The actor's father who ran away from home

How much love do you have to not remember?

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"I can't remember who Huo Bai is."

This is what Jiang Yizhuo said to Tang Hao after he woke up.

Tang Hao still remembers the feeling of that moment, the sunshine pouring in from the window, the warmth of spring, he was immersed in the joy of his loved one finally waking up after sleeping for a year, the whole world became very bright.

Then Jiang Yizhuo asked him. "Huo Bai, who am I?"

"..."

In the bright world, distracting thoughts penetrate like ghosts.Tang Hao forced a smile and asked. "Then do you remember who I am?"

Jiang Yizhuo held his hand with a bright face. "You're my boyfriend, sweetheart."

Tang Hao was silent for a while, and then tried to keep his tone as calm as possible. "Huo Bai is your friend, a good friend like a relative."

He wasn't lying.However, he only told half the truth.Jiang Yizhuo had no doubts, but was a little confused. "I remember everything else, why can't I remember anything about him?"

"Just woke up, don't think too much." Tang Hao comforted, "I'll take you to see a doctor when you feel better."

"it is good."

Jiang Yizhuo held his arm weakly.The originally strong and strong body, after lying on the bed for a year, has completely changed, becoming thin and weak.Tang Hao saw the knuckles that could almost be seen in the shape of bones, felt sad for a while, and looked away.

"You sleep a little longer."

"Ah."

Jiang Yizhuo nodded without thinking, he didn't know.Not only could he not remember about Huo Bai, he also lost some important memories.

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Taking advantage of Jiang Yizhuo falling asleep, Tang Hao handed him over to the nurse, and went to the courtyard outside the ward building to breathe.

The sun is really good.As the winter passed, Brother Yi Zhuo finally woke up.Tang Hao lit a cigarette.In the past, he was not very addicted to cigarettes, but now he smokes a few cigarettes every day.

Nursing an unconscious person is not an easy life.Looking forward to him waking up every day is suffering.After suffering until despair, force yourself to recover a little bit of reason, and continue to look forward to it.

The ivy has covered one wall lushly and lushly. During this year, Tang Hao has regarded this place as his home and is very familiar with every inch of it.He often sits here, staring at the green leaves in a daze.Dress plainly, and sometimes don't even shave, no matter how good-looking they are, no one can see them.

He chose to leave during the rising period of his career, and devoted himself to accompanying Jiang Yizhuo, who had become a vegetable, in the hospital.His days as a star are far away now.Even if Jiang Yizhuo becomes a director again and allows himself to act again, it will probably be a long time later.

"Why did you forget?"

A line of tears flowed down his cheeks.Tang Hao never expected such a result.He hoped that Jiang Yizhuo would wake up, hope that he would be moved by himself who was by his side, and then choose to forgive.He did all this for atonement.At that time, he cheated the man he loved so much, and wanted to make up for his mistakes by sacrificing others and staying by his side.

Tang Hao wiped away his tears fiercely.He didn't understand whether it was God's reward or punishment for him.Jiang Yizhuo forgot that he loved Huo Bai, and also forgot his deception.

"What should I do?"

Tang Hao covered his face, tears streaming down silently again.Originally, the man woke up and made him so happy, but he fell into such a dilemma.

He was faced with difficult choices as he was back then.To tell him the truth?Or, hide everything?

At that time, he wanted to speak countless times, but he couldn't speak.It was a fluke for a long time, thinking that it was all right, and finally was swayed by Shen Shixi who was already in prison.

But now Shen Shixi is no longer alive.There are no more people in this world who know what happened before.

Tell Jiang Yizhuo that Huo Bai is his favorite person.As long as Huo Bai is around, he will always be at the back in his heart.Not to mention adding that deceitful past.

Tang Hao knew how hostile he was to Huo Bai.Even if he approached with a destination, that man gave him so much love that he had never had in his life when he was at his worst.

At that time, he was humble and insignificant, living in the shadow of another person and wanted to grasp this happiness.

Tang Hao recalled the bleak past and uttered a small sob.Now the choice is his.As long as Jiang Yizhuo's memory never recovers, he can choose not to speak.But there is always a possibility of recovery.

On that day, he will be abandoned again.

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"Brother Yizhuo, you don't know how I got here this year."

Tang Hao sat beside the hospital bed, carefully feeding him mouthfuls of food.His ability to take care of patients this year can be said to have reached the level of professional nursing.It was the first time to feed like this, and Jiang Yizhuo, who was in a coma, relied on liquid food.

"I know. I wouldn't wake up without you."

Jiang Yizhuo's voice was full of tenderness.He believed that it was Tang Hao's perseverance that made him finally wake up.His memory was really fuzzy, and he couldn't even recall why he drove so absent-mindedly.Just remember the last scene where he crashes horribly into that speeding van.

"It's fine when you wake up. After your body recovers slowly, you can continue to be a director." Tang Hao replied with a smile.

...Jiang Yizhuo was able to walk around for a while, so he wanted to see a doctor to check for problems related to memory.Tang Hao gritted his teeth and took him there, but he couldn't escape this hurdle anyway.

The doctor took brain films, performed many psychological tests, and asked many questions.The final conclusion is a partial memory impairment, which is the so-called "selective amnesia".

"It will not have any impact on life. So there is no need to deliberately recall it."

"Could it be that one day, the forgotten things suddenly come to mind?"

Jiang Yizhuo asked, still worried about this.Tang Hao glanced at him carefully, trying to figure out what was going on in his mind.

"There is indeed such a possibility. So there is no need to worry. Being too anxious or too nervous will cause counterproductive effects. Just be normal."

"Thank you doctor."

Tang Hao helped Jiang Yizhuo up, ready to leave.Unexpectedly, the man took a few steps, then turned around and continued to ask. "I want to know why this symptom occurs? Could it be, what was the stimulus before?"

Tang Hao was startled, and the whole body supporting him became stiff.Even if he couldn't remember, did Brother Yi Zhuo notice something, otherwise why would he ask such a question?

The other party thought for a while and answered. "Part of the memory impairment may be psychological or pathological. If it is psychological, it may indeed be caused by mental stimulation. You can also ask people around you to help you sort out what happened before. In short Just don’t rush it.”

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