after the canary rebellion

Xie Zaiyuan started learning Go when he was four years old. Xie's mother would always come to accompany him, but she didn't watch how he learned how to play chess. She just sat quietly beside him and looked out the window.

Children are generally naughty, Xie Zaiyuan played the chess pieces as a jigsaw puzzle, and put together a flower for Xie's mother to see, but Xie's mother yelled several times but did not recover.Someone said that his mother was sick, but in his eyes, it was normal for his mother to be like this.

"You want to show me the flowers..." Mother Xie pursed her lips lightly.

Xie Zaiyuan smiled at her, and Xie's mother rubbed his hair, saying: "When I was in my stomach before, it seemed like I couldn't wait to chat with me, and loved to kick me in the middle of the night."

Mother Xie always brought up this matter with him, Xie Zaiyuan said: "I want to chat with you."

"Then do you love your mother?" Xie's mother asked.

Xie Zaiyuan replied without thinking: "I love my mother."

Some children can't speak at the age of four, but Xie Zaiyuan was enlightened early and can speak fluently.After he finished speaking, he repeated: "I love you."

Since he was a child without a father, his mother occupied a full place in his heart, and his grandfather was strict with him, which made him cling to his mother even more.

It was too hot in Weidu in October, Xie Zaiyuan went to play outside in the evening under the care of his servants, and happened to encounter a power outage just after returning home.When people panic, they will subconsciously look for the closest person. He opened Xiemu’s bedroom door in the dark, and then found that Xiemu was not there, so he went to the hot spring to look for it. Because the ground was very wet, he fell firmly. Falling, the palm of my hand was full of water, and then I accidentally slipped into the hot spring.

Xie Zaiyuan's impression of his childhood has faded to such a fragment, and even the details of the fragment are vivid.

The moment he fell into the pool, warmth enveloped him, and the whole area was re-connected to electricity. The neighbors didn't know there was any happy event. They were setting off fireworks, and the brilliant fireworks were reflected on the water.

Under the hazy water, his vision was blurred, except for the clear water, and Xie Mu unconsciously turned her neck due to the current, and turned her head towards him, but she closed her eyes and never looked at him again.

These are not the clearest, the clearest is the floating strands of red spilling from the mother's wrist.

When Xie Zaiyuan attended his mother's funeral, he was so out of breath from crying that he almost passed out.If there is any dividing line in life, he drew the first line when he was four years old. He must turn on the light when he sleeps, otherwise he will keep his eyes open all night and dare not close them.

Tonight he dreamed of falling into the water again. Xie Zaiyuan woke up very quickly. He rarely thought about it again. The irreparable scars will always be diluted by time, and he has no other choice but to suffer.

He reached out to turn on the light, only to realize later that he hadn't slept with the light on for a long time.

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"Did he tell you these things?" Lin didn't ask.

"No, I just know that he is afraid of the dark. When we took a nap in elementary school, he would run away as soon as the teacher drew the curtains. Later, I heard my dad mention it." Wu Xingjin said, "It is said that he was born prematurely, and he was going to give birth suddenly in the middle of the night. At that time, he Dad was working all night at the company, and when he heard the news, he hurried to the hospital, and then had an accident on the way."

"Does Xie Zaiyuan know about this?"

"You said that I, an outsider, knew it. Even if he didn't know it when he was young, would he not know it later?"

I don't know if it's because of a headache, Wu Xingjin saw Lin Wu's hand shaking with a cigarette in his hand, realized that he shouldn't talk so much with a patient, so he closed the scene carelessly, and waved his hand: "You should also be more confident in Xie Zaiyuan, It's not that he has become a spirit from a stone, so why doesn't he like you?"

After the show, Lin didn't go home. He took a room in a nearby hotel and didn't sleep all night. He called Xie You when the time came, and asked him to open the door after he got up. He yawned and made breakfast while listening to the news outside the window. With the chirping of birds, it is another new day.

He hadn't noticed that Xie Zaiyuan was afraid of the dark before. In his heart, he had been overly deified and impersonal, so nothing caught his eye. He seemed not afraid of anything and was sure of everything.

Is the him in my heart the real him?Seemingly closer to the person Yu Lin didn't imagine he wanted to be, Xie Zaiyuan was restricted by him early on to provide him with a stable sense of security.

The first night he slept in Xie Zaiyuan's room, the two of them were actually very embarrassed. They had done what they should and should not have done before, and then they faced each other soberly, not even knowing where to put their hands.Then Xie Zaiyuan probably felt really embarrassed, and brought the computer in to work, which made Lin feel a little more relaxed. Two hours later, at 23:[-], Xie Zaiyuan put away the computer.

At that time, they turned their backs to each other and didn't speak, not because they didn't want to speak, but because they really didn't know what to say.Then Lin didn't see that the bedside lamp was still on, yawned, reached out to touch the switch, and said, "I'm sleepy, should I turn off the light now?"

Xie Zaiyuan didn't tell him that he couldn't sleep after turning off the lights, but just said: "Good night."

The next day when he woke up with dark circles under his eyes, Lin Wei thought it was because he was not used to suddenly having someone beside him, and he was complacent that he had changed his life.

In the past seven years, Lin didn't think that Xie Zaiyuan was a light sleeper, so there was another reason.In the day-by-day imperceptible influence, Lin did not remember when the other party got used to having him by his side, and fell asleep in the dark.

Love exists, but Lin didn't discover it, so he just pretended it never came. Now that time has passed and it is mentioned again, it is another feeling.

"Mom, the eggs are going to burn!" Xie You shouted.

Lin didn't come back to his senses in a hurry. It was difficult for him to concentrate during this time. The eggs were burnt to black charcoal, so he threw away and re-fried two.Xie You looked at him with his chin, and said, "Dad fried eggs in the store before, and they turned black."

"It's not bad that he can break eggs and put them in a basin." Lin didn't answer.

Xie You took a step back: "It's not bad that he can open the refrigerator to get eggs."

Xie Zaiyuan came to cook at noon, he regarded it as a task that must be completed, he was very attentive, and even today he still cooks in different ways.

Here at Lin Mo, it's just that the daily meals are becoming more and more photogenic and delicious. When he patiently thinks about these changes, how much Xie Zaiyuan has put in behind each dish, the answer is ready to come out.

It is difficult to let go of the attachment and forgive the other party. Lin has not seen and knows a lot of details that he missed before, but it is still difficult to change his mentality to be calm and calm.And Xie Zaiyuan knew this well, and didn't leave enough room for Lin to breathe. He didn't go any further until the summer came, and it seemed that he had no purpose.

I can’t tell if my mood has become a little more stable. Lin Mei still tends to be distracted. Sometimes it seems that there is an impenetrable barrier between him and the real world. Positive worldly emotions cannot be conveyed. to almost zero ripple.

When he was sad, he was sad, and when he was happy, he was not very happy, but he was satisfied with standing still at this time.

If everything in front of him is a pot of warm water, Lin has already soaked in the pot, I don't know if the water has been heated, but he is enjoying it anyway.

One day He Xiuze came to sit in the store for a while, and Xie Zaiyuan happened to be there too, as if the alarm had sounded, he was very concerned about each other's every move, seeing that He Xiuze and Lin were not talking or laughing, his face suddenly sank.

"My home appliance light flickers occasionally. I thought it was a problem in the whole building. It turned out that it was time to change the light bulb. I had already changed it last time, and I was so tired from taking the ladder." Lin didn't say.

"I don't know, but I thought Mr. Xie didn't let you eat enough. You are very thin, so of course you don't have any energy." He Xiuze asked him.

Lin didn't bite the straw of watermelon juice: "I have a physique that doesn't make me fat."

He Xiuze said: "If I had received treatment before, I wouldn't be in pain now, and I would definitely be a little fatter."

"It doesn't hurt anymore."

He Xiuze and Xie Zaiyuan were a little surprised by what he said. Seeing that there was no flaw in Lin Mei's expression, Lin Mei glanced at Xie Zaiyuan who was not far away, and changed the subject: "Zhou Rang and I mentioned you before, I didn't expect you And he was actually a high school classmate."

"Yeah, it's really a coincidence." He Xiuze smiled.

Hearing this, Xie Zaiyuan returned to the kitchen with a dark face to continue cooking, and stopped listening to their conversation.

"Do you have a celebrity you like? You should take this opportunity to ask him to ask for an autograph. He is very popular in the circle." Lin didn't see Xie Zaiyuan and turned around to the kitchen, curling the corners of his mouth with a sly look.

He Xiuze replied, "I chased him, but only for a short period of time."

Lin didn't ask: "Boys and girls team?"

"Crush." ​​He Xiuze answered frankly.

"Isn't this the group I'm in with him? Do you like Mu Yin?" Lin didn't name anyone. That person sang well and was full of talent, and he was very popular among literary youths.

He Xiuze was a little shy: "No, I liked you when I was a sophomore in high school."

Lin Wu was stunned, and put down the watermelon juice: "You were a sophomore in high school, and I was underage at that time, and it will be several years after my debut."

"Yes, at that time, someone took a picture of your side face working in a coffee shop and posted it on the Internet. It became popular for a while, that's when." He Xiuze said, "During that time, I always thought that I should be the type who likes to be bright and dazzling. boy."

That was ten years ago, Lin didn't ask: "What do you like later?"

"He's the exact opposite of you, introverted, unconfident, and easily shy."

Xie Zai came out of the garden, deliberately walked between the two of them, interrupted them and said, "Xiao Mei, it's time to eat."

He didn't give He Xiuze two bowls of rice, although he thought that He Xiuze didn't like Lin Mei, more like he was not curious about Lin, but his hostility towards him didn't decrease in the slightest, possessiveness was written all over his cold face.

He Xiuze and Lin didn't say: "Let's talk later, come to my house when you have time."

Xie You was doing homework at night, when he heard someone knocking on the door, he thought it was He Xiuze who was visiting, and opened the door for him while calling for his brother, only to find that it was his father standing outside, unexpectedly, he changed his name and called Dad weakly .

"Father, what are you doing here?" Xie You said.

Xie Zaiyuan didn't care about this kid who was bought by He Xiuze, and cut straight to the point: "Which light bulb here is bad?"

Xie You took him to the study room, Xie Zaiyuan went to the storage room to move out the ladder, and then replaced the light bulb with a new one. After making sure there was nothing wrong, he said to Xie You: "Are you about to take the final exam?"

Xie You said "Oh", afraid that Xie Zaiyuan would mention his previous test scores, but fortunately Xie Zaiyuan just asked him casually to let him review carefully, and then changed the subject: "Didn't Lin go to bed so early?"

"It's usually that early." Xie You replied truthfully.

Thinking of Lin not telling He Xiuze that he was not in pain anymore during the day, Xie Zaiyuan was still puzzled, but after so long, he never saw Lin complaining about the unbearable pain, living with Xie You, Xie You said that he didn't even I've seen Lin not have a headache to the point where he can't speak.

Thinking of this, Xie Zaiyuan couldn't help being confused, he gently pushed open the door of Lin Mei's room.The curtains in the room were not closed, and the moonlight poured in all over the floor, and the quilt was propped up in a small ball.

Last time, I only saw Lin Wei when he was sleeping soundly. At this time, Lin Wei was sweating all over his head, shaking his thin body and leaning against the head of the bed.He hugged the pillow with his slender arms, buried his head in it, and brushed his long hair.

Except for the sound of rapid breathing, there was no movement. Xie Zaiyuan approached him and looked at him. Lin did not close his eyes tightly, probably because of the extreme pain, and did not notice anyone coming in.

He didn't bite on anything like a towel, he was really trying his best to restrain himself, he didn't make any urges, his clenched teeth trembled slightly.What no longer hurts is all lies, he endured these, and he underplayed the difficult moments.

What kind of person was Lin before the accident happened?Xie Zaiyuan, after tossing and tossing for a period of time, almost forgot Lin Mei's original appearance.

It has nothing to do with being irritable, world-weary, hurtful, or escaping from reality. He should be beautiful, forbearing, and delicate. There is always a light in his eyes that will never go out, and he deserves to be treated with the most tenderness.

Little liar.

Xie Zaiyuan said in his heart, but he didn't make a sound.In the past, I always liked to expose Lin Mo's thoughts, as if I understood him, but in fact, this didn't make Lin Mo happy.

The other party has strong self-esteem and loves to be brave, but he is self-righteous and tells the truth again and again, and he is angry and unable to refute. This reaction should be to suppress his anger, because the feeling of being seen through is tantamount to being taken off the protection easily shell.

He retreated to the door and looked at Lin Mo by the moonlight. Lin Mo huddled into a ball unconsciously, and occasionally made broken and incoherent monotones. He couldn't make out what he was talking about, maybe it was just to vent his emotions.

After Xie Zaiyuan closed the door, Lin Wei was panting intermittently. When he was in pain, he couldn't feel any movement from the outside world. His ears were buzzing, and he struggled to utter a few words. It was the same as all the fragile moments before. A person's name is his escape spell: at... Zaiyuan...

The author has something to say: The stalemate should be broken in the next chapter (but not reconciled) Thanks to the little angels who voted for me as the overlord~

Thanks to the little angels who voted [Landmine]: 1 piece from Shanye, 1 piece from Huaizhou, and 1 piece from Cool Brother who wants to make a fortune

Thanks to the little angels for irrigating me with nutrient solution~

Thanks to the little angels who irrigate the nutrient solution: Han 10 bottles, alcohol. 5 bottles, 1 bottle of Xuyin

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard! ^_^