I finally became what you like

The Golden Ling Award, which is held every five years, has come to an end. In recent years, there have been many good dramas in the film and television industry. Best Supporting Actor Award.

That night, he stood upright in a white suit and delivered a speech of thanks. After the thunderous applause, Miao Qingyu's modest and gentle smile was shown on the big screen.

At this time, far away from the TV screen of the live broadcast, Xue Cheng held two black dogs in his arms, and one person and two dogs stared intently at the familiar faces on the screen.Miao Qingyu smiled slightly, and the two dogs hurriedly yelled at the screen.Xue Cheng frowned slightly, and patted their heads with his palm to signal them to calm down: "He can't hear."

The dogs were surprisingly quiet, their round eyes didn't leave Miao Qingyu's face in front of the screen, and they didn't lie back on Xue Cheng until the camera cut, licking each other's fur.

After the awards ceremony was over, Miao Qingyu rubbed the center of her eyebrows and asked Xiao Lin to take him to the hospital before returning to the apartment.He received congratulations from many friends in the car, and a call came from home. Miao’s mother watched the live broadcast the whole time, and she was still grinning from ear to ear. You lose weight again, and every time you manage to gain some weight back, after a few months of filming a movie, you will be tossed back to your original shape."

Miao Qingyu quietly listened to Miao's mother's chanting, and said with a smile: "Not only I have worked hard, everyone has worked hard, just wait for a rest and take care of it."

Mother Miao complained a few times: "Your birthday will be in a few days, and you won't be able to go home. It's been so many years since you celebrated your birthday with us. In the past two years, you were busy filming and didn't come home all the time. This year you won an award. , you should rest too."

Miao Qingyu agreed, and after finishing her career, Miao's mother suddenly worried about his personal relationship.

"Miao Miao, mom knows that Xue Cheng lives next door to you, and you have been together for more than two years. I heard Xiao Lin said that he takes good care of you. Do you plan to get back together with him now..."

The smile on the corner of Miao Qingyu's mouth faded slowly, and he sighed: "Mom, I haven't thought about my relationship with him for the time being, but in fact, that's what I think about him right now. Is there a clear relationship between them?"

Miao's mother was silent at the other end, and said after a few seconds: "Then mom won't ask, she's just worried about you."

It's a bit cold for a person to live to be in his 30s without a stable person to accompany him.Miao Qingyu's conditions are not bad, and Miao's mother sometimes thinks, why their son has to make his life so hard, without joy or sorrow, is it possible that he really wants to become a monk when he gets older?

But Miao Qingyu was not in the mood to talk about her, so Miao Qingyu ended the call after driving outside the hospital.

As soon as he finished filming, he immediately flew over to attend the award ceremony. The high-intensity filming work for more than three months made him physically unbearable, and he suffered from intermittent low-grade fever in the second half of the month. After a while, his body started to feel cold, so Miao Qingyu planned to get rid of the fever in the hospital before booking a ticket to fly back to Haihua Market.

The itinerary for the rest has been sent to the mailbox, Xiao Lin opened it for him to see, and then went to the surrounding stores to buy some porridge.Miao Qingyu was bored with a drip on the back of her hand, turned on her mobile phone to surf the Internet, almost all the hot topics on Weibo were related to this Golden Ling Award.

He received a lot of news that the fans' carnival night, including the gift list, was whitewashed by a mysterious old local tyrant.

"There's a lot of money." Miao Qingyu murmured, clicked on a few topics of interest, and his tired eyes showed some excitement. After a while, he received a small video from Xue Cheng, and the two dogs watched the live broadcast Miao Qingyu didn't reply right away after watching it.

Xue Cheng asked him again: "Did you celebrate your birthday here?"

Miao Qingyu rubbed the phone screen and typed slowly: "Old house."

"I'll go and see the elders, okay?"

It's a blatant excuse, if Miao Qingyu can't answer, it will show that he is childish.

In the past two years, he has filmed six dramas and two movies, more of which are dramas, including red dramas, suspense dramas and detective dramas. Although most of them take on male second roles, the positive impression he created on the audience is getting deeper and deeper. After two years of comeback, he won Jin Ling's Best Supporting Actor Award. It can be said that the star journey is smooth and the future is bright.

There are more and more scripts for him, and the agent strictly selects them one by one. The principle of two films a year remains the same. Miao Qingyu does not blindly follow the filming. If you are on the right track, it's time to put your heart at home.

When Miao Qingyu returned to the sea flower market, the temperature was slightly cool. It was autumn and there was a new film shooting in winter. Before that, he had enough vacation to rest and take care of his body.

Entering the community, I met Xue Cheng who was out for a walk with his dog.Seeing him, the two black dogs in his hands quickly ran away. Xue Cheng was dragged and dragged by them to Miao Qingyu. Their eyes met in the air, and the first sentence Xue Cheng uttered was It's not that you came back, but that you lost weight.

Miao Qingyu hummed casually, and walked slowly with her hands in her pockets.The two walked side by side for a while, Miao Qingyu turned his back to look at Xue Cheng, and suddenly shook his head and laughed.

Xue Cheng looked at him: "Miao Miao?"

Miao Qingyu gasped, Xue Cheng asked, "Shall we go back to the old house together?"

Miao Qingyu turned her head: "Yes."

That's it, he feels that the current feeling is not bad.When I came back from filming, I could see someone beside me. I couldn't say how close he was, but he was the closest person to him right now.

He is almost 35, how can he talk about love and not love at every turn like when he was young?Miao Qingyu thought about it all the way, feeling quite calm.

The next day, they entrusted the dog to the pet hospital to take care of it for a while, and Qiqi got on the plane back to the old house.

On the plane, Xue Cheng looked a little restless. Miao Qingyu and the stewardess asked for two cups of hot water, and they leisurely pushed one over.He didn't ask, and let Xue Cheng have a lot of thoughts.

Miao's mother saw that Miao Qingyu led Xue Cheng home for her birthday, and said that it was not a surprise, but she seemed to have the illusion of resigning herself to fate.She was afraid that Miao Qingyu would feel indifferent if he really resigned to his fate, so she planned to find time to have a private talk with him, but she saw Xue Cheng getting along with him. Although they didn't say a few words, there was an indescribable understanding.

For example, Miao Qingyu was thirsty, and before he reached out for a cup, Xue Cheng had already filled the cup and handed it to him. Miao's mother didn't know about the silence, Xue Cheng seemed to have eyes in Miao Qingyu's heart. Yes, well aware of his actions.

Xue Cheng accompanied Miao's father upstairs to play chess, and Miao's mother asked Miao Qingyu what plans he had.

After all, he brought a man back alone for his birthday, and the reason and relationship were unclear, and it gave Xue Cheng more hope when it was involved.

Miao Qingyu bit the cut fruit: "I've thought about it, you see, it's been so many years, I would have left him long ago, and besides living next door, he doesn't really dare to bother me, it's quite clean. "

The expression on Miao Qingyu's face was indistinct: "Xue Cheng now speaks and does things, and he has to think carefully before telling me. He is cautious. I thought I would give up after a long time, but the result..."

He pointed to his face and smiled slightly: "Mom, have you seen that I also have shallow lines when I smile."

The meaning in the words is that he is old, and he has no extra thoughts to toss.

Time flies so far, there are too few things that Miao Qingyu can worry about, what is Xue Cheng, and what is love?If Xue Cheng really wanted to spend the rest of his life with him, he was too lazy to bother with the other party, so let's just get along like this.

After all, Xue Cheng was also the first person he ever fell in love with. As he got older, the elders worried that he would die alone. OK.

Miao's mother held his shoulders: "Miao Miao, mom doesn't want you to be wronged."

Miao Qingyu denied: "Where did I feel wronged?"

The person who should be wronged is probably Xue Cheng. I always treat him indifferently. With such a famous barrister in the legal profession and his unsmiling image all day long, who would have thought that this person would follow him like an old lady.

He shook Mother Miao's hand instead: "I really didn't wrong myself at all."

After eating the cake that day, Xue Cheng was still bored and didn't say a few words.Auntie cleaned up the guest room, which was next to Miao Qingyu's bedroom.When he went up, Xue Cheng followed, but he didn't enter his room.

Miao Qingyu stood outside the door with one hand: "What's the matter, the guest room is over there."

Xue Cheng drank alcohol, and his eye sockets were a little red.

"I am drunk."

Miao Qingyu asked with eyes, and Xue Cheng continued: "Some things are stuffy in my heart."

Finally said it.

Miao Qingyu said with a half-smile: "Isn't it boring all the way? I didn't force you to say it."

"But I want to say—" Xue Cheng's voice was hoarse, and his tall body squeezed into the bedroom, closing the door tightly.

Miao Qingyu pulled up a chair and sat down, making a gesture of listening attentively: "Okay, tell me."

"Miao Miao..." The man who was motionless a moment ago knelt and half-kneeled at Miao Qingyu's feet, holding his legs with both palms, his brows were deeply furrowed, and the light was drying a few strands of white hair on his temples, blinding his eyes.

Miao Qingyu looked at it, but Xue Cheng's hand was tightly clenched, and she couldn't pull it out.

He stared closely at the white strands protruding from both sides of Xue Cheng's hair on the temples: "If you have something to say, why are you holding my hand?"

Xue Cheng took a breath slowly, and asked heavily and tiredly, "You, why did you bring me back?"

Miao Qingyu didn't have to care about what it meant to bring a man who pursued him in for his birthday, but Xue Cheng couldn't.

He cared too much about Miao Qingyu's every move.For so many years, he pursued Miao Qingyu without setting any goals, and he didn't dare to think deeply, didn't dare to think too much, for fear of thinking too much, and when he was explicitly rejected again, he had to wrap up his wounded heart to recover and continue to wait.

Xue Cheng doesn't want to waste time on self-healing, he has missed so many years, time is precious, and even getting injured has become a luxury.

"Miao Miao, Miao Miao, tell me..." Xue Cheng said incoherently, "Have you pity me? You still think you can be with me, together..."

The longing and exhaustion accumulated over the years are in the deep eyes, which are soft, as if they will break at the touch of a touch.Xue Cheng raised Miao Qingyu's hand and put it on his temples. His temples were gray. It's hard to imagine a 41-year-old man with a successful career with gorgeous hair on his temples.

Xue Cheng buried his face in front of Miao Qingyu's knees, and folded his tall and straight body: "Do you have any thought, even a little bit, that you want to...come with me again."

Xue Cheng squeezed out the last two words, and he hugged Miao Qingyu's leg tightly: "I was wrong before, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

Xue Cheng has never shown a humble repentance to anyone in his life. He can spend several years getting close to Miao Qingyu again, and he can take care of Miao Qingyu meticulously with lame reasons, but he dare not show the slightest begging gesture. Knowing that Miao Qingyu felt pity for him, he was also afraid.

Once some people soften their hearts, they will choose to stay away again.He couldn't bear Miao Qingyu leaving again, how many years would it take to meet again next time?five years?ten years?Not even in the foreseeable future.

Miao Qingyu's knee felt wet and hot. He rubbed Xue Cheng's hair: "Are you crying? Why are you crying?"

He sighed: "After filming this movie, I am more tired than before. I haven't felt this powerless feeling for a long time."

Xue Cheng moved a little, and his voice was low and hoarse, muffled in his knees: "I learned a few medicinal recipes."

Miao Qingyu sighed and smiled: "Farewell, you send these to the crew every day, making many staff members think I'm sick."

Xue Cheng didn't speak.

But most of the crew members who Miao Qingyu has worked in know that as long as he is on the set, there will be a mysterious person who will deliver all kinds of supplementary food and medicinal food several times a day for more than two years. Pass.

"I've thought about it," Miao Qingyu said in a low voice, "My mother has been asking more frequently recently, so I brought you here."

"Xue Cheng, we've known each other for 15 years, are you tired?" Before Xue Cheng could answer, he continued, "I'm tired, but I don't feel that way anymore."

Xue Cheng froze: "I'm sorry."

Miao Qingyu said: "I know that you can't give up whatever you say, and I don't bother to say it, but if you just go on like this, are you willing?"

Xue Cheng, who had buried his head for a long time without moving, raised his head at this moment, staring at him with red eyes.

"I dare not, as long as you still let me participate in life, I am very satisfied."

Miao Qingyu smiled gently, holding Xue Cheng's palm with one hand.

"If that's the case, maybe even I myself can't guarantee whether I'm qualified to talk about that." And he did take his personal feelings lightly, and then start his life again, the one who pays more is probably Xue Cheng.

Xue Cheng's calm heart missed a beat, and the hand held by Miao Qingyu began to sweat.

His throat was dry and his voice was stuck, and it took him a long time to find his own voice.

"It's ok."

Feelings are inherently unclear, and we have to care about who pays more and less, and who can really straighten it out.But if there is a hand willing to let you hold it, in the countless years to come, you may slowly realize the true meaning of it.

At least Miao Qingyu and Xue Cheng are not the ones to care about, Miao Qingyu wants to find someone, no matter what happens in the future, Xue Cheng will definitely not let go.It doesn't matter even if you can't say love, at least his hand is holding him.

The next morning, when Miao Qingyu and Xue Cheng went downstairs, everyone noticed that their atmosphere had changed.

When leaving, Miao's mother asked Miao Qingyu: "Is that all?"

Miao Qingyu nodded: "Well, don't bother, let's get along." He was indifferent, but he was not unhappy.

The car was parked outside, and Miao Qingyu was carrying a few large bags of special products stuffed by Miao's mother. They were full of weight, and they were all the wishes of the elders. He took them away one by one.Xue Cheng, who followed from behind, took the initiative to pick up a few bags of things, and replaced his hand in Miao Qingyu's place.

Miao Qingyu was speechless for a moment, and asked him: "Aren't you tired with so many bags in one hand?"

Xue Cheng didn't answer whether he was tired or not, he used his actions to show that he wanted to hold him for a while, and they got in the car and separated after a short process.

Miao Qingyu said something, then turned her head and ignored Xue Cheng and moved to the side to sleep.The dream was ups and downs, as if returning to the year when the story began.

After going around for fifteen years, Miao Qingyu thought he was lucky.He has seen the most beautiful appearance of love, and has had that throbbing, although the process is repeated and lost.

In the past 15 years, I have carried too much double happiness and pain. In the end, all I survived are wrinkles and wind and frost on my face.

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My unforgettable 15 years, from death to resurrection.

I am 35 years old. On my birthday, I made a decision to hold Xue Cheng's hand again.

It's not that he has to wait for me until I'm 35, but I'm grateful for his waiting during these long years.

Life is like morning dew, I am willing to give myself another chance.

*****

In the same year, after her 35th birthday, Miao Qingyu released her first and only solo music album "Blue Bird".

"You are a flying bird in a cloudy sky, and the wind and rain have damaged your plump wings. You are a flying bird under the blue sky, and the cold, frost, and snow cannot seal your flight path."

The author has something to say: the main text is over here, and the rest will be written in the fourth part.Xue Miao's daily life, Cupid's perspective, Xiao Miao's childhood encounter.

thank you all.