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The meal was safe and sound, and when it was about to finish, Cheng Xilan wiped the corners of her mouth with a napkin, looked at Xu Shuangmian and asked, "Baby, do you want to go abroad?"

Xu Shuangmian felt strange, how could it be such a coincidence that both Cheng Xilan and Cheng Xuan wanted him to go abroad.

"Brother Axuan said he would take me to country U next week. Mom, do you want to go and relax together?" Although Xu Shuangmian didn't want anyone to disturb their two-person world, Cheng Xilan's condition was really bad, and he was very worried.

"Alright, I'm relieved when Ah Xuan takes you out to play. You listen to him and don't let him or me worry." Cheng Xilan looked at Xu Shuangmian, as if looking at another person through him. "It's good for Axuan to take you out to play. After going out, you must take care of yourself, you know?"

"Brother Ah Xuan will take care of me, he is the best at taking care of others." Xu Shuangmian also tried to gain some impression points for Cheng Xuan, so as to pave the way for him to confess to Cheng Xilan in the future.

Cheng Xilan closed her eyes and opened them again, her eyes were clear. "Okay. The baby is so big, don't worry me, you must take care of yourself."

She was in a very bad state today, and Che Jilu repeated the words, Xu Shuangmian could only comfort herself that Cheng Xilan had been a little delirious these years.

"I'll take care of myself, but Mom, you have to take care of yourself too."

"I know. I'm tired. You can do what you want. If you want to stay here, tell Yi Tianrui to clean up your room." Cheng Xilan got up and left without even looking at them.

Xu Shuangmian looked at Cheng Xilan's back with worry in his eyes, he turned his head and said to Cheng Xuan, "Ah Xuan, let's stay here on weekends to accompany mother, okay? I'm so worried about her."

Cheng Xuan nodded acquiescingly, Yi Tianrui heard the two's decision from the side and asked: "Is the young master sleeping with the eldest young master today?"

Xu Shuangmian paused with the hand holding the soup bowl, just covering his face, and nodded slightly to Yi Tianrui.Seeing that Cheng Xuan had no objection, Yi Tianrui went down to tidy up the room.

Cheng Xuan was asking on the surface, but with a firm tone that could not be reversed: "Yi Xin has booked the air ticket, and I will leave on Monday morning, is that okay?"

"In such a hurry? I haven't packed my luggage yet." Xu Shuangmian complained but was happy in her heart. She didn't expect Cheng Xuan to be so impatient.

"Just take it away, and buy what you need over there." Cheng Xuan seemed unwilling to talk about this topic, "Have you had enough for dinner? I feel like you didn't eat much."

"I'm full, Ah Xuan, can you go for a walk with me to digest food?"

"It's getting cold in the mountains at night, go add some clothes before going out."

"Then you accompany me upstairs to get clothes." Xu Shuangmian pulled Cheng Xuan up and was about to leave, the child who fell in love wished he could stay with Cheng Xuan 24 hours a day.

Xu Shuangmian was packing his luggage all weekend, he was so excited.Cheng Xilan hardly left her room on weekends. She was weak and lay in bed all day. Xu Shuangmian went to accompany her every day, but Cheng Xilan became tired after only a few words.

On Monday, Xu Shuangmian got up early in the morning, excitedly asked the servant to load her and Cheng Xuan's luggage into the car, and the driver took them and Yi Xin to the airport.Before leaving, Cheng Xilan was still tightly wrapped in Friday's shawl, and the wind on the mountain in the morning made her hair twisted together, but she had no time to take care of it.She stood at the gate and watched Cheng Xuan and Xu Shuangmian's car drive farther and farther, as if every glance was counting down.Xu Shuangmian turned her head and waved to Cheng Xilan to let her enter the room quickly, but she didn't care at all.When the car was about to turn a corner, Cheng Xilan looked in Xu Shuangmian's direction and said a few words, but the hair blown by the wind blocked some of her mouth shapes.It was a short but heavy sentence.Xu Shuangmian didn't see clearly.

Yi Xin checked in for the two of them, Xu Shuangmian and Cheng Xuan went through the customs, and when they entered the VIP lounge to wait for boarding, Cheng Xuan received a call.Apart from Hongxi, Cheng Hongnian's business left to Cheng Xuan is also the business left by Cheng Hongnian's father that has not been completely washed.Xu Shuangmian had heard about it, but Cheng Xuan kept silent in front of him.Cheng Xuan received a call telling him that there was a problem with a batch of goods in City H and he needed to go there immediately. Xu Shuangmian immediately indicated that he could go with Cheng Xuan.

Yi Xin followed behind Cheng Xuan in silence.

"Will it be dangerous? I don't want you to get hurt."

"Mianmian, since I was brought back to Cheng's house by my father, I have been learning to do these things every day. I don't want you to see a little bit of the filth in it." Cheng Xuan held the cold hand of Xu Shuangmian who was already a little stunned, "You go to country U first, okay? I'll fly over to find you as soon as I'm done here, and my aunt will worry about us when you go home now. I don't feel at ease if you stay here or go to city H with me, Mianmian you Help me, be good, I beg you, okay?"

What else could Xu Shuangmian say?

Cheng Xuan called him by his baby name, begged him to be good and stop losing his temper, and begged himself to help him, could Xu Shuangmian not listen?He never refuses Cheng Xuan.

"Then you promise me that you will not get hurt. Come to me as soon as the matter is settled, and I will miss you if I don't see you for too long." Xu Shuangmian asked Cheng Xuan pitifully.

"Okay. I promise you." Cheng Xuan solemnly promised.

The voice broadcast at the airport began to remind passengers to board the plane. Cheng Xuan stood at the boarding gate and watched Xu Shuangmian walk across the empty bridge step by step, and finally disappeared at the turning.He was not in a hurry to leave, he sat back in the waiting room where Xu Shuangmian was sitting just now, and watched the plane carrying Xu Shuangmian taxi from the take-off line to take-off.Cheng Xuan remembered that it was a very cold day, but then it seemed that it was snowing that day, the white snow hurt his eyes, and he shed two tears.Cheng Xuan said the same words Cheng Xilan said to Xu Shuangmian when he left home in the morning: Sorry.

That call was made by Yi Tianrui, but it wasn't about H City.Cheng Xilan asked him to meet Xu Zhengyan's hospital.

Yi Xin who followed behind urged Cheng Xuan to say that the car was waiting at the gate of the airport.

The plane that Xu Shuangmian was carrying could no longer be seen, Cheng Xuan wiped his face and stood up and said, "Let's go."

Twenty hours later, the plane landed, and the people arranged by Cheng Xuan received Xu Shuangmian to take him to his residence, but Xu Shuangmian couldn't get through to Cheng Xuan's cell phone, and Cheng Xuan didn't reply to text messages or emails.When he received the news that Cheng Xilan and Xu Zhengyan had both passed away, he didn't know how to react.

Xu Shuangmian found that he couldn't shed tears.He had been preparing for Cheng Xilan's departure for many years, and he scolded himself for being cold-blooded.

In fact, no, it’s just that all the sequelae of trauma can be seen right now.

He comforted himself that Cheng Xuan might be too busy.When he saw the university admission letter and the new visa, Xu Shuangmian finally realized that he was panicking.He made a fuss, went on a hunger strike, bought a plane ticket and sneaked to the airport by himself, did many crazy things, but no one responded, and he was restricted from leaving the country.When he woke up in the middle of the night, Xu Shuangmian thought that these years were just a dream.

He thought of Cheng Xilan's death, and the inexplicable will conveyed by Yi Tianrui.He still remembered the promises Cheng Xuan made to him, and when he thought about it, Cheng Xuan hadn't fulfilled any of them, it was just his lies one after another.

Xu Shuangmian still couldn't help asking Yi Tianrui about Cheng Xuan, but Yi Tianrui said that Cheng Xuan had never returned to the old house since he left with him that day, and there was no news at all.Xu Shuangmian asked Yi Tianrui to ask Yi Xin, and the answer he got was that Cheng Xuan was very busy.Xu Shuangmian finally gave up, he knew that Cheng Xuan had made up his mind.

Later, what happened later.

The Chinese New Year was coming soon, and on the night of the Chinese New Year, Xu Shuangmian sat alone in the room all night.He just accepted the reality and stayed in country U to study for six years, but he never contacted Cheng Xuan.Cheng Xuan, why are you so determined to get rid of me?You don't even give me the most basic and polite blessings, and you are so anxious to draw a line with me, how disgusting I am to you.

Xu Shuangmian felt that he couldn't say that he hated Cheng Xuan, but at least he shouldn't like Cheng Xuan anymore.He trampled on his own mind like this, and he thought of the intimacy of the week before he left, the phone call at the airport and his confession, all of which were played by Cheng Xuan one after another.He persuaded himself that he should give up. Cheng Xuan's heart is like a stone. He has held it in his arms for so many years, but he still can't cover it.

forget about it.

But Xu Shuangmian knew that he had broken his promise, and he still missed Cheng Xuan every day when he watched the sun rise and set alone.

Even though they are separated by thousands of miles, those loves that Cheng Xuan didn't know about, that he didn't even want to listen to, and that he poured into Cheng Xuan, every minute and every second, are the precious thoughts of Xu Shuangmian's life. .