Touch

The sky gradually transitions to dusk, and the grassland under the setting sun is quiet and lazy.

The car body shook imperceptibly, the door opened, and a shaky figure stepped barefoot on the grass.

The grassland in the evening was chilly, but Xiao Yixuan didn't feel it at all. She held the door with one hand, supported her crumbling body, and touched the back of her head in pain with the other. There is no way to explore.

On the empty grassland, only the people in front of you are familiar, even the back view sitting still on the ground is comforting.Xiao Yixuan is quite happy. I met an old friend in a foreign land, and the scenery is pleasant. When did our company come to the prairie for team building?

Xiao Yixuan opened her mouth, wanting to call her name, but she didn't make a normal voice.

Her voice had long been hoarse from the excessive fright, and the opening and closing of the jaw involved the nerves in the head, causing severe pain, and completely turning the out-of-pitch into a hoarse whine.

The figure on the ground bounced up immediately, walked quickly to her side and hugged her, and put his palm on Xiao Yixuan's arm, bringing another reassuring warmth.

Xiao Yixuan habitually turned her head, Yang Xiu's face was only a few centimeters away from her, with familiar eyebrows, familiar edges and corners, familiar posture, but Xiao Yixuan just felt strange.

Obviously not nearsighted, but it seems that he just can't see clearly.

Obviously, I am very familiar with this face, why is it unfamiliar?

Am I Alzheimer's?

Xiao Yixuan withdrew her hand holding the car door, and put her weight on Yang Xiu's arm supporting her. She wanted to pinch Yang Xiu's face with her free hand, but she couldn't lift it up, so she could only hold Yang Xiu's collar.

She turned her body slightly so that she could see Yang Xiu clearly with her eyes wide open.But the more clearly I saw it, the more flustered my heart became, and there was a sense of fear seeping into panic, with a little bit of familiarity.

When have you ever felt this way?

Oh, by the way, when I saw Yang Xiu in the car two days ago, when I saw that smiling face, every time I saw the smile lines on that face deepen, I would feel panicked.

why.

Oh, yes, because no matter how much you smile, those eyes are like this, cold, without a trace of warmth, but with hysterical madness. People with such eyes always feel that she is hurting themselves all the time .

If you don't even begrudge yourself, how can you begrudge others? With such eyes, who can not panic.

and so……

Xiao Yixuan used some strength in her hands—she didn't even know that she still had strength, and she couldn't even stand steadily—but that strength was very persistent with her own thoughts, slowly but firmly pushing Yang Xiu to Pull yourself closer.

Yang Xiu let her pull like a puppet, until the distance between the two was only a fist that could hold the baby, just like meeting for the first time.

Xiao Yixuan's eyes, who were 8 centimeters away, were still bloodshot even after a whole day's sleep, as if they were meeting each other for the first time.

Yang Xiu's body, 8 centimeters away, was already familiar enough to trust her shoulders and backs, but when she got close again, it was like meeting a stranger, and it gradually became tense, and the fingers holding her arms could feel stiff. It was so warm that it was uncomfortable, and the eyes hidden in the shadows couldn't help but regarded themselves as prey.

Just like meeting for the first time.

Yes, like the first time we met.

That first meeting that I had forgotten to the corner of my head, I thought it was the hallucination caused by staying up late and working overtime, was finally deeply remembered in my body when I replayed it over and over again, that kind of trembling.

The two were silent, and even the duration was almost exactly the same as when they first met.

But here, there is no second Xie Yan to break the deadlock, there is only Xiao Yixuan who breaks down and cries bitterly.

The strength with self-thought finally left her, Xiao Yixuan was unwilling but powerless, let go of Yang Xiu finger by finger, and then squatted on the ground without strength.Step your aching head into your knees and bury it between your hands.

Xiao Yixuan wanted to shake her head, even if she had a splitting headache, she wanted to shake her head, to get rid of those memories that came flooding in but were not welcomed by her master.

Every second of fear.

Those betrayals hidden behind fear are dissected by reason.

Those puzzled, those complained, those worried.

Xiao Yixuan, whose memory came back, collapsed.

The curled up body looks very small on the vast grassland, like an abandoned kitten, crying hoarsely, crying bitterly for the darkness that cannot be shaken off.

The cry has no color, only hoarseness and pain, only accusations over and over again:

"why why why……"

The weak cry was like a saw, cutting back and forth the stiff standing body, and that face that was familiar to everyone but unfamiliar. Most of the time today, the expression under the shadow was normal. When shooting, the face When facing a knife or a widow, it is the same as when facing a bald head a few days ago, the heart rate is stable, the blood flow rate is stable, and the muscle tension is stable.If there were any fluctuations, it was probably because there was a short, flash-like beating when asked about his plans before the end of the call.

But Xiao Yixuan's cry was like tearing the fabric of a doll, causing cracks to appear on that calm face, and those marks appeared and disappeared for a short time, just like an eraser was tirelessly wiping over and over again what had been wiped away. Every time you wipe the crumpled draft paper, the draft paper is on the verge of breaking.

Xiao Yixuan's body was far from recovering, and crying was too distressing, her weeping sound quickly weakened, and the body's instinctive self-protection mechanism was activated, urging the owner to fall into the sweet fragrance of unconsciousness.

Yang Xiu picked her up from the ground and put her into the car. Xiao Yixuan, who was about to fall asleep, pulled her sleeves with all her strength. Xiao Yixuan, who was tired from crying, seemed to have forgotten the reason for crying, but was proud of regaining some strength.

The old lady is really a body of steel.

With strength, Xiao Yixuan suddenly gained momentum, at least she thought so, even though she couldn't make a sound, she still mouthed the sound, and urged Yang Xiu to answer her question with her eyes.

"why."

After Yang Xiu paused for a second, Xiao Yixuan felt her eyes widen a bit.

Yang Xiu answered her quietly, "I did it on purpose."

The completely disorganized answer forced Xiao Yixuan's drowsy head to wake up for a second longer.

"I'm sorry, I have no other choice, I didn't do it on purpose...these are not real answers," Yang Xiu pulled the robe over Xiao Yixuan's body with her free hand, "I did it on purpose,"

She even smiled.

Xiao Yixuan wanted to hit someone.

"I cared about my relatives, and let them die; I cared about T5, and T5 fell apart; I cared about the dumb, and the dumb died for me; I cared about Xu Zhen, and dragged her into the sinking pool; I also cared about you...so , maybe there are other ways, but that's what I did."

Self-destructive...personality.

Xiao Yixuan's slap on Yang Xiu's face was almost useless, Yang Xiu should have not dodged, her face was artificially painted a smiley face like a puppet's face.

Xiao Yixuan finally passed out and fell asleep, and the last words she said when she passed out were "I won't let you go when I recover."

My old lady can't deal with Xia Yujing, and can't deal with you?

She really couldn't bear it anymore, but she only fainted for a second. Thinking of Xia Yujing, she suddenly woke up with fright, tugged at Yang Xiu's sleeve, and mouthed: "Don't run."

In the past, Xia Yujing's resignation was so silent and completely absent. From Xu Xu's targeting, to her resignation, to her disappearing from Xiao Yixuan's sight, it took a total of one week.

No one knows how much effort Xiao Yixuan put in to redeem her, how she spent sleepless nights worrying about Xia Yujing in that stage play that everyone knew the truth about, and how many times she called her and sent her emails after Xia Yujing left her job.

Each one is heartbreaking.

Deputy Guan Xia hated the person who suddenly disappeared from the world.

Don't run, I will strangle you to death when my mother wakes up.

But she couldn't hold on any longer to hear Yang Xiu's answer, so she pulled out the power directly with her exhausted body.

The sun had finally set, and the stars were vying to shine and glow. Yang Xiu carefully placed Xiao Yixuan's head on the pillow that was folded and assembled.

In the darkness, the shadows faded, those light-colored eyes returned to the clear and clean years for a moment, in those times that Xiao Yixuan instructed to turn around, Xiao Yixuan at that time was either holding a bulky pot of black coffee, or drinking Hot soup with Ejiao Guyuan ointment.The rate of speech is always amazingly fast.There were several times when this overtime madman was about to fall to the ground and die in minutes, but every word he uttered was clear, logical, and thoughtful. In the head.

And when he misunderstood the relationship between Yang Xiu and Dumb, he was worried that she would have an affair with the underworld, he sighed like a stepmother, worried that his daughter would fall in love early, and he couldn't say much, with a depressed expression...

Those... years...

There was a soft echo in the air.

"Okay."

"I'm afraid not."

The night was long, almost endless.

When others fell into the deepest dream, Xiao Yixuan coughed suddenly in her sleep. I don't know if it was because Yang Xiu gave her two bags of water afterward. The coughing sound was moist, but Yang Xiu curled up in the co-pilot Jumped up suddenly, turned to the back row to support Xiao Yixuan's back of the head.

The body in his hands was hot, he coughed and saw blood, and he ran out after approaching the scrapped vehicle.

Two hours later, the car rushed into the urban area of ​​Lhasa, and was inevitably captured by all cameras with clear front and rear photos.

Two and a half hours later, Xu Zhen got the stack of photos, each of which had the same face on the driver's seat.

It was a face full of tears.

The author has something to say:

Xiao Yixuan will not die, and he will not die in the future. Among the main positive characters, although many people have unsatisfactory endings (after all, this is an article without sub-cp), but no one will be a ghost anymore.Red Eye doesn't want to spoil it, but the recent comments... If it doesn't spoil it, some people will not dare to read it.