Reborn Shadow Emperor's Crown

Chapter 51 Depression is not hypocritical

Li Xingqi changed the script without hesitation, it seemed very casual, without any persistence.But in fact, what he wants to express is clearly reflected in these two scripts.

The core of these two plays - depression.

Li Xingqi was born into a wealthy family, loved by his parents, accompanied by a lovely wife, and successful in his career. He was supposed to be the proud son of heaven, and lived his life recklessly and freely.But he had suffered from depression for nearly a decade, beginning in high school.Although he is now cured after treatment, the experience had a profound impact on him.

When Li Xingqi received the last script, he just felt that the script was wonderful, and a little bit of depression was also in his mind, but the rejection of the script gave him the urge to do it himself, create his own script, and let more people know This disease may help a large group of people who have similar experiences with him.

Li Xingqi changed the script and Yan Mingxuan didn't want to take it anymore. Although his parents and lovers didn't force him not to take the job while he was recovering from the car accident, he didn't want them to worry. In addition, Li Xingqi's capricious changes made him suspicious.

Although rumors of his scandal with Yuan Chenjing were everywhere at the time, making investors shelve their plans to cooperate with him, he was not in a difficult situation yet. Several of his film and television dramas will be broadcast one after another in one or two years, and by then Someone will want to work with him.Even if he didn't, he could still star in a movie invested by Yuanjing Films and rely on his wife to support him.

After Yan Mingxuan refused, Li Xingqi personally talked to him about the original intention of creating this drama.Yan Mingxuan finally agreed to act because Li Xingqi said: "This drama is not a commercial film, there is no large salary, no commercial film exposure, no box office guarantee, and may not win awards. But maybe we can do our best, Do something that has a positive impact on this society."

Yan Mingxuan is usually not a caring person. He has been struggling to achieve his dreams. He has never thought about abstract issues such as what to do for this society. He rarely even participates in public welfare activities, but this time he escaped from death. Let him have some changes.

When this film is shown, people who see it will be subtly affected. Just like in the difficult period of Huaguo, going to the countryside to broadcast the film is a very important means of publicity. The film is an important way for the public to acquire knowledge and shape the three views , although a film now does not have as large an audience base as at that time, nor does it have the influence of that time, but it is still a meaningful thing.

Yan Mingxuan narrowly escaped death again. Before, he felt that his own son, even the rebirth, had caught up with him, and that was for him to realize all the regrets.But seeing Yuan Chenjing's nervousness and the sadness of his parents, he felt that besides the unfulfilled dreams, the most important thing in the rest of his life was to make his loved ones happy, and to do something to prove that his life was meaningful.

This film may be one of them. After reading the script, Yan Mingxuan became more determined to act. If the filming is good, it may not be impossible to win awards. He still has some confidence in Li Xingqi's directing ability.

The protagonist of "Self-salvation of Depression" was created by Li Xingqi based on himself, adding the experience of many patients with depression, and finally formed the male protagonist-Liu Yuan.

August is the hottest time, but Yan Mingxuan has to spend a whole day shooting under the sun.Fortunately, he has an average physique, unlike Xiao Xu who would sweat profusely after standing under the sun for a while, barely able to last one shot before applying makeup.

Liu Yuan, the leading actor in "Self-salvation of Depression", is a graduate student of the Academy of Fine Arts. He has just confirmed that he can stay in school to teach and continue to pursue a doctorate. He has several award-winning works, and a painting can sell for a lot of money.The family situation is good, and I already have a house and a car.

It can be said that he is already a winner in life, but after he cut his wrist and committed suicide, his family members found out that he was suffering from severe depression. After losing the award by one vote, she despises herself and gets demons.Afterwards, self-persecution, parents expect their son to become a dragon, and the comparison with relatives around them is even worse.

Depression is a very complex disease, and the causes are complex and diverse, including environment, genes... Depressed patients are also different, but they all need scientific and systematic treatment.

So it's not that this person is too fragile and has weak willpower, so it's as simple as depression.Maybe it's because of having related genes, maybe it's being too sensitive to sadness perception, etc.

This disease made Liu Yuan always have the urge to commit suicide, so he knew that something was wrong with him. After he almost committed suicide again, he went to a psychological counselor, but was told that he might be suffering from depression, and this disease required professionalism. Branch to see.

Today's scene happened to be when Liu Yuan, played by Yan Mingxuan, returned to school from the hospital, got the prescription medicine prescribed by the doctor, and confide in his friends according to the doctor's advice.

Liu Yuan asked out his best friend and drank a cold drink under the sunshine. After several struggles, Liu Yuan finally told his friend about his depression.

Unexpectedly, my friend replied: "Oh! I am also very depressed recently! Let me tell you..."

Liu Yuan lowered his eyes, with no expression on his pale face, he seemed to be listening carefully to his friend's complaints.He remembered what the doctor said: "Depression is a disease of the brain organs, not an occasional depression. You must take the prescribed medicines on time and tell your relatives and friends about the symptoms.

When some people are sick and want to commit suicide, they have the idea of ​​asking for help. If you discuss it with your relatives and friends, they will pay enough attention to you when you ask for help, and come to stop you, which will save your life. "

In the camera, Yan Mingxuan is obviously smiling, but it makes people feel a little sad. He is obviously asking his friend for help, but the friend doesn't care.

After the filming of this scene, Yan Mingxuan did not get up, and said to Li Xingqi who came over: "Why does he care so little about his friend's depression?"

Li Xingqi seemed to think of bad things, and said lightly: "Because of ignorance... I feel that I have depression because I feel that I am often in a bad mood. There is nothing wrong with this disease.”

"Here comes the cold drink, everyone hurry up and get it, it won't be cold later." The production team sent the midsummer benefits to the crew.

The yelling interrupted the conversation between Li Xingqi and Yan Mingxuan. The two took the assistant and brought them cold drinks, and changed places to discuss the script.

Liu Yuan is a campus star, he really has the ancient style of a stranger like a jade, a unparalleled son, this section is just walking slowly on the campus, and a group of little girls soon surround him.He smiled kindly, but there was always some melancholy mixed in between his brows, which made some girls who had a maternal outburst feel distressed.

They recommended a cute girl to invite Liu Yuan to participate in their summer activities, but Liu Yuan refused without hesitation on the pretext of having something to do.

Liu Yuan couldn't speak to the people around him, so he expressed himself on the Internet, recording his daily mood changes, and began to receive some people's attention, most of them were to comfort him that the present world is good and let him see it better, although there was no comfort to the point It also made Liu Yuan feel warm.

After Liu Yuan wrote more and more on Weibo and became more and more popular, many people dissed him, saying that he was eyeballed by bloggers, and he said that he wanted to commit suicide all day long, but he didn't take any action, pretending to be depressed to gain sympathy, it's really disgusting .

After this incident, Liu Yuan stopped even complaining about such things on the Internet.

On this day, he lay on the bed and looked at the ceiling expressionlessly. He didn't know how long he had been lying there. He muttered to himself: "Should I have dinner?" He slowly got up and walked to the kitchen.

It is not always possible for a depressed patient to control his urge to commit suicide. He picked up the kitchen knife and looked at it blankly for a while, then slashed and slashed his wrist without warning, as if he felt no pain.

Seeing the bright red blood flowing down from his wrist, he laughed happily. His laughter gradually became louder, but his expression gradually became sad. He cried heartbreakingly, put down the kitchen knife, and beat hard Own.

Such intense emotional release seemed to be able to relieve the new injury. After a while, he calmed down, but he didn't move. He just looked at the bleeding wrist and let out a "hehe, hehehe, hehehe..." laugh.

Liu Yuan's mother remembered that her son hadn't called her for a long time, so she wanted to see how her son was doing recently.She cooked the meal, took a taxi for an hour, and finally arrived at her son's residence. She tapped on the door for a while but no one responded, so she opened the door with the spare key.

As soon as he entered the door, he found his son who had cut his wrist and committed suicide.

This scene was over, but Yan Mingxuan lay motionless on the floor, Xiao Xu came over to call him for a while, and then he opened his eyes, but his eyes were not as lively as before, staring at the ceiling numbly.

Seeing him like this, Xiao Xu cried in fright: "Brother Yan, are you okay? Don't scare me!"

"Don't shout, I'm experiencing what it's like to have no attachment to the world."

The onset of depression is passive: passively unable to control suicide; unable to control sadness; unable to control world-weariness.Individuals are different, and the emotions at the time of the onset are not necessarily the same. Some people are dissatisfied with themselves, while others are disgusted with the world and have no nostalgia...

Yan Mingxuan couldn't express all his feelings.So he designed it based on the hero's background, extremely dissatisfied and disappointed with himself.Although his current life is very comfortable in the eyes of many people, his efforts to become an excellent painter since he was a child can only become a teacher.

Not to mention his international fame, his paintings are not well-known in China. Compared with his outstanding relatives, he has achieved nothing but just earning a living.The paintings that he devoted himself to are not appreciated, and he has no inspiration recently. He himself feels that he is a mediocre person. He is simply sorry for the effort his parents spent in hiring him from a young age.

There are also some who have no interest in the world and nostalgia. In some plots in the script, he rejected invitations from friends several times.

Seeing Yan Mingxuan sitting up like nothing happened, Xiao Xu felt a little relieved, but Li Xingqi, who was watching this scene from a distance, frowned.

The author has something to say: when you meet someone who speaks of depression, please don't utter bad words, no matter the truth or falsehood.

Maybe a word of our kindness saved a life.

Even if only one out of a hundred people who say they are depressed is true,

It doesn't hurt us to say a few words of concern.