Feelings are just pediatrics

The cause of the incident is very simple. The two drivers involved in the accident were high school students with high blood. Their families were rich and they had too much self-esteem. Not long ago, the two were jealous because of a girl from the same school. After they met on the road one day, the red SUV in front Provoking the driver of the silver Toyota behind him sparked the deadly chase.

Sijing and Xuyan were just in the wrong place at the wrong time by bad luck, and everyone was fine afterwards, only Xuyan's weak body couldn't bear the force of the impact, and he died on the spot without leaving a word behind.

Because it was a fatal car accident, Sijing and Kaixuan talked with the prosecutor, and they also consulted with a lawyer. Because the driving recorder and the evidence left at the scene are sufficient, it is already a long time for these two high school students to enter the juvenile prison for reform. A sure thing.

But instead of watching their kids go to juvenile prison, their parents hired a Hispanic lawyer known for his sophistry to get his employers off the hook.

No one expected that his starting point would be the mother of the deceased who was the most powerful witness.

He said to Sijing in a cautious tone: "I'm sorry that you lost your beloved daughter in a car accident, but..."

He turned to face the jury: "But, maybe this car accident was inevitable, but don't you think that Dr. Lin could have prevented this car accident from causing the death of his daughter?"

Then he took out one small whiteboard after another, and on the three whiteboards, there were three kinds of car accidents that would not hit the back seat of the car where Xuyan was, but hit the front seat where Sijing was, or the long rear of the SUV.

The argument he wants to express is: a car accident will almost certainly happen, but it may not necessarily cause casualties, if Sijing's reaction is better.

Penalties for defendants in ordinary car accidents and fatal car accidents vary greatly.

Everyone else in the court gasped, and the defendant's parents showed a very satisfied smile. The chief prosecutor immediately stood up and objected that what they were trying here today was a fait accompli and irreversible fact. Terrible argument.

The trial was still going on, but the people in the witness box were silent like clay sculptures.

The chief prosecutor asked for an adjournment at the right time, but Sijing acted as if she hadn't heard it, and still sat there in a daze. In the end, Kaixuan and Knight had to help her up before she left the courtroom.

Because the witnesses could not continue to testify, the trial was postponed to the next day. Sijing numbly carried the confession prepared for her by her lawyer, and reluctantly finished the statement in a trance.

Despite stubborn resistance, the experienced prosecutor finally succeeded in convincing the jury with evidence and bringing the perpetrators to justice.

But after the day of going to court, Sijing became very strange, always shutting herself in the room, forgetting to eat and sleep, not knowing what to do.

One day when she woke up in the middle of the night and found that the people around her were gone, Kaixuan got up and put on her nightgown to look for someone in the house. When she came downstairs, she found that the study room was lit. She guessed that Sijing should be there, so she walked over quietly. , quietly opened the door.

Sijing sat barefoot on the carpet with his back to the door. The autumn weather was getting colder, but Sijing didn't put on his nightgown, and with disheveled hair, he manipulated the three toy cars on the ground. Kaixuan recognized that they were Sijing whispered Xu Yan's toy car, rehearsing the fatal car accident that she could have avoided according to the lawyer over and over again.

Hot tears welled up in his eyes, this fool actually believed what that rogue lawyer said!

Before Kaixuan could call Sijing, Sijing suddenly threw away the toy car in her hand, hugged her head forcefully and tore her hair.

After another night of rehearsal, Sijing once again confirmed that she should have collided head-on with the first car from the very beginning, and their efforts to obediently abide by the fact that the children can only sit in the back seat will be rewarded.

Kaixuan strode forward and hugged Sijing tightly into her arms, tried her best to resist her struggle, finally had no choice but to press her on the floor to prevent her from hurting her head that had finally healed from the wound, listening to her Sobbing in the ear: "It's all my fault, it's all my fault, Xu Yan... Woo... Xu Yan!"

The two hugged each other in the study and cried for the rest of the night. Facing the wife who blamed herself for being almost crazy, the only thing Kaixuan could do was to drag her to see a psychiatrist.

But Sijing is very resistant to treatment, so the effect is not particularly good.

Also full of pain in her heart, Kaixuan tried her best to put his wife first, and took time off to stay at home with her lover who was in low ebb.

A few days later, she carefully found that Sijing didn't want to see her. Every day when they had breakfast together, Sijing always seemed to be waiting for her to go to work. A flash of disappointment.

When sleeping at night, he would not let Kaixuan hold her, and at other times during the day, he would not sit down and chat with her, preferring to be alone.

In order to find out, today she decided to deceive Sijing, tidy up and pretend that the vacation is over and go back to the hospital to work, but after the car drove to the entrance of the community, she parked the car on the side of the road, and walked back step by step with a nervous mood. Home.

She was a little disturbed, she felt that she would find out later what broke her heart.

Entering the house from the back garden, took the key to open the back door, and tiptoed through the kitchen to enter the living room, she noticed a detail.

Her single photo frame is face down.

When Xu Yan passed away, they put away all her photos, so as not to touch the scene too much, they only left a frame of photos in the study, and now the other photos hanging in the house are all of Sijing and Kaixuan , or alone, or a group photo.

Kaixuan stood on the stairs leading to the second floor, looking at herself on the photo wall, each photo was covered with white paper.

It wasn't until the sound of footsteps on the wooden steps that she turned to look at her lover who was too scared to come over with tears in her eyes.

"Why do you want to do this?" Kaixuan wiped the tears on her cheeks, pointed to the photo wall, and suddenly raised her voice to ask: "Why?"

Sijing pursed her lips, her eyes drifted to the side, but she refused to meet her gaze.

Kaixuan knows him too well, this stubborn donkey always has this expression when he has something to say and doesn't want to say it.

But today, Kaixuan must find out why, and in the tearful questioning and pleading, she finally knew why.

Sijing cried and said, Xuyan is too much like Kaixuan, the child has a beautiful face, flexible head, even the name is inherited from her mother, Xuan, Xuyan, the introduction, the beautiful little angels jointly wrote their motherhood. Chapter 1.

Now, all happiness comes to an abrupt end.

And all of this was the fault of her third-rate driving skills and poor reflexes.

Although rejected by her lover, Kaixuan tried her best to hold back her heartbroken feelings, and comforted Sijing more than once, saying that it was really not your fault. You can see that the perpetrators were sentenced to prison. This is the correct judgment made by a shrewd judge. You should trust judges who have read countless people, not bad lawyers who will do everything to get clients out of crime.

But Sijing is still going through the darkest chapter of his life with his closest people.

Not only did it take a toll on her life, she was given a test by a psychiatrist before the multi-month sabbatical was over.

On the day of the test, the psychiatrist asked her what Sijing, who always blamed herself, said: "You have saved so many little patients, but you can't continue your daughter's life. What do you think is the reason?"

Sijing laughed at herself, and was very happy that someone finally agreed that she killed her own child. She then said, "I think I must have saved too many children's lives, and made God, a super bandit, feel ashamed. Take my child for surgery, he will come to snatch other children, God is so shameless, if he dares to come, I will fight him hard!"

The psychiatrist looked at her quietly, and Sijing clenched his hands into fists in front of him, forming a defensive posture. His eyes sometimes drifted and sometimes became sharp. Chinese beast.

The doctor notified the hospital and the parties concerned of the test results at the same time, and the diagnosis was: Dr. Lin's current emotional and mental condition could not adapt to the high-pressure environment, so he picked up the scalpel calmly.

Looking at the email on the computer, although the psychiatrist said that she could not be a surgeon for the time being, Sijing felt a feeling called "relief from a heavy burden".

She reached out and pressed the mouse, opened the document, quickly typed a letter on the blank document, and sent an email.

The next day, Kaixuan, who was completely unaware of the test results, saw Sijing packed up and put on formal clothes to go to the hospital with her, thinking that she had passed the test and was allowed to go back to work in the hospital, and happily kissed her on the face. Kiss again.

Kaixuan thinks positively, maybe the busy work can make his wife no longer fall into the abyss of pain, just like herself.

Sijing walked into the director's office with firm steps. She smiled, took out the prepared letter from her bag, and handed out the letter of resignation to the director.

As the future star of the hospital and Knight's heir, everyone has high hopes for Sijing. No one wants to lose an outstanding surgeon just like this. Everyone thinks that many people have experienced such a thing. It will take time to come out slowly.

It's just that they didn't expect Sijing to resist so much.

Even though the dean dispatched Knight to lobby, Si Jing remained indifferent.

Kaixuan didn't express any opinion on this matter, she was undergoing an operation when the news was raging in the hospital, Nate broke in with a burning ass and yelled at her, after listening impatiently for a while, she realized that Nate what are you talking about.

"You said Sijing resigned?" Kaixuan frowned.

Knight waved his hand impatiently, and continued to curse: "Otherwise, what do you think I'm talking about? You said why didn't you stop..." Knight suddenly stopped in the middle of speaking, combined with Kaixuan's bitter smile, He raised his eyebrows suspiciously and asked, "You don't know?"

Kaixuan nodded sadly and continued with the work at hand. Knight was silent for a while, then raised her voice and asked, "She didn't let you know about such a big thing?! You bastard!"

Then she ran away in a huff. During the operation, Kaixuan kept looking at the brain surgery microscope. If it was not necessary, she was unwilling to talk. After the operation, the interns were almost suffocated by the low air pressure.

Kaixuan was not angry, nor surprised that Sijing was going to resign, but she was very concerned about another matter. Following the advice of the psychiatrist, she communicated with Sijing directly.

"Why didn't you tell me?" Kaixuan asked very calmly after finishing the meal, putting the chopsticks on the chopstick rest.

Perhaps it should be said that she already had the answer in her heart.

Sijing didn't answer, just looked at her silently, it was her expression waiting to bear Kaixuan's anger every time she did something wrong.

Unexpectedly, Kaixuan was not angry, she just felt deeply powerless.

"Do you think I will stop you?" Kaixuan spoke slowly, as if every word was cutting her throat.

Sijing tilted his head to look at her suspiciously, with an expression on his face: "Isn't that so?"

Hehe, it seems that there is no need to talk any further, Kaixuan got up and silently cleaned up the dining table, then shut herself in the study, shedding tears for a long time.

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The author has something to say: Great doctor: The baby is suffering, but the baby doesn't say anything.