after the canary rebellion

Despite lying on the hospital bed for a long time, Jiang Sheng was well cared for and did not lose much weight.He has a small face, with light-colored forehead hair covering his eyebrows, with his eyes closed, he seems to fall asleep casually, and he can wake up with a yawn later.

It's not hard to imagine him as a high school student, delicate and introverted, like a little white rabbit who is easily frightened.Lin didn't look down at him, the nurse next to him called his name day after day, in a slow tone, but he didn't wake up.

It is the best result that Jiang Sheng has not changed in any way. Lin did not listen to the nurse's report, and recently experienced dyspnea again and again, which is not a good sign.

It is only a matter of time for everyone to die, because there are still people worthy of our nostalgia in the future, so we are still here to kill the confrontation.Lin Wuxin thought that he was not soft-hearted than Jiang Sheng, but luckier than Jiang Sheng. If he wanted to, he could easily make a choice.

"Jiang—sound—" the nurse repeated in the man's ear.

Even though he lives in the hospital where He Xiuze works, He Xiuze doesn't come here often, and occasionally visits when he has time.This guardianship should be more like a habit, divorced from love.The regret with Jiang Sheng forced He Xiuze to grow up in a day, and he couldn't forget this experience, so he put Jiang Sheng in his heart for the next days.

Lin didn't understand it that way. After all, in He Xiuze's narration, he and Jiang Sheng didn't even have a clear confession, so it was hard to guess.Moreover, He Xiuze said that when he meets someone who makes him fall in love again, he will try to start a new relationship. If fate can't be forced, it will be easy if he doesn't come for a long time.

"Are you Jiang Sheng's friend?" Jiang Sheng's mother came to the ward and asked.

Jiang Sheng's condition is not good. She and Jiang's father have returned from abroad.Lin didn't stand up, and said: "I'm He Xiuze's friend, I heard something about him before, so I'll come and see him when I have time today."

"It's Xiao He's friend."

Mother Jiang nodded, and looked at Lin Wu with a smile. Lin didn't think that the other party would be wrong, and then explained: "It can be regarded as a patient he helped, just an ordinary friend..."

"After so many years, I thought he should be accompanied by someone. He is a very affectionate person. There are old classmates who have come to see him these years. It is rare to have as long as Xiao He." Mother Jiang sighed, "He finished the college entrance examination on the first day. One thing is that I bought a bus ticket to come here to see Jiang Sheng, and later insisted on studying medicine."

Lin didn't say: "It's a pity for him and Jiang Sheng."

Jiang's mother looked down on this matter, but she said a few words of comfort, the world is impermanent, and the present should be cherished more than the past.

She said: "I talked with his mother before, but his mother had no choice. Xiao He said that he hadn't found one that suits him so far, and he didn't want to consider getting married. I also mentioned that if something happened to Jiang Sheng , This is relief for Jiang Sheng, I am afraid that Xiao He will be sad."

Mother Jiang touched Jiang Sheng's arm. Even though she massaged frequently, she still couldn't escape the muscle atrophy. Jiang Sheng's wrist was even slender than Mother Jiang's.

"Then my little He told me not to worry too much about him. He kept his promise. Before Jiang Sheng asked him if he could be good friends forever, and he promised Jiang Sheng." Jiang's mother said.

Jiang Sheng, who Lin didn't know from Zhou Rang, was a person who dared to love and chase, but he was always gloomy when he was looking for answers. When He Xiuze was injured in sports, he actively helped buy meals every day, and he would be shy when he looked at He Xiuze He hurriedly turned his head away, unable to hide the admiration in his eyes.

Proposing to He Xiuze to always be good friends is a cowardly and possessive expression, like Jiang Sheng would ask.

"It's good to wake up." Lin didn't say.

What a wonderful thing that is.Jiang's mother had such a beautiful dream, and she stopped doing it when her hopes failed again and again, and her wrinkles deepened because of her smile: "Yes, if Jiang Sheng can wake up, she should be very happy, and regretting that she should go down. Be careful when you go upstairs, how can we be willing to wait for him for so long."

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"What did you go out for?" Xie Zaiyuan asked.

Lin was not puzzled: "Can't I go out?"

"You've been in a bad mood recently, and I'm afraid you'll fall asleep on the bus when you go out alone." Xie Zaiyuan said, "Did you have a headache and didn't sleep well at night?"

Lin didn't answer his question. He looked at the platycodon flowers in the store, and then thought of the petal-like sound of ginger. Even though the two had never met before, he was still worried about the sound of ginger. When he came back, he thought of himself. Seeing Xie serving the soup in Yuanduan, he held his head: "What will happen to you if you don't find me for several years after I leave the hospital, or if I forget about you?"

"Your assumption will make me feel lucky that I ran into you after going around like this."

"Please answer directly." Lin Mo said.

"I will continue to like you, at least you need me."

Lin didn't go to get the bowls and chopsticks, and commented by the way: "It's really narcissistic."

Xie Zaiyuan still has this confidence, love or hate, extreme emotions are only produced between each other and are irreplaceable.Although these seven years were not a relationship, the companionship and heart-to-heart communication were all real, and the sense of familiarity did not make people feel bored. Every detail that the other party knew was attractive and could resonate.

The tomato beef brisket soup boiled the ingredients thoroughly, and there are potatoes and carrots in it. The carrots can no longer taste the original taste, and have a strong tomato flavor.

Lin didn't like to eat carrots as usual, and he ate several mouthfuls under this cooking method.Every time the meal was half full, he couldn't eat anymore, and Xie Zaiyuan persuaded him to bite the bullet and continue eating until the whole bowl was empty before putting away the dishes and washing the dishes.

Xie Zaiyuan asked him to add an extra coat to avoid catching cold in the air-conditioned room.Lin didn't bring any clothes, and was put on Xie Zaiyuan's suit in a blink of an eye.

Lin was not used to being taken care of like Princess and the Pea.I used to accompany Xie Zaiyuan to participate in entertainment, and it was common for him to continue to hold on to the stomachache after drinking. Xie Zaiyuan never paid attention to him.

Sitting awkwardly in the store, he fell asleep on the table for a while, woke up and Xie Zaiyuan left, leaving the coat here.Noticing that there was a little girl on the opposite side who kept looking into the store, he subconsciously thought it was a customer and smiled at her.

As if she was encouraged, the little girl walked into the store, picked out a few bunches of flowers and came to bandage them, and then stared at Lin Mei's face to make sure she didn't hit her face. After a long time, she couldn't help but ask: "Brother, are you Why did you terminate the contract?"

Lin Wu was startled, handed her the flowers, and said, "When the time is up, I won't do it."

After getting such a calm answer, the little girl felt a little wronged: "How can I just leave? Are you reluctant? You didn't even say goodbye to us."

He is indeed such a type of person. This is the first time that Lin Wei was questioned by fans after he left the circle. He thought that he would be gradually forgotten. After he said it, he would inevitably cause an uproar, and he would make many mistakes. This is a very test Tolerance and EQ, it is better to keep silent and let others guess.

Lin Mo's tone was very slow: "I'm sorry, I found a job I like better."

The little girl held the flowers, frowned and said: "But you were very happy before, wouldn't it be nice to have us?"

"It used to be work."

Now that he is no longer an idol, Lin didn't want to say some words to trick fans into pretending that he is open-minded.He used to work very hard, even pretending to love his work.

"Can you not post it online? I'm sorry, I'm doing well now and don't want to be disturbed." Lin didn't smile gently.

The girl gave him a disappointed look. Lin didn't know that the fans placed great expectations on the idol, hoping that he would devote his whole life to his work and live the way they like.

"What's the matter..." The girl murmured, wearing a suit that didn't fit the size over the white short sleeves, her face was pale and bloodless, and her originally thin body became even thinner. Lin Wuzeng didn't look like this at all.

The girl was crying a little, and she was sure that Lin hadn't encountered a problem: "You can go to a flower shop if you want, but why are you so thin?"

In addition to being disappointed, she still felt sorry for Lin Mei, muttering about her uneasiness, even if ordinary fans were like this, sister Zhan, who had accompanied him all over the world in the past five years, was even more uncomfortable.Lin didn't pass him a tissue, and the girl realized that she was crying.

When a two-way relationship is cut off unilaterally, you will be sad for a long time.Lin didn't say a few words of comfort, and didn't want them to worry about him anymore, saying that he was really fine, and then asked the girl to confirm whether he would go to social platforms to disclose his situation.

"Don't lie to me, are you sick? Talk to us more. If you are unhappy, you can talk to us. We will listen carefully and can help you share."

Lin is not vulnerable like that, he wants to give fans positive energy, if he can't provide that anymore, then stop there.And the encouragement and care from the outside world is enough. The problems of friends, family members and Xie Zaiyuan are his own problems.

"No, I'm living a good life, the life I want." Lin didn't say.

The only difference from his original plan is that the relationship with Xie Zaiyuan has changed. They spend here without embarrassment, killing each other's endless enthusiasm.

The girl tried again and again to persuade him to make a change, but he was somewhat resistant and suppressed it and didn't show it.

Song Lin's death was a big turning point for him. From then on, Lin didn't realize that he and Song Lin were becoming more and more like Song Lin. The original paranoid personality could be restrained, but after being aroused, it became more and more pathological. Coupled with laissez-faire, He is a completely different person.

"You were not like this in the past." Seeing that the communication was ineffective, the girl gave up.

Lin didn't say: "I don't want to be like the past."

He can't change back. In the past, Lin was not so meticulous and forbearing. He humbly denied his value in the eyes of others and ran forward desperately. It seemed that he was strong and invincible. In fact, in the end, any small matter could become the last straw. Let him collapse across the board, and he can't even stand up.Now he doesn't want to repeat the same mistakes, on the contrary, he is constantly acknowledging himself, including his suicide.

Everything has two sides, but he likes to be one-sided. He doesn't want to be like the past, and it's not good to be like this now.

After seeing the girl off, Lin did not flick his phone anxiously for a while, fearing that his whereabouts would be published on the Internet.At such tense moments, he often trembled all over his body, and even felt dizzy and vomiting. He bit his lip and repeatedly told himself to be calm, but his body couldn't do it at all.

The number of followers on his Weibo has dropped a little, and some fans have closed down one after another in frustration. Today, he went to his own topic to check, and finally knew what happened.He disappeared from the public eye, and many people will definitely speculate on the reason for his retirement.

Some people speculated that he was going to get married and have children, while others said that he simply didn't want to be in this industry anymore, after all, the pressure was too great, and some people angrily pointed out that there were many shady actors in the entertainment industry, and her brother couldn't stay in the muddy water.

The water is muddy, but Lin is not much better. His current achievements are not due to his hard work alone, and Xie Zaiyuan's support behind him is indispensable.Lin smiled self-deprecatingly, and soon his support team posted on Weibo saying that they had received contributions from fans, and now they knew his whereabouts, but considering that he was already an ordinary person, he could not disturb his normal life.

These words are written generously, and there are still people asking Lin Mei's whereabouts in the comments below.Lin didn't turn off his phone, thinking that the location of the flower shop could not be kept secret for long. He had never met such a strong fan before, so his life was peaceful. The little girl just refused to promise to keep it secret, so he had to pray that the other party would not reveal his privacy.

At the same time, he is still of great value to the paparazzi. Once a clue is revealed, they will quickly clean up his movement during this period.

Lin didn't know that he would be exposed sooner or later, and he didn't expect it to come so soon.Ten minutes after turning off the phone, he wanted to bring in the flowers that were drying outside, and there were already people gathered around him, and some people were holding banners that Lin didn't usually use.

I haven't seen anyone in half a year. Seeing that Lin didn't appear in front of my eyes, but still looking in this direction, the group of people were a little excited. They originally got together to discuss how to enter the store, but now they don't think about it anymore, smiling Or go to him crying.

If his popularity is too high, his fans tend to be younger, and he tends to have immature fans. Those fans immediately set off when they know what is going on. The idols who spent thousands of dollars in the past may not be able to meet, but now they sit in the same city for a few stops. The bus is coming, so don't come over quickly and take a look.

Lin didn't think it was a good idea to lock the store door, so he went around the store and went out through the back door, thinking they would leave if they didn't see anyone, but they just stayed here in the flower shop, and there was no tendency to disperse .And more and more people rushed over after hearing the news. In Lin's situation, it was difficult for fans to stay rational, and they all wanted to come and see him.

In less than half an hour, the flower shop was full of people, and the traffic police came to evacuate. Lin didn't leave his mobile phone on the cash register, and he was at a loss wearing Xie Zaiyuan's suit not far away.

The scorching sun was in the sky, but he felt chills through his bones, his vision was blurred and he couldn't go too far, so he had to hide in a shady corner of the building.But as time passed, the people gathered almost blocked the path, and some media reporters came to take pictures.

It has been a long time since I retired from the circle and was brought up again, and the previous silence became meaningless.Lin did not see that the situation was out of control. Many fans said that they would not go home until they saw him today, and the entire road was almost paralyzed.

Some merchants called the traffic police to evacuate their personnel, but no fans were willing to leave for a long time.In the scorching heat, it is easy to faint, there is no other way and he can't bear it, Lin didn't want to say a few words to let them go away, but he was discovered in advance halfway, and after a cry of surprise, everyone gathered around him, almost A stampede has occurred.

Lin was not used to this kind of fanaticism. At this moment, he had been ill for half a year, physically and mentally weak. When he heard the screams, his temples throbbed, followed by a headache.

After being treated tenderly for so long, the current situation is beyond his tolerance.Lin didn't go into the building, the fans were not confused by the heat, he couldn't hold on anymore.

Today is different from the past, without the help of the brokerage company, he doesn't know who to turn to for help, and he can't talk to people at the top of his voice.The traffic police tried their best to maintain order. Some people yelled at Zhao Lin and said nothing. He was concerned about Lin Mo, anxious after disappearing, and sad about being abandoned.

Lin didn't retreat step by step behind the traffic police, never thought that today he would be so embarrassed by his former followers.Maybe it's because I haven't seen Lin for a long time without a clear response, and the weather is too hot to make people irritable. Those voices changed from asking to questioning, from depression to anger.

He couldn't see clearly through the noise, squinting his eyes in a way he didn't want to be captured by the camera, and raised his arms to cover his face.As time went by, Lin didn't feel that the noise in his ears was getting farther and nearer, and finally became hazy, as if he was separated from himself by an impenetrable high wall.

This incident was recorded and uploaded to the Internet by the crowd. Lin didn't have a lot of traffic. Everyone was curious about his gossip news. Soon the video was connected with the topics of #林不出现# and #林不被增挥# On the hit.

People held different opinions on this matter, and different views had fierce collisions. After fermentation, not many people paid attention to what happened to Lin Mo.

Is the person blocking him harming him?

Was it right or wrong for him to be so ruthless?

Others were discussing in full swing, Lin Bu was squeezed into a corner and couldn't breathe. After a long time, people from the security company came and took him away. He couldn't even walk anymore.The office on the top floor of the building was greeted and temporarily opened to him. Lin Wu looked blankly at the hot water handed over by others, and flinched and dared not drink it.

"Mr. Xie will come over later, take a rest, it's very quiet here, do you need a quilt?"

Lin Mei's fingers grabbed the hem of Xie Zaiyuan's suit, kneading the high-grade fabric into a crumpled ball, still shaking his head.The magnitude is very small, and it should be that the head is still hurting.

Xie Zaiyuan changed into a spare suit in the office in the afternoon, which was very similar to Lin Mei's. When he came over, the manager of the building told him about Lin Mei's state. He was frightened by the chaotic scene and hadn't recovered yet.

He thought to himself that this was more than just being frightened, Lin Mei's emotions were like a tight string, surprises and flashes are common things, the slightest difficulty can break him down, recently he can't even talk to him with a louder voice unwilling.

Lin didn't sit in the office blankly, Xie Zaiyuan walked over and squatted down to look at him, and asked him, "Are you okay?"

Lin didn't lower his eyes, he's not good.

"Don't take it to heart, of course people who like you tolerate you."

Xie Zaiyuan went to shake his hand that was tightly clenched on the corner of his clothes, and when it was cold, he finally warmed up his hand, and said, "Shall we go to dinner?"

"Eat, can't eat..." Lin didn't speak in a lump, as if he couldn't speak.

After being stimulated, Lin did not react strongly, and he would not be able to escape the control of this shadow for a long time.Xie Zaiyuan patiently told him: "I saw a Hong Kong-style restaurant downstairs. I remember you like rice rolls. Let's eat some. Xie You, I asked the driver to take him home. After eating, we will pack some dessert for him. You said OK?"

"I can't go." Lin didn't turn his head away.

Xie Zaiyuan gently pinched Xia Lin Mei's calf. His leg was very straight, and it still had smooth lines due to dancing practice. At this moment, it was trembling finely, and it was slightly relieved by the pressing of his hands. .

"Shall I pack it for you?" Xie Zaiyuan probed.

Lin didn't lower his body and scratched his hair, nodded for a while, Xie Zaiyuan stood up and stroked his back, like comforting a frightened cat.When Lin didn't calm down, he turned around and went to buy dinner.

After closing the door, Lin didn't straighten his back. Now he won't be the same as before. His mood fluctuates and he wants to keep crying unconsciously. His fair face is dry and smooth.Outside the window is the setting sun and dusk, and the fire clouds dye the sky blood red.

My heart is uncomfortable, my legs and feet are uncomfortable, and there is no comfortable place in my body. I wish my soul could leave my body.He looked at the rooftop outside the window expressionlessly, and when he opened the door, a gust of hot air came blowing into his face, which was the fresh breath of life.

At the height of the seventh floor, Lin didn't look down at the scenes on the ground. These seemed to him another parallel world. He could only see their expressions and hear their words, but he couldn't feel their emotions. funeral music.

This is not the first time that Lin has lost his ability to empathize, and has really escaped to his own world. He thinks that this world may never have anything to do with him.

Blinking his eyes with difficulty, Lin Bu sat down numbly on the roof, it was a very dangerous place, but he didn't feel afraid at all, his legs dangled leisurely outside.He used to have a friend in the team who told himself that when he couldn't bear the pressure, he would often go to the rooftop to relieve his boredom, stand on the edge a few times and come back.

"What were you thinking when you came back?" Lin didn't ask him at that time.

"I thought of someone who can make me persevere." The friend said.

It's tiring to persevere. Looking back, it's empty, but looking forward, it's still cloudy.Lin didn't think about it, but he couldn't bear to let Xie Zaiyuan be at a loss for him any longer.

He was about to stand up, but he was held down by the shoulders and lifted inward, fearing that something might happen in a moment, this movement almost used brute force, dragging Lin Mei's collarbone red a lot.Xie Zaiyuan pulled him up and said in a harsh voice, "What are you doing?"

Lin didn't know, I don't know when Xie Zaiyuan came here to see him, holding him down with one hand, and holding a packed lunch box with rice rolls that Lin didn't like to eat in the other.

Xie Zaiyuan lost control and wanted to take him back to the office, but Lin didn't let his legs soften. He threw the lunch box on the ground, and then hugged him horizontally.The moment Lin didn't vacate, he circled Xie Zaiyuan's neck, Xie Zaiyuan's tone was angry and helpless: "I'm afraid of falling, then what were you doing sitting there just now! Do you know how many floors it is!"

Lin didn't answer, he didn't put his ear on Xie Zaiyuan's chest, but he knew how intense and complicated Xie Zaiyuan's mood was.

Xie Zaiyuan hit hard just now, but now he restrained his strength, put Lin Mei on the sofa, and gasped for breath while standing up.

"I can't think more about the person who likes you. I will tolerate you whatever you want to toss. Why can't you think about me a little bit, even if it's one thousandth, one ten thousandth of me, you just think about me ..." At this point, Xie Zaiyuan choked up.

He is afraid.Lin didn't think about it, and finally had some reaction. He raised his arm and put it on Xie Zaiyuan's head, rubbing it clumsily.

He didn't think wrong, and then Xie Zaiyuan told him clearly: "You really scare me."

Lin Mei's world is not empty, it's just that the high walls built up block a large part of his emotions, and Xie Zaiyuan's words are conveyed to his heart exactly.

He opened his mouth several times to speak, but could only produce a single sound similar to the beginning of a sentence.

I am sorry.

"I……"

I am sorry.

"Can……"

I am sorry.

Lin didn't give up, he covered his mouth, and when Xie Zaiyuan went to buy food again, he bit down hard on his tiger's mouth.

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