Qingyun Weiyang

Late at night, lonely.

Red chips, Bai Xue.Nalan Mansion is bright, and everyone is immersed in the joy of tomorrow.

Snowflakes fell on the branches, and ice formed under the eaves.The charcoal fire in the house was as red as it was, and there was a rustling sound.Nalan Qing dismissed all the maids and sat alone in the room full of Daxi paper-cuts.The red candles illuminate the boudoir beautifully, and there are three sets of wedding dresses on the table, the phoenix sings for nine days, the cranes ride the clouds, and the flowers welcome the spring.

She had no intention of observing, let alone trying on, just drinking osmanthus wine by herself.After tonight, she will be Princess Qing in the eyes of the world, and she has fulfilled Gu Han's last wish and ended all the ties in the world.

It's just...she might not be able to go back to the past.No matter where you go, there is a person living in your heart, and it is difficult to be truly chic and comfortable.

But even so, my heart is full, which may not be a good thing.

Better than being empty.

Nalan Qing smiled wryly, Yun Jin and his wife were reunited, the spring night was short, did they revisit the ceremony of husband and wife?While thinking wildly, she drank the wine in the pot in one gulp.

"Dong dong dong", there was a crisp knock on the door.

"Didn't I tell you not to disturb me?" Nalan Qing's voice was cold, at this moment she didn't want to see anyone, and she didn't want to be disturbed by others.

"it's me..."

It was Yun Jin's voice.

Nalanqing's expression changed from cold to gentle, she walked to the door, looked at the silhouette outside the window, felt a pain in her heart, and slowly opened the door.

A little bit of white snow fell on Yun Jin's shoulders, and the black hair was covered with translucent condensation, which made the already soft and beautiful face even more attractive.

"I..." Yunjin didn't know how to speak, so Nalanqing pulled her in, "It's cold outside, come in and say."

The scarlet embroidered with a phoenix luan stung Yunjin's eyes. She thought of the day she got married, and also of her unhappy past.

Afraid that Yunjin would get cold, Na Lanqing turned over the charcoal in the stove again.Yun Jin noticed that there were a few empty wine jugs lying in a mess on the table, so she knew she had drunk again.She never knew that Nalan Qing was such a good drinker, but she had never seen her drunk before.

She was always sober and knew what she was going to do.Because of this, Yun Jin knew that this marriage was a foregone conclusion.

"Tomorrow is your big day. I shouldn't have disturbed you tonight, but... I still want to give you a wedding gift." Yun Jin said, spreading out her palm, which was a piece of rough jade.

It was originally a very inconspicuous stone, but there were two words engraved on it: Qingyun

"You left a Qingyun Tower in Jidu. I accidentally found this piece of uncut jade, so I carved these two characters. I didn't give you anything. I wish you happiness and health in the future. Husband and wife sing in harmony, white... ..." Yun Jin couldn't continue, and when she was ready, her sobs were still choked in her throat.

To grow old together...she could say it.

Na Lanqing reached out to take it and touched her fingertips, feeling icy cold.But this piece of uncut jade was held very warm by her. The word Qingheyun was engraved with clear texture, just like the plaque of Qingyun Tower, elegant and elegant.

"Thank you." Nalan Qing held tightly in his palm and stroked his heart.

This is the warmest and favorite gift she has received in her life.

"And..." Yun Jin took out a piece of yellowish kraft paper from her bosom, this "Deed of Sale" carried all of Nalan Qing's affection for her and everything she had done for her.

Nalan Qing's heart trembled, and he clenched his fists, unwilling to accept the IOU.She didn't like this feeling of saying goodbye, as if she would never see her again.

"What you did for me may never be repaid in this life. Now, I can do one last thing for you." Yun Jin stuffed the IOU into her hand.

"What..." Nalan Qing didn't know what she meant.

"You once begged me to let the King of Qing go, and leave him the last trace of dignity as the former emperor. I promise you that I will allow him to inherit the throne and not weaken any of his military power. Everything in Qingzhou will continue as usual, how about it? Qing...Princess "When Yun Jin uttered these words, it was as if she had a razor blade in her mouth, cutting herself bloody and bruises all over her body.

Nalan Qing frowned even deeper, and crushed the IOU in his palm, Yun Jin's words tortured her to pieces.If it's really heartless and indifferent, it's fine, the more you give these things, the more painful it will be for her.

"Thank you...the Empress Dowager's grace..." Nalan Qing's eyes were red, she had never shed a tear in her life, but her nose was full of sourness at this situation.

"In the future, you will be the princess and I will be the queen mother. I am afraid that we will never have the chance to meet again. Can I...can I hug you again?" Yun Jin slightly opened her arms, treating it as the last indulgence, and lusting after the last trace of tenderness .

How could Nalanqing refuse?She gently pulled Yun Jin into her arms, not daring to use any force while holding her.Yun Jin caressed her back with both hands. Originally, his hands were relaxed, but at the moment when he hugged her, all emotions came to his heart.

She just wanted to keep the tenderness of the last moment, but when she returned to this embrace, her heart hurt so badly that she couldn't breathe.She didn't dare to indulge herself, but the arm holding Nalan Qing trembled a little.

This kind of hesitation, reluctance and even despair dragged her into an endless abyss.

Nalanqing remained silent the whole time, and the tears rolling in his eyes never shed.She was afraid that if she opened her mouth, she would collapse. She couldn't give herself such a chance, let alone let Yun Jin see herself like this.

Gu Han kept asking her why she didn't tell Yun Jin the truth.

If you don't tell, you can cut off Yun Jin's thoughts, and you can cut off your own hopes.

If she told, Yun Jin would be even more sad, and would attribute all the responsibility to herself.She would feel that she had let herself down because she couldn't abandon her husband and ignore her.

If so, she will live in more pain and be in a dilemma.Na Lanqing didn't want her to fall into a dilemma again, so he kept silent about the truth about their marriage.

Short-term pain is worse than long-term pain, and it is better to sever each other's thoughts.

This hug is like a long time ago, the warmth of this life may end tonight.

Yun Jin didn't let herself get too immersed in it, she wanted Nalan Qing to get married with peace of mind.She got up from Nalanqing's arms, gently pushed her away, and walked out the door without looking back.

Putting her hand on the latch, she paused for a moment.

Nalanqing stepped forward involuntarily, but as soon as she took the first step, Yunjin opened the door and went out.

She almost ran away in a panic, and after coming out of Nalan Qing's boudoir, she hurried back to the west wing.

It was cold and snowy, and the snow was thick, covering the way she came.

After walking briskly for a while, Yun Jin stopped slowly and stood beside a new plum, lost in thought.

"Jin'er." Qin Junhao appeared on crutches. He had been waiting for Yun Jin to come back. Seeing her in a daze, he was worried that she would catch the cold, so he couldn't help but come.

Yun Jin turned her head and saw that he was wearing thin clothes, and said flatly, "It's freezing cold, the prince wears so little, be careful of the wind and cold..."

"I am a man who is not afraid of the cold, but you are always afraid of the cold, you should go back."

"Yeah." Yun Jin's indifference did not cool Qin Junhao's enthusiasm. He had been looking forward to the reunion for a long time, and longed to continue the relationship with Yun Jin, but he was very scared in his heart, thinking about many things but not daring.

Back in the west chamber, there was silence, and all the serving servants went to sleep in the side room.

Today is the first time the couple have had sex since their reunion.Yun Jin's heart is ashamed, and it can even be described as life without love. For her, without Nalan Qing, her world will only be obscure and lose all its brilliance.

She was forced to accept the cruel reality, and she was powerless to change everything that was about to happen.If she and Qin Junhao meet again and have different rooms, it may cause criticism.

She is the empress dowager of a country. If this matter is spread, it will easily cause rumors and gossip, which is not good for Qin Yu.

She has too many scruples.

"Jin'er, shall we go to bed?" Qin Junhao looked at her, his eyes glowing, a longing spread in his heart, he had waited for too long, the yearning for Yun Jin these few years was the only thing he could live on in this world belief.

"Go to bed first, I'll read some books." Yun Jin didn't feel sleepy, let alone sleep with him, she was used to herself, and only liked to sleep with Nalan Qing.

"Jin'er..." Qin Junhao hugged her suddenly, the sudden closeness made her feel uncomfortable, she frowned slightly, "My lord..."

"Listen to me first." Qin Junhao interrupted her, "I have been in Nalan Mansion for four years, and I have been working hard on the horse farm. Because of my lameness, I am not even qualified to enter Nalan Mansion. I pick horse manure every day, Feed the horses, bathe the horses, make yourself smelly, eat leftovers, porridge and steamed buns, and sleep on a brick and mud kang..."

"You have suffered." Yun Jin sighed slightly, lamenting that Qin Junhao was spoiled and spoiled since he was a child, even if he is not the heir to the throne, he has always been a high-ranking prince, and he has fallen into such a state.

"I wanted to commit suicide countless times, but I couldn't bear it. I didn't dare to reveal my identity. I was afraid that the Qingzhou people would be jealous of Ji Guo for seizing their land, and I didn't dare to go to the garrison, because there was nothing to prove my identity. I can't go anywhere with my broken leg. If I hadn't heard that the Empress Dowager came to Qingzhou, and the third lady Nalan Changjun went to the racecourse to pick up horses and brought me back to the mansion, I might not even see you this time."

"It's all over, it's over." Yun Jin was hugged by him and didn't respond, just standing straight without a trace of warmth.

As before, Qin Junhao couldn't feel any emotion from Yun Jin.But when he looked at Yun Jin, his heart throbbed, even impulsively.

He caressed her face lightly, leaned forward slightly, and when her lips were about to touch Yun Jin, she turned her face away in resistance, "I'm sorry, my lord."

Yun Jin's obvious refusal made Qin Junhao a little hurt, but he still squeezed out a smile, "No, it's okay, I'm so ugly and crippled now, I haven't seen you for so many years, it's normal for you not to get used to it for a while."

"No..." Yun Jin gritted her teeth, looked up at him with firm eyes, "I'm sorry, my lord, my body has already been given to someone else, and I can't accept you anymore."

It was like a thunderbolt from the blue sky, hitting Qin Junhao's heart.Although he was mentally prepared, when he heard Yun Jin say these words himself, he still felt heartbroken.

"Yes...is it Nalanqing?"

"You...?" Yun Jin was surprised, she didn't know when Qin Junhao saw this.

Qin Junhao slowly put down his hand, took two steps back with his limping right leg, and raised a helpless smile, "From the time I saw her back, the way you looked at each other, to the time she said that you were the officiant, you clearly felt ashamed." Daotang is still pretending to be calm. Jin'er, you have been like this since you were a child. You are obviously very sad, but you will not show it in front of others. I have known you for more than [-] years, how can I not see that you have deep roots in love for her. "

"I'm sorry, I'm not a good wife." Yun Jin didn't want to suffer like this again and again, no matter what the outcome was, she could no longer have the ceremony of husband and wife with Qin Junhao, she couldn't do it.

She only loves Nalan Qing, and is only willing to give her her body.

"Don't be sorry, I have done so many wrong things, and I have done things that I am sorry to you, you forgive me. Besides, everyone thinks I am dead, even if you find your love, it is human nature." Qin Jun Hao picked up his emotions and looked at Yun Jin reluctantly, feeling sore in his heart, "Jin'er, she is getting married, are you sad?"

"It doesn't matter whether you're sad or sad, this fact can't be changed." Yun Jin's disappointed tone was full of sentimentality.

"I shouldn't have appeared, I shouldn't have come back, and I shouldn't have ruined the relationship between you..." Qin Junhao suddenly felt that he was living too much, and his persistence all this time was meaningless.

He's like a joke.

But he also fulfilled his long-cherished wish.At least, I saw the deepest concern in my heart.

"My lord, how can you think like that? Do you know how happy Guo'er is to know that you are not dead? Over the past few years, he has been thinking of his father and king, and has never given up looking for you. How can you say such a thing? "

"I just... can't bear to see you so sad now." Qin Junhao knew that he would never have Yun Jin's heart again in this life. From the beginning to now, he has never had it, "How about you and Nalan Qing Let's go, don't care about those ceremonies, and don't care about that Qing king, you go far away, away from the world of right and wrong."

"Are you crazy..." Yun Jin had hoped for this before, but with Qin Junhao's return, Nalanqing was determined to get married, so she gave up her own thoughts, and now she can no longer be like before. , without any scruples.

"I'm not crazy. I'd rather have you laughing beside her than you being unhappy by my side all day long. I can't give it to you, so let her give it to you. Jin'er, you've always lived your life for others, and you've always lived for others. Be brave for yourself, be brave for her."

"It's too late, everything is too late." Yun Jin smiled and shook her head, no one in this world can force Nalan Qing to do anything, even if she is to marry King Qing, she is willing.

No matter what the reason was, she chose, and she didn't want to entangle her anymore.What's more, now that the Empress Dowager is reunited with the Xian Wang and his wife, it is known all over the world. Qin Yu is waiting for his father and mother to go back. Does it make him happy?

The thoughts that have been cut off, she doesn't want to get up again, she doesn't want to give herself extravagant expectations, this has been the case in this life.

"You sleep here, and I'll go to the side hall to read." Yun Jin's heart rippled again.

She just wanted to wait until dawn alone, until the big wedding tomorrow, to sit on the main seat, to see Nalan Qing's phoenix crown and Xiapei in person, and to marry as another woman.

Doomed to have no sleep tonight, only thoughts tonight.