going to be scared to death by you!"

Xiaolu accuses me angrily, she seems to be gentle only when she treats me, and treats Ah Zhe and the guests with a look of disdain.

"Look there, it's a Mercedes-Benz G-class off-road vehicle, or a six-wheeler, my God, this model has only been seen in car magazines, I didn't expect it to be available in China! My God! This is a real car! "

Surprised, Ah Zhe unconsciously moved forward, wanting to touch her.

"It's unbelievable that such an expensive car just appeared in front of me. I'm not dreaming!"

Xiaolu doesn't like Ah Zhe's ignorant and childish portrait,

"It's just a truck, is it that exaggerated?"

"A van? This car can buy a villa in the most luxurious villa area!"

"Don't be embarrassing here, let's go, I'm sleepy!"

"Touch it, just touch it!"

Xiaolu pursed her lips, rolled her eyes, sneered and ignored her, and pulled me forward.

When passing by the front of the car, Xiaolu stopped suddenly, and I followed her gaze. There was a curly person in the driver's seat of the car, and I saw Lee's pale face in the messy long curly hair.

Driven by Xiaolu, I stepped forward and knocked on the car door,

"Hey, what's wrong with you?"

Lee slowly opened his eyes in pain, a gleam of light flashed in his eyes, and then he smiled faintly,

"Stomach hurt~"

"Have you taken medicine?"

I see open pill bottles next to the steering wheel.

Lee nodded.

"Should I take you to the hospital?"

"No, it's an old problem. It will get better in a while. It's been a long time since I've had it. Maybe I've been drinking too much lately."

Her breath became weaker, her face was haggard, her hands pressed against her stomach, her joints turned white from the pressure, and she looked very painful.

That was the first time I saw Lee's weak and helpless appearance. It turned out that even a strong person like her would be vulnerable sometimes.

To love you I would rather live in this world