side of no chance

Four

It was already a few weeks later when I saw her again. This period was the busy period of work. I wanted to take time to see her, but she refused.As the temperature plummeted, Ah Chen honestly put on a warm coat.She often looks at the snowy sky and wonders if she will come to take care of herself if she is sick.Let out a self-deprecating laugh, thinking that it is impossible.

"I'm really naive sometimes." The corners of her mouth curled up, but there was no smile in her eyes.

But this meeting was not pleasant.The table was obviously his favorite food, Ah Chen gasped uncontrollably, but he still had to endure it desperately, his brain swelled like a lack of oxygen.He let out a long sigh in resignation, took a bite of the tomato, held his thigh tightly with his hands, and tried to maintain his calm, saying, "Sister, today's dishes are so salty."

"Yes...is it?"

"Well, I'm going back."

He hangs his head motionless. "knew."

The sound of pulling out the chair turned out to be so ear-piercing, I never thought about it.The door opens and closes, but it seems to be blocked from the whole world, like a glass ball with snowflakes, full of unreality.

"Ah Chen..." Mumbling and crying without volume, exhausting all her strength, she buried her head in her arms, it was so dark and uncomfortable.

I closed the door with my own hands, and the cold wind made people tremble, bringing some sobriety.As if fleeing, Ah Chen avoided the huge hands behind her, which tried to strangle her throat, and penetrated her body again and again, causing infinite pain.When she fell from the steps to the ground, the real pain in her feet made her finally cry out.Barely standing up, every step brought a huge sense of tearing, making her have to clenched her jaw.But why.Why does it feel that compared to the heartache, the personal pain at this time is nothing at all, and it even allows her to breathe.

Man, that's weird.

When I realized it, I was sitting on a bench in the park, the surrounding was very lively, but I was shivering from the cold.

She began to regret it.

If not into this company.

If it wasn't for her to take her for an internship!

If I hadn't moved my heart...

If none of this had happened, it wouldn't have hurt so much.Even if I am a half-hearted self, I have never thought of regretting the word.Even if I stumbled forward, I never thought that one day, I would want to go back to the past and stop everything at the source.How could it be so embarrassing.Her fingers turned white and she clutched at the bench.

Suddenly, she laughed so hard that tears came out of her eyes.

What an asshole myself.Obviously he was unwilling to give up, when she chose to get married to escape this relationship, he told her that it was okay, even if he couldn't see the light, he would stay by her side.Ha ha ha ha.I'm an asshole myself.

Understand.Everything now is just continuing on the normal track.How normal it is to get married and have children.

No one can stand in front of a couple and tell them no.

People like myself are even less qualified.

Ah Chen wiped away her tears, pulled up the hood of her down jacket, and it was snowing again.Dragging his feet that were constantly tingling, he walked forward.It's time to get to the bottom of it.It was wrong from the beginning, and now it is just crossing out the discordant sound of myself, why do I have these emotions?It's the fault of the self who was too greedy, the fault of the self who thought he could hide and relax without being discovered, the fault of the self who closed his eyes when it should have ended long ago.

Ahh—it hurts, why does my foot hurt so much.

Ah Chen, half asleep and half awake, got on the bus.

The dark, empty and silent house was broken by the sound of keys turning.A corner in the darkness suddenly made a zla sound.

"Why don't you turn on the light." The man turned on the light in the dark.

The voice fell silent again.

"I come back every day with such a bitter face, and I'm tired of seeing it." The man threw the clothes he took off on the sofa casually, not hiding his disgust at all, "What I told you last time, I'm doing something wrong." Bar."

After not getting a response for a long time, the man became even more impatient.

"I told you that I would check it." Seeing that Ling was more dull than usual, the man grabbed his hair irritably, then softened his temper and continued, "You should do a good job preparing for pregnancy."

"You can live with your lover." The voice was like a mosquito, weak but calm.

"If it wasn't for the sake of my family, I would have had sex with you! It would be a bad luck to see you." Xu Shi knew that she had no ability to resist, so the man cursed a few words and walked towards the back room.

Ling stared blankly at her hand, the ring on it strangled her finger.

Before Ah Chen appeared, he had never considered another possibility. It turns out that girls can also like girls.In line with the principle that the seniors should guide the younger generations, she treated her with a gentle attitude.At that time, she never imagined that the person Ah Chen liked would be herself.A cowardly and incompetent person who follows the rules like himself is actually liked by others.Her liking is too dazzling, and her eyes are always shining, making people want to get close.It is obviously such scorching energy, but it will not be burned at all.

However, after all, he was just the one standing at the end, the one who waited for everyone else to get what he wanted to get the rest.The self who is resigned to many things has long since lost the power to be desperate for something.

So, despite being happy, I escaped.

Get married in a hurry with someone you only met a few times, and move forward steadily according to the stage of life.That's how it should be.I used to have expectations for life, but in the end I was still chilled.It is God's punishment for himself, and he has brought pain to others.

"If it wasn't for my sister's unfortunate marriage, I probably wouldn't have a place for me." Ah Chen's words obviously sounded so harsh, but they were inexplicably reassuring.

"The term of being together is always decided by my sister, isn't it?"

I was wrong.Ling said calmly in her heart.

There is never anything easy to get together or part, but if you put your heart into it, it will be more or less ugly when you separate.

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