he is not human

This is Xie Chengyao's third visit to bar No. 77. Last time he came here, he came with Xiao Ran. Now when he came here again, he recalled the feeling of having Xiao Ran by his side at that time. Now his There is no longer that person by my side, and I walked the road that the two walked together, and now I am left alone, being pulled back and forth by that endless feeling of emptiness, this feeling is really terrible.

The No. 77 bar was as lively as ever. Xie Chengyao came to the bar to have a look, and there was a group of people around the bar. They were screaming and cheering for the singers on the stage. Originally, Xie Chengyao was not familiar with singers in the singing world, but The people on the stage are also familiar. I have seen them before. He is the only son of the Lu Group in the imperial capital who can be compared with the Xie Enterprise. He seems to be called Lu Qixu, but he is not popular in the group. So these years, he He has been developing in the entertainment industry all the time, his identity is very mysterious, only those who have had close contacts with the Lu Corporation know about it.

Xie's Enterprise and Lu's Group are in a competitive relationship, but the relationship between them is relatively harmonious, and they will meet on many occasions.

It is said that Lu Qixu's development in the music scene is very good, and he is the hottest male singer right now. It's just that he didn't expect to see Lu Qixu singing here in such a small bar. He was really surprised. My senior brother does have some skills.With Lu Qixu singing on stage, it seems that today's bar is more lively than before.

Xie Chengyao walked into the bar, the bustle here obviously has nothing to do with him, and he didn't want to create such a sad image of himself, maybe the person he likes left him, there are too many things in life, we don't have There are every method, and compared to many people, Xie Chengyao knows that he is already luckier than many people. He has always known this, so he will not blame others because of his own misfortune. He just needs some time to get rid of it. To digest, to accept that he will never see Xiao Ran again in this life.

"Junior brother, welcome, here we come again." Chen Shishi quickly greeted him.

Chen Shiyi always has a slightly drunk expression. Xie Chengyao seldom sees Chen Shishi with a serious look on his face. Chen Shixi likes to smoke, and his body always has a faint smell of tobacco , but it is not unpleasant. In fact, Xie Chengyao thinks that Chen Shiyi is the real free and easy person. Although he and Chen Shixi only met twice briefly, but he knows that Chen Shishi is a person worth dating. people.

"Why, that Mr. Zombie didn't come together this time?" Chen Shixi asked jokingly, "I quite like him, I have a junior who is also a doctor, I think if they know each other, they will become friends too .”

Xie Chengyao smiled bitterly and didn't make any response, but Chen Shiyi seemed to have sensed something from Xie Chengyao's smile, and he wisely didn't ask again, "I came to the bar to get drunk. Seeing that you are in a bad mood today, how about this, as a senior brother, you will lose a little, and I will treat you to a drink today."

"Okay, thank you." Xie Chengyao said, "By the way, I want to drink the wine you brewed for my friend last time."

He wanted to experience what Xiao Ran had experienced before, and he knew that he might have gone crazy. Now, while trying to forget everything, he was trying to find evidence of all the things he and Xiao Ran had experienced together.

Chen Xiyi smiled, and said, "My wine, you are not fit to drink it now."

"Perhaps, I can treat you to other wines that are more suitable for you." Chen Shixi said, and walked towards the bar.

Xie Chengyao leaned on the seat and looked at the young Lu Qixu who had been singing on stage. I heard that old man Lu of the Lu family was in a coma and was hospitalized. I don't know what's going on now. Xie Chengyao seldom asks about business matters. But if Xie Chengfeng needed his help, he would not hesitate at all.

Soon Chen Shiyi came over with a glass of wine and handed it to Xie Chengyao.

"Take a sip and try the taste. I seldom mix wine, but I think my skills in mixing wine should be good." Chen Shishi said.

Xie Chengyao took a sip of the cocktail in front of him. The taste was extremely bitter and hard to swallow. After drinking it in one gulp, looking at the mixed color liquid in front of him, he felt that he didn't want to drink it again.

"Not good?" Chen Shixi asked.

"It's not very suitable for me." Xie Chengyao said.

"Perhaps, everyone likes differently. Like me, I like to drink. I like to drink any kind of wine. I don't choose anything. However, some people don't drink at all. They think that wine is extremely unpleasant. "Chen Shishi said.

Xie Chengyao felt that there was something in what Chen Shishi said, but he couldn't understand it.

"The bar is the place where you can see all kinds of things in the world. There are many people who come here to get drunk, but they are only temporary. After we wake up, the problem still exists. We can only escape. For a while, I can't escape for a lifetime, and after staying in the bar for a long time, I feel that I am about to become an emotional mentor." Chen Shiyi said with a smile.

However, a person like Chen Shishi who is a full-level emotional mentor can heal but not self-heal. His lovely younger brother Lifeng is, I don't know what's wrong with him recently, he seems to always like to avoid him.

Xie Chengyao resignedly sipped the wine in front of him again. This time, after drinking it, he felt that the wine was not as bitter as before. He said, "Now, am I acting so obviously that everyone can't see my mood?" not good?"

Xie Chengyao always thought that he was good at hiding his emotions, but it seems that he really just thought that.As long as he is a human, he can know his mood at the moment when he sees him. In fact, Xie Chengyao doesn't like this kind of concern from all directions, which will make him suffocate. He thinks that he can handle the things around him well. Moreover, there was no way for him to stop Xiao Ran from leaving. In fact, he should have thought of all this long ago. He and Xiao Ran were never in the same world.

"Do you think, if I fell in love with a zombie, would I still have hope?" Xie Chengyao asked.Chen Shiyi is the only person Xie Chengyao can confess this question to him, because Chen Shixi knows Xiao Ran's identity as a zombie fighter, other people may not be able to understand Xie Chengyao's unrequited love, but Chen Shiyi should be able to understand .

"And then? What are you struggling with?" Chen Shixi asked. "Entangled with the species issue between you? Or entangled with the lifespan issue between you?"

"It's all right. If I can't be by his side all the time, then after a hundred years, he will be the only one left, and I will always be just a passer-by in his long life." Xie Chengyao said.

"Actually, you are not the only one who has struggled with this problem. Have you watched "The Legend of the White Snake"? And "The Match of the Immortals"? In these stories, there are such settings, different species, different lives .” Chen Shishi said.

"So it all ended badly." Xie Chengyao said.

"I thought you would be the kind of person who cared about the process." Chen Shishi said. "The ending is good or bad. There is no clear boundary. As long as you think the process is good, it's fine. As for the ending, it doesn't seem to be that important. So, tonight, I still support Go find your Mr. Zombie, maybe there will be a chance for you to develop, otherwise, you may never see him again in this life, isn't that a pity?"

Xie Chengyao was silent for a while, yes, he is indeed not such a timid person, but after getting to know Xiao Ran, he has become no longer the brave and desperate self. This night, Xie Chengyao knew that if If he didn't grasp it, it was true that he would never see Xiao Ran again.

Now, he at least wants to try harder.

"Brother, thank you." Xie Chengyao said.

"Go." Chen Shishi looked at Xie Chengyao who was suddenly enlightened and said.He knew that Xiao Ran didn't have any feelings for Xie Chengyao, a person who never expressed himself, if Xiao Ran was allowed to escape, the relationship might really be over.Chen Shiyi naturally understood Xiao Ran's concerns. If Xiao Ran was a woman, perhaps Chen Shiyi would persuade Xie Chengyao a little bit. After all, the combination of human beings and zombies will easily give birth to a devil's fetus. Xie Chengyao is a man, so naturally he won't have any worries about this.

Life is full of joy, so that the gold is empty for the moon.

It's not good to think too long-term. All you can do is grasp the present moment.

Xie Chengyao came out of the bar and went straight to Xiao Ran's residence, but he was very nervous along the way, he knew that Xiao Ran's life was boundless, but at least at this moment, he wanted to be by Xiao Ran's side , even if it was just for a minute and a second, he hoped to live by Xiao Ran's side forever.

However, he didn't know if Xiao Ran would still be there, maybe when he came, Xiao Ran had already left, or Xiao Ran was here, but Xiao Ran didn't want to see him anymore, there are too many variables in this world, none of us can say no clear.It's just that amidst Xie Chengyao's uneasiness, he has finally arrived at the door of Xiao Ran's residence. He looked at a familiar door, imagined the scene of Xiao Ran inside the house, and finally was able to see Xiao Ran again, even if it was just one side, He wanted to see Xiao Ran.

He raised his hand and knocked on the door. The sound of knocking echoed in this silent corridor, which seemed particularly loud, but after the knocking sound, there was still silence, and there was no sound or response from inside the door.

Is it because Xiao Ran is gone?Xiao Ran was still there, but Xiao Ran didn't want to talk to him.

"Doctor Xiao, Doctor Xiao?" Xie Chengyao knocked again, but there was still silence inside, without any response.

Xie Chengyao was completely depressed, even though he mustered up so much courage to come to look for Xiao Ran, what he saw was still this cold wall.

"Doctor Xiao, if you are inside, actually, I think I have been doing wrong all the time. I thought it was the best to hide my heart all the time. However, I think at this moment, I should tell you that I really like it. Yours." Xie Chengyao said bitterly to the silent door.Maybe if you say it, there is no chance, but if you don't say it, the two of you will have no chance. If Xie Chengyao came to look for Xiao Ran earlier, if Xie Chengyao had stayed when Xiao Ran left, if Xie Chengyao had left when Xiao Ran left Get back immediately, everything will be different.

Xie Chengyao could only face this cold door. After a long time, he sighed and could only leave dejectedly. In fact, before coming here, he also thought about such a possibility. What kind of development can he have with li xuan, or li xuan doesn't like men at all, although Xie Chengyao doesn't think he likes men.

He just hoped to see Xiao Ran all the time, that's all.

Xie Chengyao took a deep breath, took out the key of Xiao Ran's house in his pocket, slowly inserted the key into the hole, twisted it, and the door opened.

Turn on the light, and you can see everything inside at a glance, but Xiao Ran is not inside.All the furnishings inside are still the same, but all the utensils have been covered with a thin layer of dust.Xiao Ran is a person who likes to be clean. If Xiao Ran still lives here, he won't let the place be stained with dust. It is conceivable that Xiao Ran hasn't come back here for a while.

Xiao Ran, did he really leave?

Xie Chengyao sat down on the sofa dejectedly. He and Xiao Ran once sat and chatted together on this sofa.

Most of all, memories can torture people.

Recalling the scene with Xiao Ran at that time, it seemed like years.

Xiao Ran, where did you go?

If I can never see you again in this life, then Dr. Xiao, I wish you all the best!

Xie Chengyao was walking alone on the street in the middle of the night, the whole city had already fallen asleep, walking through the streets alone, and occasionally saw some spirit bodies wandering alone on the street, only at night was the space for these spirit bodies to come out and move, it was just the yang of the world. The qi is still too strong, there are not many spirit bodies that can stay in the human world forever, after people die, the human world should not be a place for them to stay.

However, even ghosts have their own place to live, that is the underworld, but what about zombies?Zombies are strange existences. They live in the human world, but they are species outside the six realms of sentient beings. There is no space for them to exist. They are a different kind of existence here, and they are lonely.

Xie Chengyao always felt that he could experience the infinite loneliness in Xiao Ran's heart, and he really wanted to, it was a good thing to be by Xiao Ran's side all the time.But Xiao Ran disappeared, this time it really disappeared completely.Xie Chengyao looked at the street, and occasionally a few ghost messengers who came out to patrol were catching ghosts who escaped from the underworld and wandered in the world. After all, Xie Chengyao was just a passerby, and he could only watch all this coldly.