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Cheng Xuan went to Yi Xin's house with Xu Shuangmian, and even went to get a haircut before going.

The two were waiting downstairs in Yi Xin's apartment, and Cheng Xuan kept touching Xu Shuangmian's newly cut hair like pulling wool.He loves it, it's the hairstyle he chose.

In the past two months, Xu Shuangmian only saw Cheng Xuan, and he was very nervous today.Even at the door of the apartment where no one came in and out on weekdays, he kept grabbing Cheng Xuan's hand, and he sent a text message asking where Yi Xin was.

"You go upstairs, I will wait for you upstairs."

He let go of Cheng Xuan's hand, stepped on the steps, and prepared to go upstairs alone.

Cheng Xuan's heart moved, and he called Xu Shuangmian to stop: "Mianmian!"

Xu Shuangmian turned her head and looked down at Cheng Xuan with puzzled eyes.

"It's okay." Cheng Xuan didn't know what was wrong with him, so he smiled at Xu Shuangmian comfortingly, "I've been with you for a long time, and I'm not used to being apart all of a sudden, I want to take another look at you."

Xu Shuangmian also laughed.

"Go." Cheng Xuan waved his hand, "I'll wait for you right here."

The next second, he saw Xu Shuangmian suddenly jump down from the steps and crash into his arms.Cheng Xuan was caught off guard, and was about to speak to teach Xu Shuangmian, but then heard a slight and painful moan.

From the time Xu Shuangmian was five years old until the last second, he was always carefully and carefully hidden in a protective shield called Cheng Xuan, and his ability to predict danger was almost zero.But when the bullet flew towards Cheng Xuan, Xu Shuangmian seemed to have directly seen the person who fired the gun. The sound he was very familiar with was the sound of bullets hitting flesh.

Everything happened so fast, Cheng Xuan hugged Xu Shuangmian, his mind went blank, his consciousness became blurred, he couldn't hear the sounds around him, and he couldn't see colors other than red.

Xu Shuangmian's blood soaked his clothes.His breathing became more and more difficult, and he put his hand on Cheng Xuan's face, forced a smile, and swallowed back the blood with difficulty while trying to speak.

Every minute and every second was stretched, Cheng Xuan roared angrily and called Xu Shuangmian's name, and gently put his arms around this person who seemed to be just about to fall asleep.

Cheng Xuan knew that his retribution would come sooner or later, he was not afraid, but he never thought that this retribution would be borne by Xu Shuangmian.Gao Yuan brought people in, surrounded the two of them, dialed the emergency number, called the police, and called Ke Tinghan, all in a panic.

He gritted his teeth and said hoarsely, "Mianmian, wait, wait! Don't sleep!"

The bullet hit Xu Shuangmian's stomach, and he endured so much effort not to vomit blood.He knew Cheng Xuan would feel distressed.He closed his eyes, tears streaming down his cheeks, he found that he remembered all the moments about Cheng Xuan in this short life.

He remembered Cheng Xuan spelling out the world map with him at home when he was a child.

He remembered that Cheng Xuan secretly grilled fish for him when he was in junior high school.

He remembered how Cheng Xuan was trying to coax him awkwardly.

He remembered the temperature of Cheng Xuan's hand holding him tightly before going abroad.

He remembered the hug after returning home.

He remembered every one of his apologies.

Xu Shuangmian finally understood that love was not what he thought it was before, or it was not just that.

The hurt and deceit may be unforgettable, but a good love, no matter what the ending is, will always only make people remember what the other party has done for themselves.

Cheng Xuan kept wiping his tears with his hands, and his tears were also stained bright red with blood. He buried his head in Xu Shuangmian's arms and sobbed, "Wait for me! Mianmian, wait a little longer..."

There are many things he hasn't said to Xu Shuangmian, there are many places he hasn't visited with Xu Shuangmian, and there are many things he hasn't done with Xu Shuangmian.

Xu Shuangmian's nose smelled bloody. He hadn't spoken for a long time, and his breathing was gradually weakening. He spoke in a hoarse and ugly tone: "I want you to live. Live well."

He closed his eyes, and the last impression he had was Cheng Xuan crying in embarrassment just now.

Cheng Xuan stubbornly called his name over and over again, but the voice Xu Shuangmian heard became more and more indistinct until he could no longer hear it.

I haven't spoken for more than three months. I didn't expect the last sentence to be said so hastily and so ugly.It was the first time Cheng Xuan cried so hard in front of him, begging himself to wait for him.Xu Shuangmian couldn't help thinking that Cheng Xuan probably loved her a little bit, but I won't wait any longer, and I can't wait any longer.There are many people in this world who are afraid of being alone but dare not act, and you are one of them.I can't be that kind of person.Cheng Xuan, if there is still a chance, can you wait for me instead?

As for those hard to answer and explain questions...

"Mianmian, do you love me?"

"Then do you hate me?"

"You forgive me?"

I don't know, Cheng Xuan, I don't know.There are tens of thousands of feelings in this world. There are so many misunderstandings between us, and so many people's love and hatred between life and death. I can no longer tell which kind of feelings I have for you.I often think, should I go one step ahead of you or watch you leave?I don't think I can watch you leave, so I selfishly choose to go first.You have asked me many questions, and I used to have many questions I wanted to ask you, but now when I can really ask them without any scruples, I just want to ask one question: Do you regret meeting me.

Didn't get a chance to hear your answers, but I'm always grateful for your presence.

one year later.

At four o'clock in the morning, Cheng Xuan woke up from the dream, his arms were empty, he subconsciously groped for the other half of the bed, but the only response to him was the biting cold.He sat up and grabbed his phone to check the time, took a cigarette and a lighter from the bedside table and lit it casually, propped his right hand with the cigarette on his bent right knee, slowly relaxed his muscles and leaned against the head of the bed, and closed his eyes .

He thought, if he had never confessed his feelings to Xu Shuangmian, maybe everything would have been different.

But life is short and difficult, and he just wants a love of his own, so what's wrong with it.

At dawn, Cheng Xuan got up, changed his clothes, and drove to the cemetery of the old house alone.

He walked into the cemetery empty-handed and without anything.

"I miss you, let's come and see you." Cheng Xuan leaned his back on the tombstone, "I forgot to tell you when I came last time, but Yi Xin caught it and tried it for a long time, and finally it's about to be sentenced. After waiting for so long , are you angry?"

He took a deep breath, then exhaled forcefully, and said, "I was so frightened at that time, it was Jin Zhijian who found his father, and the Liang family also helped me watch the customs, so I caught this kid."

Cheng Xuan was silent for a while, then continued, "Actually, I have nothing to say, I just found an excuse to come and see you."

"I miss you very much." He rested his forehead on the cold tombstone, touched the tombstone with his hand, and asked, "Does this count as your punishment for me?"