youth blank

After the climate began to warm up, the rainy weather came again.

Chu Yuan always didn't bring an umbrella before, he thought that there would be a car to pick him up anyway, so it doesn't matter if he brings it or not, at worst, he would put on a hat and drench for a while.

But I didn't expect Wu Bai to be more casual than him. He would run outside after school, but he never took an umbrella and didn't take his body seriously at all.

In this way, Chu Yuan became a mother-in-law. He not only brought an umbrella for himself, but also brought an umbrella for Wu Bai.

He walked to the activity rooms in Shaw Building, one of which was the room of the Poetry Club.Wu Bai is usually very busy, and only helps when there are important events. Recently, there was a youth poetry competition in the city. Friends from the club directly helped Wu Bai sign up. As a result, Wu Bai's poem passed the primary selection. I have to go to the city to participate in the competition.

Chu Yuan pushed the door open and went in. He didn't see Wu Bai, but saw Lan Fei sitting on a chair.When Lan Fei saw him, she froze for a moment, her eyes flashed with surprise, but it disappeared quickly, and she resumed her usual indifferent expression.

Chu Yuan smiled at her in embarrassment, and has never seen her since he made it clear to Lan Fei.

"I'm here to look for Wu Bai, is he there?"

"He went to the great hall to practice." Lan Fei glanced at the neatly folded umbrella in Chu Yuan's hand, and sneered at the corner of her mouth, "You really care about your friends. I've never seen you so considerate before." After she finished speaking, she seemed Feeling that he was losing his composure, he turned his head away and ignored Chu Yuan.Chu Yuan smiled awkwardly and said thank you, then quickly closed the door and went out.

After the sound of closing the door sounded, Lan Fei turned her head. She stared blankly at the wooden door, her eyes revealing incomparable melancholy and sadness.

Entering from the back door of the large meeting hall, there is a teacher sitting in the front seat, and Wu Bai is standing on the stage. He finds a corner seat in the back row and sits down.

He looked at Wu Bai who was practicing on the stage. He was wearing plain casual sportswear, reciting with great concentration, his voice was clear and magnetic, his amorous eyebrows and eyes were a little melancholy at the moment, and his cold temperament reminded people of moonlight.Chu Yuan thought, maybe Wu Bai is really a born poet, even a vulgar person like him thinks this scene is very beautiful.

He didn't understand poetry, but he remembered the name and the last three lines of the poem. Until many years later, he didn't even remember a few poems from Tang and Song Dynasties, but he could quickly recall those lines:

"Youth Blank"

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Youth is a picture scroll that is too hasty

and time can't take away

It is the blank space of youth that we have been pursuing all our lives

Before the Qingming holiday, Chu Yuan told Wu Bai that he was going back to his hometown to worship his mother, so he would not be at home for the next few days.

Wu Bai looked at him in surprise when he heard what Chu Yuan said. He had never seen his parents at Chu Yuan's house. He thought that his mother was too busy to take care of him like his father, but he didn't expect...

It turned out that Chu Yuan, like himself, had no parents around since he was a child. They were all children who lacked care, but one was exaggeratedly active, and the other was too quiet.On the surface, they are two completely different people, but in a sense, they are like the north and south poles of a magnet, attracting each other.

"Are you going with your uncle?"

"Well, my dad is usually too busy to see anyone. But he will come no matter how busy he is."

"It seems that uncle has a deep affection for aunt." Wu Bai actually had a little envy in his eyes.

"Haha, maybe. But I think he likes money more, otherwise why doesn't he have time to care about my only son?"

Wu Bai didn't speak. In fact, he really didn't understand what the relationship between people was all about. He felt that people's hearts were too complicated, so complicated that sometimes he was afraid to think about it.

Wu Bai came back from the city competition and won the second prize.The class teacher and he are very happy.But Chu Yuan was just the opposite. When the results of the second monthly exam came out, he not only made no progress, but even regressed. He felt very depressed. He had studied more seriously this month than last month. Why did he end up like this?What made him even more depressed was that when Wu Bai went to the city for a competition, he met Lin Mo who went with him.

Lin Mo is in the liberal arts class next door, and her math is not very good, so Wu Bai was asked to give her some tutoring when she had time, and Wu Bai readily agreed.

When Chu Yuan found out, he said angrily, "You, mom, you are such a good person. You are so tired that you are dying every day, and you still have time to help others in class."

Wu Bai didn't care about Chu Yuan's inexplicable squeeze, he explained, "Lin Mo is a nice person, and she helped me in physical education class before."

Chu Yuan recalled the time when Wu Bai fainted last semester, it was indeed Lin Mo who stepped forward to cool him down.He thought with disdain, isn't it just a matter of little effort, what's the big deal, if now, I'd have to carry you directly to the hospital.But he could only whine in his heart, after all, he hesitated for a long time at that time, but in the end he didn't help.

In the days that followed, Chu Yuan became an extremely diligent and studious person. He seemed to be particularly obsessed with studying. Whenever he caught the opportunity, he would catch Wu Bai and ask questions, and he would ask endlessly.Because Lin Mo's family is strict, he has to go to the remedial class after school, and Chu Yuan has been pestering Wu Bai at school, so he has no time to give Lin Mo a lecture.

Then one day, Fang Qi jokingly said, "Why do I feel, Brother Yuan, you are jealous of Lin Mo, hahaha, you always stop people from seeing each other."

Chu Yuan curled his lips angrily, and he said contemptuously, "The old man just likes reading recently. If he wants to go, he will go. It's not that I can't find someone to help me." Then he really stopped pestering Wu Bai , made Wu Bai feel embarrassed, as if he had dampened Chu Yuan's enthusiasm for learning, and Zhu Bajie felt that he was not a human being in the mirror.

Chu Yuan felt depressed, he just felt uncomfortable.Especially once, Chu Yuan pretended to be joking and asked Wu Bai, "Hey Xiaobai, do you think Lin Mo is pretty? Is your kid interested in him?"

He originally thought that Wu Bai would answer seriously like when he asked Lan Fei before, "She and I are just friends." Unexpectedly, Wu Bai was silent for a while, and he seemed to think seriously before saying, "I don't know... ...But I really don't have time to think about that right now."

Just... no time?

Chu Yuan's smile froze all of a sudden, but fortunately Wu Bai didn't look up, otherwise he would see Chu Yuan's face, and his smile was uglier than crying.

A phone call came, and Chu Yuan was woken up. He looked at the time, it was one o'clock in the morning.

The caller was Chu Yuan's junior high school classmate Dan Ying, the one who threw a cup at Wu Bai when he got angry at the restaurant.This brother has been hurt by his ex-girlfriend since he was cuckolded, so he simply came back from a foreign country to study and change his environment.

In a few days, it will be the mid-term exam. Chu Yuan originally wanted to refuse, but the words turned into a promise.He thought that he was so irritable recently, maybe it would be better to vent a bit.

When he passed, there were several people sitting on the sofa.Dan Ying greeted him, "Where has your boy been lately? Why don't you come out to play?" Then he introduced others to him.

Chu Yuan noticed that there was a boy with curly hair who was very beautiful, his eyes were a bit pale, and he seemed to be of mixed race.

Then there was one from their school, in the same grade, named Shi Ting.

That person warmly approached Chu Yuan, but Chu Yuan's attitude was very perfunctory, he felt that this person was sneaky and a bit wretched.

After a few drinks, they started playing cards. Chu Yuan was originally in a bad mood, but he felt a self-sabotaging pleasure after losing a lot.Shi Ting was secretly surprised to see Chu Yuan lose so much money without blinking his eyes.

When Chu Yuan went to the bathroom, Shi Ting also followed, and he said to Chu Yuan mysteriously, "Brother, I have a good thing here, I will keep it for you to get a perfect score in the mid-term exam in two days, do you want it?"

Chu Yuan's school is very strict about cheating. All unified exams have screening devices, and the punishment for cheating is very strict. In the past, some students were caught cheating and then dismissed.

Seeing Chu Yuan's silence, Shi Ting thought that he had concerns, so he quickly said, "Don't worry, I'm high-tech, you pay me a deposit first, and I won't charge any money if it's useless."

In fact, Chu Yuan didn't care about the grades at all, but he suddenly thought of all the hard work and hard work Wu Bai had put in for him, and also remembered the unsatisfactory results of the last monthly exam and the recent mock exam. He didn't want to let Wu Bai down again. He didn't really rely on grades to get into a good university, he just wanted to make Wu Bai happy.

Then he took out the money and paid the full amount.

Before leaving, Chu Yuan secretly pulled Dan Ying and asked, "What's your relationship with him?"

Dan Ying grinned, "Who are you talking about?"

"Stop pretending to be an idiot to the old bastard. What's your relationship with that curly-haired boy?" Chu Yuan was very smart. When he was playing cards, he discovered that Dan Ying had an extraordinary relationship with that beautiful curly-haired boy. The look of Ying Jiao & Chen made him get goosebumps all over his body.

Dan Ying lit a cigarette, handed it to Chu Yuan, then smiled indifferently at the corner of her mouth and said, "I'm tired of playing with women. Women think he's a bitch, and if she treats her well, she will treat the old man as a wrong." "Big head. Now I'm starting to play "man," he looked at Chu Yuan with a wicked smile, and said, "Would you like to try it too? Once you try it, you won't forget it."

Chu Yuan smiled awkwardly, then waved his hands and said, "Fuck you, this old man is not gay."

"You can do whatever you want. But if you want to try it in the future, you can come to me, buddy, I will keep and introduce some good ones to you."

After Dan Ying left, Chu Yuan stayed for a while, and then his heart started beating wildly.At that time, few people even knew the term homosexuality, let alone accepted it.What Dan Ying said had a great impact on his heart. Although he had heard of someone playing "boys" by chance before, he never had such a friend around him.

Dan Ying's words were like a spark, which accidentally ignited the raging fire in his heart, burning him to the point of pain and confusion.He began to think about some things uncontrollably, things that he was vaguely aware of, but didn't dare to think about, afraid to think about.

That night, Chu Yuan had a dream. He dreamed that Wu Bai was lying on the bed drunk. He stroked Wu Bai's fair chest. & Tender lips, mesmerized.Suddenly, a cold voice that he was very familiar with came from behind, "Brother Yuan, what are you doing?" He turned around, and Wu Bai looked at him with his big clear eyes with a puzzled expression on his face, scaring him to get up quickly, Just about to explain to Wu Bai.Wu Bai suddenly moved far away from him, smiled and waved at him, then took Lin Mo's hand and gradually walked away, no matter how much he shouted and ran, he couldn't catch up.

Chu Yuan was startled awake, his whole body was dripping with cold sweat, he grabbed his hair, stared blankly at the cold body & fluid under his body, he was so irritable that he wanted to kill someone, he thought that if he continued like this, he might really go crazy.

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