Improvisation

Yu Shiyao and Jian Ran have a little similarity, they are both very confusing people.

Jian Ran was indifferent and silent, unobtrusive, as if she could see through it at a glance, but if he wanted to, no one would be able to understand him.

Yu Shiyao is bright and vivid, as if anyone can hug him, but no one can really get close to him.

Yu Shiyao has also gotten used to the mixed truths and falsehoods around him. Sometimes he also feels that he is a passionate and gentle person, and it has become another habit to conceal his feelings for Shen Jiayou.

This feeling is not so irreplaceable.

Yu Shiyao knew in his heart that there were many other things mixed in here.

More like a depository.

It is impossible for Shen Jiayou not to know, so he kept a certain distance from him. After all, in their world, feelings are not the only condition for communication.

But it all seems like a long time ago.

He also couldn't remember when Shen Jiayou was no longer the indispensable shadow in his heart.

What's more, he didn't know that the feelings he used to be silent and accustomed to would bring Jane a cruel and hurtful side.

If Jian Ran hadn't mentioned Gu Hong suddenly, Yu Shiyao would still feel that he was just running away, as long as he tried his best to make up for it, he would be able to return to himself without reservation as before.

Everything happened very quickly that night, Gu Hong and the sniper in the distance fired almost at the same time, and Yu Shiyao himself didn't notice where Gu Hong's last bullet was shot.

And the thing that he completely ignored was the real reason. He did the most hurtful thing, but he still thought that Jian Ran was wronged by others.

Jian Ran has always been aware of their relationship, and also knows that there are many, many problems between them. She has always been cautious around him, patiently and clumsily hiding her own thoughts, and only made new requests because of his pampering.

It is also Jian Ran who has been patient and always looking for gradual progress. The conflicts and incompatibility have brought back roads and changes to this relationship and relationship. As for what other people say and do, Jian Ran has always been the same Choose to give Yu Shiyao unreserved trust.

No one will be like Jian Ran. In front of him, there is no disappointment, no long memory, and no fear. It seems that there will always be warm and soft feelings waiting for him.

But now, just separated by a door, Yu Shiyao can no longer walk over to push open the door as before, and hug Jian Ran inside.

Just like he was speechless just now, he couldn't give an explanation in a hurry as before, and his explanation was meaningless to Jian Ran.

He hurt Jian Ran with his own hands.

The truth awakened his dull pain perception, so that he didn't even dare to think about the pain and despair in Jian Ran's heart that day.

Jian Ran must have felt that she was just a cover for Yu Shiyao's bluff. Yu Shiyao didn't love him, and this child was not the sweetness and hope Yu Shiyao thought he was self-righteous to him.

That's why he left, and that's why he was so afraid of being known. What Yu Shiyao uncovered was not the misunderstanding and conflict between the two, but the unspeakable fear and uneasiness that Jian Ran had difficulty digesting.

Yu Shiyao finally understood why when Jian Ran faced him, she was so calm and almost passive, as if she was facing a predicament with nowhere to escape.

Yu Shiyao was sitting on the sofa outside, his face could not be seen clearly in the darkness, his right hand was pressing on his chest, as if he was pressing the pain of an invisible wound there.

The alarm clock rang at seven o'clock in the morning on time, and after two rings, it was simply turned off.

He woke up a long time ago, but his body didn't agree, and his whole body was sore and heavy. The low blood sugar aggravated the discomfort, making the weight on his waist more obvious.

Last night, Yu Shiyao touched his stomach which did not move for a long time, but it moved a little this morning, like a small fish vomited a bubble in his body.

Jian Ran ignored the message in his body asking for interaction. Like his father, he always appeared at inappropriate times to remind Jian Ran of his existence.

He didn't want to get up, he didn't want to go out to face Yu Shiyao, he lay in the hot blanket, as if shrunk in a turtle shell, hoping that the sky would darken quickly, and it would be best not to light up again.

When Yu Shiyao found out that something was wrong, Jian Ran's face was flushed red and her whole body was hot. When Yu Shiyao touched him, he started to cry.

As if to give back to Yu Shiyao the tears she held back last night, the moisture in her body quickly drained, and soon Jian Ran's lips were chapped, and a hoarse cough came out of her throat.

While waiting for the doctor to come, according to the doctor's advice, Yu Shiyao wiped Jian Ran's body with a wet towel with warm water, and fed Jian Ran salt water. Jian Ran disliked the taste and turned his head after taking a sip. Yu Shiyao also took a sip and pinched him She fed him with her chin, and after a sip, Jian Ran obediently began to drink water by herself.

After the doctor came, because Jian Ran didn't take medicine or get injections, Yu Shiyao got angry and asked the doctor to go out. He grabbed Jian Ran, who was like coals, and forced him to take the medicine.

After being frozen for a few times by Yu Shiyao, Jian Ran finally broke out. He suddenly knocked out the medicine in Yu Shiyao's hand, and pushed Yu Shiyao away: "You don't have to worry about my affairs, you are here to make me feel the most uncomfortable cough cough... ..."

The tight throat made him cough violently before he could say a few harsh words. Jian Ran curled up together and turned her back not to look at Yu Shiyao, because the clothes were all taken off just now, and the spine protruded clearly under the pale skin on the back. The two butterfly bones trembled slightly.

Jian Ran hugged her stomach, with hot tears bubbling from the corners of her eyes, he couldn't figure out why he was always a weak and passive one in front of Yu Shiyao, why Yu Shiyao always took it for granted, why did he appear?Is he trying to drive him crazy?

Just now, Yu Shiyao was watched by him as Jian Ran circled his stomach like holding a piggy bank, and suddenly understood the reason for his persistence, his heart was sore and painful, he touched his shoulder carefully, and said in a gentle voice: "Don't take the medicine first, I'll ask the doctor if there is any way not to take the medicine, don't be angry, put the quilt on first."

Jian Ran didn't have much strength, so she listened to what he said to ask the doctor, and obediently lay back on the quilt, and when Yu Shiyao went out, she said, "You don't want to come."

Yu Shiyao came in again after a while, "We'll go to the hospital when the fever hasn't subsided at noon."

According to the doctor's instructions, she can only reduce Jian Ran's fever physically, put on anti-fever patches, wipe her body with warm water all the time, and take her temperature every 10 minutes.

At noon, Jian Ran's body temperature dropped.

When Jian Ran woke up, it was already past two o'clock in the afternoon, and her reason, which was dulled by the high temperature, came back to her senses, and she felt that the surrounding air was still a little hot.

Turning his gaze, he saw Yu Shiyao who was leaning on the bed, falling asleep with his head down and his eyes closed. His eyes were covered by thick eyelashes, his chin was covered with blue stubble, and he was holding Jian Ran's right hand with one hand. Afraid that Jane would have a fever again, she kept holding the temperature of his palm.

Jian Ran suddenly remembered that when he fell asleep last night, Yu Shiyao had come in, and when he was sitting by the bed, the bed collapsed a little bit, Jian Ran was conscious, but couldn't wake up.

Yu Shiyao probably didn't sleep much last night.

Just now he could also feel what Yu Shiyao had done by his side.

Jane thought, it turns out that he is not so confident about himself.

He suddenly felt that Yu Shiyao was a little pitiful, because he was entangled by him, which disrupted his original life, and he still couldn't get rid of it.

Probably feeling something, Yu Shiyao quickly opened his eyes, the corners of his eyes were bloodshot, he immediately touched Jian Ran's forehead, and took a thermometer behind his ear to measure it, it was 37.3.

Yu Shiyao heaved a sigh of relief, looking at his pale face, rarely at a loss for words, asked, "Are you hungry?"

After eating, Jian Ran sat in front of the desk, and began to make up for the plans left over from yesterday and today, but Jian Ran still overestimated herself, and after sitting for a while, she fell asleep in front of the desk.

Yu Shiyao, who was sitting on the side and was about to take the time to remind him to rest, looked at his face pressed against the textbook, and laughed silently.

By the time Jian Ran woke up in bed, it was already night.

He wanted to take a bath, but Yu Shiyao didn't want to agree, but seeing his uncomfortable face, he went to the bathtub to fill the water, and turned on the air conditioner in the room.

Jian Ran wanted to say that her fever was not caused by the heating of the air conditioner, but she still didn't say anything.

The pale skin on Jian Ran's body slowly turned red after being soaked in hot water, her thin arms and legs, only the belly in the middle was soft and full, like a semi-circular melon.

Warm clear water floated on his thin chest, I don't know if it was Yu Shiyao's illusion, he felt that there seemed to be a little change in Jian Ran's place, the color of the nipple/tip was redder than before, and it looked a little rounder...

He looked at Jian Ran's bulging stomach, then at his chest, and thought of a weird and exciting possibility.

But when he put his hand there, Jian Ran's face wrinkled, as if it hurt.

Only then did Yu Shiyao realize that he did it last night.

Gee.

Yu Shiyao couldn't tell what it was like in his heart, he raised his sword eyebrows cryptically, and quickly picked Jian Ran up from the water, wrapped her in a bath towel and carried her back to the room with a room temperature of [-] degrees.

Seeing Yu Shiyao rushing in and out, Jian Ran didn't know what he was thinking, and finally asked: "Are you agreeing to what I said before, I..."

Yu Shiyao knew what he wanted to say, before he could finish speaking, he covered half of Jian Ran's face with his hand with bath frankincense: "Of course, listen to me first."

Jane looked at him with calm eyes.

Yu Shiyao squatted down, took out his clenched left hand hidden in his sleeve, and said, "Of course, this child is not as important as you think, because I love him because of you, and he can't be a bargaining chip."

What does he mean?What else is he going to say to coax me?

Jian Ran resisted from the bottom of her heart, but she was still reluctant to take her eyes away from the current Yu Shiyao's face, so she blinked slowly.

Yu Shiyao lowered his head and kissed his palm: "I didn't know how to love someone before, so I panicked at you and let you misunderstand me because of this child. I'm sorry."

"And what happened before." His thumb rubbed against Jian Ran's left hand where no scars could be seen, and he paused, "You may not believe what I say now, but the only person I like now is you, you give I have a chance, let me prove it to you, okay?"

May.

Jian Ran's tutoring at Angrui ended, and she returned to school to officially start preparing for the exam.

When the countdown on the back of the blackboard reached "30" days, Jian Ran returned to the classroom. At this time, his presence would put invisible pressure on people.

Because he came back to class, there were a lot of people in the corridor outside the class. Whether intentionally or not, they would secretly look at Jian Ran who was sitting in the last row.

Jian Ran was still the same as before, wearing a long-sleeved school uniform, sitting on the side against the wall, with shoulder-length black hair that violated school rules.

I don't know if it's the illusion of these people, but I always feel that he went out for tutoring, and when he came back, he seemed to be coated with a layer of fairy energy, and his whole body was thin and cold.

Some people say that Jian Ran is a fairy returning this time.

This is what Ji Pei and Jian Ran said.

Originally, Ji Pei's family had also prepared one-on-one tutoring for him, but he insisted on coming to school. In order to let the family relax, he has been studying seriously for several months.

Now that his deskmate came back, he seemed to be suffocated. After class, he talked to Jian Ran like a hamster eating food - it seemed that because of Jian Ran's good grades, he would not feel guilty when talking to him.

Anyway, Jane is still the same as before, occasionally giving him a little reaction to show that she is listening, if she wants to say something different from before, it may be that she didn't sleep on the table after class.

I read books after class and after class, which made everyone feel ashamed.

Only Ji Pei, who was sitting next to him, knew that except in class, Jian Ran read some weird books after class, and what she was reading now was "Buddhism and the Art of Psychotherapy".

I read "Stress Management Strategies" a few days ago.

This made Chen Bei nervous, and when he asked him, he said bluntly that he was under a little pressure and was taking precautions.

prevent what?

Chen Bei was very disturbed, so she supported Ji Pei to talk to him.

After the last monthly exam, it is already possible not to go to evening self-study. Day students can choose to go back after school in the afternoon. Jian Ran waited for the others to leave before starting to go out.

Chen Bei was happily sharing her graduation travel plans with him, because Jian Ran had her own arrangements, and he was not included in this graduation trip.

"Are you really going to leave in such a hurry? I can't even go see you off." Jian Ran was about to leave after the exam, and didn't even attend class reunions.

Jian Ran nodded, and Chen Bei sighed with regret. Jian Ran seldom participated in class activities, and lived a life of autism, but she was too quiet. She always wanted to pull Jian Ran into the world of her peers.

She still wanted to fight for a few words, so Ji Pei touched her arm, motioning for Yu Shiyao, who was waiting outside the school gate, to come over.

Chen Bei frowned.

Jian Ran came back with Yu Shiyao. If he didn't say anything, everyone agreed that he had reconciled with Yu Shiyao, because the aftermath of his breakup was a bit tragic, and Chen Bei was a complete scumbag. Which kind of situation would affect Jane Well, she chooses which one to accept.

Now she is still helping Jian Ran hide it from the family.

Yu Shiyao was going to send the three of them back, and Ji Pei had a driver to pick them up, and whispered to Chen Bei, "Don't be a light bulb, I'll take you back."

Jian Ran acquiesced in Ji Pei's selfishness. Although his puppy love was a failure, it could not prevent others from developing their relationship normally.

"Why is Ji Pei still in a daze?" Yu Shiyao asked as he helped him carry his schoolbag and opened the car door.

Ji Pei is not like this usually, he only does this in front of people he likes, which is a bit like his brother.

Jian Ran sat in the car, subconsciously pinched his waist, and Yu Shiyao rubbed it for him, Jian Ran only froze for a moment, and didn't care about Yu Shiyao's movements any more.

Yu Shiyao took out the snacks prepared in the car and put them on the board, including nuts, cakes, fresh fruit, yogurt, and the cheese sticks that Jane likes to eat during this time - printed on them are simple Chinese and Mengwen, among all the delicate snacks prepared by Yu Shiyao, seemed a bit chic and rough.

This was given to him when he was in school. Yu Shiyao was worried that it would be unhygienic, so he bought a lot of substitutes, but Jian Ran didn't like it.

Yu Shiyao asked someone to check according to the address. It was a small local factory. The photos taken made Yu Shiyao frowned for a day, and then he copied the inferior packaging and changed the contents.

Yu Shiyao watched Jian Ran tear open the package, took a bite, frowned, and asked, "What's wrong?"

Jian Ran stared at the thing in her hand, then put it aside, and said, "It's not delicious."

Just as Yu Shiyao wanted to feel relieved, he saw Jian Ran find another identical cheese stick from his schoolbag - he bought a whole bag at school.

The tongue rolled around in his mouth, and Yu Shiyao's temples hurt a little: "This is not nutritious, you should eat less."

Jane agreed to him, but she didn't do as he wanted.

After Jian Ran shook his head that night, Yu Shiyao realized more and more clearly that he was sitting beside Jian Ran, just like Ji Pei who could be ignored.

He nodded to show that he heard it, so he had no other meaning.