And light and dust

It also brought a lot of help to Wang Chen's counseling and treatment.

After the end, he handed the mobile phone to Ji Chuanheng, and asked casually while writing the record in his hand: "Have you contacted people in that circle since then?"

Ji Chuanheng shook his head, as if he needed more psychological training.

"You might as well try it, chat first, make sure that the wishes are clear and you can meet, don't be too anxious." Wang Chen thought of something, and smiled, "I know this group fairly well, if it doesn't work, I can help you check it out."

04

The next day, Ji Chuanheng and He Cheng made an appointment for lunch. In the past half month, he and He Cheng have been in frequent contact, not only because of the convenience of professional communication, but also occasionally chatting with each other and finding that their interests and hobbies overlap, such as suspense novels and the NBA. Or niche music styles and clothing brands.

Teacher Ji went back to school in the afternoon to collect the final paper, sat in the office and posted it for a while, then opened the Weibo account, thinking about the conversation with Wang Chen yesterday.In fact, they are not sure how exposure to BDSM people will help him to alleviate his psychological problems. The normal treatment he is receiving now has slowly begun to work.Because of the special and uncontrollable nature of that relationship, if it backfires and gets worse, it is naturally not the result they would like to see.

But how do you know if you don't try?He considered for a long time, and finally typed a paragraph in the private message dialog box.

[Hello, I am a newcomer to the circle, I am not familiar with the circle, but I have been observing silently for a long time, I want to have some discussions with you on the relationship between BDSM and human nature, just chatting casually, I don’t know if there is any this opportunity. 】

I don't know how this opening sentence is, whether it can arouse the other party's desire to pay attention.He also deliberately used honorifics, which is a full gesture of asking for advice.Ji Chuanheng has his own standard for measuring the world, and for some reason, he just thinks that gallop is suitable as the key for him to knock on this door.

After 5 minutes, the private message showed that it had been read, and after waiting for another 5 minutes, he still did not receive any reply. After thinking about it, he realized that the other party did not read the private message at all. Probably some one-click read function made him see the prompt That's all.

So he calmed down and seriously typed a small composition to the other party, talked about his understanding of the relationship between dom and sub, brought out the academic terms he saw on the wiki, and used some lawyer's skills It was written with care.

After the essay was posted, I didn't see it read again. It wasn't until Ji Chuanheng went home and cooked a simple dinner for himself, and picked up this Agatha to pass the time, that the phone vibrated twice.

The first vibration came from WeChat, and He Cheng pushed him a film review of the suspenseful reasoning movie they discussed at the dinner table at noon.Well, in fact, he has read this article before, and he thinks it is very well written.

The second vibration came from Weibo. Gallop gave the reply he wanted to see, and said that his point of view was good. Few people in the circle would think about these theoretical things, and they could chat about it.

So he can only switch back and forth between WeChat and Weibo all night, dealing with two completely different topics, and he is also very busy.

Naturally, He Cheng is also very busy. Since Feng Miao's dinner brought the two of them closer, the relationship between Ji Chuanheng and him has ushered in an unexpected development. The other party has brought him many surprises and freshness. .After the sense of distance when they first met disappeared, they had more space to communicate.

He Cheng is sure that he doesn't just want to be friends with Ji Chuanheng.

Today, he also rarely flipped through the private messages on Weibo, and noticed a private message that was different from those who posted selfies and flirted with hooligans in the past.

The other party talked a lot about sadomasochism culture and human nature. From the perspective of a sub, he believes that pursuing pain, humiliation, and violence, and at the same time obtaining sexual pleasure from such activities can fill the lack of security in human nature or emotions. And the absolute power disparity is not only to satisfy the dom's psychological needs, the sub must also abandon the complete self-personality, exist as the attachment of the other party, and realize value from it.

These theories are actually very simple, even the most intuitive and correct interpretation of sadomasochism, but they are not necessarily the views recognized and practiced by all people in the circle.More and more Ms just lower their posture in exchange for treatment that meets their own sexual needs, not really put themselves in a lower position to please the other party; there are also Ss who only enjoy being sought after, only inflict violence and do not pay attention to M psychological changes.

It's not about simply being superior to anyone, nor is it about inflicting violence to gain pleasure, but to make sure that in this relationship that does not require others to understand, all your senses are controlled by me, and my emotions are also changed by you .

He Cheng thinks he is not a perfect master, and he does not guarantee that he can control the whole situation forever. He has also made mistakes and hurt others, but he always abides by the principles in his heart and respects the other party's trust.

Regardless of whether the other party is a sub or a dom, He Cheng knows that this person's understanding of SM has reached a high degree of consistency with him. This gave He Cheng a wonderful feeling of talking to himself six years ago. When he first came into contact with SM as a novice, He also searched for a lot of theoretical knowledge to support him like this, and he was very curious about this person outside the screen.

But when he looked up, the other party's Weibo ID was so random that it was in the format of "user 12345" automatically generated by the system.

It is indeed a very intuitive Weibo trumpet, He Cheng smiled.

Cut to WeChat and looked at the good night emoji sent by Mr. Ji 10 minutes ago, he actually began to boldly think about how to gradually bring people into the circle after chasing him.Since it was rare to meet a male guest who was attracted to him, He Cheng naturally arranged a few weekend movies and other reasonable activities according to his preferences.

And Mr. Ji, who was unilaterally thought of thoroughly, hurriedly said goodnight falsely, and then turned his head and devoted himself to the serious academic discussion with Gallop.

Because of mental illness, Ji Chuanheng has always rejected physical contact with others, and this rejection is indiscriminate.It is reflected in behaviors such as refusing to travel tools such as buses and subways, not appearing in any place with excessive population density, buying a movie ticket to pick a seat in the corner, and standing on the edge of the crowd every time a group photo is taken.

But recently this situation has eased, since he spends one day with He Cheng almost every weekend.

He Cheng stuck his arms together in the movie theater, He Cheng leaned over to drink the coffee in his hand, He Cheng turned sideways to help him pull the seat belt on the co-driver, He Cheng even pulled his seat belt when he was distracted and almost hit by a car. He pulled it into his arms.

The body, which was one step ahead of thinking, immediately had a strong stress reaction, his pupils shrank and his whole body tensed and trembled. Ji Chuanheng pushed away the people around him vigorously, but he was reluctant to let go of the hand that grabbed his bare wrist.

"what happened to you?"

Ji Chuanheng even had slight tinnitus symptoms. His frowning and curled up body did not answer He Cheng's question. He Cheng didn't know what terrible thing Ji Chuanheng encountered that made him so abnormal, but his instinct did not allow him to be uncontrollable. this scene.

So He Cheng dragged him to a safe place, and the hand that was going to caress his back was slapped away.He Cheng supported Ji Chuanheng with one hand—or pinched the back of Ji Chuanheng's neck so that he could look directly at him, and clasped his wrist tightly with the other hand.

Ji Chuanheng was imprisoned by the wall of a deserted alleyway at night, the opponent's strength and current posture made him unable to struggle.A few minutes later, Ji Chuanheng slowly regained his composure. He took a deep breath of the charming woody fragrance of He Cheng's body, and then his ears turned red, and he licked his lips to apologize to He Cheng.

Embarrassed, a little shy, but very cute.

He Cheng later recalled Teacher Ji's expression at that time and gave such an evaluation.

This was the first time Ji Chuanheng had an outbreak of illness in front of others. In the past, he was very cautious and tried not to let himself do things that required him to face this situation.He also couldn't figure out why his body had let down its vigilance towards He Cheng.

After listening to his description of the whole process, Wang Chen led him to admit that he really benefited from He Cheng's not gentle treatment when he faced his abnormality.

Ji Chuanheng knew in his heart that he longed for more rough behavior, even if it hurts.That is a desire that no amount of academic theories can fill with unfamiliar bloggers.

So he took the phone and sent something, and then left the psychological clinic in relief.

On the other side, He Cheng was still wondering what happened to his teacher Ji that day, and when he was about to seek help from the only psychiatrist he knew, he received a friend request from the group chat on his WeChat account.The verification information is a string of seemingly garbled but familiar numbers.He Cheng knew who this person was, and what surprised him was that the other party was also in the same city group.

[Can I meet with you? 】

[I don't like to play novices. 】

[But I can see you first. 】

He Cheng arranged the meeting place near his home, which was a well-hidden coffee shop.His idea was that if he was satisfied after seeing the person, it would be more convenient to take it home to the tuning classroom. After all, they had a good chat during this time.

But when he really saw Ji Chuanheng who was sitting by the window waiting for him, looking a little anxious, he immediately changed his mind and thought that we should have a good chat first, no, we must have a good chat first.

Unlike Ji Chuanheng who was stunned and then quickly blushed and shy and didn't know how to speak, He Cheng quickly accepted that the same kind of person he had chatted with for so many days was his friend who had been with him for three months.But yesterday suddenly appeared in Mr. Ji's mind.