like the abyss

Qin Suzheng hesitated to speak.

Lu Yuan was still out of the situation, didn't realize that there was something wrong with the conversation just now, looked back and forth between Qin Suzheng and Bai Ruan in a daze, and asked softly, "What's wrong?"

Qin Suzheng shook his head.

The wind was strong, Bai Ru'an put away his phone, stepped forward and tugged at his open skirt, "Isn't it cold?"

At this moment, he has to untie it for a while, Lu Yuan is very disgusted, and hides sideways, "It's all here, don't fasten it."

Bai Ru'an snorted coldly, "You're so lazy."

Lu Yuan pretended not to hear, turned his head to look at Qin Suzheng, "It's getting late, you should go back too."

He changed his expression when talking to Bai Ru'an, his tone was calm, polite and distant.

Qin Suzheng felt a twinge in his heart.

The scar removal ointment in the palm of his hand was hot from being gripped. It was a small one. He bought it early in the morning, but he never gave it away.

Qin Suzheng stroked the outline of the ointment, and sighed in his heart, "Okay, then you should rest early."

***

It was still midnight when Lu Yuan woke up, the balcony window facing the reclining chair was open, and the gauze curtain fluttered in the dark night, as if a frightening ghost would emerge from behind at any moment.

The cold sweat on his forehead was chilled to the bone by the wind, Lu Yuan blinked blankly, and his slender eyelashes trembled unbearably.

Another nightmare.

The dream was not clear, but it made him unable to sleep well.He has become the incompetent child from before. The skinny and deformed woman is holding his wrist, her eyes are bloodshot, her bright red lips open and close strangely, and there are voices like mantras in all directions, "You forgive me." ?"

"Did you forgive me?"

No.

Lu Yuan looked at his left wrist.

In the dream, there was a blue mark on this wrist by the woman, and even the fingertips were completely blue and bloodless.

In the beginning, he would still struggle and scream in this dream, and he would bite the skinny, skeleton-like hand.

But the resistance in the dream was all futile.

Struggling turned into trembling, roaring only whimpering, the flesh between the teeth felt like steel, and the smell of blood overflowing from his bite could not make her relax at all.

Later, he could only cry, like all frightened children, crying out of breath.

The woman is obsessed with getting an answer that satisfies her, so the dream becomes more and more rampant, the twisted and frenzied face flashes back and forth at every corner, and the bright red lips seem to spew out venomous tentacles in the next moment.

He cried so numbly in this dream that he woke up weak as if hollowed out.

Lu Yuan took a deep breath.

No, I do not forgive.

You can only torture me in your dreams.

Lu Yuan managed to gather some strength and picked up the blanket from the ground.The doorbell was ringing, but the slippers could not be found, so Lu Yuan went to open the door barefoot.His toes were so cold that they ached, and the floor was even a little hot.

Qin Suzheng stood under the porch.

Lu Yuan wasn't completely free from the nightmare, and didn't have much strength to stand up. He took a deep look at Qin Suzheng, stepped sideways to open the door, and walked straight back to the balcony.

The wine poured before going to bed on the table beside the recliner was not finished, the ice cubes melted and disappeared, and the amber liquid was diluted. Lu Yuan picked up the glass as if bewitched, and drank it clean one gulp at a time.

The burning sensation burned from the mouth to the whole body, every blood vessel was surging with heat, the cold and stiff extremities were revived from the smell of wheat and smoke, and the slightly cool bitterness rushed straight to the drowsy brain.

The warmth of alcohol is intoxicating.

Lu Yuan pinched his almost unconscious fingers, smiled self-deprecatingly, calmed down his emotions, and looked at Qin Suzheng, "Is there something wrong?"

Qin Suzheng frowned, "I see you haven't turned off the lights yet."

Lu Yuan's condition is too bad, cold sweat seeps out, and the fragile inside has collapsed into a mess, barely holding on, but no one knows how long this support can last.

Lu Yuan paused, "I forgot."

Qin Suzheng wanted to take the empty cup in his hand, but accidentally touched Lu Yuan's fingertips, which was cold and distorted.

Lu Yuan withdrew his finger as if he had been burned.

Before Qin Suzheng received it, he had already let go of his strength. The cup hung in the air for a moment, and was immediately captured by gravity, and swooped down to the floor defiantly.

Lu Yuan only came and shrank his toes.

It was useless, the fragments burst and splashed across his bare ankle, before Lu Yuan felt the pain, the blood was already dripping down along the lines of his skin.

The pain activated his rationality, Lu Yuan came back from the daze, raised his legs and tried to get out from the debris on the ground, but he was picked up by the waist, his eyes blurred, and he fell on the mattress.

Qin Su walked around the room like a trapped beast, as if it wasn't Lu Yuan who was injured but himself.Lu Yuan thought dully that he was looking for the medicine box, propping up the bed to reach the drawer on the other side.

Qin Suzheng yelled at him in a low voice, "Don't move!"

Lu Yuan was startled by him and didn't dare to move any more, so he sat down obediently and let him clean the wound.

Qin Suzheng held his cold feet, and the delicate skin in his hands was tinged with warmth, "What did Bai Ruan tell you?"

Tomorrow night is still good, but it has become like this after a few hours of not seeing each other.

Lu Yuan opened his mouth.

Lu Jiming wants to see him.

Lu Jiming's liver cancer is terminal.

I don't want to see Lu Jiming, I don't want Lu Jiming to die.The woman in the dream is enough for him to suffer, don't have another Lu Jiming.

Lu Yuan thought, another one would make him crazy.

Qin Suzheng stared at him intently.

Lu Yuan suddenly panicked.

Can't, can't say.

Others can't understand, understand such morbid fear.Fear breeds anger, and he is soaked in distorted anger, sinking into the quagmire of desire.

He is stiff and rotten, he is a greedy villain, his jealousy makes him unable to maintain a calm pretense, he wants to let Qin Suzheng live, but he is reluctant to break it clean.

Lu Yuan heard his calm voice like a pool of stagnant water, "No, I didn't say anything."

His soul floated up, and he saw that he even made a smile, and repeated in a low voice, "I didn't say anything."

"you can go now."

Half of Lu Yuan's body was the blood of a lunatic, and the other half was the blood of a scumbag.

Don't do it.

What is so good about this world, wars, plagues, corrupt officials, perverted criminals, gold belts for murder and arson, and bridges and roads without corpses.

Whether it's Qin Suzheng or Bai Ru'an, they should go far away, stay away from him, don't see him like this, these beautiful things have never had anything to do with him.

He has been tortured by hatred for too long, and has become a ghost of hatred.

Lu Yuan blinked lightly, and Qin Suzheng disappeared from sight.

Yes, that's it, Lu Yuan comforted himself, do you like Qin Suzheng?Then let him go, the farther the better.

Hold on for a while, just for a while, don't let him see your resentment and fear, it's too ugly.

The door slammed.

Lu Yuan collapsed on the bed, his teeth trembling uncontrollably, making a "cackling" sound.

He raised his hand, trying to stuff it into his mouth, so that they would stop making noise.

The hand was held, and the whole body suddenly fell into a warm embrace.

Qin Suzheng has never been so patient.The tenderness and consideration at this moment are no longer learned etiquette, he wished he could spread his soul around Lu Yuan's cold body, so that he would not feel cold or hurt.He wanted to say "I'm here", but he was afraid that these two words would become a burden for Lu Yuan, and he wanted to say "Don't be afraid", but felt that it was light and perfunctory.

He hugged Lu Yuan tightly, as if he could feel Lu Yuan's emotions in this way, his voice was low and slow, as if coaxing.

"Lu Yuan, you cry, okay?"