Improvisation

Because she couldn't be relieved from the nightmare just now for a long time, Jian Ran covered her face with her elbow, and told herself that it was just the influence of pregnancy hormones, which magnified her negative emotions, and now she had to focus on the business and take the exam normally , After reassuring others, talk about his own affairs.

In his mind, he put everything in order, but he didn't know if it would end up as he planned, and the college entrance examination gave him unprecedented pressure.

Because the date is getting closer, some things that are not suitable to think about now find opportunities to get out, to seize the already occupied brain, pull his nerves, and increase his sense of guilt.

And he can't really adjust his mentality, he can no longer digest those emotions silently, and he can't find a place where he can balance.

That does not work.

Jane sat up and stepped on her slippers and walked out.

Yu's house is large and empty, except for the servants' room which is full, there are more than 20 empty rooms, and the wall lamps in each room are on, as if they knew someone would wake up at night, even the doors were not closed.

Jane walked aimlessly from room to room, killing time in the empty and quiet environment, dissecting the troubled things one by one in her heart, hoping to suppress those inappropriate thoughts before dawn.

Yu Shiyao kept tense next door, and would come to visit every hour, and soon found that Jian Ran was not in the room. When he found someone in the chess and card room, he was circling the billiard table picking up scattered billiard balls one by one , and there is a mica who just heard the movement and ran up the stairs at his feet.

Jian Ran and Mica looked over together, Jian Ran's eyes were big and black, her black hair was scattered on the soft pajamas, she looked more like a child standing in the light falling from the top of her head, the heart of those who watched was sore and soft.

"Can't sleep again?"

Jian Ran held down two cold billiard balls, and suddenly said: "Do you know all these things?"

He just walked past the fencing room, the piano room, and the boxing gloves in the gym, plus what he saw around Yu Shiyao before, it seems that Yu Shiyao really knows everything.

Yu Shiyao looked at Jian Ran: "Know some, I can teach you if you want to learn."

Jane shook her head, put the two billiard balls back, and said softly: "I have only learned one thing since I was a child - exams, and I can't learn anything else."

Yu Shiyao suddenly understood something, took the JP cue at the side, stood behind Jian Ran, and said, "You can learn it, you are so smart, there will be no problem. Let's try."

He wrapped Jian Ran in his arms, arched his back slightly, held the back of his hand in his palm, and taught him to drive the ball. The cue ball smashed away the colorful balls that had just been arranged neatly.

"Don't you think it's okay?" Yu Shiyao held his hand and hugged him from behind, "You can't learn, it's not that you can't, you are afraid. But have you been worrying about your exam?"

He patiently waited for Jian Ran to express his true thoughts, and the palm of his hand holding the back of his hand could not help but feel slightly warm. After all, he was not sure that Jian Ran was willing to tell him now.

He knew that in Jian Ran's strange and powerful self-adjustment system, asking for help was the last option.

After a while, he felt Jian Ran's slightly protruding spine close to him, as if the person in his arms had suddenly broken a tight string.

"I'm very scared." After saying these three words, it was like a small opening in the dam, followed by an uncontrollable collapse.

"Don't be afraid." Yu Shiyao turned to him, brushing the wet marks on his face with his palm, distressed and helpless, "How could it be, as long as you take the exam well, you will have no problems."

He knew what Jian Ran was worried about. Jian Ran couldn't disappoint Chen Yan and the others anymore. If something unexpected happened to his college entrance examination, he would not be the only one who would be heartbroken.

What he didn't think about before, now turned into inescapable pressure and doubled back on him.

Mica squatted at the feet of the two, looked at Jian Ran who suddenly burst into tears with wet eyes, and rubbed against his trouser legs as if to comfort him.

"What are you afraid of? You are so powerful, don't scare yourself, everyone will be uncertain sometimes, but that's just because you think you can't do it." Yu Shiyao let him lean into his arms, and gently followed him tightly With a tense and trembling back, facing the soft bulge on his waist and abdomen, he loved and hated it, and sighed: "You are very serious and hardworking, but there is just one more accident, don't let him affect you, we will forget about it." He, you are still the same as before, right?"

Jian Ran didn't know if she had listened to what he said, she leaned on his shoulder as if she was tired, and wet and hot tears silently wet the clothes on his shoulders.

Jian Ran didn't tell him anything before, but now it must be because he has nothing to do.

Yu Shiyao put one hand on his back, pinched the phalanx of his left hand with the other, and said in a low voice: "Do you still remember when I told you before, when did my dad come back? When I went to California to pick him up, it was the first time we met in 13 years, and on the way there, I kept thinking, I don’t want to go.”

The gap in the middle is actually more than 13 years. What can they expect a four-year-old to remember?

He is completely unfamiliar with his biological father, and even unfamiliar with the identity he has to face.

His mother, who was not close to him, was on the same plane with him, and kept looking at him with cold eyes, as if he was considering whether he had grown up, or as if he was making fun of the boy's insignificant guilt, and Yu Shiyao's anxiety was also reflected His gaze turned cold inch by inch.

"...Actually, that's not worth my fear. I'm just scared by myself." Yu Shiyao was still not used to talking about himself with others. When he finished speaking, he laughed at himself fleetingly, and tilted his head to kiss Jane. "You are too. You are so smart, you can think clearly about everything, don't get confused and put so much pressure on yourself just because you care too much."

Mica squatted at their feet, looking at the two masters docilely, flicking its tail lazily, when Yu Shiyao hugged Jianran, it also stood up, followed Yu Shiyao's long legs, and when Yu Shiyao picked up Jianran When he put it back on the bed, he seemed to know that his task was completed, and with a low "woo", he obediently returned to his room downstairs.

Yu Shiyao sat by the bed, looked at Jian Ran's red eyes: "Okay, sleep for a while, I'll stay here with you for a while."

Jian Ran lay back on the quilt, and Yu Shiyao sat at the end of the bed and held his calf under the quilt and pressed it gently.

At the 25th week of pregnancy, things that were normal before have become a burden. Every day when I come back from school, my feet will be swollen. Yu Shiyao invited a special person to come over to give me a massage. Because Jian Ran didn't like it, the person who gave Jian Ran the massage became Yu Shiyao.

Yu Shiyao rubbed his eyes for a while and raised his eyes to see Jian Ran's eyes open, staring at the ceiling in a daze, her slightly moving eyelashes were as light and slow as her breathing, and the faint light fell on her face, as if shed light on a piece of greasy jade. , with a hazy and brittle halo.

With his palm pressed against the warm skin on his calf, and his thumb resting on the hard leg bone, Yu Shiyao said, "Do you want to hear a story?"

Before knowing that Jian Ran could not fall asleep, he prepared a few books of fairy tales - in order to take care of Jian Ran's preparation for the exam, they were all in the original English version, read a few to Jian Ran every day, and told him to practice listening.

Jane can fall asleep listening to it.

After hearing what he said, Jian Ran looked at him in the dim light and said, "No need."

Yu Shiyao can't come up with any more ways to coax people now. Jian Ran doesn't like anything, and he doesn't seem to like him very much now. He wants to make up for what Jian Ran lacked before, but he can't find the right way.

Jian Ran added what she didn't have time to say just now: "Thank you just now."

The corners of Yu Shiyao's eyes moved a little, and when he didn't hear his polite words, he pinched his ankle very strongly.

Under the dimmed light, Jian Ran looked at Yu Shiyao and thought, he really likes this child.

Jian Ran knew that Yu Shiyao was very good before, as long as he was serious, he would be better than anyone else, and no one could refuse.

When she closed her eyes, Jian Ran said, "Let's have a good talk after I finish the exam."

All his concessions now are just for the normal examination.

Yu Shiyao paused, looked at Jian Ran, his heart skipped a beat, and said, "Okay."

The last time Jian Ran told him to have a good talk was Christmas Eve, no matter what Jian Ran wanted to say, Yu Shiyao thought it was always good.

When Jian Ran fell asleep, Yu Shiyao looked at half of his face buried in the pillow, and kissed his forehead.

Holding the quilt with his hands on his stomach, he sighed silently in his heart, can you help me keep him?

It may be because of the effect of venting a little that day, or it may be because of Yu Shiyao's words, Jian Ran was not so anxious and nervous in the next few days.

When he finished writing the last paper, for a moment, it seemed that invisible things that weighed him down were sealed in the pencil that was put away.

He assures that he has done nothing wrong and will not disappoint.

Jian Ran pulled away from her initial emotions, and when she walked out of the examination room with a group of relieved peers, he also smiled.

Before, he felt that he could reassure everyone that he could shoulder all the responsibilities, but now he felt that as long as he passed the college entrance examination without mistakes, he could also reassure others.

"Jian Ran."

Jian Ran looked over for the voice, and saw Chen Yan, and Jian Yushu on the side.

Jian Ran didn't even have time to rejoice, she suddenly understood something in the eyes of her father who hadn't seen her for more than a year, and those self-righteous thoughts in her heart just now disappeared in an instant.

It wasn't until now that Jian Ran realized that the mistakes he made in the past due to willful selfishness could not be offset by anything, and all of them had to be settled one by one.

Yu Shiyao's car stopped at the place where Jian Ran was sent, and among the candidates who dialed out one after another, he finally saw Jian Ran.

Before she walked in, she saw Jian Ran walking to the other side.

Although I haven't seen Jian Yushu, but seeing Chen Yan and Jian Ran's expression, I can guess that the gentle middle-aged man is Jian Ran's father.

Why did Jian Yushu come back suddenly? Yu Shiyao didn't think that he was here just for Jianran's college entrance examination. On the contrary, Jian Yushu should have waited until after Jianran's college entrance examination was over.

Yu Shiyao's eyebrows twitched a few times.

Jian Yushu came back three days ago. He didn't want to affect Jian Ran's mood, so he didn't show up until he finished the exam.

He already knew what happened from Chen Yan. Like Chen Yan, his anger and grief were suppressed before seeing Jian Ran - there was no need for Jian Ran to bear this pain again.

When he came back, he had already thought very clearly, he would not ask Jian Ran why, what would he do if he wanted one.

After receiving Jane, he was very calm, and even stayed at home with Chen Yan for a meal, during which time he asked how Jane was doing in the exam.

If Yu Shiyao were here, he would find out where Jian Ran's character came from.

When Chen Yan left, seeing Jian Ran hesitating to speak, Jian Ran twitched the corner of her mouth at him, sitting in the familiar environment still feeling like she was sitting on pins and needles.

Jian Yushu came over after washing the dishes, and poured two cups of hot water. The father and son sat facing each other, and Jian Yushu said in as natural a tone as possible: "Who are you living in that person's house these days?"

Jian Ran lowered her head. During this period of time, he lied and told the Chen family that he didn't want to see anyone. Now that Jian Yushu told him that, his spine would be crushed by the belated dull pain.

"What are you going to do?"

Jian Yushu asked "you", not Jian Ran's plan alone.

Seeing that Jian Ran couldn't answer, Jian Yushu asked again: "Can you talk to me about that person's situation?"

Jane nodded immediately.

Jian Yushu: "Is he married?"

"No."

Jian Yushu breathed a sigh of relief, took a sip from the water glass, and said, "Does he like you?"

"do not like."

Jian Yushu glanced at Jian Ran unexpectedly, and saw that Jian Ran's face was embarrassing and pale, she immediately moved her eyes away, drinking plain water had a different taste, it was unbearably difficult.

"Does he want... this child?" In his eyes, Jane is still a child, and when it comes to another life, he still finds it difficult.

Seeing Jian Ran nodding, Jian Yushu clenched her hands tightly, and the eyes under the glasses were filled with unconcealable anger and tears of pain.

Jian Ran was completely crushed by her father's gaze, and the cold pain overwhelmed him. He hurt everyone who loved him with what he had done, and he became an unforgivable sinner.

Chen Yan sat in the car and stopped for a while.

He was afraid of hurting Jianran, and even more afraid of Jianran going the wrong way alone.

The uneasiness made Chen Yan unable to leave immediately. When he was about to leave, Jian Yushu called. It was his family's fixed line: "Chen Yan, are you leaving? Come back and help me take Jian Ran to the hospital !"

Not sure if Jian Yushu knew about it, and at that time, before getting into the car, Jian Ran shook her head at him from afar.

There was no way for Yu Shiyao to follow him, so he went to his house immediately.

After failing to contact Jane all night, Yu Shiyao knocked on the door of his house.

The person who opened the door was Jian Yushu, with a haggard face. When he saw Yu Shiyao, he was confused and immediately guessed who he was. He put away his tired face and nodded politely to him: "You are Yu Shiyao sir?"

He invited Yu Shiyao in, and Yu Shiyao noticed that he was packing up his things, the living room was a bit messy, there were a few pieces of Jian Ran's clothes folded aside, and Jian Ran's room was closed.

"Jian Ran is not here. Mr. Yu, you came just in time. I want to have a few words with you as Jian Ran's parent."

Yu Shiyao's back felt straighter than before, and he nodded his head.

Jian Yushu is not suitable for negotiating with people. He has spent half his life in scientific research, and what he deals with most is cold theories and data. After a pause, he said: "Yesterday, Jian Ran told me that I would like to ask his ignorant Mr. Xiang Yu I apologize, I hope he didn't cause you trouble before, I'm sorry."

Jian Ran said that he was pestering Yu Shiyao, and he used unsightly and unintelligent methods to forcefully join a person's world, and it was all his fault that he couldn't end it now.

"I can't use his young age and ignorance to cover up his mistakes. I am half responsible for his mistakes. Mr. Yu, I'm sorry, but I didn't teach him well."

In Jian Ran's words, Jian Yushu couldn't even blame Yu Shiyao, so he could only blame himself, because he didn't take care of him by Jian Ran's side, taught him, he grew up to such a big age by himself, and now he made a mistake, How could Jian Yushu have the heart to blame him for everything.

Jian Yushu's words were more unacceptable than Yu Shiyao's expected scolding: "Jian Ran and I are not what he said, we are together, I hope you can give me a chance to make it clear."

"No need, I've made it very clear." All that should be said has been said, "Mr. Yu, I will take good care of him in the future and won't bother you again."

Yu Shiyao: "I want to meet him."

"I said there's no need for it in the future." Jian Yushu closed his eyes, "Mr. Yu, I'm talking to you out of Jian Ran's father's selfishness. It was Jian Ran's fault before, but are you also 17?"

He looked at Yu Shiyao, his anger was unbearable, the words of self-cultivation and Jian Ran suppressed him, and he managed to maintain his dignity and politeness: "Forgive me for not being able to face you, please go."