Strangers Ten Years Later

The sky was dyed orange into a huge canvas, and as dusk approached, even the crows flew away from the branches of the trees in a scatter-like manner. The slightly dark darkness seemed to pull away from the distant horizon, climbing all the way up until the entire The whole piece of sky was swallowed up, turning into a color as thick as ink.

There was an old man standing guard outside the cemetery. After asking him a few words casually, he let him in. Lin Jin followed Aunt Ji's instructions and walked to the innermost part.

"When he died, he died not long after being sent to the hospital. We neighbors wanted to contact you, but we didn't have your phone number! Your mother didn't have any records on her phone after she fell out with you. I can't get in touch with your number!"

"We thought, you can always hear some news about such a big event, who knows that you haven't replied, your mother is cruel, and you are also cruel, raising you so big, you really want to leave Just walked away without paying any attention to your mother?"

"Your mother hasn't had a good life these past few years. Seeing that she is getting old, she doesn't smile much. Tell me about you, hey..."

……

Aunt Ji's words kept ringing in her ears.

Lin Jin's body was stiff, and he walked in in a daze, the last scene that Aunt Ji said kept appearing in his mind.

What kind of mood should my mother feel before she leaves?

She crawled out from the living room, pressed the doorknob with all her strength, and when she opened the door, did she think of his son?I must have thought of it...

When she died, she didn't forgive him, but why couldn't he just come back and pester her with a faceless face?After all, the mother is soft-hearted. If he is not so stubborn, will the mother not even have a person to die with?

He is too unfilial...

It was because he was too selfish, took what he wanted too seriously, and forgot that there was such a person behind him, waiting for him.

It's also because he is too ridiculous, for the constant pursuit of what he can't grasp, he even abandons himself, but he never thinks of catching what he should catch.

The photo on the tombstone is a photo of my mother when she was young, with exquisite eyebrows and eyes, and a dimple at the corner of her mouth when she smiled. She hasn't taken any other photos in these years, but this one is the only one that has survived since she was young.

Looking at him with bright eyes, Lin Jin felt as if he was questioning himself - why didn't you come back to see me for the last time until you died?

Lin Jin knelt down on the ground, his knees knocking loudly, he finally couldn't hold back anymore, lay down in front of the tombstone, and cried bitterly.

The sharp stabbing pain paralyzed his whole body.

He always felt that his mother would be there and would always be there, so he kept holding a breath in his chest. The two of them seemed to be fighting each other, waiting for the other to speak first, but as a mother, why should she be so indifferent in this life? Want to be soft on your son?He is too self-righteous, and he is too taken for granted.

This woman has lived her whole life being strong, self-reliant, and stubborn, like a stubborn stone that cannot be broken or chewed, and when she dies, no one will collect her body.

Lin Jin's lips trembled uncontrollably, tears rolled down the corners of his eyes, and he kept murmuring: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

He stroked the corner of the woman's mouth in the photo with his thumb, and said in a very low voice, "I'm sorry, Mom..."

"It's my fault……"

Human beings are born like duckweed, but after death they are nothing more than a handful of loess. What kind of love, love, money, wealth, do not bring them with you when you are born, and you will not take them with you when you die. Like this person in front of you, he has never lived a good life in his life. After death, I still want to see his unfilial son.

Lin Jin wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes, the sockets were still red, he stood up slowly, he was reluctant to leave, he only wished that time could turn this moment into the moment before the woman left, so that he could see her for the last time, so that he could accompany her longer.

Thinking about it carefully, what has he gained in these ten years of tossing?Nothing, nothing left.

Now, he was truly alone.

Lin Jin took a step back and wanted to turn around to leave, but he heard the sound of trampling on a branch in the distance, and then a figure gradually came into sight from the shadows.

The man stood there, frowning slightly, looking at him: "Lin Jin?"

"Why did you come back?"

Lin Jin hadn't seen Su Hua for a long time, and he didn't know that this person had been transferred from the head office in Beijing to the branch office in Shanghai, and the position he held was not low.

Lin Jin didn't answer Su Hua's question, so he didn't continue to ask, and walked outside. The cemetery at night looked gloomy and desolate.

"Why didn't you tell me?" Lin Jin raised his eyelids and asked.

According to Aunt Ji, that man bought my mother's cemetery, and even took care of the affairs after her death. Although it was very simple, it was better than nothing.

Su Hua's mother also passed away a few years ago, she probably came here to worship today, who would have thought that she would run into him by such a coincidence.

Su Hua naturally knew what Lin Jin was asking, so she pursed her lips and said: "At that time, you and her had a quarrel, and the relationship dropped to a freezing point. My father wanted to tell you, but unfortunately I couldn't get in touch, and I didn't want to get involved. You these things."

Su Hua has always been like this, treating others coldly, almost ignoring them.

Lin Jin responded, "Oh."

Su Hua said: "Before she passed away, she left some things and kept them with me... I will return them to you sometime."

"Where is it?" Lin Jin asked, "I'll get it now."

Lin Jincai really hasn't been back to this villa for a long time.

This was the place that my mother had been occupying before she divorced that man. She didn't take him away until after the divorce. After moving away, not only did Lin Jin never come back, but neither did her mother. Today's villa looks vibrant, and the small garden is very delicately maintained.

Su Hua said: "Father is in the hospital now, there is no one living in the villa, come with me."

Lin Jin hesitated for a moment, then followed him in.

The villa is in warm colors, it looks extremely warm, all the lights are turned on, Su Hua went up to the second floor to get things, Lin Jin wandered around and looked around, only felt that there was enough to bring back the unbearable past when he was a child.

Su Hua came down with a small box in her arms, and it was tightly sealed: "We haven't opened it all this time, and we'll give it to you when you come back."

Lin Jin thanked him, took the knife that Su Hua handed over, and cut the transparent glue on the box.

There are only a few things in it. There is the sweater that Lin Jin's mother was still knitting for him when he left home, but now it has been completed, as well as various awards from his childhood, his various test papers with 100 points, There's even a toy car he wanted as a kid.

Lin Jin was very impressed with this toy car. At that time, everyone in the class had one, but he didn't have one. He went home and asked his mother for it, but his mother beat him up, saying that they were poor and couldn't afford it. something.

In the [-]s, the toy car had been sold for [-] yuan, which was my mother's salary for several months.

But what Lin Jin didn't expect was that he saw this toy car inside, even though it was worn out now - Lin Jin didn't know when his mother bought it, and his eyes were sour.

Lin Jin took a deep breath and rummaged through all the things inside. Even the pile of things left behind by his mother were all his...

is his.

He was her whole life, but in the end he abandoned her and hurt her the most.

"What is this?" Su Hua's voice sounded, and from the corner of the box, she took out a piece of paper that was attached to the box, and handed it to Lin Jin.

When Lin Jin's eyes came into contact with the content above, Lin Jin's tears instantly fell from the corner of his eyes uncontrollably.

It was a train ticket.

The time is January 16, 1, from Shanghai to Beijing.

The mother's memorial day is January 16, 1.

In two days, she planned to smash her own rock and go to Beijing to find his unfilial son, but what was he doing at that time?

He was waiting for Ye Ziyuan's news, and what kind of birthday surprise he would give himself this year.

On January 16, 1, he was deeply impressed. When the first snow fell in the winter, and the goose feather snow fluttered from the sky, he stood by the window and watched the snow for two hours, and let himself go, thinking about nothing. .

But his mother, who was far away in Shanghai, pushed open the door of her room with all her strength.

"The dead are gone."

Su Hua is not a person who can comfort others, he paused for a while before holding back these four words.

Lin Jin covered his eyes with his right hand, and tears of grief slipped from between his fingers. After all, he didn't want to be seen by others. He got up and wanted to leave. Su Hua grabbed him and said, "If you have time, go to the hospital." Look at your father. You are his own son after all, and he has always missed you..."

After a pause, Su Hua rarely showed a trace of emotion: "The reason why I was transferred from Beijing to Shanghai is because I know that I don't have much time to spend with him. He has no regrets in his life. The only regrets are you and your mother. .”

"What happened back then, if you can't pursue it, don't pursue it anymore. The injured will be the worst. At any rate... let him go away satisfactorily."

Lin Jin didn't speak, shook off his hand, and walked out with the box in his arms.

His steps were messy, as if he might fall down at any moment.