False success

Xiao Qu did not leave, and sat in the car overnight.

I was planning to go home, but the car was already on fire, but my heart seemed unwilling to leave.He held the steering wheel and looked in the direction of the inpatient department through the car window.The ward where Cheng Qing lived was not bright, and the child was obedient and did not sneak out of bed to turn on the light, so he might have fallen asleep by now.

He sighed and leaned back in the chair wearily.

The concern for Chengqing has obviously crossed the line, and that extraordinary concern makes him deeply disturbed.Like now, he shouldn't be staying for a bed partner, but he just can't turn the steering wheel.

Once inexplicably felt that when staying with Cheng Qing, there was an illusion that Sheng Yu was by his side.Now the illusion is getting more and more outrageous. When I looked at Cheng Qing in the ward just now, I felt that Sheng Yu was looking at him.

But Sheng Yu passed away so tragically that he didn't even leave him with a handful of ashes.

Is it because I miss you so much that I regard Cheng Qing as Sheng Yu?

No, if you really miss it so much, why would you transfer this feeling to another completely different person?

Cheng Qing is not Sheng Yu.

He lowered his head and leaned on the steering wheel.

The first psychiatrist who treated him said: Don’t underestimate time, most of the unbearable pain will be healed by time, and most of the people you think you will never let go of will one day tell you in relief Goodbye; you will have a new life and meet a new love.It's just that you can't imagine it yet, and you don't want to admit it.

He only met that doctor once, excited, angry, and ashamed, thinking that every word he said was fart.

It now appears that the doctor was actually half right.

The first half sentence is wrong, at least it didn't come true for him.Eight years have passed since Sheng Yu passed away, and the severe pain from eight years ago has not subsided with time.He just stopped being hysterical like a beast, and he didn't show his pain in front of others anymore.He hid them, using indifference as a disguise, only torn off the disguise at certain times, and was pierced by pain.

But the second half of the sentence came true.He has indeed lived a new life, and there is a new person he cares about in his life.It's just that this talent has just appeared, and he is far from being able to replace Sheng Yu.But what about one year from now, five years from now, ten years from now?I'm afraid that by that time, I will really accept Chengqing calmly.

Maybe it's time to learn to let go.

If reincarnation really existed, Sheng Yu might be eight years old by now.

Eight-year-old Sheng Yu...

Looking back at the memory, there are waves in summer, snowball fights in winter, every frame is Sheng Yu's unruly smiling face when he was a child.

It's just that fate is ruthless and good luck tricks people.

After a while, the mobile phone that was thrown aside rang.He picked it up and looked, it was Shen Zhao.

In the early morning, the nurse entered the ward to measure the body temperature and blood pressure. Seeing Cheng Qing's face, she was so frightened that she immediately called the doctor.

"Did you not rest at night?" The doctor flipped through the examination report and looked at it with Chengqing's eyelids.

The thing I was most worried about didn't happen. It was dawn and I hadn't left this body yet.Cheng Qing was extremely exhausted, he felt uncomfortable even when he moved, his ears seemed to be clogged, everything he heard was subwoofer, and all kinds of sounds were rumbling in his ears, which soon caused bursts of pain in his head.

Fortunately, my eyesight has not deteriorated. The world I saw yesterday is the same as it is now.In his previous life, he had excellent eyesight. He never knew how the world is seen with a myopic eye. Now that he knows it, he can't help rubbing his eyes all the time because he is not used to it.

It seems that rubbing can make the vision clear.

Suddenly, the raised hand was caught, and he raised his head, shaking instinctively.

Xiao Qu unexpectedly came again, holding his wrist and looking at him with a bad expression.

He could barely see clearly.People with poor eyesight usually like to look at people with blind eyes, but he didn't dare to look at Xiao Qu like that. He was worried that Xiao Qu would find out that something was wrong, and he was also afraid of making Xiao Qu angry, so he would drive him back to Huashi.

It is impossible to count on living for a year or so, and for the last remaining days, he wants to stay beside Xiao Qu peacefully.

"Why are you disobedient?" Xiao Qu's voice was low, obviously angry, "What are you doing at night? Why don't you sleep?"

"I..." He lowered his eyelids, not knowing how to explain, and wanted to withdraw his hand, but Xiao Qu held it tighter.

"I'm in a bit of pain and can't sleep." Finally, he pointed to the injury on his forehead, making excuses for staying up all night.

In fact, he was in severe pain, but the pain had nothing to do with the injuries caused by the fall or collision, but the muscular and bone pain caused by the rejection of the body.

He can't tell the truth.

Hearing this, Xiao Qu frowned even deeper, his heartache and boredom clashed constantly, and he put down his hand after a while, "Don't rub your eyes with your hand all the time."

He nodded lightly.

Xiao Qu asked again: "Your eyes are uncomfortable?"

He quickly shook his head.

The doctor said from the side: "The drug has certain irritation to the body, which varies from person to person. Sore eyes and tearing are normal drug reactions."

Xiao Qu said "hmm", sat down on the edge of the bed, and ordered: "Come here."

Only then did he see that Xiao Qu had brought a custard.

The custard was stewed golden and had a rich aroma. Xiao Qu scooped up a spoonful, tested the temperature, and handed it to him.

He was so surprised that he didn't react for a long time.

"Open your mouth." Xiao Qu didn't have that much patience, seeing him staring at him obsessively, he suddenly felt irritable.

The corners of his lips moved slightly, and he moved forward tremblingly. When he sucked the soft custard, his eyes suddenly became moist.

Xiao Qu is feeding him.

The blood all over his body seemed to be on fire, drowning his rationality inch by inch. He grabbed the quilt with all his strength, and his fingers showed pale knuckles.

Xiao Qu put down the bowl, patted the back of his hand, "Relax, why are you nervous?"

He hurriedly wiped away the tears that were almost falling, and said awkwardly: "Thank you, thank you, Mr. Xiao."

Xiao Qu stood up and rubbed his hair as usual, "Sleep well, no matter how painful the wound is, you have to sleep, otherwise you won't be able to hold on."

It's daytime now, and light is always easier to give people a sense of security than darkness, but he still dare not fall asleep easily, looking straight at Xiao Qu with a pair of eyes.

Like in the night, Xiao Qu covered his eyes with his palm again.

"Sleep, be obedient."

He opened his mouth and begged, "Can you not go?"

Xiao Qu frowned hesitantly, but he couldn't see it.

"Can you not go?" He said again: "Stay with me. I, I can't sleep alone."

There is still work in the morning, Xiao Qu hesitated for a while, moved his hand away, and said in a gentle tone that he did not expect: "Okay, you sleep, I will stay here with you."

He slept peacefully and dreamlessly.

Xiao Qu sat by the bed for a long time, thinking of Sheng Yu again.

Back then, Sheng Yu didn't even have the chance to be hospitalized for medical treatment, and he left this world in an instant.Occasionally, he thought that even if Sheng Yu was badly injured, his limbs were mutilated, and he even became an unconscious vegetable, it would be better than dying directly.

At least people are still there.

While people are still there, thoughts and hopes are still there.

But every time I think about it, I feel selfish.How could someone as proud as Sheng Yu accept that he was a useless person?Besides, the burns caused by the explosion were extremely painful, how could he let Sheng Yu live in that pain?

At that time, he didn't even have the chance to take care of Sheng Yu, but now he is with someone who has a little of Sheng Yu's aura.

I don't know if it is compensation or punishment.

The bruise was not serious.A week later, it was time to leave the hospital.

Standing at the entrance of the villa, Sheng Yu was glad to be back here.

These few days, Xiao Qu treated him very well, even smiled at him after he obediently finished his porridge.

Suddenly, he thought he was back before he was 18 years old.At that time, Xiao Qu often smiled at him, but he always stared at Xiao Qu angrily, as if everything could make him angry all day.

It's just too childish.

He returned to his bedroom and sat on the carpet in a daze.

Because the five senses are deteriorating, he dare not walk around for fear of getting into trouble.Soon, the butler opened the door and said that he would help him move his daily necessities.

He was very frightened, thinking that Xiao Qu wanted to drive him away.But the housekeeper smiled and said, "Mr. Xiao asked me to move your personal belongings to his bedroom."

Xiao Qu actually allowed him to live in the master bedroom!

For a moment, he felt mixed emotions, sour.

He finally won Xiao Qu's heart with this exquisite skin, which he could never win like that rough man in his previous life.

Xiao Qu still likes beautiful men, like Shen Zhao.

He hugged his calves tightly and buried his face in his knees.

This love seems to be stolen.

Even so, it belongs to him.

But cruelly, time is running out.

He whispered a prayer, that the force that pulled him into this body in the dark would allow him to hold on a little longer.

After he was discharged from the hospital, Xiao Qu did not touch him, probably because he was worried that his body would not be able to bear it.Every night, he sleeps next to Xiao Qu, and has no dreams until dawn.

One day, a guest suddenly came to the house.The housekeeper said that he was a friend of Mr. Xiao.

He walked down from the third floor and saw a tall and straight figure in the distance.

It's Shen Zhao.