Feelings are just pediatrics

The start of the project was not smooth.

After three consecutive failed operations, Sijing shut herself in the laboratory in the middle of the night and refused to come out to see anyone.

After Meijuan received Dr. Zhou Wenting's complaint, she immediately drove to Dr. Tang's house, and dragged her to the hospital in the middle of the night to rescue the little doctor who had lost his confidence.

At first Sijing only heard Meijuan's voice and refused to open the door at all. Later, when Dr. Tang knocked on the door himself, although his mind was confused, at least Sijing knew that he needed professional help and answered the door obediently.

Sijing asked Dr. Tang to sit down. Dr. Tang raised his eyes and looked around. The patient's film was on the screen on one side of the laboratory, and the operation process was being played on the big screen in the middle. Obviously, Sijing had been repeatedly looking for the root cause of the failure of the operation. because.

There was another knock on the door. Meijuan bought coffee for Dr. Tang, but Sijing only gave her big eyes.

A certain person is a typical example of a knife-mouthed tofu heart. When Meijuan pretended to turn around and leave, she stretched her hand behind her back and cleared her throat with her back facing Sijing.

Sijing took the warm cup knowingly, put it up to her nose and sniffed it, ah, this is stomach-warming warm milk that she can drink.

"Thank you." Sijing said very embarrassedly, and apologized in a small voice: "I made you worry."

"Hmm!" Meijuan let out a dissatisfied snort from her nose, but her steps of leaving were relaxed and happy. Sijing was willing to see Dr. Tang, so she should be fine soon.

Let’s say it’s uncomfortable for anyone to put this matter on. After three consecutive failed transplant operations, people with higher abilities,

The degree of failure that needs to be endured is different from others. The failure of Sijing's operation means the scrapping of six living organs. If the transplant is performed on a low-risk patient, under the favor of luck, six lives can be saved.

The six children who can live and dance from now on have a long life ahead of them. They may fall in love, get married and have children, and live an ordinary and happy life.

Or choose work that benefits mankind and help more people in need.

Every time the operation failed, Sijing would think about these things in her mind, but because of her reasons, these possible good things could never be realized.

Under Dr. Tang's persuasive guidance, Sijing told her the thoughts in his heart.

Dr. Tang grasped a question very keenly: "Sijing, apart from routine examinations and ward rounds, have you ever been alone with the project patients at other times?"

Sijing looked up at her and shook his head slowly.

"Why not?" Doctor Tang asked immediately.

"I don't want to get too close to the children." Si Jing pressed her heart, and suddenly choked up.Doctor Tang knew that she thought of Xu Yan.

It took a while for Sijing to say: "The most difficult part of being a pediatrician is watching the child die slowly in front of you, but you can't do anything."

So she doesn't want to visit her patients because she can't bring them the good news of organ donation.

"Sijing, whether you want to see them or not, you still care very much. If the most unfortunate situation happens, the pain you feel will not be more or less because you are not close to them. It's the same, why don't you go see them, have a chat with him, let them know that their doctor likes and cares about them?"

After a long time, Sijing nodded and led her to Huimin's ward at the request of Dr. Tang.

Tonight, Dr. Chen Kaijia was still guarding the hospital all night. Sijing and Dr. Tang stood at the front desk of the nurses silently looking at the little niece who was sleeping soundly in her mother's arms.

"She looks a lot like Xu Yan." Dr. Tang said softly.

Sijing nodded slightly, then shook his head again: "But his personality is very different. Huimin's personality is a bit more like Azhe's, quiet and artistic."

The two then walked slowly to another ward, looking at the Indian child who needed to wear an oxygen mask through the glass, Sijing said softly: "Rajshi needs an organ transplant, and he doesn't have much time, maybe he can wait, maybe He left in a second, and I..."

I can't guarantee anything, I can't do anything, I can only resign myself to fate.

Dr. Tang felt that she seemed to have underestimated the psychological pressure that Sijing faced. She was different from the sudden life and death situations faced by other frontline personnel. Like them, Sijing walked on the edge of life and death every day. But the process Sijing went through was painful and slow.

She is one of the best pediatric doctors in the world, which also means that she is the only hope left for the terminally ill patients. The little patients are sitting on the train that is slowly driving to heaven, and Sijing is their guardian in the world. The last port of call, she is their last hope.

But Sijing is different from the Almighty God. She cannot save everyone. On the contrary, as the person who is forced to send the children away from the world by herself, she, the children and their families must go through despair together. A feeling of hope eating away.

Repeatedly.

Sijing's thin back suddenly became taller, and Dr. Tang respected her in his heart.

Under Dr. Tang's professional guidance, although Sijing still felt sad, at least she regained her motivation, and always kept in mind Dr. Tang's advice. When she felt that she couldn't breathe, she needed to tell herself that I am a mortal and I am not a god. I will do my best.

In the end, Lajishi did not wait for a life-saving organ, and they did not receive any good news this week. Apart from catching Dr. Zhou and tossing her skills every day, Sijing would go to the ward to play with Huimin every afternoon when she was free. Plane chess.

The child is getting weaker day by day, the dose of medicine is increasing, and now there is less time to wake up.

In the morning, she was still in good spirits, and Sijing would go to the ward to chat with her. Azhe had invited her to stay with her daughter during the long holiday night. Kaijia played the video every day. Aunt Kaixuan.

Although the adults all put on a very strong appearance, the child knew his physical condition. When Huimin and Sijing went for a check-up, she privately asked Aunt Sijing that if she went to heaven to play with Xuyan, please ask her Tell the mothers not to be sad, to live a good life, and not to worry about her bad life, she can be with Xu Yan in heaven, and they will be very happy.

So Sijing immediately hid in the bathroom and cried until the sky was dark.

After a long time, Sijing came back and pretended to train the little guy to think wildly all day long, and told her that the patient must have strong willpower. One day we enter the operating room, if you see the white light of heaven, and even Xu Yan Now, don't go in or follow her, you hear?

The little guy put on a cute smile on his pale face and nodded.

That evening, Sijing's pager suddenly rang.

After taking a look, she immediately rushed to the landline, picked up the phone and dialed the connection number of the regulatory agency.

Fifteen minutes ago, a mixed-race child in Ng Teng Fong Hospital was declared brain-dead in the emergency department. The parents agreed to donate the child’s whole body organs, including the child’s whole body skin. The doctor found that his patient was also eligible for liver donation. He insisted that the regulatory agency contact Dr. Lin and begged him to give up the liver. The child had few hours to live.

Medically speaking, Huimin could afford to wait a few more days, but the other child could no longer wait.

This decision was difficult. When Sijing decided to give up the healthy liver and lungs that belonged to Huimin, Dean Chen looked extremely disappointed.

After Kaijia learned of Sijing's decision, her emotions almost collapsed.

Intellectually, she understands why Sijing made this decision, but emotionally she is incapable of accepting it. What if her Huimin fails to wait for a new organ?

How could Sijing bear it!

Sijing locked herself in the office and paced back and forth, listening to Kaijia's heart-piercing cries from the corridor, tears streaming down her face, Sijing was so uncomfortable that she kept tearing her hair.

The phone rang suddenly, and there was a photo of Kaixuan on the screen.

Kaixuan probably wanted to scold her when she called at this time, Sijing slumped on the chair helplessly, letting the phone ring continuously.

Then a message came in, and Kaixuan said, "I can understand your decision."

Then Dr. Chen continued to call her relentlessly.

Sijing finally picked it up, and said in a crying voice, "Xiaoxuan..."

Kaixuan also seemed to be feeling very uncomfortable. She tried her best to suppress her emotions and said rationally: "There is a reason for the family members not to treat the family members. You did what a doctor should do. Even though Kaijia blamed you, you did nothing wrong. "

"I'm afraid... Huimin won't be able to wait..." Sijing cried out choked up.

Kaixuan raised her head to stop the tears from falling, and said softly, "Baby, just do your best...huh?"

"Woo...Xiaoxuan!" With Kaixuan's support, Sijing cried so hard that she couldn't help herself.

Kaixuan continued to try to comfort her, but Sijing's pager rang again.

After Sijing saw the message through tears, he hung up Kaixuan's phone without saying a word, wiped his face indiscriminately, and anxiously asked the people from the regulatory agency what happened.

Because the whole body organ removal operation was carried out at Huang Teng Fong Hospital, although the little patient who got the liver was immediately pushed into the operating room, he lost his heartbeat during the removal of the necrotic liver, and after some rescue efforts, he still failed to recover.

That is to say, Huimin, who is ranked first, will get a liver. After Sijing asked anxiously, she learned that her lungs had just been removed, but she had not been sent to Alexandria Hospital. In Sijing, she was exercising her agreement with the Ministry of Health. Now, as a patient of the research project, Huimin will receive an organ transplant.

In order to prevent things from going wrong again, Sijing "commanded" Dean Chen, who was very powerful in his words, to personally escort the organs back with the ambulance. She took the time to go through the operation process with Wen Ting again.

Wen Ting and she had no successful cases before, and now they are still operating on the children of acquaintances. Sijing knows that Wen Ting is under a lot of pressure in her heart, and she needs to be relieved in time.

As a senior, as the person in charge of the project, no matter how scared and anxious she is, she needs to put all her emotions aside at this time and bravely carry the team forward.

At Sijing's request, the operation was not open to the public. She didn't want to put unnecessary pressure on Wen Ting. The little guy seemed to be on the verge of collapse.

Sijing brushed her hands with Wen Ting in the bathroom. Seeing Wen Ting clenched her lower lip with an anxious expression on her face, Si Jing said to her softly, "Do you know why I chose to cooperate with you?"

Wen Ting turned her head to look at her senior blankly, and shook her head.

"As you said yourself, you are very familiar with my literature." Sijing smiled and continued softly: "If there is anyone in Singapore who knows more about my research projects than you, I can't find anyone else."

"Wen Ting, believe in yourself, she." Si Jing pointed at Hui Min who had been anesthetized, and said softly, "She believes in you and likes you very much. She told me secretly."

Wen Ting finally showed a smile, Si Jing nodded to her and said, "Come on, let everyone know that we are dream partners?"

Wen Ting nodded more emphatically, believing that this will be the moment when her dreams come true. She and her senior sister successfully performed the first double lung and liver transplant in Singapore on the same stage!

Wen Ting shook her fist and followed Si Jing into the operating room.

The author has something to say: Come on, little doctor! ! !