Feelings are just pediatrics

All the sounds around her seemed to be turned off, and Kaixuan instinctively stretched out her hand to hug the child.Received the crying baby from the nurse just like the day she was born.

2191 days later, the baby was still lying in her arms, but she had no heartbeat and her eyes were closed.

No, I'm going to make her heart beat again!

There was a chaotic noise again, and the big black brother was yelling at her: "Sijing is about to be rescued, Dr. Chen, come and save her!"

Holding the baby's still warm body and running forward, Kaixuan called the medical staff from another ambulance, put the baby into the arms of the little white man, and hurriedly said: "CPR!"

The frontline personnel have responded quickly to these emergencies for a long time. The white brother and his partner cooperated seamlessly. The two carried the child on a stretcher and performed CPR in an orderly manner. At the same time, Kaixuan knelt beside Sijing Check for injuries.

Sijing's skull was cut with a deep scarlet gash by the deformed sharp steel, and a lot of blood flowed out from the wound. He fainted because of the strong impact and the rapid and excessive blood loss.

She estimated that the wound could be healed between 35 and [-] stitches. After taking out the medicine from the medicine box and doing simple treatment, she immediately called the black brother to send him to the hospital.

As soon as her heart was relieved, she began to sink to the bottom for the people in another ambulance. Kaixuan hurriedly jumped into the car to check the child's multiple fractures and injuries, and shouted for them to drive quickly: "Go to Hopkins!"

The siren sounded and the ambulance rushed forward. Now only a well-equipped large hospital can save a seriously injured child.

Kaixuan anxiously repeated the textbook-like movements. She has done CPR for many people in her life, but she has never been so scared. The child's thin body is under her hands, and she can feel the ribs of her hands every time she presses. As time went by, she could clearly feel the breath of death enveloped her surroundings.

This is the intuition that I have cultivated after being a doctor for a long time.

Panting heavily, Kaixuan was unable to speak, so she could only shout Xu Yan's name in her heart, calling her not to leave, not to leave us, we made a promise to be a mother and daughter for the rest of my life, and now only six months have passed. Years, no, no!

It took as long as a century to finally arrive at the hospital. Many colleagues were already waiting at the door of the emergency room. Knight quickly rushed up and ran with Xu Yan's gurney. Kaixuan was finally blocked outside the emergency room.

Imprisoned by the nurse and unable to move, she numbly watched the intern continue to do CPR. Knight picked up the pacemaker and counted one, two, three. The strong electric current shook his young body, and he asked the nurse to push another dose of medicine. , shouted one two three again.

One two three, one two three...

The trainee took over the CPR again, and Nat looked back at her full of sadness. Kaixuan struggled to break free with strength from nowhere, and pressed her hands tightly on the glass mirror, shaking her head with tears streaming down her face, with tears in her eyes. plead.

Don't, don't, Xu Yan, please come on, come on, okay, don't scare Mommy, I will give you all the snacks you want in the future, wake up, okay, okay...

Knight took a deep breath and ordered the team to get ready again. The young doctor replied that the child's body couldn't bear it, and the others looked at Knight silently. They knew it was Sijing's child, but...

Knight motioned for everyone to let go, and the electrocardiogram immediately showed a parallel line, making a harsh sound. He took a deep breath, trying to hold back the tears in his eyes.With a trembling voice, he said, "Let someone announce it."

"Time to die..."

"no, do not want!!"

All the strength in her body was taken away in an instant, Kaixuan knelt down tremblingly, her forehead rested on the cold wall, she cried bitterly, she tried her best to dig the wall with her fingers, as if she wanted to dig out five holes in the wall with her bare hands, Nai Te staggered out of the department, picked up Kaixuan from behind, sat on the chair and let Kaixuan cry in his arms.

Even the annoying big ice cubes have become like this. He feels that after Sijing's operation is over, the situation will definitely not get better. He even said that he can't predict what kind of reaction Sijing will have.

The head hurts, this is Sijing's first feeling, the anesthetic has not completely passed, the eyeballs are rolling back and forth under the eyelids, she is trying very hard to shake off the desire to continue to sleep.

Images flooded her mind, she heard her daughter screaming, Xu Yan was very scared, I wanted to comfort her that she was fine, don't be afraid, there is a mother here...

A familiar soft call came from my ear: "Sijing... baby... are you awake?"

I want to tell Kaixuan that my daughter is very scared, go and comfort her...

"Xu...Xu Yan!"

After a lot of hard work, Sijing finally opened his eyes and called out his daughter's name in a hoarse voice.

Kaixuan's eyes were red and swollen, and Sijing's eyes showed distress, because she knew she would be thirsty, Kaixuan carefully handed the water glass and straw to her mouth, while drinking water, Sijing stretched out her hand to hold Kaixuan tightly. Xuan's other hand squeezed.

It was her usual way of expressing gratitude and intimacy.

After taking two deep breaths, she turned her head and asked impatiently, "Where's Xu Yan? Is she okay?"

Kaixuan looked at her silently, her eyes were dark, and Sijing couldn't help but feel nervous. Could it be that she was missing an arm or a leg?

Swallowing with difficulty, his warm hands tightly grasped Sijing's slightly cold hands, and whispered, "Listen to what the doctor has to say."

This is what she and Knight discussed, let him do it.

After receiving the news that Dr. Lin had woken up, the director who performed the surgery himself came to the ward with Knight. The two big men looked solemn, and Si Jing became even more frightened, and looked at his wife for help.

Kaixuan's eyes were filled with tears, and she couldn't bear that Sijing's life would be completely turned upside down in the next second, so she sat on the side of the bed, hugged the baby in her arms, and coaxed her softly.

The director carefully explained Sijing's injury. Many stitches were done for the brain injury. Fortunately, the nerve line was not injured. The multiple files and cuts on the body will heal with time, and the internal organs are functioning well.

Sijing didn't seem to be listening very much, she kept looking at Knight, she had worked with this man for too long, just by looking at his expression and standing posture, she could tell what he was thinking.

From the moment she stepped into the hospital room, she knew Nate was weighing how to deliver the worst news.

After the director finished speaking, Knight slightly lifted his lower eyelids, took a deep breath, and explained in a low voice: "Your daughter had no heartbeat when she was sent to the hospital. We rescued her in the emergency room for nearly four and ten minutes, but Regrettably....."

"no no!!!"

Sijing wailed, crying bitterly and clutching Kaixuan's clothes, Kaixuan pressed her tightly into her arms, sobbing uncontrollably.

God, the shameless bandit, once again took away her beloved from her hands, absolutely unforgivable!

Sijing was so excited that she even pulled the bandage on her head, hurriedly suppressed her self-harm, and pushed in some sedative drugs. Under the influence of external force, she fell asleep with tears all over her face.

Kaixuan personally removed and changed the blood-stained bandage for her, and wiped her face clean. After looking at her for half an hour, she got up to attend to Xu Yan's affairs.

She went to the locker first to get a beautifully wrapped gift box. When she passed by, many colleagues looked at her silently. .

Following my memory, I came to a strange mortuary, took out my mobile phone to check the number sent by Knight, walked through rows of cold cabinets, and came to bed after bed of people who had just died before being frozen. At the bottom is the baby who was still lively and cute eight hours ago.

Her feet seemed to be filled with lead, and she couldn't move a bit. Too many memories flashed through her mind, and finally stopped at the cute appearance of the child asking her for a gift.

She came to give the baby a birthday present.

Putting the gift box aside, Kaixuan silently looked at the small person on the bed in front of her, grasped the cover with trembling fingers, took a deep breath, raised her head to try to stop the tears in her eyes, and finally gritted her teeth It was still opened.

Seeing the child's blue face stained with blood, Kaixuan couldn't stand anymore, and fell down on a chair beside her, weeping bitterly as she caressed the corpse.

She couldn't think at all, and she sat there crying for a long, long time.

Everything around slowly entered darkness.

When he woke up again, he found that he was still lying beside Xu Yan, but this nightmare was still going on.

I looked at the baby quietly for a long time, and when I touched her, I could feel that some parts began to stiffen slowly. This beautiful child must not be able to accept the messy appearance now. Kaixuan dragged her limp body back upstairs to pick up out of the medicine cabinet.

The clip first picked up the fragments embedded in the wound, and then cleaned her wound with a cotton ball dipped in iodine. Every time she fell down and bandaged her, the little guy would always cry and say that Mommy's hands were heavier than Mommy's. This time, Kaixuan The strength is still the same, but Xu Yan obediently does not complain.

She wished her daughter could complain about her again.

He took a breath, picked up the needle and thread with tears streaming down his face, and carefully stitched up all the wounds for the baby, and even used plastic surgery stitches on the face, so that the baby's beautiful face would not leave scars.

Kaixuan cherished the last time alone with Xu Yan, and didn't realize that a long time had passed, until the pager rang suddenly.

I don't want to work so I don't care about it, but the annoying machine keeps ringing. Kaixuan angrily put down her needle and thread and was about to remove the battery in the pager, but found that it read:

Sijing, 911.

The author has something to say: It's not over yet, I'm about to torture myself to death.