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On the night of New Year's Eve, Chu Yuan's father told him that he would not be able to go home until the New Year's Day and the second day of junior high school. All the servants in the family went home for the New Year's Eve, including Du Xin, who didn't know where he went.

He was alone in his room and turned on the TV.I received some congratulatory text messages on my phone, from Zhao Qiao, Fang Qi, Dan Ying, and some familiar or unfamiliar people.

The Spring Festival Gala is being broadcast on almost every TV channel, he thinks that Wu Bai must be watching the Spring Festival Gala with his grandma just like him right now.Is he thinking of me?Chu Yuan thought, and after thinking about it, he felt that he was funny, and Wu Bai was not him.

At this time, his cell phone rang, and it was an unfamiliar number.

He picked it up, and there was a familiar yet unfamiliar voice on the phone. This was the first time he heard Wu Bai's voice on an electronic device, "Hi Chu Yuan, I'm Wu Bai, and I want to say Happy New Year to you in advance. Grandma insisted that I borrow a phone to call you."

Chu Yuan was taken aback for a moment, and then he smiled, "You too, Happy New Year, you told grandma to take care of her health. Have you eaten yet?" He obviously wanted to say a lot to Wu Bai, but he didn't know why he didn't say it out of his mouth. It's this nonsense.

"Of course, let's not talk about it. See you next semester, bye."

"Bye bye..." Dududu, the phone over there had been hung up, but Chu Yuan was still holding the phone to his ear, and he sat alone for a long time, until his hands became stiff.

Then he stood up and glanced at the time. Fortunately, the new year has not yet arrived. He thought, in the new year, give yourself a brand new start.

He opened the drawer and took out a stack of papers and an exquisite box.

He didn't achieve such an exaggeration of writing a poem every day, but he wrote dozens of poems, and the sum was as thick as a stack of paper.

In the past, Lan Fei told him that all the poems she wrote for him were burned, and now it's his turn. I don't know if this is a kind of karma in the dark.

Opening the box, it contained the crystal chain that he had asked someone to remake. He thought, a fake is a fake, no matter how hard we try, it will never be real.

Now, what he has to do is to burn the poem manuscript with a fire, and then break the crystal chain.In fact, this method of destroying things may not be really useful, but at least tell yourself what to do consciously, just like cutting off your own delusions and those possibilities that you are not willing to give up.

He picked up the poem manuscript with his left hand, took out the lighter with his right hand, and pressed it lightly, and a flame burst out.

He moved his right hand slowly, and as soon as the spark touched the paper, it started to burn, and the white corners suddenly turned black and broken.

There was a little crackling sound from the burning, which shocked Chu Yuan's body, as if he had been frightened by something, the lighter in his hand dropped, and he slammed the flame on the paper.

The fire was extinguished, he held the pile of burnt papers, and slid weakly in the corner, his head resting on his hands, and the tip of his nose smelled the scorching smell left by the burnt papers.

I still can't do it, I really can't do it, I have to personally burn those memories, those feelings, those thoughts, I really can't do it...

Chu Yuan closed his eyes, frowning tightly.When he saw the fire burning just now, he had an illusion, as if it wasn't the paper that was burning, but his heart, his frail, cowardly, vulnerable heart.

The countdown to the New Year sounded on the TV, "Ten... Nine... Eight... Seven six..."

Chu Yuan slowly raised his head. He looked at the enthusiastic smiling faces on the TV, and thought blankly, the new year has come... Then he stood up, put the poem manuscript back in the drawer, and read the poem again. Glancing at the crystal chain, he silently put it back into the box and drawer, and finally closed the drawer.

He breathed a sigh of relief as if he was relieved, and fell down on the bed with a large character. He closed his eyes, and what he thought in his mind was, Happy New Year, Wu Bai, I miss you so much...

In the new year, Wu Bai did not come to Chu Yuan's house to work part-time.After this semester, he will be in the third year of high school, and he has to devote all his energy to his studies.Of course, the more important reason is that Wu Bai's old house was demolished and relocated shortly after the new year, and they got a large amount of demolition and relocation fees. In this way, their family is not so short of money for the time being.

Chu Yuan heaved a sigh of relief in a complicated way, he thought it would be good, he could also take a breather.

So at school, Chu Yuan continued to study hard with Wu Bai and the others as usual, living an ordinary life as a high school student.

After school, he finished his homework and went to the bar. When the new semester passed for the first time, the owner of the bar was shocked. He said that he hadn't seen Chu Yuan for a long time and thought he had gone abroad.

In the noisy environment of the bar & bar, he doesn't have to think about anything.He drank, but controlled his alcohol consumption, and he would not be so drunk that he couldn't get up the next day.When women approached him, he was neither enthusiastic nor rejected, nor did he go out to have sex with them.He just wants to find a place where he can stop thinking, where he can spend time in a daze, where he can escape, hide and fall.

Wu Bai seemed to sense that Chu Yuan's mood was not right, but he couldn't tell what was wrong. For example, when he looked at Chu Yuan smiling, he felt that he was not completely happy. For example, sometimes seeing him inadvertently, his The expression was so lonely, but as soon as he found himself looking at him, he immediately laughed.Wu Bai is not a person who is good at expressing words, he would just ask Chu Yuan directly if something bad happened, Chu Yuan laughed and said that besides eating, drinking and having fun, what else can I do.Wu Bai could only remain silent at this time, he really didn't know how to express his feelings, and he didn't know how to describe his inner emotions.

Wu Bai was selected by the teacher to represent the school in the national math competition. He has to do special training every day after class and after school, so he has no time to communicate or play with Chu Yuan and the others.

He inexplicably felt that the relationship between him and Chu Yuan seemed to be a little estranged during this time. Firstly, because he was very busy, the two of them spent less time together. Second, he didn’t know why he felt that Chu Yuan was avoiding him, or Said to deliberately alienate him.

Wu Bai has never made friends before, he is not very good at taking the initiative, and he is not very good at expressing, he is actually a little anxious, but every time he wants to communicate with Chu Yuan, Chu Yuan always laughs and jokes. passed.Just procrastinating like this, time flies by.In a blink of an eye, it is the May Day Golden Week.

Because of participating in the special training, Wu Bai met many friends, or he did not give people the feeling of being very cold or rejecting people thousands of miles away like before.

Coupled with the fact that Wu speaks few vernaculars and is a real person, in the eyes of others, he can also be a humble image of working hard.Especially among a group of pretentious people, Wu Bai seemed too quiet and non-existent, which made him very popular among that group of people.

Everyone else is off on Labor Day, and they are still training at school, working very hard. Although everyone is a good student who studies hard, they are still children after all, so they inevitably complain.

On the last day, one of the most active among them proposed to go to KT&V to sing and relax at night.Unexpectedly, most of the people responded. Maybe the high pressure of study during this period made them want to go out and play.If it was before, Wu Bai would have walked away alone, but now he has changed a lot without knowing it. He has begun to learn to consider everyone's mood and learn to integrate himself into the group.Getting along with people is no longer as difficult as he thought it was before, and he even gradually began to believe that others will treat him sincerely, and he can sincerely treat others as friends.

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