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Mu Ning and Zhuang Yao played in Europe until August before returning to England.

Britain drives on the right, and the roads in London are narrow and complicated. Zhuang Yao considered that Munning could not drive, so he lived near the Covent Garden subway station.Townhouses, the rooms are not big, and the interior decoration is relatively simple.There is a Filipino aunt at home. I don’t know if the place is idle all day long. Today, it finally has some popularity. The aunt seems very enthusiastic, busy around Mu Ning and Zhuang Yao.

For three months, the two have been on the road almost all the time.Although living and traveling all the way is the best and not tiring, if you can settle down in a certain city, it is still better than staying for a few days and then starting again.

This long journey repaired the rift between them silently.

It can't even be called repairing, but it is like breaking a mirror, picking up the pieces, melting them, and then completely redoing them.They occasionally get drunk in bars and nightclubs in foreign countries, and they must wake up naked and hug each other on the same bed the next day.

But after waking up, they tacitly did not mention what happened at night.

They know in their hearts that this way of getting along will not last forever.But no one wants to destroy the happiness and satisfaction when embracing each other.They seem to be waiting.Wait for an opportunity to open up completely and have a conversation.

One day in September, Zhuang Yao went out to reunite with old classmates, while Mu Ning wandered around London alone.Passing the garden, I saw a scrawny cat, dirty, with slender pupils showing vigilance.On the back is a very common orange pattern, only one paw is white.Mu Ning looked at it for a while, then took out the chicken sandwich he just bought from his pocket, took out a piece of chicken with his fingertips, and threw it on the lawn not far from the cat.

The orange cat explored for a while, went to smell it, and then started to gobble it up.

Mu Ning also squatted on the side of the road, watching with interest.

When Zhuang Yao drove to pick him up, Mu Ning was already familiar with the cat.He got out of the car with double flashes, walked over and asked, "Where's the cat?"

"It's always staring at me," Mu Ning turned around and said to Zhuang Yao, "I fed him something to eat, and now he seems to be in trouble, so he won't let me go."

Zhuang Yao laughed: "Then what, take it home?"

Mu Ning's eyes suddenly lit up: "Is it possible?"

"of course can."

It's a female cat, Zhuang Yao said it's called Bella, and Mu Ning wants to call it Izzy.

Zhuang Yao felt that Izzy was too American a name, but Mu Ning insisted.The two were at a stalemate, and when they took the cat to the pet hospital for a bath and vaccination checkup, one called Bella and the other called Izzy, which made the nurse's face full of question marks.

A few days later, when Zhuang Yao returned home, he brought a collar with a nameplate on it, with the words "Izzy" engraved on it.

Mu Ning understood, and put it on for the little orange cat.

There is a floor-to-ceiling window facing south in the house. Mu Ning grows green plants by the window, and when one dies, he replants another one, and he perseveres.

The Filipino aunt Zhuang Yao invited cooks good Chinese food, so the two of them seldom go out for lunch.In the evening, Mu Ning will follow Zhuang Yao to restaurants worth visiting. Whether it is a Michelin star or a small street shop, Zhuang Yao is like a living map of London.

He often sits by the window and reads the script, Izzy curls up into a ball of fur at his feet and sleeps soundly, and Zhuang Yao watches the news on the recliner opposite and pays attention to the domestic situation.The two occasionally talked and chatted, and the other's coffee was running low, so they helped to fill it up.

The script invitations that Mu Ning has received are all independent films, and domestic commercial film producers seem to have given up on him.But he was at his ease.

Time here slows down as if people never grow old.

In the golden autumn of October, Mu Ning and Zhuang Yao hadn't returned to China for five months.He had just finished breakfast that day when he heard Zhuang Yao say: "Guo Chengwei sent over the finished film of "Love You For Long", do you want to see it?"

Mu Ning hasn't looked back since he finished filming.He bent down and stroked Izzy's chin, and the kitten squinted comfortably, pushing its furry head forward.Zhuang Yao didn't force him either, but just waited silently for an answer.

"Look." In the end, Mu Ning said, "I think I should perform well."

That afternoon, Zhuang Yao and Mu Ning finished reading "Love You For Long" in the study.

Mu Ning couldn't stop crying. In the few scenes where Lai Xi couldn't ask for Shao Feizhou, Mu Ning understood that when he was filming, he pulled out the years when he loved Zhuang Yao from a certain corner of his heart. All experience.Those hot and cold, near and far, still make Mu Ning feel lingering fear.

But maybe it was those feelings that made Lacey happy?

A few minutes before the end of the film, Mu Ning couldn't control himself, got up and left the house.He didn't go far, just downstairs.Leaning against the street lamp, I flicked left and right on my body.At a loss.

Zhuang Yao, who chased him out, knew things like a god, and handed him a pack of cigarettes.

"Thank you." Mu Ning wrapped his coat tightly, the night in London fell, and a cool wind hit, he said casually: "Damn, it's still a bit cold."

Zhuang Yao took off his coat and put it on Mu Ning's shoulders.

They all remembered Zhuang Yao's coat at the entrance of the charity dinner last year.The two of them tacitly did not send a word, just quietly waiting for a cigarette to burn out.

"Go somewhere with me tomorrow." Zhuang Yao suggested.

"Where?"

"Xie Lin's tomb." After Zhuang Yao finished speaking, he introduced to Mu Ning: "He wrote "Love You Forever"."

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Xie Lin was killed in a terrorist attack.

At that time, Zhuang Yao was struggling with his family members, and the daily pressure was so great that he could not straighten his back.He doesn't want to go back to China to do business with his second brother, he wants to act.So I had a stalemate with my family for several months and did not give up.The night before the accident, Xie Lin was still telling him that he would go back to China to film after graduation.You must persist, my script is almost finished - you play Shao Feizhou, and then find a beautiful actor to play with you.Maybe you just became emotional because of the drama?

Zhuang Yao just laughed and cursed at that time, stop fucking farting.

When Zhuang Yao saw Xie Lin again the next day, there was only a corpse and a death certificate left.

"Love You For A Long Time" was forgotten by Xie Lin at Zhuang Yao's house, so he survived.It's just that there are still about two scenes that have not been finished.

All the changes in Zhuang Yao's life were written on the day Xie Lin passed away.

Xie Lin's real tomb is in China.But Zhuang Yao knew that Xie Lin was the same as himself, and they loved the freedom here more.The existence of family will only make them want to escape even more.So after Xie Lin passed away, Zhuang Yao built such a tomb for him, hoping that he could stay in the place he liked.

Mu Ning looked at the tombstone and said nothing.

The man beside him squatted down, stroked the tombstone, and dusted off the dust.

"Long time no see," he said.

In front of Xie Lin's tomb, Zhuang Yao confessed everything frankly.

The moment he saw Mu Ning, the relationship between this drama and Mu Ning, all his evasions and choices in the past ten years, and the unrecognizable love between him and Mu Ning, everything, Zhuang Yao knew everything. Frankly, like a confession, all of them were revealed.

Mu Ning looked into Zhuang Yao's eyes and looked deeply.The London autumn wind blew Mu Ning's forehead hair, and he also had thousands of things to say, but in the end, he just hugged Zhuang Yao gently.

Just like that night, when Zhuang Yao appeared at his door in a daze, he didn't say anything, just hugged and tried his best to convey the infinite heat in his thin body to the other party.

Mu Ning's love for Zhuang Yao is always illogical, just like moths flying to the flame.

He thought, even if it was a dream or an illusion, as long as he was still in his arms, he hoped that time could stay at this moment.

Zhuang Yao's eye sockets were hot.It turned out that in the past ten years, going around and going, splitting and reuniting, no one except Mu Ning could share the pain and fragility in his heart with him.

It turned out that things between them were so simple.It's just to admit that he is necessary, that he is unique, and that he has weaknesses and weaknesses.

But it's such a simple thing.

Love is such a simple thing.

Zhuang Yao hugged the person in his arms even tighter.Even after these few months, they will return to China after all, and they will have to make a statement about the relationship that they have kept silent about.

But right now, holding the one he loves in his heart, he only hopes that time can stop at this moment.

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The younger brother of a friend of Zhuang Yao opened a tavern near China Street.A friend learned that Zhuang Yao lived in London and wanted to invite him to join in the show.

"Want to go?" Zhuang Yao asked.

Mu Ning nodded: "Go and have a look."

Both of them want to find a chance to drink more, and with the help of alcohol, they can have sex in the evening, and then pretend that they don't remember the next morning and it's over.It's been like this for months.They fit the pattern well.

It's a pity that they don't know that the other party thinks the same way.

As soon as night fell, customers came to the store one after another.Zhuang Yao and Mu Ning came late, Zhuang Yao went to say hello to the boss, and when he came back, Mu Ning had already started drinking.

"Can speak Chinese!" Mu Ning was very happy: "That's great!"

"...Do you want to go back to your country?" Zhuang Yao asked a little anxiously after his breath stopped.

Mu Ning pondered for a while, "I don't want to for now. But occasionally, I want to eat cold noodles."

Zhuang Yao asked, "Do you like London?"

"Don't you like it?" Munning began to quote: "Didn't someone say, 'If you are tired of London, you are also tired of life'?"

Zhuang Yao's love for London actually ceased to exist the moment Xie Lin passed away.Nowadays, it is more familiar, and the good memories of the past that can occasionally be felt here.Will definitely miss this place.He nodded and said, "I like it too."

Mu Ning raised the wine glass to Zhuang Yao: "Then it's over, drink!"

After drinking for three rounds, even Zhuang Yao was a little dizzy.Mu Ning followed the band on the stage humming Eason Chan's "Dreams": "The body is still close to the side, and the heart is escaping to the sky... Please have me in your dreams, I hope I will never wake up with you, and I will tell you my heart... "

Zhuang Yao listened carefully to Mu Ning's pronunciation, and couldn't help laughing: "Cantonese has improved."

Mu Ning burped: "Of course. I'm so good, can't you?"

Zhuang Yao accepted the provocation, spoke Cantonese, and said, "Your Cantonese is not as good as mine."

Mu Ning snorted coldly, took out a pound note from his pocket, got up and stuffed it into Zhuang Yao's collar opposite him, raised his eyebrows: "Handsome guy, go sing a song."

Zhuang Yao curled his lips in embarrassment, took out the banknotes from his clothes, and put them back: "You want to send me 5 pounds?"

"I'll add more!" Mu Ning smashed the phone on the table: "My top-end IphoneX is also yours! Handsome guy—look, do you know the goods? This is Apple's flagship version, more than 1!"

Zhuang Yao also got into the show, picked up the phone and pretended to look at it for a while, and said, "No, this color is not new."

Mu Ning was very disappointed: "Then what should I do..."

Zhuang Yao looked at Mu Ning's misty eyes with a smile, leaned over, and kissed Mu Ning's lips.He pried open Mu Ning's lips and teeth, strong and gentle.

"This is enough." After the kiss, Zhuang Yao said.

The song of "Different Dreams" actually has another song with lyrics.Zhuang Yao told the band that they only needed to play "Different Dreams" again, but what he sang was another song "Unconditional".

Zhuang Yao really went on stage to sing, and Mu Ning's drunkenness disappeared.He has known Zhuang Yao for 11 years, and this is the first time he heard Zhuang Yao sing.

Mu Ning took the wine glass and walked to the front of the stage to sit down.

"Different Dreams" was a song that Mu Ning would listen to a few years ago. At that time, even if he and Zhuang Yao slept on the same bed, they still felt that their hearts were far apart.They are out of sync and don't talk about love, but they are also reluctant to cut off.He listened to songs with tears in his eyes at night, wishing that "you have me in your dreams".

Mu Ning raised his head.

A few years later, he was still the same person he loved. What he sang to himself this time was no longer the humbleness and pain that he couldn’t ask for in "A Different Dream". What he sang was: "I will still listen calmly, and I will still be tight Stay by your side, and resonate with your advance and retreat."

I'm really not dreaming.Mu Ning cried helplessly.

Zhuang Yao quickly stopped talking, jumped off the stage, and asked with concern: "What's wrong? Why are you crying?"

Mu Ning cried and cursed: "Damn it, I can't believe it!"

Zhuang Yao was stunned, and the circles of his eyes were slightly red.He didn't know if Mu Ning would return to him, and he didn't know if Mu Ning could still muster up the courage to trust himself again.

But this time, he thought, it was time for him to chase after him.

Zhuang Yao squatted in front of Mu Ning, wiping away his tears with distress.

"It's true." The man replied solemnly, "I really love you."

——No matter what beauty is, it is inevitable to have shortcomings, but the love in the world is unconditional.