like the abyss

Qin Suzheng took Lu Yuan and the cat back home.

Lu Yuan got out of the car first, holding the cat box, while Qin Suzheng took two big bags from the trunk.As soon as he got home, Qin Suzheng took out a small feeding bottle from his bag, and handed it to Lu Yuan together with the special milk powder for cats, "About 8ml is enough."

Lu Yuan only said that he had sucked cats before, and he was a little curious, "Could it be too little?"

Qin Suzheng was concentrating on arranging the cat's nest, half kneeling on the ground, and looked back at the cat when he heard the words, "It's only half a month old, so it can't eat too much."

Lu Yuan nodded, and put down the cat to mix milk powder.When he came back after cashing, Qin Suzheng had already tidied up the cat's nest and held the kitten in his hands.

The kitten was only two weeks old, only a little bit bigger, and it was curled up in Qin Suzheng's hand. Lu Yuan looked at it and rubbed his fingers on the kitten's paws.Qin Suzheng saw his cautious movements, and stretched out his hand to hand the cat to him, "Do you want to feed it?"

Lu Yuan didn't answer, handed the bottle to Qin Suzheng, and squatted beside him, "Come on."

Qin Suzheng supported the cat's two front paws with his index finger, dripped a drop of milk on the back of his hand to test the temperature, and then moved the pacifier to the cat's mouth.The kitten smelled the milk, wrapped its tongue around the pacifier and started sucking.

Lu Yuan glanced at the cat and then at Qin Suzheng.Qin Suzheng lowered his head, with a serious expression as if he was making an investment decision, and the gesture of breastfeeding in his hand was very gentle. The contrast was astonishing. Lu Yuan was overwhelmed by the cuteness, and it took him a long time to think of asking him, "Why do you want to raise a cat all of a sudden?"

Qin Suzheng waited for the cat to finish drinking, put the empty bottle aside, patted the cat's back with his fingers a few times, saw the cat hiccup, put the cat back to the cat's nest, and pulled Lu Yuan to stand up, "gift .”

Qin Suzheng pulled him to wash his hands.Lu Yuan looked away from the cat, and when he heard him say this, his face was blank, "A gift?"

Qin Suzheng looked at him and smiled, "You were tired before."

Lu Yuan thought for a while, and guessed that he was referring to the cooking some time ago. He didn't expect Qin Suzheng to care so much, and felt a little strange, "Fortunately, I want to eat myself."

Qin Suzheng didn't continue talking about this, but instead asked him: "What's the name of the kitten?"

Lu Yuan thought for a while, since Qin Suzheng brought it back, he should have his surname. Qin Suzheng is the boss, and the cat can only be the second. "It's Qin Er." Lu Yuan nodded after finishing speaking, affirming his statement.

Qin Suzheng narrowed his eyes and stared at Lu Yuan closer, "Qin Er?"

Lu Yuan didn't know why Qin Suzheng looked at him with threatening eyes, but the long-lost desire to survive suddenly came online, and he struggled to ask, "Or my surname?"

Qin Suzheng was taller than Lu Yuan, so he could only raise his head and talk to him so close to Lu Yuan.There is a warm yellow spotlight on the top of the sink. Qin Suzheng looked at it from this angle. Lu Yuan's eyes were round and round, his eyelashes were thick and glowing with a halo, very soft, and the color of the light was shining in his pupils. It was all about himself, probably because of his beauty, Qin Suzheng suddenly lowered his head and kissed Lu Yuan's lips.

Qin Suzheng's kissing skills are very good, but Lu Yuan has learned for so long but has made no progress, so he can only let him ask for it.Qin Su had had enough of asking for a marriage, and was about to back out, when he thought of something, suddenly bit the tip of Lu Yuan's tongue.

Lu Yuan was attacked suddenly and was too late to guard against it. He was bitten firmly and even tasted a bit of blood. In pain, he covered his mouth with his hand and accused Qin Suzheng with his eyes.

Qin Suzheng felt guilty when he saw Lu Yuan suffering from pain, and pinched his jaw to see if it was bitten just now.

Lu Yuan pursed his lips and refused to show him.Qin Suzheng had a history of biting people, and Lu Yuan suffered a disadvantage at the moment, so he was very vigilant.

Qin Suzheng didn't know whether to laugh or cry, let go of his hand and took two steps back, "I was wrong, so I won't bite anymore, okay?"

Lu Yuan narrowed his eyes and looked at him suspiciously, not believing his assurance.

Qin Su expropriated the land and paid compensation, "Then call it Qin Er."

Only then did Lu Yuan react.He didn't call him Qin Suzheng that way, and he didn't pay attention for a while, but when Qin Suzheng said that, Lu Yuan felt that it was not very good.Just as he was about to deny the name, his mouth hurt and his tongue hurt, so he had to give up talking, and his eyes signaled him to change.

Qin Suzheng didn't connect to his brainwaves, and looked at Lu Yuan eagerly at himself, thinking that this name won Lu Yuan's favor, with a serious expression on his face, and he made a dignified decision, "I'll call it Qin Er."

Seeing him turning his face like a book, Lu Yuan suddenly felt that it was too embarrassing for a good kitten named "Qin Er".Other people's cats are babies, so should this one be called "Er Er"?But at the moment, I can't speak, and I can only feel sad for the cat secretly.

Qin Suzheng accepted this setting, and was already lying on the edge of the cat's nest, Qin Erchang and Qin Ershort began to torture the cat.

Lu Yuan slowed down a bit, feeling that his tongue didn't hurt so much, and half knelt down, interrupting Qin Suzheng's "Qin Er Jing", trying to save the cat's future, "Or Qin Xiaoer?"

Qin Suzheng was very dissatisfied, looking at Lu Yuan, "Don't you know that you are not young?"

After speaking, he turned to the cat again, "Really, Qin Er?"

Lu Yuan: "..."

Lu Yuan looked at him like a rascal, and the pain on the tip of his tongue became obvious.Taking a deep breath, he pointed to the cat litter, "You sleep here tonight."

Qin Suzheng immediately changed his face, and looked at the cat seriously, "You are still young, so you are called Qin Xiaoer."

Lu Yuan: "..."

Qin Xiaoer looked at him innocently, "Meow."

***

Before going to bed, Qin Su set the alarm clock.The two-week-old kitten needs to be fed once in the evening, but Lu Yuan dare not feed it for fear of choking Qin Xiaoer, so this job can only be handed over to Qin Suzheng.

Lu Yuan leaned on the pillow to read a book, Qin Suzheng slept straight at first, and after a while, his head rested on Lu Yuan's thigh, and his arms rubbed against Lu Yuan's waist.

Lu Yuan couldn't get rid of him, so he could only choose to ignore him.Qin Suzheng lay down in a comfortable position and asked Lu Yuan, "Aren't you going to work in the future?"

Lu Yuan told him truthfully: "The magazine is closed."

Qin Suzheng's voice was very low, but the two of them were close enough that Lu Yuan could hear them clearly. "What are you going to do next?"

Lu Yuan has thought about this question too, but has not yet answered it.When Qin Suzheng asked, Lu Yuan was honest, "I don't know."

Qin Suzheng asked again: "Don't you like going to work?"

Lu Yuan saw that he wanted to talk about this, closed the book and put it on the bedside table, and slowly explained to him, "I don't dislike it, but I don't really want to do this job." After a pause, "I don't know what I want to do."

Qin Suzheng grabbed his fingers and fiddled with them, "There is always something to do."

Lu Yuan didn't withdraw his hand, and let him twist his fingers back and forth, "Yeah."

Qin Suzheng continued, "Your life is too monotonous."

Lu Yuan didn't think there was anything wrong with this, "It's always been like this." After thinking for a while, he added, "Now I have you and the cat."

Qin Suzheng twisted his two hands together, "What if the cat and I disappear?"

Lu Yuan didn't pay attention, "Then I can play games."

Qin Suzheng was silent for a while, let go of his hands and sat up, leaning against the other side of the bed, with his eyes downcast.

Lu Yuan withdrew his hand.Qin Suzheng suddenly exerted force just now, and it hurt a little, but it was not serious.The light on Qin Suzheng's side was not turned on, so Lu Yuan couldn't see the expression on his face clearly. He only saw the light from his own side hit Qin Suzheng's deep facial features, and cast uneven shadows on the other half of his face.

Qin Suzheng suddenly asked him: "Do you like me?"

Lu Yuan never concealed his thoughts, and Qin Suzheng knew about it all along, but he never mentioned it.Now that Qin Suzheng sent a straight ball out of the blue, Lu Yuan panicked for a moment, but he also breathed a sigh of relief.

Lu Yuan was embarrassed to look at him, but only stared at his own hand, "Yeah."

Qin Suzheng did not respond.

Lu Yuan became nervous.Maybe Qin Suzheng never got his mind?Or the pursuit I thought was just a gay daily routine?Wouldn't such a confession be too presumptuous?

However, the words had already been spoken, so Lu Yuan could only continue, "Do you want to be with me?"

There was still a long silence on Qin Suzheng's side.

Lu Yuan didn't dare to look at him.His hands were a little cold, Lu Yuan curled his fingers.

Lu Yuan did not expect to experience this situation again after many years.

He was still young at that time, watching TV dramas by himself in the lobby of the Lu residence.The heroine in the play received flowers from her lover, and the two happily reached a happy ending. Xiao Luyuan was easily deceived, thinking that her mother would be happy when she received flowers in the same way, so she didn't tell others. Someone secretly picked the roses in the yard to give to her.He was weak and didn't know how to avoid the thorns of the roses. Half of his palms were pricked with holes before he could make a handful.Lu Yuan held this bouquet of muddy roses full of anticipation to find his mother, saw her open the door, saw her staring at him in a daze——

Just like it is now.

Xiao Luyuan didn't understand why she was in a daze, because it was inconsistent with the plot of the TV series.His intuition made him feel that something was wrong, but he didn't avoid it, and waited for the picture in his imagination with burning eyes.

Of course not.

The longer Qin Suzheng remained silent, the more flustered Lu Yuan became.It was as if one end of the guillotine was being held in Qin Suzheng's hand, and he was a prisoner waiting to be executed on the guillotine, and he seemed to be placed in a dark cave, surrounded by frightening movements, and felt like a sailing ship in a trance. At this time, the singing and dancing on the boat was peaceful, but the tragic ending after hitting the rocks was inevitable.

For a while, Lu Yuan wondered if he was too pessimistic, and for a while, he thought it would be better to retract the foreword and make a remedy, at least not to let Qin Suzheng bear the responsibility of making the decision.

Lu Yuan squeezed his hands hard, so that a little warmth from the palm of the hand could be brought to the fingertips, so as to gain the courage to watch the other party open his mouth to speak.

The other hand covered it, it was very warm, and Lu Yuan shivered.

Qin Suzheng's voice was far and near, very vague, "Okay."

It took a long time for these two words to reach Lu Yuan's ears.

Lu Yuan suddenly felt aggrieved.