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The two of them just went to work together and went home together. Almost a month and a half passed without incident, and Cheng Hongnian's death day was at the end of the month.

When they had breakfast together, Xu Shuangmian asked Cheng Xuan if he wanted to accompany him to worship his uncle.Cheng Xuan held the spoon tightly and did not answer.Xu Shuangmian thought that Cheng Xuan didn't want him to go, so he didn't ask anymore, he knew it was Cheng Xuan's sad thing.

"Let's go together, father loved you very much before." Cheng Xuan let go of the spoon but didn't look at Xu Shuangmian, he continued, "Let's go and see him together."

"Okay." Xu Shuangmian replied without thinking too much.

The two of them went to the Cheng family's cemetery after breakfast early. The Cheng family's cemetery and the old house were on the same mountain.This mountain was calculated by Mr. Cheng when the older generation of Cheng family got rich.The so-called mountain manages people and manages wealth. There is a spring on the top of this mountain, and the cemetery is built on the top of the mountain. The old house is on the mountainside. With a small raft, Xu Shuangmian often took Cheng Xuan to the lake to play, and asked Cheng Xuan to row a boat and take him fishing in the lake.It's a pity that Xu Shuangmian never persisted for less than an hour. Not long after, he lay on his side in the raft with his head resting on Cheng Xuan's lap and fell asleep.When Cheng Xuan caught the fish and the two went back, Xu Shuangmian would brag to everyone he met: "I caught it by myself, and he gave Cheng Xuan some because he saw that Cheng Xuan couldn't catch it."Cheng Xuan followed him and handed the bucket of fish to the servant and was about to go back to the room to take a bath. Xu Shuangmian turned around and saw Cheng Xuan ignoring him and left first after bragging. Still bragging, he chased after him, and shouted: "Brother Axuan, I was wrong, you wait for me." Cheng Xuan has no choice but to stop and wait for him to crash into his arms every time.

Xu Shuangmian was sitting in the car recalling the past, seeing Cheng Xuan sitting next to him expressionless, felt sore in his heart.In the past two months, Cheng Xuan pampered him a lot, Xu Shuangmian was waiting, he built a ladder for himself from time to time, and wanted to see Cheng Xuan in the wall, he could see it, but he still couldn't get over the wall.He can only wait for the wall in Cheng Xuan's heart to slowly collapse.He didn't know what the wall was or how thick it was, so he could only stand on the wall and wait.He has been waiting for eight years, and he doesn't know how long he will have to wait.

Gao Yuan parked the car outside the cemetery, the mountain was foggy and still a bit cold.Cheng Xuan handed Xu Shuangmian the coat that Wang Ma stuffed into the car in the morning, and the two walked straight to Cheng Hongnian's tomb.Cheng Xuan put the flowers he brought in front of the tombstone, and sat in front of the stone tablet by himself.The servants of the old house will come up to clean the cemetery every month, and Cheng Xuan and Xu Shuangmian don't have to really sweep the grave.Xu Shuangmian followed in because he was afraid that Cheng Xuan would be too sad and wanted to comfort him, but now seeing Cheng Xuan's expression of embarrassment, thinking that the two father and son had something to say, she said to Cheng Xuan, "Ah Xuan, you have a good talk with uncle, I'll wait for you outside .”

"it is good."

Seeing Xu Shuangmian walking away, Cheng Xuan said, "Father." He paused for a long time before continuing, "I know you blame me. I didn't do well in any of the things you told me. Many times, I regret it, and Very confused. I think if you were still here, you would show me how to do it. I like Mianmian." He paused for a long time.

"No, I love him." This sentence Cheng Xuan blurted out, he was taken aback by himself, he subconsciously looked for Xu Shuangmian's figure, and saw him wrapped in his coat standing at the gate of the cemetery.Seeing him looking at her, Xu Shuangmian quickly smiled at Cheng Xuan, he wanted to comfort Cheng Xuan.Cheng Xuan let go of his heart, but it seemed empty.

"I know you will hate me. My aunt will hate me too. That woman will hate me too. You told me that the person you like should be kept far away. The more you don't care, the more no one will harm her. But why Is she still dead? You can't even find your son. Father, you are too cowardly, she died for you." Cheng Xuan covered his face with his hands, and his voice was bitter.

"Actually, I don't care if you hate me. I'm just afraid of being alone. I'm just afraid that he hates me." He gritted his teeth and continued, "I dare not think, I dare not imagine that when his eyes looked at me with Hate, he is so good, I'm afraid I can't stand it. I know you are also afraid, you are afraid to see the complaint and hatred in that woman's eyes. I don't want him to look at me like this. It's fine now, but I can't let him It's spent like this by my side."

Cheng Xuan didn't say anything else, he sat by the tomb for a long time, his eyes straightened as if thinking about something.When it was almost noon, Cheng Xuan finally got up and walked towards Xu Shuangmian, walked up to Xu Shuangmian, "Go and say hello to father. I'll wait for you in the car." Xu Shuangmian nodded, and walked quickly to Cheng Hongnian's grave.

"Uncle, do you still remember me? It's me, Shuangmian." Xu Shuangmian and Cheng Hongnian don't have a deep relationship, but the blood relationship engraved in their blood cannot be faked.When he heard the news of Cheng Hongnian's death, his heart seemed to be hollowed out.Although my uncle didn't have a lot of time to go back to the old house, every year when Xu Shuangmian celebrates his birthday, he would personally choose a gift for himself, every gift is very thoughtful.Uncle's position in Xu Shuangmian's heart even surpassed that of Xu Zhengyan's biological father.He had heard of his uncle's methods, but in front of him, his uncle was just a kind elder.Just like he also heard about Chengxuan's methods in Hongxi, but it didn't affect Xu Shuangmian's love for him.

He stretched out his hand and touched the cold tombstone: "Uncle, I will always be with Ah Xuan."

Seeing the photo on the tombstone, Xu Shuangmian wanted to cry for some reason.He turned around and walked out of the cemetery, he suddenly wanted to see Cheng Xuan.After getting in the car, Cheng Xuan signaled Gao Yuan to drive.Cheng Xuan didn't speak, and Xu Shuangmian couldn't speak either. On a day like today, his sadness should not be as sad as Cheng Xuan's.

Sitting in front of the tombstone this morning, Cheng Xuan was really thinking about something.He was thinking, what exactly should he do to let Xu Shuangmian go.He thought hard, and he could only come up with one answer: death.Probably only death can make him let go of Xu Shuangmian.But what if Xu Shuangmian is sad when he dies?When the time comes, there will be no one to coax him to protect him, so how can Cheng Xuan die in peace.Since he can't let go of Xu Shuangmian, then let Xu Shuangmian let go of himself, and since he can't do it for eight years, let Xu Shuangmian be disappointed in him.Cheng Xuan thought that he was a rotten person, but if he showed Xu Shuangmian a little bit of his real and ugly side, he would leave on his own initiative.