Spring Summer Autumn Winter

The intense pace of review left Yang Siyuan with no time to think about family affairs, but he and his parents got busy with the divorce on the weekend after the three-week stay.In fact, he didn't do anything. Chen Limei and Yang Jianxin had already prepared the procedures and discussed the division of property. Yang Siyuan didn't even know the reason for his presence.

The house he lives in is given to Chen Limei, and Yang Jianxin only needs to take a car.As for Yang Siyuan, there is no doubt that it belonged to Chen Limei.Yang Siyuan didn't dare to think about whether his parents had an argument because of him.In fact, he also knew in his heart that Yang Jianxin had no chance of wanting this son.

When the three of them were present, he thought he would at least feel a little sad, but in fact he was unusually calm.

Already know the ending, then nothing can make waves.

The fog finally lifted, but the scenery didn't seem so beautiful.

The heating in the school was too hot, and Yang Siyuan lay on the upper bunk tossing and turning, warm under the quilt, and cold after kicking the quilt, so awkward that he couldn't sleep.

"Uh...cough cough...uh..." Qi Ming coughed from the lower bunk, sounding like he was suffering.

These days the temperature difference is too big, and there are quite a lot of colds, Yang Siyuan thought to himself.

"Cough, cough, cough!" The cough suddenly became louder, and he probably couldn't bear it anymore.

Qi Ming must have woken up, but Yang Siyuan couldn't fall asleep anyway, so he grabbed the edge of the bed and asked softly, "Qi Ming? Are you awake? Do you want some medicine?"

Qi Ming kept coughing and couldn't speak, there was no light in the room, and Yang Siyuan didn't know what was going on with him now.The bunk on the opposite side turned over with a groan, but did not wake up, but Qi Ming noticed the movement, and tried his best to hold back his coughing.

Yang Siyuan felt really sorry for him, so he simply picked up the flashlight and got out of bed.

"Do you have any medicine here?" He lay down in front of Qi Ming's bed, and asked softly, watching his hard-working and patient expression.

Qi Ming tightly covered his mouth with his hands, and shook his head.

"I have medicine on my table, just wait a moment, I'll bring it to you."

Yang Siyuan felt lucky, fortunately they lived in the teaching building, if they lived in the dormitory building, they would have to wake up others to ask for medicine.

He searched for it and took a box of cough medicine back, but when he opened the door, he saw Yu Fei kneeling in front of Qi Ming's bed with one leg.

Yang Siyuan stepped forward, poured a cup of hot water, and passed medicine to Qi Ming.

Yu Fei put his palm on Qi Ming's forehead abruptly, and Qi Ming subconsciously retreated, but Yu Fei pressed the back of his head with another hand.

"You still have a fever, how many days has it been?" After trying for a while, Yu Fei asked with a frown.

Qi Ming shrank his head and did not respond.After he finished drinking the medicine, Yu Fei said coldly, "I will ask for leave to go to the hospital tomorrow."

"It's the final exam." Qi Ming whispered.

The light from the flashlight parted slightly for Yu Fei, and Yang Siyuan saw Yu Fei's ugly and frightening face, clenching his teeth, looking displeased.

Seeing that the situation was not good, Yang Siyuan quickly interjected: "It's better to go to the hospital, after all, it's better than the school infirmary. How can the final exam be so important?"

Li Yu'an has already said, don't be brave, but have a good rest.

It took a while for the medicine to take effect, Qi Ming still looked very uncomfortable, and kept his mouth shut.

"You can't do well in the exam if you are so sick, right? If you get an injection earlier, you might recover sooner?" Yang Siyuan said softly.He already seemed kind to others, but once he softened his voice to coax others, he seemed even more gentle.Li Yu'an who was in a meltdown could be soothed by him, not to mention Qi Ming who was almost like a child.

Qi Ming hesitated for a while, then nodded slowly.

"Is it better now?" He asked again.

Qi Ming nodded again.

Yang Siyuan breathed a sigh of relief, and just about to ask him again, he heard Yu Fei say, "He's fine, you can go to sleep first."

Huatou was choked back, Yang Siyuan glanced at Yu Fei.But Yu Fei didn't look at him, and kept looking at Qi Ming.

Although Yu Fei's face was not completely illuminated by the flashlight, Yang Siyuan seemed to be able to see his eyes clearly.He threw away the cynicism of the past, like looking at a wounded kitten, with undetectable warmth hidden in his eyes.

For some reason, this look reminded Yang Siyuan of Li Yu'an.

Under such eyes, what kind of mood is buried?

After such a toss, Yang Siyuan was a little sleepy, and fell asleep not long after he got up.Waking up from a nightmare in the early morning, he gathered himself up and wanted to see how Qi Ming was doing, only to find that Yu Fei was still sitting beside Qi Ming's bed, wearing that thin pajamas, motionless.

The next morning Qi Ming finally went to the hospital, and Yu Fei said that this was the fifth day Qi Ming had a fever.

That afternoon, five Peiyou students were called to the office.

"tuberculosis?!"

The grade director adjusted his glasses, cleared his throat, and said, "I'm sure, it's tuberculosis. This is an infectious disease, so you will go to the hospital for a physical examination with Teacher Dong later. This... you Have you ever eaten together, or shared towels or something?"

The four of you looked at me and I looked at you, all shaking their heads together.Yu Fei was alone by the side without saying a word or answering.

The director nodded and said, "That should be nothing serious. You don't usually spend long time together in the dormitory... Hey, anyway, go to the physical examination later, be safe."

Several people responded, and they were about to go back, but Yu Fei suddenly asked, "Is he in the hospital now?"

"No, I'm sending you home first, come here tomorrow to pack up and go to the hospital."

Yang Siyuan glanced at Yu Fei secretly, and saw that cold and scary look again.

This posture... is much more frightening than Li Yuan's when he's cold.Hey wait a minute, no, Li Yu'an is not cold, he just can't keep his face.Yang Siyuan started to run the train in his mind.

This can all be thought of by Li Yuan. After he realized it, he was quite convinced, and quickly patted his face and left.

In the afternoon, a few people went to the hospital with the class teacher. Fortunately, they were all fine.

But when he was about to leave, Yu Fei suddenly disappeared.

"What about Yu Fei? Where did he go?"

Yang Siyuan looked around and replied, "I saw him go to the bathroom just now, and he hasn't come out yet? I'll go look for him."

He remembered quite rightly, Yu Fei had indeed gone to the bathroom.

But he was smoking in the toilet.

When Yang Siyuan opened the door and went in, he saw Yu Fei was facing the window, wisps of smoke drifting away.

"Where... did you get the cigarettes?" Yang Siyuan looked back to make sure that the teacher hadn't followed, and asked after closing the door.

Yu Fei glanced back at him, took a sharp puff, and pinched out the unburned cigarette while exhaling.

"That's the only one." Yu Fei touched his nose and said.

"Uh, the teacher didn't come, it's all right." Yang Siyuan said, and then seeing that Yu Fei didn't look relaxed at all, he asked again: "Are you all right?"

Yu Fei laughed and said, "What can I do, who is as weak as him."

Yang Siyuan suddenly thought of something and asked, "You said that he was sick... did you know it before?"

Yu Fei was taken aback, touched his nose: "No."

"Huh?" Yang Siyuan was puzzled.

Yu Fei raised his eyebrows: "He...you can't see it?"

"what?"

"He doesn't like women."

This year, I don’t know if I was fooled by the coal seller. The quality of the coal is not very good, and the house is not warm after burning for a long time. Li Yu’an’s hands often freeze when writing manuscripts at night.

He still has to point to this to make money.

After the salary is paid in the milk tea shop at the end of each month, he has to use all of it to pay off the debt, leaving only the money earned from writing manuscripts to meet the living expenses.This is already all the money he can come up with now, but for that scary debt, it can't even fill in the corners.

There is still a while before the supermarket closes, and it is still too late to buy a hand warmer.

"Is it snowing?" As soon as I went out, the snowflakes fell from the sky, and a thick layer had already been deposited on the ground.

I don't know how long it took, Li Yu'an kept his head buried in writing, and he didn't pay attention to it at all.

"No wonder it's so cold..."

The moon hangs in the sky like a lamp, and the cold light on the ground is reflected by the snow, which makes the night look like day.

Wrapped in cotton clothes, Li Yu'an stepped on the snow, making a "creaking" sound under his feet.

There was no one on the street, so Li Yu'an suddenly let go of his courage and walked to the middle of the road.

He put his foot aside, stepped forward heavily with his left foot, and then followed up with his right foot, making a mark next to his left foot.

Walked straight out of the alley all the way, and looked back, a long rut followed behind me like this.

So childish.Li Yu'an thought suddenly.Then I tightened the cotton-padded jacket again and ran to the supermarket.

The proprietress was about to close, so he was in time.

I looked left and right, and picked one that looked durable. Although it was not very good-looking, no one else would look at it anyway.

When paying the bill, the proprietress glanced at him and asked, "Are you paying the bill?"

"No need." Li Yu'an said as he took out the money.

The proprietress let out a "yo" and said casually, "Is this because you made a rich friend?"

Li Yuan stopped his hand: "What?"

"I think your friend is quite rich."

Li Yu'an took out all the money, but didn't give it to her, and pressed it firmly on the table.

Having lived in this crappy place for so long, he knows the faces of these people too well.What shame, what is right and wrong, what conscience, what is right and wrong...all let these people spit out like spit.

But he happened to live in the same gutter as them.

"You asked him for money." He looked into the eyes of the proprietress and said every word.

"Don't talk nonsense! You are so young, who did you learn from?" The proprietress slapped the table and snatched the money. She is skilled and must be a habitual offender.

"How much do you want?" Li Yuan said regardless of her nonsense.

"What's so much, you can't understand people's words? I'm closing the door, hurry up!"

Saying that, the proprietress made a gesture to drive him away.However, Li Yu'an grabbed the proprietress' wrist with such force that it seemed as if he wanted to break it.

"Hey! What are you doing..." The proprietress struggled, but she was completely outmatched.

Li Yu'an pulled her forward violently, forcing the distance between the two of them to close by half.He stared at the proprietress closely, like staring at restless prey.

The proprietress had never seen this child with such an expression, and she became weak all of a sudden.

Li Yu'an slowly approached her, lowered his voice and squeezed out a sentence: "If you dare to lie to him again, I will burn your shop down."

"You...you dare!"

"You know I dare."

When I went back, the rut marks that I stepped on were covered by another layer of snow, and it was not clear anymore.

He walked on the side of the road, walking forward in a daze.

When did Yang Siyuan go to the supermarket here...

It seems like a long time ago.

A long, long time ago... Yang Siyuan had already reached this point.

He didn't even tell himself.

And what did you do for him?Up to now, he still hides so many things from him.

Yang Siyuan said that friends should understand each other.

In fact, he himself couldn't tell what he took Yang Siyuan for.

"Client" or "Student"?Their relationship is much closer than this.

"friend"?

Yeah?he does not know.He selfishly hopes that Yang Siyuan can give him warmth, but he doesn't want him to see his true self.If he knew what he was... would he go?

Sooner or later he will go.It's just that if he can hide it, this seemingly warm but fragile relationship should last until he graduates from the college entrance examination, and once he goes to university and comes into contact with the world that truly belongs to him, then his relationship with him should slowly end up.

If there is no concealment... maybe their next side will be the last side.

He stared at the ceiling for half an hour in a daze.

"It seems that the winter vacation has not been long." Before going to bed, he was holding a warm handbag under the quilt, looking at the snow that had not stopped outside the small window, and suddenly thought.

Two weeks later, the final exam came as scheduled.

Yang Siyuan looked at the empty seat in front of him and sighed silently.

He never forgot what Yu Fei said in the hospital toilet that day, but it became clearer and clearer.

At that time, unlike now, Yang Siyuan neither played computer games nor gossiped much, and had no channels to learn about same-sex love.He has no relationship experience himself, and he has never thought about this issue, so he was a little surprised to hear that his classmate was gay all of a sudden.

But he was not disgusted.

The seats in the exam were arranged according to the results of the previous test. Yang Siyuan looked up at Yu Fei who was sitting in the first place. He always felt that after he came back from that day, his whole body sank, and his whole body was filled with the aura of "Do Not Disturb".

Yu Fei and Qi Ming's attitude towards each other made Yang Siyuan feel that there might be some entanglement between the two of them.Could it be that Qi Ming has feelings for Fei, but Yu Fei cannot accept it?

But the figure of Yu Fei sitting beside Qi Ming's bed that night...he couldn't figure it out.

Qi Ming didn't know when he would come back. He had tuberculosis, a disease that needs to be recovered slowly, so he probably had to take a break from school.

His study attitude has always been very serious. Yang Siyuan also saw that he made a long list of universities and made serious notes.He must be very sad to be so suddenly blocked by illness.

The paper was handed out, so he was not allowed to think about it any more, so he could only draw a pen and write the questions quickly.

Before writing, his last thought was "Li Yu'an is so weak, go and see him after the exam, don't get sick too."

The whole heart had been engraved with that person's name from inside to outside, but he didn't realize it.

When you realize it, you will miss everything that should be missed.