complacent

Didn't sleep well all night.In the dream, Adonis has been playing the piano, which is the song "La La Land" LaLaLand.

Sad, lonely, unable to find a way out in the fog, hesitating and walking alone.

After a while, it was another private conversation with Brother Tian in the clubhouse.

[Sun Yangyang, you promised me that you have nothing to do with Joey or Antonis... Fuck!I understand!I made it possible for you two to be together, right?I shouldn't fucking have allowed you to go to the villa with Joey!Sun Yangyang, you are going to give me a stroke! ...Sun Yangyang, what do you want, please tell me! 】

In the dream, Sun Yangyang saw himself with his head bowed from mid-air, turning a bottle of beer in his hand.

【Brother Tian, ​​nothing will happen to me and Joey.You also know that I will not openly come out about homosexuality in China. Joey is only 19 years old, which is the age when he acts impulsively.I admit that I like him, but soon he will return to the United States, so that the two places are separated, and no one can say what the result will be.Brother Tian, ​​don't ask me, I am also very confused about where I will go. 】

Brother Tian pondered, at least his face looked better.

[Where did you go with him?Home run?Are you wearing a condom?Americans are very open in this regard, so don't give you any more illnesses. 】

Sun Yangyang's face turned red like a persimmon.

[No, brother Tian, ​​what do you think. 】

Brother Tian sighed, speaking earnestly.

【Yangyang, listen to brother.Just play around, don't think about it for so long.unrealistic.Regardless of your growth background, the colored glasses of the real world, or even your own development, no one will be optimistic about your relationship.If you want to play, I turn a blind eye and close my eyes. There is only one principle, no, two.On the one hand, it is confidential and paparazzi-proof.On the other hand, safety measures must be taken... This is as worrying as bringing female artists, women are afraid of getting pregnant, and men are afraid of getting sick. 】

【Brother Tian, ​​I'm not playing, even though I don't know how long I'll be with Joey, but we're definitely not the kind you think...】

[Then what do you want?Talk about a good relationship, and the time is ripe to announce it to the public?To meet parents?If necessary, become a U.S. citizen and then marry? !Sun Yangyang, can you wake up?I forgive you this time for your innocent little virgin, because reality will soon give you and Joey a slap in the face.Brother Tian has seen a lot!Stir-fried tofu is okay, and now the little girl especially eats this set.I can help you when necessary, whether it's Joey or Adonis, but it's all hype, it's fake! 】

Sun Yangyang twitched in his dream, struggled as if he fell off a cliff in weightlessness, and woke up from sleep.

It was still dark, the darkest hour of the day.

The sky is like a pot, the color is like thick ink, and there is no dawn.

Sun Yangyang reached out his hand to touch a cigarette and lit it, took a deep breath, rubbed it up, and sat on the head of the bed, not feeling sleepy.

[The more I object now, the more you want to fight against it.Sun Yangyang, think about it yourself.I just talked to Director Zheng tonight, and he has a character that is very suitable for you. Although it is the third male, the character design is very pleasing.It's just that the time to enter the group is a little faster, less than a month from now.I was hesitant at first, but your current schedule is scheduled for May 22st. Now it seems that it would be good to send you to the film crew.One is to be calm and calm, and the other is to have a suitable actress to hype up a scandal or something.You are already [-], and there are no scandals, and all kinds of dirty water suspicions will come immediately.Don't stare at me, I'm doing it for your own good...]

Sighing in frustration, Sun Yangyang supported his forehead with the hand holding the cigarette.

What should he do?

[Before going to the production team, I worked overtime to catch up with the previous announcements. Then I went to the production team for a month and a half, and then I will be on a national tour. I will contact radio and television stations in various cities to strive for variety shows or interviews.I will go to Semporna to record the MV in July, and release the album together with it in August.It’s almost [-] after this lap. By the way, Adonis’s proposal is very good, since it’s said that cooperation seems to be the case.After the [-]th, your main work energy will still be in City B, take the time to connect with Xu Gang, and see how you can get involved in that concert and increase your exposure...]

The young man's eyes were confused and helpless in the night.

He just wants to make music quietly, why did it become like this?

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The repeated shooting of that advertisement almost made Sun Yangyang vomit.

Impatient anger was fermenting, pushing against the sensitive and fragile strings of the young man, ready to break at any moment.

Probably the advertiser saw that his face was too stinky, so he raised his hand to stop, and arranged for his assistant to buy coffee and afternoon tea, and take a short break for a quarter of an hour.

I have two unread messages on my phone.One is Joey's.One is gold and steel.

Sun Yangyang lowered his head, hesitated for a moment, and clicked on the voice sent by Jin Gang first.

It's his buddies.

The background sound is noisy and chaotic, sporadic drums, the movement of guitar strings, and Lulu's laughter.

Sun Yangyang could figure out that their joy of playing music freely in the studio came from the bottom of their hearts.

"Yang'er, when will you be able to do some business and come back to join us? For the full moon, Wu Bing has a better idea, and I will wait for you to come back to decide. Also, you are our Liuxi's Dinghaishenzhen, and you will arrive in one day." Those who are busy at night just don't come to practice songs, I think you are in need of repairs, don't you? Or, are you planning to switch to the traffic small fresh meat to make quick money?"

Covering his face and rubbing it, Sun Yangyang let out a long sigh of relief, turned down the volume, and listened to Joey's song by his ear.

At the beginning, it was a piece of music with Wu Nong's soft language and buzzing noises, like the taste of luxury and money in the old Shanghai Shili Yangchang.Immediately afterwards, there was Joey's vivid tone of voice so excited that his eyebrows flew up.

"Brother Yangyang, I found a few old CDs! They are great! I have some inspiration, I'm going back to the hotel to write it down, and add it to my next album. The name is ForChinese, ForLover! How about it?!"

After listening to the voice, Sun Yangyang did not relax at all, but became more depressed.

Why are they all doing happy things so enviable, but I am the only one who is acting like a fool, doing things that block my heart?Exposure is so important?Is it that important to have millions of fans across the country?Is it so important to become a "successful" entertainer with a kidnapped mask?

FUCK!

"Brother Yangyang," the little assistant reminded timidly, "It's time."

Putting down the phone and looking up, I happened to meet the milk tea in the assistant's hand.

Ahhh!Why the hell am I selling milk tea!

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"I'm going. I promised Sun Deyi that I will definitely go see you off." Sun Yangyang held his mobile phone, feeling angry and didn't know where to send it. He walked around anxiously, trying to reason with Brother Tian: "To be a man, you have to say what you say. There is a letter! Besides, I will pay attention, so that the paparazzi will not find out. Besides, what is the point even if I find out?! Didn’t I already sign a cooperation agreement? I can’t represent the company to send two friends away? Besides, the official website also said , I have a very close personal relationship with Joey. It's normal to go to the plane to see you off!"

"No." Brother Tian categorically refused: "If I were you, I would hurry up and go to bed now. Because tomorrow morning will start at 10:30 am, and you will have to go back and forth, and you won't have any private time until [-]:[-] at night. You don't have time to go to the airport."

Sun Yangyang wanted to scold someone: "Brother Tian, ​​I just want to talk to you about this. I don't think I want to waste my most precious time selling Laoshizi milk tea or suits or damn watches! I just want to do it well Music, I'm the lead singer of a band! Look what I've become now? I'm busy all day long, and I don't have anything to do. I don't have time to participate in my band rehearsals. Except for going to the recording studio, I just follow The same as the honorary frontman! Ha, that's so fucking ironic!"

"Sun Yangyang, why are you losing your temper?!" Brother Tian was also very annoyed, and the volume increased: "You don't want to take advantage of your youthful appearance and someone pushes you to make more money. What do you want to do? Make music? Do you want to starve to death like Lao Yang?" ? To save 400 yuan to live in the basement?! You can only eat one pack of instant noodles a day, just for the ridiculous, so-called ideal?! These days, what the hell can the ideal do? Can it fill your stomach and keep you alive? You Talking about ideals with fans? Who buys your account?! Sun Yangyang, you are so naive!"

"Brother Tian, ​​I don't quarrel with you." Sun Yangyang was so angry that his brain hurt, he took a deep breath and tried to calm down: "I know you are doing it for my own good. But now I don't like this kind of myself more and more. Strange, vain, slippery, There is no principle. Slowly, even those inspirations will be lost.”

"I know what you like," Brother Tian said angrily, "You like being with Joey, right? That can stimulate your creative inspiration, right? It's best to think about how to do it along the way Concert, to promote traditional Chinese folk music, such as erhu, right? Who gave you the confidence!? Xu Gang? Yes, he is doing this now, and it looks pretty good in the past. But he has passed away! He does it You can’t even gather [-] people for a concert! Sun Yangyang, can you be more sober.”

"I'm sober, like never before." Sun Yangyang closed his eyes and opened them again, his tone was not annoyed but serious: "Perhaps in your eyes, that paper cooperation agreement is just a show. It can solve the bad rumors on the Internet in the short term, but in the long run I can take this opportunity to hype it up. From the perspective of a businessman, Brother Tian, ​​you don’t believe that such a concert can be held at all, right? Also, it’s thankless, maybe even 500 people can’t come, there is no influence and no income , why do such a thing? Just for ideals?"

The young man paused, chuckled, and said in an extremely firm tone, "Yes, just for ideals. I could see the light and passion in Adonis' eyes, and I could hear Joey's ecstatic joy when he found an old record. I could feel it. Lao Yang and Lao Yang’s consistent fiery heart under the lack of material. Also, Brother Tian, ​​I respect you very much, because you have been helping me since I signed the contract. But, I have to say, Brother Gang is also someone I respect and admire very much, and it is no exaggeration to say that he is my idol. You can’t say that about him, at least not in front of my face.”

The wall clock on the wall ticked to ten o'clock, and outside the window, except for the lights of thousands of houses, there was only a silent night.

"I want to do something seriously, even if it's just a little bit. Like my dad said, who's a little fresh meat? Isn't that a curse? Heh... As for the fans. If you find out about me, I will lose my life." Sun Yangyang heaved a sigh of relief: "Now, I listen to you, Brother Tian, ​​I want to find something happy to do."

After hanging up the phone, Sun Yangyang kept picking up the car keys and strode out the door.

I have never been so urgent, I want to see Joey, I want to tell him that no matter what the future holds, the happiness now is real.Even if we have to separate one day, it must not be the helplessness of succumbing to reality.