Stay alive

"Master, son!"

Lin Qiannan's head was dizzy, and he woke up at the call of a woman. He opened his eyes in a daze, and said, "Who are you?"

The woman in front of him was young and plainly dressed, sitting in a wheelchair and looking at him worriedly.It's like an old friend, but she doesn't exist in Lin Qiannan's memory.

"I'm Xiao Le." Xiao Le said with tears in his eyes, "Brother Qian Nan, long time no see."

She had never met Lin Qiannan before, and she could only picture him in her heart based on the memory of her short time together. Now that she saw him, she naturally had mixed feelings.

Lin Qiannan stood up and said, "Xiao Le? I know you are in the palace, and I haven't found a good opportunity to come and see you. It would be nice to come to Han Qi to treat you."

"Your Majesty has treated me very well, thanks to you," Xiao Le's eyes dodged, "You've been in a coma for two days, are you starving? I'll ask them to make some food for you."

Lin Qiannan had a splitting headache and had no appetite, so he said, "No need, I want to see the Princess."

"Princess He'an?" Xiao Le said the title with a sad voice.

Lin Qiannan was stunned, "What's wrong?"

Xiao Le didn't speak.

Lin Qiannan sensed that something was wrong, and ran out of the side hall regardless of Xiao Le's obstruction.

The warm sun hung high outside, unable to shine into his cold body.The palace people turned a blind eye when they saw him, and let him run around. He met Han Qi who had just come out of the main hall.

"Where's Ya'er?!" Lin Qiannan grabbed his lapel.

Han Qi's eyes were black and blue, and his brows exaggerated the hostility, as if life and death could be pronounced in the next moment.But when he saw Lin Qiannan, he immediately suppressed his unhappiness, and asked with concern, "Is your body feeling better? It's cold, and I don't want to add more clothes when I go out."

Lin Qiannan was wearing thin and clean clothes, which he put on after he passed out.

Lin Qiannan stared at him, "I ask you, where is Ya'er?!"

The father-in-law next to Han Qi wanted to warn them, but couldn't say anything. Han Qi told them to back down, but kept silent to Lin Qiannan.

"Where's Ya'er?" Lin Qiannan repeated over and over again.

Terrible silence circulated between the two, only Lin Qiannan kept asking Ya'er.

Han Qi's skirt was torn by him, "Qiannan, I'll ask Yushanfang to make you something light..." Lin Qiannan punched him in the face.

Lin Qiannan grabbed his collar again to prevent him from falling off.

Some of the surrounding palace people noticed what they were doing, and none of them dared to step forward to find out. After all, Han Qi was always weak in front of Lin Qiannan.

"Tell me!" Lin Qiannan roared at him, "Say something!"

"Ya'er, the accident two days ago..." Han Qi couldn't bear to look at him.

"Accident?" Lin Qiannan became much quieter.

"She's dead." Han Qi drooped his head.

"Dead..." Lin Qiannan said flatly.

Han Qi looked at him, "The Prime Minister took her home."

Lin Qiannan felt that something had collapsed, he couldn't feel his breathing, he couldn't move his body, he was just so stiff.

Lin Qiannan tried his best to speak a complete sentence, as if muttering to himself: "This is not her home."

"Qiannan, listen to me..."

"Ah—" Lin Qiannan roared in despair, as if wanting to vent all his grief.Heart-piercing pain spread from the heart to the bone and blood.

Ya'er, she's only 20 years old...

it's all my fault……

Unable to bear the heart-piercing pain, Lin Qiannan's eyes went dark.Han Qi hugged the fainted Lin Qiannan pitifully, and after sending him back to the side hall, he called the imperial physician from the imperial hospital to diagnose and treat Lin Qiannan.

"Where's Wei Tao?" Han Qi asked.

The Imperial Physician: "The Imperial Physician Wei said that he left it to His Majesty to dispose of."

"Heh..." Han Qi sneered, and ran his fingers across Lin Qiannan's thin cheeks, "How will I deal with him..." He is Lin Qiannan's only relative.

Lin Qiannan could hear Han Qi's voice, but his body was like a heavy weight falling down. He subconsciously didn't want to wake up until a rush of heat poured into his mouth.

Lin Qiannan overturned the medicine bowl in Wei Tao's hand, "Uncle, please tell me what happened."

The medicinal juice was spilled, and Wei Tao held the medicinal bowl tightly. He felt so guilty that he said, "I killed the princess. If you want to blame, you can blame uncle."

The bronze mirror in front of the bed reflected Lin Qiannan's ashen face, and he saw that the cinnabar mole on his forehead had completely disappeared.What replaced it was a lingering sadness in my heart.

It turns out that pain is like this.

If I knew this earlier, why bother to pursue it?

"why?"

"The queen is safe, and the prince is also safe."

"You should understand... Uncle also has difficulties," Wei Tao said, "It's a sacred order, after all, the queen is the queen."

"Han Qi, Han Qi, I really want to hate you," Lin Qiannan laughed at himself, "It's all my fault, it's all my fault!"

"But what's wrong with Ya'er..."

"Qiannan, what's wrong with you? If you want to blame Uncle, Uncle will give you his life, but you should take care of your body first, the poison in your body can no longer be suppressed."

Lin Qiannan raised his wrist, and the black curves covered his meridians, "Uncle, you go out first, and leave me alone."

After Wei Tao cleared up the mess, he went out when he heard suppressed sobs inside. The unrelenting cries made Wei Tao feel that his choice was wrong.

"Uncle is for your own good."

Wei Tao concealed some things. He could no longer put Lin Qiannan in danger. As for Zhao Huanya, that was his crime, but for the sake of his family, he was willing to bear this crime.

Lin Qiannan squeezed his wrist to hold back the useless tears, but even if he broke his wrist, he couldn't resist the sadness that had been stored for five years.

He still loves Han Qi, no longer desperate, pure and fearless, pure love, but this love is no longer enough to support him to stay by Han Qi's side.

Lin Qiannan, are you willing to kill everyone who loves you?

No...he doesn't want to love anymore, since he can't hate, then he won't be full of fruitless love anymore.Love is too heavy, and he is the only one who flies into the flames and binds himself from the beginning to the end.

People who have died once should become clearer, even if they are devastated, they are not willing to stay in Yu Country again.

He wanted to go back to the southern country and take Zhao Huanya with him.

Lin Qiannan cooperated with the imperial physicians in the diagnosis and treatment, and never said anything about what happened two days in advance. Han Qi came once, and Lin Qiannan pretended that he didn't exist, and just went into a daze to himself.

"Is it better?" Han Qi asked while sitting by the bed.

Lin Qiannan turned his body on his side, with his back to him, pretending to be asleep.

Han Qi took his hand, but was pulled back violently by Lin Qiannan, the resistance was obviously hurtful.

"I asked you if you feel better?" Han Qi asked.

Lin Qiannan still didn't speak, and didn't even want to look him in the eye.

After all, he is a proud person. The cold treatment for a few days has emptied Han Qi's self-esteem. Han Qi squeezed his jaw and forced him to look at him, "Are you dumb?"

Lin Qiannan closed his eyes uncomfortably, and pulled Han Qi's ruthless hand vigorously.

"Since she's still alive, who should she act like she's dying? She's already dead, and she doesn't blame anyone. She is willing to die." Han Qi's heart was full of comforting words, which came to his lips. And full of duplicity.

"What about me?" Lin Qiannan smiled with difficulty, opened his eyes and said, "I am willing to die, why am I still alive?"

"Ya'er wanted to marry me with all her heart, she wanted to live well, why did she die?" Lin Qiannan's eyes became more and more confused, "Your Majesty, can you tell me why?"

The gap between the two was hard to close, and Han Qi felt sad, but he would not explain it to him.

Lin Qiannan laughed again.All of them have their own difficulties, and they have unspeakable secrets, making him look like a fool, like a puppet, allowing them to manipulate him.

"I don't want you to die." Han Qi let go of his hands.

"Then I have to live? Your majesty is really powerful enough to keep me, a person who should have died long ago, alive." Lin Qiannan lay flat, the confusion in his eyes disappeared, "The former emperor slaughtered my whole family, and your majesty killed my wife." ...Yu Kingdom and I have really played tricks on people, if only I died sooner, I don't care if I die sooner and never reincarnate. As long as my family, Ya'er, can be returned to me."

Han Qi lay down beside him, embraced him, and whispered "Qiannan" in his ear.Another teardrop fell from the corner of Lin Qiannan's eye. Sure enough, the tears he hadn't shed for five years will all be shed in the past few days.

Han Qi didn't dare to guess whether Lin Qiannan remembered what happened five years ago, he hoped not, and hoped that Lin Qiannan would never remember it for the rest of his life, even if Lin Qiannan hated him now.But it doesn't matter, in another two days, everything will be fine.

After Han Qi left, someone Lin Qiannan wanted to meet came along—Zhao Huanya's personal maid, Yan'er.

"General!" Yan'er knelt down in front of Lin Qiannan.

Lin Qiannan got out of bed to help her up.

"General, Yan'er came with Miss' words," Yan'er didn't have time to cry, and took out the kit with shaking hands, "This is Miss's most cherished item. To the General."

Lin Qiannan took it over, but was reluctant to open it for a long time. Zhao Huanya made it herself with poor sewing skills. She once said that she would make one for him when she was finished, so she kept the first kit for herself. thing.

"General... princess..." Yan'er broke down in tears, choking on the ground, "Princess... her body is still in the prime minister's mansion, she said when she was dying..."

Lin Qiannan gently tore open the brochure bag, and the goal was the puppies and cats woven by Gu Xiezi. They were all things that Lin Qiannan wove casually, but Zhao Huanya collected them and carried them with her.

The weeds had withered and turned yellow, and the milky-white kit had turned light red, with dried blood on the edge of the kit.

"The princess said...she wants to go home," Yan'er said intermittently, "she wants to go home with you."

Lin Qiannan squeezed the kit tightly.

"The princess died in front of the servant... She shed a lot of blood. She was originally healthy, but in front of the servant, only her mouth could move. The servant listened to what she said with a half-knowledge. Only this sentence, the servant listened carefully .The servant begged the general to grant the princess' wish!"

Lin Qiannan took a deep breath, his fingertips turned white, "What else did she say?"

"I don't dare to guess," Yan'er's voice became softer, "The princess said that she doesn't blame the empress...she also said...she likes you, but she can't marry you..."

Yan'er recalled the shocking scene at that time.

Everyone rushed into the hall, His Majesty was extremely furious, the queen and princess were covered in blood, the queen's complexion became more and more rosy, and the princess' complexion became paler and paler.

His Majesty was angry with every imperial doctor who shook his head, and even kicked them, but even if they were kicked to death, they were powerless.

Taking advantage of the confusion, she ran to Zhao Huanya's side. Zhao Huanya raised her hand and put the kit in her hand. She looked in shock at Zhao Huanya whose wrists were cut.

"Yan'er..." Zhao Huanya's bright eyes dimmed.

She forgot to cry for a while, and lay down beside her and said: "Princess, the servant is here!"

"I want to go home, to the Southland..." Zhao Huanya said, "Where is Brother Qiannan? He's fine... cough... is he okay?"

"General, he's fine, princess, we'll go back to the southern country right away when you get better!" she said.

Zhao Huanya smiled, "Exchanging blood hurts...I'm so tired..."

"Princess, wait a little longer, the general is coming soon!"

"Brother Qiannan can't see me. I look so scary..." Zhao Huanya raised her eyelids with difficulty, "They are so noisy...Yan'er...if my father asks...you tell him, I don't Weird sister..."

"And..." Zhao Huanya paused at this point, and then smiled with relief, "Tell Brother Qiannan for me that I won't wait for him...don't ask him...remember me..." Zhao Huanya Eyelids fluttered, almost drooping, "I don't believe in an afterlife...I think...my only regret in this life...is not marrying him...becoming his wife..."

"Princess!" When she saw the man with his mouth moving but his eyes closed, she was terrified and called her repeatedly.

She put her ear close to Zhao Huanya's mouth, and only then did she hear her last words clearly.

"I love him for the rest of my life."

No one came to bother her and the princess, and she heard the noble man behind him muttering to himself.

"Ya'er, I'm sorry."

Yan'er withdrew her thoughts, and briefly explained that cruel memory to Lin Qiannan.Lin Qiannan fell down on the edge of the bed, looking at the kit in his hand expressionlessly.

"The servant girl has taken the initiative to pass the news of the situation in Yu Kingdom to Feige back to the South Kingdom." Shen Tuxuan arranged Yan'er by Zhao Huanya's side, so there was no need to explain to Lin Qiannan.

"I'll go to the Prime Minister's Mansion to pick her up." Lin Qiannan said, "Yan'er, wait for me at the post station, and we'll go back to the Southern Kingdom the day after tomorrow."

The imperial palace is the same as before, including the prime minister's mansion.With one less person and one more person, life will still pass.Zhao Huanya's funeral was not arranged in a big way, I don't know if it was Han Qi's intention.

The mourning hall was set up in a small corner of the prime minister's mansion, and Lin Qiannan met Zhao Zhangrui in the mourning hall.

The old man knelt in front of the futon with his back straight. When he heard footsteps, he turned his head to look, and the light in his eyes disappeared when he saw the person coming.

"The emperor declared that Huanya had returned to the southern country and would not let the old man hold a funeral for his beloved daughter." Zhao Zhangrui said.

The mourning hall was really small, and the coffin and tablet were not visible, only a pot of ceramics was placed in front of it. Lin Qiannan instantly understood that Ya'er had been cremated.

What did he do? !

Lin Qiannan had a sweet taste in his throat, swallowed hard, and walked to the ceramic pot with heavy steps, looking at the small ceramic pot with broken eyes.

It contained the girl who loved her the most.

Lin Qiannan picked up the ceramic pot and apologized hastily when he left, "I'm sorry."

Zhao Zhangrui looked at him with old eyes, which had the meaning of driving away.

Lin Qiannan didn't know where to go. In the bustling capital, he walked alone and couldn't find a place to stay.In the past few years, it was really a failure.

Unknowingly, Lin Qiannan walked to Qi Zhishun's medical clinic, which was no different from before except for the dilapidated plaque.

"Master Lin?!" Qi Zhishun put down his work.

Lin Qiannan stopped at the door, holding something in his hands, in a dilemma.He doesn't want to disturb others.

Qi Zhishun invited him in and prepared plain chrysanthemum tea for him, "It's Mr. Lin?! I haven't seen you for many years, but you are just like before."

Lin Qiannan smiled, "Qi Zhishun, you haven't changed much."

"You..." Qi Zhishun was still shocked, but he didn't ask, and treated him as a friend.

Lin Qiannan waited quietly, waiting for him to finish the work at hand and close the clinic.Qi Zhishun served simple food and wine, and the two ate in silence facing the oil lamp.

"Mr. Lin, is it in your hand?" Qi Zhishun asked.

Lin Qiannan ate the rice in one bite, and said calmly, "My wife's ashes."

Qi Zhishun put down his chopsticks, Lin Qiannan thought that his words spoiled his appetite, so he also put down his chopsticks.

"Although I don't know what happened, Mr. Lin has heard a folk legend?" Qi Zhishun laughed.

Lin Qiannan heaved a sigh of relief, his stomach was empty, he felt hungry only after he left the palace, and he picked up chopsticks and ate his meal again.

Seeing that he was interested, Qi Zhishun said, "There is a kind of flower among the people, called Yuanluo, with five snow-white petals, which is really beautiful. In the past, when wars raged, the soldiers who went to the battlefield returned not corpses, but ashes. A predestined seed, the seed bears flowers, as if a dead person came back to life in another way. The predestined flower will never wither in its lifetime, and will always maintain the most beautiful state."

Lin Qiannan paused, and said, "Yuanluo?"

"Yes, it's called Yuanluo." Qi Zhishun said, "I happened to find a seed of Yuanluo. If you need it, I can give it to you."

Lin Qiannan nodded, "Thank you."

Qi Zhishun found Yuanluo and gave it to him.Lin Qiannan pinched this small, round, snow-white seed on his fingertips for a long time, then opened the ceramic pot and put the seeds in.

Zhao Huanya likes all kinds of flowers very much, and also likes spring very much, but she falls in early winter.

The door of the medical hall was slammed by force, and Lin Qiannan subconsciously hugged the ceramic jar tightly.Qi Zhishun was frightened out of his wits, and frantically looked for a sharp weapon for self-defense.

Outside the door was the orderly footsteps of officers and soldiers.Lin Qiannan said: "Qi Zhishun, please do me a favor."

Qi Zhishun stood firm and said, "My lord, it's okay to say."

"Help me take this to the post station, to a girl named Yan'er, she has a mole in the corner of her eye, don't mistake it." Lin Qiannan handed him the ceramic jar.

Qi Zhishun accepted it.

The door opened, and the first person to barge in was Han Qi in black plain clothes. He saw the steady Lin Qiannan, and his tense face relaxed.

"Come back with me." Han Qi couldn't refuse.

Nonsense was useless, Lin Qiannan followed him out of the hospital with an expressionless face, and returned to the suffocating palace.

After closing the door, Han Qi turned around and looked at the indifferent Lin Qiannan.

"Qiannan, do you believe..." Han Qi still wanted to say this.

The crisp sound echoed in the hall, Lin Qiannan slapped him, and didn't want to hear him say that again.

The red marks appeared on Han Qi's cheeks, and he smiled: "Will you be happy if you hit me?"

"Han Qi, there is no trust between you and me." Lin Qiannan said, "If you don't want me to hate you, then don't let me see you."

The author has something to say:

Goofy text is really cool

(A stepmother said by the author)