like the abyss

Qin Suzheng didn't dare to let go, nor did he dare to look up.He didn't even dare to recall Lu Yuan's expression when he spoke just now.

Lu Yuan was too calm, so calm that Qin Suzheng could only hug him tightly and give him a little comfort that he didn't need.

Qin Suzheng wanted to say "I only like you", but he was not qualified to say that.

Lu Yuan didn't believe him.

Lu Yuan trusted him very much at first, but he threw away the trust with his own hands.

It's like throwing away a piece of paper, light and fluffy.

They shouldn't meet at such a time, Qin Suzheng thought.

It should have been earlier, before he was tempted by Bai Ru'an.

He can frankly like Lu Yuan, just like admitting that he is tempted by Bai Ruan.

Or a little earlier, he raised his head under the window sill and saw the tearful child behind the window.

Then he will definitely soften his heart, and he may seriously teach the little Lu Yuan who was choking and crying, saying that children are not allowed to smoke.

It's better to take Lu Yuan away earlier, before everything happens, take him home, and save him from being tortured by a pair of irresponsible parents.

Little Lu Yuan must be soft and cute, he can act coquettishly, wants his brother to hug him, wants him to tell stories, wants him to do this, wants him to do that.

And he would never refuse.As long as little Lu Yuan frowned, no one could resist.

Qin Suzheng gave birth to an unknown fire.

He wanted to cry, to yell, to question the invisible "enemy", why they treated Lu Yuan so badly, why no one told him "you have to find Lu Yuan" at those crucial moments, and wanted to ask how many months Why did my former self tease Lu Yuan with an unclean heart.

He even wanted to fight these "enemies" one by one.There is infinite strength in his limbs, he is eager to vent, he is eager for pain, he will do his best, and in the end he will lose to both of them.Then, he will show Lu Yuan with a miserable injury: I have been punished.

Lu Yuan will soften his heart, like the time he was drunk before, hug him tenderly, pat him on the back, say "I forgive you", and tell him that he will not leave.

But he can't fight, he has to carefully hold his Lu Yuan tightly.

Because Qin Suzheng knew better than anyone else, Lu Yuan would not forgive him.As soon as he let go, Lu Yuan would go far away and never come back.

Qin Suzheng thought, why not tie him up?I tied him with a chain and tied him to the bed. He couldn't go anywhere. When he was hungry or thirsty, he asked his elder brother to have something to eat and water to drink.When he doesn't want to leave, let him go, hold him in his arms, and swear that he will only like him alone, and no one else will look at him again.

The more Qin Suzheng thought about it, the harder he tried, Lu Yuan was strangled so badly that he struggled back.

Qin Suzheng refused to let go, and buried his head on the side of Lu Yuan's neck.

He hasn't slept for a minute since last night, and now he is lying on Lu Yuan's shoulder, bewitched by the happy fantasy, and uncontrollably sleepy.

The tip of the nose is still familiar with the soft milk aroma, mixed with a few hints of mint smoke that is not choking, the milk aroma seems a bit strange and cold.

Qin Suzheng slowly closed his eyes, but he heard Lu Yuan call his name softly, "Qin Suzheng."

This is a reality check.

Such stimulation made Qin Suzheng nervous, he straightened up abruptly, tightened his arms anxiously, and pursed his lips into a thin line.

He stared at Lu Yuan fixedly, his eyes began to turn red.

Lu Yuan waited for him to speak.

Qin Suzheng was too close, so Lu Yuan could only look at him.

The sun gradually rose, Lu Yuan closed his eyes, and his eyes turned into a blurred mass of red.

Qin Suzheng spoke at this moment.His expression was ruthless, and his voice was trembling, as if disturbed or threatened.

He asked Lu Yuan, "Don't you like me?"

Lu Yuan closed his eyes, and slowly turned his face to the direction of the sun.He couldn't see Qin Suzheng's expression, and he didn't want to.

Qin Suzheng's acting skills are superb, and Lu Yuan can't guarantee that he will still be firm this time.His question made no sense, Lu Yuan thought.

Lu Yuan shook his head and explained to him. "Yes, I like you."

Qin Suzheng was a little anxious, "Then we won't break up."

Lu Yuan patted him on the shoulder, "Qin Suzheng, don't be so cruel."

"If Bai Ru'an wasn't a straight man, how would you choose? There is no choice at all, and I won't even be an option. If I promise you, there will always be times like this, when you look at me, you are actually looking at him."

"And I will keep doubting who you are looking at. You can't prove it, I can't believe it, we will only torture each other."

"The best way, you should let me give up now, and then let it go. I won't hate you. Compared with before you came, I have one more cat."

"Thank you very much, you are very good, I hope you will have a good life in the future."

Qin Suzheng suddenly lost his strength.

He didn't dare to hug Lu Yuan again.

Lu Yuan said, "Don't be so cruel", these words turned into a knife, piercing his heart, causing him pain and making him sober again.

He is indeed cruel.Splurging Lu Yuan's sincere and unreserved liking, and being used to being unscrupulous, actually nourished dark and perverted thoughts.

Lu Yuan's magnanimity made him feel ashamed.

Qin Suzheng fled in despair.