I'm with the first grader

"Ah, I really don't understand, why can you avoid studying like this?" Li Jingxi said sadly, holding the "Complete Interpretation of Textbooks", lamenting that the style of study has gradually become unhealthy, "You must have never imagined that playing Moore in the past, now The feeling of being played by mol..."

"Here, as the class monitor, on behalf of the whole class, I would like to extend my most sincere wishes to Lin Jing. I wish the bride and groom—oh, I didn't take the wrong script. I wish her a happy birthday."

Li Jingxi wanted to be skinny a few more times, but Lin Jing couldn't help but drag him down.

Yunan seldom participated in such lively scenes. He was usually used to being alone alone, but he might suddenly become unaccustomed to it, and his heart felt a little painful.

Maybe it's still not suitable.

After putting aside the gift for Lin Jing, I wanted to go back.

"Hey." Seeing that she was leaving, Tao Jiang thought she was in a hurry, "I'm leaving so early, what's the matter?" It's only been a short time since I came here... It feels like Yunan didn't eat much.

Yunan squinted at her.

If you don't leave, you will be surrounded by a group of people watching them, and then you won't have time to be alone with Tao Jiang, it's boring.

Can she say such a thing?

"I just want to leave."

Tao Jiang: "..."

Then... I didn't recruit either...

Tao Jiang sat up dizzily, drank the last cup of Coke, wiped his mouth, "I'll go with you."

Yunan was indifferent, she actually wanted to ask Tao Jiang, if drinking Coke in a goblet would make it taste better?

"Drink less Coke, lower your IQ."

Someone said faintly: "Oh..."

People like you won't understand the happiness of a fat house.

Tao Jiang was actually afraid that it would be dangerous for Yunan to go home alone. Even though they were all in the south, there was still a long distance between Lin Jing's house and Yunan's house.

But after going out, he saw Yunan's driver waiting at the door.

Tao Jiang: "..." Fuck.

Then what am I here for, am I being funny? ?

She coughed in embarrassment, trying to hide her embarrassment.

"Then...then I can go back..." Tao Jiang scratched his hair, "Anyway...there's still a lot to eat..."

Yunan waved his hands to the driver and said a few words, the driver nodded and drove away.

Tao Jiang: "?"

Yunan returned to Tao Jiang's side and held her hand, "Since you have come out, why go back? There are many places to go to the south, and I will take you there."

Tao Jiang looked thoughtfully at Yunan holding his hand.

It seemed that Yunan was pulling her for the first time.

Yao Yile used to hold her tight, but it was really just a pull, simple and simple.

Yunan pulled her, but... always felt a little... strange.

As night fell, the south was brightly lit.

Yunan was lying when she said that she was not familiar with the South, but she didn't need a driver at all, but how did her mother know that she came to Lin Jing's house, so she specially called the driver to pick her up.

Yunan didn't want to go back, instead of staying at home and doing things he didn't like.

She still prefers to be with Tao Jiang.

"Uh, so." Seeing that she hadn't spoken all the way, Tao Jiang broke the silence, "You want to take me—"

"Hush—" Yunan made a gesture.

Tao Jiang: "?"

Yunan tilted his head, "You close your eyes."

Tao Jiang did so, and then opened his eyes again: "No, why should I listen to you?"

Yunan: "..."

Tao·Professional destroy atmosphere·Ginger.

After walking a few more steps, Yunan took her to the lake.

"My God, you rich people really know how to play."

Water jets are sprayed in the center of the lake, neon lights are staggered, and soft music is playing slowly.

"Music fountain", Yunan smiled and leaned against the railing, "Coincidentally, it was released today."

Tao Jiang felt that things were not that simple.

"You, do you have anything else to say..."

Tao Jiang, who has always been keen, smelled something unusual.

Yunan seemed a little unhappy today, even the moment when she obviously liked this music fountain, and then laughed, it seemed so unreal.

"Are you unhappy?" Tao Jiang asked tentatively.

Yunan looked into her eyes, his heart skipped a beat.

She always knew what she was thinking.

But how could she say that it was because she was not used to the excitement?At Lin Jing's house just now, she was almost at the limit of her patience.

She obviously felt a little uncomfortable in her heart in the lively environment.

It's like a disease...

If there are too many people, you will feel flustered.I don't know when it went wrong.

"In the past, my mother never let me go out to play." Yunan looked at the fountain, as if talking to himself, "When my peers were still stepping on the snow, flying kites, chasing and playing, I could only wait At home, I listen to my tutor's lectures about Mathematical Olympiad and various knowledge."

"When I'm at home, sometimes I can stay for three days without going out, just to practice the piano, or dance."

"My mother used to be very extreme." Yunan lowered her eyes, "If I fail to meet her ideal standards, she will completely deny me and let me start again."

"For so many years, I have been careful... and I have always followed her ideas and become the person she wants me to be."

"But, at that point, I was suffering from severe depression."

Tao Jiang was astonished.

A positive, cheerful and lively girl like her can't understand why a person can be depressed at all.

There will also be a lot of news about this on the Internet, such as depression and suicide, Tao Jiang always disagrees.

Haven't experienced it, of course I don't understand

"Depression..." Tao Jiang murmured, this word was too far away from her.

"Yes, severe depression. After the DSM-IV test, I went to the hospital to check for confirmed depression, not social phobia," Yunan explained, "At the same time, I also suffer from Bipolar Affective Disorder (bipolar affective disorder)."

Tao Jiang couldn't understand why such an excellent person as Yunan would feel that his future is bleak and his life is gloomy...? .

"Bipolar disorder, the incidence rate in China is 0.1%, and the peak period is between 15 and 19 years old." Yunan smiled wryly, "At that time, I was in the fourth grade of elementary school."

In the fourth grade of elementary school, but just eight years old.

Tao Jiang suddenly felt sorry for her.

"Then, does Auntie know about this?" She asked cautiously, after all, such a serious issue was involved...

"I did the report myself, and she didn't know. When did she know? Probably in junior high school. At that time, I was already much better, and there was no problem."

Tao Jiang felt his heart being grabbed hard.

In the fourth grade of elementary school, to be honest, she still doesn't understand anything.

What kind of depression, what kind of bipolar disorder, she doesn't understand, and there is absolutely no possibility of such a situation in her body.

In comparison, she had a much easier life than Yunan.

Yunan was already carrying such a burden when he was eight years old, and he was worried every day, for fear of hurting others.

It was hard for her to imagine how Yunan spent that time.

In those few years, would she cry in the middle of the night, tossing and turning, unable to sleep.

Yunan who usually wants to criticize when there is nothing to do, Yunan who is usually vicious and cruel, and Yunan who is usually calm and calm and says "don't get close to strangers".

And the person in front of me is the same person.

She opened her own wound, but it was calm.

It seems that she was just telling the story of a man named 'Yunan'.

Doesn't matter?

"So... you just... couldn't control your emotions, that's why you wanted to leave, right?" Tao Jiang was very smart, and she could guess the reason just by briefly introducing the situation.

Since it is a bipolar relationship, in a certain place, Yunan may behave differently.

"Yeah." Yunan didn't hide it, and said it generously.

"I have never felt such a lively atmosphere, and I have never attended a party before." Yunan raised his eyes and looked into the distance. "Although my depression and bipolar disorder have improved a lot,... I still can't Hold yourself well."

"In your eyes, I seem to be a half-normal person."

Yunan laughed at himself.

Tao Jiang took her into his arms and stroked her hair.

"Stupid, you are absolutely normal, okay?"