green shell

"Boom—"

Lu Yi staggered a few steps, held on to the door, panting heavily.Aunt Zhang was startled by the thunder, and when she came back to her senses, she saw Lu Yi slowly knelt down and ran over quickly: "Lu Yi?"

Gone.

People are gone.

Lu Sui's mind was blank, looking at the puddles that were constantly being hit by water, he felt that the rain was really too cold.

"Lu Yi? What's the matter? Are you okay?" Aunt Zhang asked worriedly while supporting Lu Yi's shoulder.

Lu Yi vaguely remembered what Aunt Zhang's mouth was opening and closing, but he couldn't hear what was said, let alone remember.

"...Where is it?" Lu Yi interrupted Aunt Zhang: "My grandma's..."

He didn't say that word, he didn't dare to say it, and he didn't dare to think about it.

"In...the cemetery in the north," Aunt Zhang was taken aback for a moment, "You..."

Lu Zhi's ears were buzzing, and he couldn't hear what Aunt Zhang said, he pushed Aunt Zhang's hand away in a daze, and stumbled into the rain.His hair was wet from the rain, and he waited for a long time before getting on the bus.

"I haven't seen this road for a long time," Lu Yi briefly walked out of his memory, and pointed to the snack shop by the roadside to show Xiangyang: "On that day, it was the only one that was open, and the rest were closed. "

Xiang Yang followed his finger to look, and saw the signboard of the snack bar flashing past, so he quickly turned his head to look at Lu Yi.

Candied haws.

Lu Yi also saw the sign that day. In early September, the hawthorns began to ripen one after another, and the candied haws would occasionally be sold in the air-conditioned room.Sitting in the car, Lu Yi glanced at it, and happened to bump into the red candied haws skewers in the open shop door, his brain exploded, and a drop of water rolled down his face.

Calculated, the fruit of the hawthorn tree in the yard should also be ripe.

The rock sugar is there, the small courtyard is there, and the hawthorn is also there.

Only grandma is gone.

"I seemed to have been running for a long time that day," Lu Yi felt Xiang Yang's increased hand strength, he loosened his brows and laughed, and then squeezed back hard: "Why? Want to compete with me?"

"No." Xiang Yang saw that his expression was wrong and wanted to comfort him, but was interrupted by him, a little embarrassed: "Why are you competing with you?"

Lu Yi smiled and watched him look at him for a long time before taking a deep breath, lowering his head to stare at the hand he held with Xiang Yang, and while rubbing the side of his hand, he was slowly soaked in memories: "It seemed like that day It was thunderstorm and it was very noisy.”

When the countless thunderbolts exploded in the sky, the bus that Lu Yi was sitting on arrived.He ran out of the car, not even having time to avoid the stagnant water, and rushed straight to the cemetery.

He stepped through countless puddles, and his clothes were drenched by countless raindrops before he reached the gate of the cemetery.The burial was going on inside, surrounded by a group of people, all relatives that Lu Yi rarely saw in the small courtyard.His parents were all in black, standing under a huge umbrella, unable to see their expressions clearly.

The group of people cried and howled, their voices even surpassed that of thunder.

Lu Yi stood numbly by the wide open iron gate, watching all this through the gap in the railing.The crowd was so densely packed that he couldn't even see the whole picture of the wooden box that was put into the ground.

"I know it's my grandma, I just don't want it to be her," Lu Yi pursed his lips, "I didn't even get to see her for the last time."

The rain in September turned out to be cool like this.

Among the countless memories that flashed through Lu Yi's mind, such a sentence popped up.He leaned on the railing to regain his senses, only to realize that he had been shivering.He didn't dare to sneeze loudly, so he covered his mouth and hid in the shadows to sneeze.

He can bear the eyes that teachers and classmates show him at school, but he can't stand no one calling him "Ah Wu" when he goes back to the old house.

It felt so lonely.

He's been alone ever since, with no safe house to settle down in anymore.So he began to build a shell around himself, and he blocked all the unpleasant things from him. That shell was like a "safe house" for him to deceive himself, as if he had endured and ignored those unpleasant things. will disappear.

Until he met Brother Hao.

"In fact, I was blocked a few times in the first year of junior high school, but not a few times, and it was not serious." Lu Yi pouted, "But in the second year of junior high school, I was targeted by a woman for no reason... Don't worry, I refused."

"I didn't..." Xiang Yang turned his eyes away unconsciously, and then turned back after a while: "...Are my eyes strange?"

"Well," Lu Yi nodded seriously, and couldn't hold back a smile when he saw Xiang Yang blinking in embarrassment, coughed lightly to cover up, looked away, and continued talking as if nothing happened : "But then that brother Hao came out and brought a bunch of people with him. The frequency of blocking people was scary. In the second year of junior high school, I almost had injuries on my body."

Looking at Lu Yi's downcast eyes, Xiang Yang was speechless.

He has no way of knowing what the [-]-year-old Lu Yi has gone through, but now the [-]-year-old Lu Yi must still have those scars that cannot be healed, maybe there is still the shadow of a [-]-year-old Lu Yi.

"They saw that I didn't resist, so they just beat more and more fiercely. I was almost immobilized by them several times, so in order not to be beaten to death, I slowly started to resist," Lu suspected, his face turned cold when he remembered what happened at that time : "Now that I think about it, I should have resisted a long time ago. Why didn't I fight back and endured beatings for half a year before I realized it."

The few people brought by Brother Hao at first came to beat Lu Sui every day at first, but gradually began to beat Lu Sui, who would die like everyone else after a dozen, and then they stopped coming, so Brother Hao brought another group of people , Blocking Lu Sui more and more frequently, and then this group of people practiced another way of fighting Lu Sui, which is how Lu Sui developed his fighting skills.

"In the years of junior high school, my parents also troubled me at the beginning, because I was always injured and they didn't want to pay for the medicine. They even pointed at my nose and scolded me a few times." Lu Yi shrugged: "I can't bear it." After a few times, I didn’t want to bear it anymore, so I just punched my dad’s nose to bleed, pointed at my mother’s nose and scolded her, so they ignored me from then on, and gave me nothing except the necessary money, I gritted my teeth and carried it It’s over. I studied by myself while fighting in the third grade of junior high school. I passed the exam here and left there far away. You will know what happened later. Brother Hao was cut off by me, and my parents dropped my account. , don't give me a penny anymore, I start learning music... I met you."

Xiangyang's heart skipped a beat, and Lu Yi covered his eyes and kissed him all at once.

His other hand on the front seat suddenly retracted, and he tasted a bit of saltiness in the sound of the mechanical station announcement.

"Here we are." Lu Yi put down the cover to Xiangyang's eyes and quickly turned around, pulled Xiangyang out of the car, and let the rain pour on him with his face up: "The rain has become heavier."

Looking at his closed eyes and water-stained face, Xiang Yang silently raised his hand to touch the corner of his lips.

It's wet there.

Xiang Yang put down his hand, no longer looking at Lu Yi, but just held his hand tightly, and finally responded softly: "Yes, the rain has become heavier."

Lu Yi opened his eyes, and then squinted them in the fine rain. He held Xiangyang's hand and stood silently, until he saw Xiangyang's wet bangs sticking to his white cheeks, and then he woke up abruptly. Take him to the side to avoid the rain: "Shall I buy an umbrella?"

"There are no umbrella sellers around here, right?" Xiang Yang brushed the hair sticking to his face behind his ears indifferently, and looked around: "It's all... funeral supplies."

Before he said the word "funeral", he glanced at Lu Yi secretly.

Lu Yi noticed Xiang Yang's small movements, and felt warm in his heart, feeling that the rain was indeed Xia Yu, and it fell on his body with warmth.Seeing that there was no one around, he tore off one side of his coat, covered his face, and kissed it with his head tilted.

Xiang Yang was leaned back by his kiss, but he didn't lean back and was pulled by him.

On one side is the gray billboard of the station, on the other side is the world blocked by the coat.The rain blocked by the canopy above the head fell densely on the heart, bringing a little bit of diffused warmth.

"Is it cold?" Lu Yi let go of Xiang Yang, took a step back, his breath was still chaotic.

Xiangyang's mouth hadn't been closed yet, and his lips were glistening, whether it was rainwater or something.He took a breath twice before he came back to his senses and shook his head: "It's not cold."

"Then you won't buy an umbrella?" Lu asked him.

"Don't buy it," Xiang Yang said, "at worst, go back and take a hot bath."

I don't know what kind of temper this rain is. After Xiangyang and Lu Yi walked out of the station, it started to grow louder. The sound of raindrops hitting the leaves was loud like a symphony. It was pleasant to the ear after listening to it too much, but the clothes were wet. Not feeling well.The two of them were not in a hurry at first, but then they both started running, and finally ran to the cemetery, their bodies were hot, and the rain stopped.

"What kind of day is this?" Lu Yi looked at the sky dumbfounded.

Xiang Yang was also amused, looked up and saw the sun's light moving behind the sparse dark clouds, smiled and shook his head, shaking Lu Yi's hand: "Let's go?"

The smile on Lu Sui's face faded.He looked at the sky unfocused, and after a while, he blinked and lowered his head. Taking a deep breath, he made up his mind, turned around and looked at the gate of the cemetery, clasped Xiangyang's hand and said in a low voice, "Let's go."

The iron gate has become shorter, the trees have become taller, and the flowers in front of countless tombstones have also changed varieties.

Lu Yi walked towards the tombstone in his memory step by step, and his steps became heavy, until he saw the smiling grandma on the tombstone, he slowly spit out the breath that had been blocked since he was [-] years old.

He paused, and smiled at the young grandma on the tombstone: "Grandma."

Xiang Yang also smiled slightly, bowed his head towards the monument and saluted: "Hello."

He didn't bring any flowers, only a bunch of hawthorn flowers pinned to his head.He glanced at the plentiful flowers in front of the other tombs, secretly told Grandma Lu Yi in his heart that it would be better for you next time, picked off the hawthorn flowers on his head, and placed them gently in front of Grandma Lu Yi's grave.

Seeing Xiang Yang's movements, Lu Yi raised the corners of his mouth slightly, then reacted, and quickly stopped laughing.

He looked at the monument, but didn't know what to say.He wanted to say too much, and these words blocked his throat so hard that he couldn't even say a word.

He opened his mouth, closed it silently, and repeated several times before he sighed softly: "...I'm sorry."

After much deliberation, it seems that only this sentence is suitable.After so many years, his love for grandma has also turned into an apology as thick as a pool of black stagnant water.

Xiang Yang's heart trembled, he raised his breath, looked at the smiling woman on the tablet, and pursed his lips: "Don't worry, Lu... Ah Wu will never be alone again in the future."

Hearing that familiar address, Lu Sui's eyes instantly heated up. He stared at Xiang Yang's serious side face and gasped for breath, and when he turned to look at grandma, his eyes were already a little blurred.Looking at the stele, he felt a sudden pang of sadness in his heart, because Xiang Yang's words immediately brought back the grievances that he had hidden all these years.

"Grandma," Lu Yi stretched out his hand to grab Xiangyang's hand, frowned slightly and looked at grandma, holding back tears, "I'll introduce someone to you."

Xiang Yang was taken aback for a moment, then looked at Lu Sui.

"His name is Xiangyang," Lu Yi exhaled, raised his eyebrows and smiled at grandma, "My boyfriend."

He once asked his grandma why his parents always quarreled: "If they don't like each other, why did they get married and why did they have to give birth to me?"

Grandma didn't speak, just stroked his head with a wry smile.

Then he lay on grandma's lap, drowsy because of the wind from the cattail fan, and couldn't remember what grandma said, but he still remembered that after making an appointment with grandma, someone he likes should tell grandma, no matter who it is .

"Grandma wants you to be happy." Grandma said then.

"I'm here to fulfill the agreement," Lu Yi said, and his heart became more and more relaxed. He looked at the smiling grandma and said with a smile: "I like him very much, very much, and he likes me very much. Very happy, very happy. As he said, I will no longer be alone in the future, I have him."

You don't have to worry about Ah Wu anymore, Ah Wu is also loved by someone now.

Looking at the woman smiling gently in the photo, Xiang Yang felt sour in his heart, and his eyes were blurred.He choked his throat and nodded, vowing secretly that he would let Lu Yi do what he wanted in his life.

Grandma, I want to make him happy too.

Xiang Yang changed his words silently in his heart, and held Lu Yi's hand even tighter.

A ray of light fell directly on the photo on the stele, rendering the woman with the same smiling eyes as Lu Yi warmed up, as if given a moment of life, shining brightly.

Lu Yi raised his eyes to look at the side sky, saw the huge sun falling in the sky, subconsciously squinted his eyes because of the glare of the sun, and a heavy tear rolled down from the corner of his eyes.

The light finally reached him.

On the way back, Lu Yi's mood was unprecedentedly relaxed, even the greasy man who looked at him and Xiang Yang's holding hands in the bus with disgust was able to completely ignore it, instead of throwing a knife at him.

Xiang Yang naturally felt his happiness, and he became happy in his heart, and he didn't care about other people's eyes, holding hands with Lu Yi all the way.He and Lu Yi sat in their old seats, looking out the window, playing the game of scratching their palms idly.

Until he saw the face of the little girl who was pulled into the alley flashing past the window.

"That's..." Lu Yi obviously saw it too, and before he finished speaking, he heard the sound of the mechanical bulletin station. He looked at the station outside, and was dragged off by Xiang Yang before he could react.

Xiang Yang frowned, and dragged Lu Yi to the alley.

"Xiang Jiuqi!"

The author has something to say:

Both Lu Yi and Xiang Yang lack love, but their experiences are different.Xiang Yang hid himself in a shell and forced himself to stand in the center of the crowd mainly because of his father's abandonment and fear of Sun Qian's words coming true. He harbored distrust and resistance to everyone in his heart, but his There is no hard-core bullying in the student life, and there is a mother who is very busy but loves him, so the handling method is relatively gentle; the road suspicion is mainly due to the deformity of the original family and the hard-core campus bullying. That's why he built a hard shell and gradually hardened. He has a strong hostility towards everyone. Fortunately, he still had a grandmother who loved him when he was a child, so he still has a soft side in his heart.

They are similar in some ways, but different and complementary in some ways.They both have soft places in their hearts, so they can be moved by each other. With the beginning of the story, and because of the shadow in their hearts, they can heal each other while being healed, and they can go on with each other forever.

Although there is a shell outside the body, it is green and immature, so it may be broken.

They're all slowly changing, the good kind.

The above is the author's thoughts about Orz in the middle of the night (I really have a lot to say)

This is the end of the old story of Lu Yi, the rest is the present continuous tense and the future continuous tense w