my school boy

Shen Shucheng, who was struggling to wake up from the bed in the morning, glanced at Tian Yu who was sleeping soundly beside him, and heard his even and reassuring breathing, suddenly felt a sense of joy that was lost and found again.He didn't want to disturb Tian Yu, so he got up gently by himself, covered Tian Yu with the quilt, and left quietly.

Last night, I stayed with Tian Yu all night without closing my eyes, but today is Shen Shucheng's first day at work, so he had to cheer up and go to the publishing house.

On the way back to the hotel at noon, Shen Shucheng was still holding the Chinese food bought for Tian Yu in his hand. Thinking of drinking so much wine last night, Shen Shucheng bought some milk and tea.

He still doesn't know how to explain to Shen Wanjun, the only thing he can be sure of now is that he really can't do without Tian Yu, and Tian Yu can't do without himself.

When he thought that his current job was to be able to confidently tell Shen Wanjun that he wanted to be with Tian Yu in the future, he was suddenly full of motivation.

When I walked to the door of the hotel room, I found that the cleaner aunt was tidying up the sheets.

Shen Shucheng's heart tightened: "Sorry, what about the people in this room..."

"I checked out this morning." The cleaner explained impatiently.

Shen Shucheng took a deep breath and took out his phone in a panic.

——"Hello, the user you dialed is currently on the phone..."

He suddenly felt that he couldn't breathe. Shen Shucheng scratched his hair, tried to calm himself down, and sent a message to Tian Yu, but a red exclamation mark appeared, reminding him that he and Tian Yu were no longer friends.

"My mother..." Shen Shucheng couldn't figure out how he had worked so hard to take care of him last night, how could he end up with the result of deleting friends.

"Cao Kefan!" Shen Shucheng called and asked, "Has Tian Yu gone back? You let him answer the phone."

Cao Kefan looked at the money on the table, a little dazed: "He seems to have packed his luggage and left."

"Where did you go?" Shen Shucheng frowned.

"Go to Tokyo, his plane today."

"……when's the flight?"

"One o'clock in the afternoon."

Shen Shucheng was short of breath, hung up the phone, went out and stopped a car: "Go to the airport, please hurry up."

Cao Kefan murmured, "How did these two survive? It's like a bloody romance drama."

After all, he still couldn't let Tian Yu go. Thinking of Shen Shucheng's exasperated tone just now, and fearing that something happened last night that he didn't dare to think about, he could only ask politely, "God Tian, ​​what happened to you and Teacher Shen?"

As soon as Tian Yu arrived at the airport, he saw the message Cao Kefan sent him, and after thinking about it, he replied: "It doesn't matter now."

Seeing Tian Yu's indifferent words, Cao Kefan felt even more confused, and Liu Lu who was on the side persuaded: "You should mind your own business."

Cao Kefan stuck out his tongue.

After checking in his luggage, Tian Yu checked the time. It was time to go through the security check—he was still a little unwilling, and kept turning his head while standing at the security checkpoint.

He didn't know what he was expecting.

Maybe he just wanted to take one last look at Shen Shucheng, even if it was to hear him say that he didn't love her anymore.Maybe he never thought that when the two parted, they didn't even say goodbye.

The other couples at the airport parted reluctantly. The boy next to him embraced the girl and kissed her regardless of other people's eyes.Tian Yu leaned against the wall next to him, and the scene of Shen Shucheng talking and laughing with another man yesterday kept replaying in his mind.

Tian Yu gritted her teeth and decided that she would never forgive this person who called her to come and go.

But he thought it was a little funny, he didn't know what position he had, and said the words that he would not forgive him.

Tian Yu suddenly felt a little desperate, no matter whether it was love or hate, he really seemed unable to let go of this man named Shen Shucheng.

Thinking of this, he kicked the wall in front of him annoyed.

While waiting for the scanner to scan his body at the security checkpoint, he seemed to suddenly see a shadow similar to Shen Shucheng at the entrance. Tian Yu hesitated for a moment, and the security uncle next to him saw him standing still and reminded him :"go in."

With a sigh, Tian Yu suddenly felt that his face was icy. He stuck out his tongue and licked the water droplets that flowed to the corner of his mouth. It was salty.

Tian Yu, who disappeared around the corner, could not see Shen Shucheng who ran over panting in the end.

"Xiaoyu!" The people around were startled by Shen Shucheng's shout and frowned, but Shen Shucheng didn't care so much, he stood at the security checkpoint and looked inside.

In case Tian Yu left something behind at the security checkpoint, he might be able to see him when he came back to pick it up.

But Shen Shucheng knew that, being as meticulous as Tian Yu, he would not drop things casually.

The time above the airport jumped to thirteen o'clock.

Shen Shucheng looked up at the blue sky, beside the white clouds, a plane drew a beautiful arc, he spread his palm, trying to touch that shadow.

But he couldn't catch it.

The airplane cloud slowly disappeared from his vision.

When Shen Shucheng returned home, he was exhausted and full of things to say, but he didn't know where to start.

He glanced at Weibo indiscriminately. An old friend he hadn’t seen for a long time had to go around for many years, and finally he was going to marry his first love girlfriend. His undergraduate roommate who went to the United States to study for a Ph. D. finally got a Ph.D. Girl, she was arguing about divorce with her husband, and a group of former girlfriends below said some comforting words that didn't hurt.

In this world, people's emotions have never been connected. Everyone is a small planet in the vast universe, making noise on their own, but lonely and helpless, enjoying their own joys and sorrows.

Shen Shucheng opened the Q&A community and saw a message sent to him by a user whose ID was M at night: "I deleted all his contact information today, although I know I still can't forget him."

He knew it was the anonymous user who had replied to his question.

Shen Shucheng sighed: "He left today and didn't forgive me."

Tian Yu has just settled down in his residence in Tokyo. He just took a shower and was wiping the water from his head with a towel. When he saw the reply from Mr. Nuanyu, his ID is M, the initial letter of the Mobius ring .

Although separated by the screen, he has a natural sense of intimacy with this stranger named Mr. Nuanyu.

M: How did you two separate?

Mr. Nuanyu: My father doesn't agree with us being together and threatens me with his future.

M: ...It's so miserable. No wonder you said you have difficulties, but he must be able to understand your painstaking efforts.

Mr. Nuanyu: What about you?Why did you break up with him?

Tian Yu was stunned when he saw the news about Young Master Nuanyu.

M: He seems to have fallen in love with someone else.

Shen Shucheng suddenly sympathized with the person on the other side of the screen, but the betrayal of the person he loves the most is inseparable from love, and no one knows which is more painful.

Mr. Nuanyu: What a scumbag.

Tian Yu was a little angry when she saw people she didn't know judge Shen Shucheng arbitrarily.

M: No, he is still very good to me, letting me in everything, helping me in everything, it's my fault, I'm not mature enough, I'm not good enough.

What a fool, Shen Shucheng sighed.

Young Master Nuanyu: What are your plans now?

Tian Yu lay on the edge of the window, watching the beautiful night view of Tokyo outside the window.

M: I don't know.My classmates say that time is the best medicine.

Shen Shucheng walked into the bathroom. The shower gel was used up, and he was reluctant to throw it away, because it smelled like Tian Yu lying in his arms that night.

Wounds should be healed slowly, time is indeed a good medicine.

Shen Shucheng really wanted to tell M on the opposite side that this was Karen Mok's "Hold Your Hand" and there was a line of lyrics in it.

If we hugged each other tightly at that time, wouldn't the ending be so sloppy.

Young Master Nuanyu: If you can really forget him, that's a good thing.

The wind was blowing on Tian Yu's face, with the gentleness of the city. Tian Yu never dreamed that the self who was writing questions day after day in the dilapidated classroom and couldn't see the future would one day be able to live in Japan, a foreign country. There is a shelter in the capital.

Everything is like a dream, Shen Shucheng is also a dream, the kind that cannot be forgotten.

M: What about you?What are you going to do now?

Shen Shucheng turned on the computer and created a folder in his column called "Lantian Rinuanyu Shengyan".

Mr. Nuanyu: I want to wait for him to come back.

Tian Yu was a little envious of the person opposite, at least he still had something to look forward to, he followed this person and found that he had opened a new column.

M: Do you know what is meant by Lantian Rinuanyu Shengyan?

Shen Shucheng, who was typing, felt a little funny when he saw the little netizen on the opposite side asking such a question.

Mr. Nuanyu: I don't know, I just wrote it casually.

M: Desirable but unattainable.

Shen Shucheng really wanted to tell him that the meaning of this sentence is not only unattainable, but also the name of the person he loves.

Halfway through typing, Shen Shucheng deleted it again. He has a strong desire to possess everything about Tian Yu, even the name.

By the time Tian Yu finished tidying up the room, Mr. Nuan Yu had already updated the first column.

He curiously entered the article titled "The First Day You Left".

"Today is your first day away.

When you slept next to me last night, you held my arm tightly.

I told you in your sleep over and over again, I will not leave, never again.

But you didn't hear it.

Today is my first day to go to work. I am much more tired than the previous work, but everyone is very friendly, and it is also something I have always wanted to do. For the first time, I feel that I have really started to be independent.

I really want to be a better person, for you.

I sneaked out at noon, but when I came back to look for you, I realized that you were on the plane today. I brought you Chinese food, as well as hot milk and tea, but you didn't know.

When I arrived at the airport, you were no longer there. I saw the flight carrying you fly over my head. I watched the hot milk in my hand turn cold, and I was sure that you really left.

Will you think of me, under the neon lights in the bustling city.

I hope you are happy, but when I think that you will meet many new people, I don't know them, and your happiness is brought to you by them, I feel a little jealous again.

Will one of them replace me as the one you want to hold on to?

Today's weather is fine, I miss you very much. "

After Tian Yu finished reading the article, she buried her head in the quilt, closed her eyes, and Shen Shucheng's smile was all in her mind.

He said softly to the air: "The weather is fine today, and I miss you very much."

The author has something to say: time is an analgesic, not a medicine.

I shouldn't talk too much about personal matters, but when I heard this song, I still remembered the first boy I liked. This is a story from a long time ago.

He is the white moonlight in my heart.

And at what moment did I finally decide to let go?After time passed, when I returned to that dilapidated county town, I saw that the former high-spirited man had a beer belly, followed the rules, and began to smile and tell me that it was good to live a stable life in this small county town.

It turned out that the boy I had been thinking about all this time could not escape the fate of everyone.

I found that after so many years, I didn't seem to really like him. I just liked the light of the sunset on him on the playground, under the basketball hoop.

I just like the boy looking at the sky.

After so many years, I have finally reached the age he was when I met him. Fortunately, I have not experienced his struggles. With his help, I should not have become a mediocre dust.

All my aspirations, ideals, my dream school, the industry I am engaged in, and the way I look at personnel are all given to me by him.

I'm so glad that the person I met was him.

Only now, I like myself more.