Improvisation

outside the sea.

Under the same moonlight, the night view of the city where Jian Ran is now is far less than half as prosperous as Haishi City, with half-height buildings, small and narrow streets, and the only business district that has already extinguished the neon lights of the billboards.

It is close to the surrounding cities and integrates all kinds of educational information. There are various off-campus educational institutions here. There are training schools for art students and physical training students, and there are also special cram schools for cultural lessons. Every year, there are gatherings here A group of students and parents looking for comfort for the college entrance examination or sprint.

Jian Ran has four classes a day, the teacher trains one-on-one for six hours, and in the rest of the time, he reads books and does problems by himself. He goes there at eight o'clock in the morning and finishes at six o'clock in the evening, and then there are two hours of training in the evening.

The intensity of this arrangement is not as strong as Jian Ran's participation in the Olympiad training class before, and he is very able to adapt to the environment and has a good life here.

When Father Chen called, he was eating his supper.

When he hung up the phone, he suddenly lost interest in the bowl of oily red chili noodles, and suddenly felt a little nauseous. Even after drinking a few sips of lemonade did not relieve the desire to vomit, he Go to the bathroom and retch for a while.

The teachers who gave him tuition all knew that Jian Ran had retching, so his abnormality was not noticeable. He was very used to this kind of environment where no one knew him. No one noticed, which gave him a lot of sense of security.

Now after vomiting, he slowed down for a while, thinking of what he promised Chen Bei, he lifted up his clothes and looked in the mirror, but he couldn't quite see it, but he could notice from the side that the originally tight and flat abdomen, the lines had changed With a soft curvature, there seems to be something fluffy growing under the white and greasy skin.

Jian Ran poked her soft stomach with her index finger, and the piece of meat inside couldn't feel anything except that it brought him some inexplicable nausea.

Jian Ran didn't feel that she was giving birth to a life, nor did she experience the wonderful feeling mentioned in the book, but now she was a little worried that when she went back, he would cause an embarrassing reaction.

He is like a thief who stole something, hiding here with a secret, and doesn't want to see anyone before.

But there are still more than ten days, maybe at that time, everything will be fine.

Jian Ran gave up communicating with the piece of meat in her stomach, cut a slice of lemon and sucked it in her mouth. After washing the dishes, she wrote papers at the table until the alarm clock sounded at eleven o'clock in the evening to remind him to sleep.

While washing, the minty smell of the toothpaste gave him the urge to swallow, but he finally restrained it, and then went to the kitchen to cut a lemon and smell the smell to satisfy his hunger—he didn't want to brush his teeth anymore.

When she finally finished reciting the words on the bed, Jian Ran was so sleepy that she forgot to turn off the lights and fell into a drowsy sleep.

He sleeps very well, almost without dreaming, he sleeps until the alarm clock rings, and continues his new, regular day.

After eating a breakfast of soy milk and bread, he even cut a box of fruit for himself before going out.

Angrui Education is located in an office building in the only business district here, which is very close to where Jian Ran lives. He usually goes there half an hour in advance. After he finishes reading a few original English texts, there will be other people in the corridor outside. sound.

Through the translucent glass, you can see people passing by outside, including teachers and students like him. When Jian Ran raised her head, she happened to meet a pair of eyes looking over from outside.

There are many art students who are crammed here by their parents. The person who observes Jian Ran is one of them. His eyes are not friendly, and he even has a hint of sarcasm.

It's the kind of unified, condescending disdain for nerds, and Jian Ran, who is like standing in a zoo with his companions, watching and sitting in it.

Seeing Jian Ran's indifferent look, the other party sneered, exchanged a few glances with his companion, and said, "Block people at noon today."

Before the teacher came, they ended the crowd watching.

Jian Ran didn't care about the people outside. After finishing this morning's class, she asked the teacher for leave and left early. He was going to the hospital today.

Jian Ran actually didn't like to go to the hospital, but the doctor gave him progesterone injections until 13 weeks later.

Fortunately, the frequency and dosage have been reduced recently, so he doesn't have to come here every day as before. Counting the time, he will have the last injection before he goes back to celebrate his birthday.

He has long hair, scattered on his shoulders in a mess, and wears a mask. He has a thin figure, and his eyes are closed so that he does not look at people, and it is impossible to distinguish between men and women.

The nurse who gave him the injection had already remembered this mysterious "little girl", and when he was leaving, she reminded him: "Next time you come to get the injection, you will almost be able to be a Tang screening. It’s going to be fourteen weeks, remember to ask the doctor to write a list for you.”

Seeing the other party walk away quickly, as if she didn't hear her own reminder, the nurse couldn't help being suspicious, she obviously cared about it, came on time for the inspection and injection, but she didn't like to hear it.

Sitting back in the self-study room in class, Jian Ran's tense back was only slightly relaxed.

He stared at the textbook for a while, unconsciously resting his hands on his lap, keeping a short distance from his stomach.

When he was about to eat today's fruit, the door of the study room was pushed open, and four people who watched him today came in, surrounded Jian Ran from front to back, from left to right, and one of them sat on the table in front of him, with a smile that was not a smile look at him.

"Xueba, you are really hard to stop, why don't you hide from us?"

Jian Ran has been stopped by them a few times, but Jian Ran has the kind of personality that can't get a fart for a long time, so it's meaningless for others to push and taunt her.

This time, Jian Ran also sat in her seat, looking at a certain place calmly.

Zhong Zifeng and the others lighted a cigarette in a calm manner, held Jian Ran's too long hair, and asked maliciously: "Hey, do you schoolmasters like to wear this kind of unmasculine hairstyle?"

Jian Ran turned her head to hide for a while, trying to stand up, but the person behind held her shoulder and smiled strangely: "I haven't finished talking yet, brother Feng, hurry up, Xueba can't take it anymore."

Jian Ran really couldn't take it anymore, the desire to vomit came fiercely, his face suddenly turned pale: "Get out of the way!"

When he retched in the bathroom, Zhong Zifeng and the others followed behind, looking at him like a monster.

Everyone knows that this Xueba has retching syndrome. When he vomits, he seems to want to vomit out all the five internal organs. Blue veins appear on the back of the pale hand holding the washstand. The back also shows a clear spine shape from under the clothes. There is a kind of Very abrupt and morbidly thin.

Zhong Zifeng and the others walked away in disgust. When Jian Ran came out wearing a mask, someone wanted to tear off his mask, but Zhong Zifeng stopped him. He liked to see such people pretending.

Zhong Zifeng picked up the mask strap with his fingers, pulled it out for a certain distance, and then released it, a red mark popped up on Jian Ran's face, and said in a gloomy tone: "What I told you last time, don't drag me any longer, what should I do today? Have you made it clear?"

Jian Ran thought for a while, when they blocked her last time, it seemed that Zhong Zifeng asked herself to help him cheat in the college entrance examination.

Zhong Zifeng is from Ling City, and his family is not short of money or status, but a brain that can read.

When he came to Angrui, he planned to continue dawdling, and then he heard from other people that Angrui had invited a great god back, who was the seed of Haishi Chong champion.

At first, I just didn't like Jian Ran, but later I heard that Jian Ran came here because Ang Rui gave him money, so her mind was moved to other aspects.

"As long as you help me, I'll give you 30 yuan. If you nod now, I'll give you 15 yuan." Zhong Zifeng pushed him, "Hey, are you deaf?"

Jian Ran's eyes were covered by her hair, so she couldn't see her expression clearly, and said, "Yes."

Zhong Zifeng thought he had heard wrong, so he blew out the cigarette and exchanged a glance with his companion.

"Our textbooks are different. Give me the textbooks you learned. I want to take a look."

Hearing what Jian Ran said, they immediately went to bring a set of brand new books and patted them on Jian Ran's desk.

Jian Ran flipped through it and said, "I'll only help you write the answers, and you have to do the rest yourself."

No one expected that he would agree. Zhong Zifeng said "Wow", and finally fanned Jian Ran's face: "I will handle the other things. If you dare to lie to me, you will die."

When the teacher came in the afternoon, he seemed to smell smoke and asked about Jian Ran. Jian Ran looked at the book and said, "It's okay."

He doesn't want to waste time with fools, he has always been very resistant to blows, and he doesn't take these things to heart, so he still has to do what he should do.

It was one of Zhong Zifeng's friends who stopped Jian Ran a few days later and asked him if he really wanted to help Zhong Zifeng cheat, "That's the college entrance examination."

"As long as he has a way, I can help him take the exam. Do you want to report him?"

The other party looked at him with some surprise.

Jane looked at him flatly: "Or do you want me to help you take the exam?"

The other party swallowed his throat. Like Zhong Zifeng, his grades were in a mess, and he didn't have the mind to counterattack and make up for it these days. Inspired by Zhong Zifeng, he also felt that taking a slanted sword was a shortcut.

Now that Jane said that, he was also moved.

Jian Ran scolded an idiot in her heart, and continued: "As long as you give more money than him, I will help you. Of course, I just help you with the questions, and you have to arrange other things yourself."

"Add a WeChat."

"I don't use WeChat, I can leave it on the phone."

The other party left his phone number, and finally looked at this gloomy top student, feeling a little nervous, a little expectant and nervous.

Jian Ran didn't tell anyone about this matter. He seemed to have really agreed to Zhong Zifeng's words, and even handed it over when Zhong Zifeng wanted to take away his ID card.

He knew he could tell his parents, and he could tell Angrui's people.

But there is only one situation, the Chen family won't let him be bullied, and Ang Rui doesn't dare to teach this group of people easily, then he can only go back to Haishi.

But he didn't want to go back to Haishi, and he also wanted Ang Rui's bonus.

So he has to figure it out on his own.

Besides, this kind of thing is within the tolerable range for him, and he can handle it by himself.

He is like a vine that left the tree trunk too early to grow. It has grown hard bones by itself, and has groped for a set of its own, weird and bizarre growth postures.

The day before his birthday, the person who drove to pick him up was Lu Ziyue. When she saw Jian Ran walking out with someone else, she thought it was his friend, until she saw him grab his hair unceremoniously a few times.

"Who was that just now?"

"Student." Jian Ran said, "Sister Yue, it's troublesome to ask you to pick me up."

There is no expression on Jian Ran's face, her eyes are very serious, which will give people a very formal feeling. This is the first time that Lu Ziyue gets along with him alone, so she forgot the topic just now nervously, and said: "Where is it? Your brother They were too busy, so they asked me to pick you up, go home and get something, and we will leave, and they are still waiting for us to go back for dinner."

Lu Ziyue has always been interested in this younger brother, and when she followed Jian Ran to his house, she inevitably took a second look.

Unlike the room of a boy his age, it was very tidy, and the air had a faint fragrance.

When Jian Ran went back to her room to change clothes, Lu Ziyue went to the kitchen to pour water by herself, and found that Jian Ran really knew how to take care of herself. The colorful beans were neatly arranged, and there were fresh fruits in the fruit plate, and there was a book next to her Nutritious recipes, his daily diet schedule is posted on the refrigerator, which is nutritious and healthy.

Jian Ran is really a... very special boy, making Lu Ziyue, a girl living alone, feel ashamed.

Out of professional habits, Lu Ziyue casually picked up the health medicine in the corner, wanting to see if it was suitable for Jian Ran, her eyes froze as soon as she saw it clearly.

As a doctor, of course she knew what she had just seen.

When Jian Ran changed her clothes and came out with her schoolbag on her back, Lu Ziyue looked at Jian Ran with a complicated mood, and managed to clean up her expression.

"Of course, this house wasn't arranged for you by uncles, right?"

Jian Ran was stunned for a moment, but still nodded, Dad Chen and the others wanted him to live in the dormitory arranged by Angrui, but Jian Ran found a house by herself.

He looked at Lu Ziyue and said, "I don't like living with other people, and I don't want my uncle to worry about them. Sister Yue, please don't tell them."

If they knew that Jian Ran lived alone, they would definitely find a way to send someone to take care of him.

Jian Ran didn't pay attention to Lu Ziyue's complex expression, he only felt at a loss and uneasy about going back, and looked out the window all the way.

He knew that no one was looking for him, but the closer he got to home, his embarrassing secret was like a piece of ice hidden deep in his body, showing his existence more clearly.

He vomited in the dark on the road, which made Lu Ziyue feel very sorry. The car drove very slowly, and they didn't arrive until Chen Yan had to make a fifth phone call.

When the two were waiting for the elevator in the parking lot, Lu Ziyue looked at him worriedly: "Jian Ran, are you okay?"

"fine."

When there were only the two of them in the elevator, Lu Ziyue pretended to be relaxed and asked, "Have you got a girlfriend yet?"

Jane shook her head,

The elevator door opened, Chen Bei and Chen Yan stood outside to meet them, and this thoughtless conversation ended.

Jian Ran had no appetite, so she went back to her room to rest without having dinner, and Chen Ma made dumplings for him and brought them in.

Jian Ran couldn't eat at all, so she endured her nausea and took small bites.

Chen Ma stood beside him and stroked his hair: "I'm not as thin as last time I came back, are you used to it?"

"Well, I'm used to it, and I can take care of myself, don't worry."

"He always said to let us rest assured that you are still a child and you won't be until tomorrow." Sitting beside her, Chen Ma asked gently about Jian Ran's life there.

It was probably because someone was around, or maybe Jian Ran was really hungry, so he ate a plate of dumplings without knowing it, without throwing up.

Once back, he didn't seem like a monster, the gentle armor wrapped him and gave him a dull pain.

the next day.It's the school's coming-of-age ceremony. Jian Ran and Chen Bei went to school together. This day, the senior three students all prepared their adult "battle uniforms". It seemed that they had really grown up after taking off the outer layer of school uniforms. .

Jian Ran didn't go to school for nearly 20 days, and she didn't attract other people's attention when she returned to the classroom. She remained silent and low-key as always. If Chen Bei hadn't been sitting next to him, perhaps no one would have noticed that Jian Ran came back today.

The head teacher called him away alone, and gave him the papers of the weekly exam during this period, and then cared a few words, and proposed the idea of ​​letting Jian Ran go back to school.

Whether it is the learning environment or the educational resources, the attached middle school with teachers for the college entrance examination questions is better than any tutoring institution outside - those institutions are still buying questions from the attached middle school.

He has never understood Jian Ran's idea of ​​going out for tutoring, or in other words, since Jian Ran suddenly stopped going to the youth training camp during the summer vacation of her sophomore year of high school, he has been a little confused about what he, an outstanding student, is thinking.

However, more than 20 years of teaching experience told him that children at this time still can't be forced, especially those who "do big things in a silent voice" like Jian Ran, he can only be persuasive, and let him not harm himself.

Seeing that Jian Ran just didn't want to come back, the head teacher changed the subject, and checked with him the time he needed to come to school, the physical examination, the monthly exam, the second mock exam, the monthly exam, and the three mock exams, all of which were listed one by one. up.

Before that, Jian Ran had clearly calculated the time in her heart, but after hearing what the head teacher said, she still couldn't help but confirm it in her heart over and over again.

It was only when Chen Bei hugged him and said: "Happy Birthday" that he came back to his senses. The music at the coming-of-age ceremony was played, and a group of white pigeons flew over the heads of the teenagers with their white wings, as if passing by. time.

In the background singing at the coming-of-age ceremony, Jian Ran, like all her peers who were full of expectations, seemed to have some strength injected into her spine.

After school at noon, the school was empty. Jian Ran locked the door in the toilet, and touched the soft flesh on her stomach. It didn't look like an obvious curvature. When she pressed against her palm, she could feel the clear ups and downs, as well as the faint agitation.

At the fifteenth week, I could feel the fetal movement. Jian Ran had recorded it formally before. This was the first time I had a special feeling.

It seems that he can really take on the responsibility of a life and respond to the expectation of a life.

He has always been courageous, and now that he has been given a certain definition of "grown up", he is not afraid of anything.

In the end, he tidied up his clothes and made sure that he had hidden his unobvious stomach before going out.

Ji Pei ordered cakes to be delivered to the school. When he and Chen Bei went to get them, he asked Jian Ran to come and find them 10 minutes later.

Jian Ran doesn't like surprises very much, because he is naturally indifferent, and if he deliberately looks like a surprise, he will feel tired.

Ji Pei and the others were waiting for him in the previous multimedia classroom, and the door was ajar, and a moderate voice leaked out.

"...I dare not, my brother has asked me several times."

"Why don't you dare, anyway, you are not allowed to say anything." Chen Bei paused, "Didn't I say nothing when he came to me before? Don't you dare to face your brother?"

"My brother is my brother, and Yu Shiyao is Yu Shiyao. If Yu Shiyao came to ask me, I would definitely not say anything. The main thing is my brother. I don't know what kind of madness it is."

……

Jian Ran stood outside the door, no more, no less, just now she heard the word "Yu Shiyao".

The courage I had just now was lightly beaten back to its original shape by these three words.

He is not even afraid of being known his secret, except Yu Shiyao.

It seems that as long as Yu Shiyao doesn't know, he is not a shameless and ridiculous monster.

"What is he doing with you?"

Jian Ran pushed the door open, and the two people inside were stunned. He asked again: "Has Yu Shiyao looked for you?"

Yu Shiyao looked for Chen Bei. When the school started, he waited at the school gate for two days to make sure that Jian Ran did not go to school, so he found Chen Bei.

Chen Bei seemed to be afraid that he would "resurrection" after hearing this, and hurriedly added: "He came to ask if you were injured, and he didn't show up for more than 40 days before, so it was hypocritical to ask, and just that one time, never again came."

Jian Ran actually guessed that if Yu Shiyao knew about his injury, he would come to him, because Yu Shiyao was always gentle and soft-hearted towards him inappropriately.

"What about you? Is your brother looking for you to inquire about me?"

Ji Pei seemed to be caught for doing something wrong, nodded, and hurriedly said: "My brother and Yu Shiyao don't have a good relationship, so I won't ask for him."

But Ji Ze had nothing to do with Jian Ran, he asked where Jian Ran was doing?

Jian Ran doesn't want to stay any longer, but she still has to go to his and Chen Bei's birthday party in the evening - Father Chen and the others have already booked a hotel.

Even though she knew that she was thinking a little too much, Yu Shiyao was not the kind of patient person, and would not go to such lengths to find him, but Jian Ran was still afraid.

Obviously everything was fine before, but after hearing about Yu Shiyao, Jian Ran lost her hands and feet.

His absent-mindedness made him uncontrollable at the table, and he vomited twice in the middle, and finally ordered him a bowl of fruit porridge before eating some.

Both Chen Yan and Chen's father drank, and they drove the three adults, while Lu Ziyue carried Jian Ran and Chen Bei.

On the road, Chen Bei suddenly said that she wanted Jianran's previous notes and wanted to go back to Jianran's house to get them, so their route was diverted and they drove to Jianran's house.

Along the way, Chen Bei was secretly answering some text messages. When Jian Ran went up to get the notes by herself, Lu Ziyue couldn't help asking: "Bei Bei, tell me the truth, has Jian Ran had a girlfriend?"

Chen Bei, who was planning something wrong with Ji Pei, was startled, shaking her head like a rattle: "No!"

There was no one living in the house before the Spring Festival, and the air inside seemed to be colder than outside, with dust floating in the dim light.

He walked directly to his room, still thinking about it nervously, and when his hand was suddenly grabbed, his heart stopped beating.