Qingyun Weiyang

Yunshu Pavilion is connected to the bedroom hall inside and the imperial study room outside.

Pushing the door open is a couch, full of elegant and bookish atmosphere.On a marble table, there are several thick ancient books.The most eye-catching thing is the screen panel carved out of locust wood, on which a portrait hangs.

It was an exquisite but extraordinary woman, wearing a dragon robe, looking down on the world, those eyes that should have been sharp, but under the rendering of pen and ink, there was only gentleness.

Who is such a magnificent woman besides Qin Junlan, the supreme queen in the world?

This is Yun Jin's pen and ink written many years ago. When she was young, her brush strokes were soft and gentle, delicate but profound.Every stroke of Qin Junlan's noble dragon robe is as if she carved it with her own hands, with clear lines and lifelike.

This is a face looking back at the side, maybe it was the faint glance that was engraved in Yun Jin's heart forever, and this later painting came into being.

Today's Yun Jin has a little more vigor and sharpness in his pen and ink.After years of precipitation, her current paintings are more stable.

It's just that it takes a lot of deep emotions to paint such an exquisite painting. This is Qin Junlan in Yunjin's heart, and the charm and aura are even stronger than her own.Nalan Qing stared at Qin Junlan's portrait, lost in thought for a long time, feeling a pang of pain in his heart.

This is Yun Jin's heart, the only concern and expectation in her countless years.

Nalan Qing sat in front of the table, facing the painting, feeling Yun Jin's previous mood.She seemed to see how she looked sad and dejected in front of this portrait all these years, and she seemed to feel the perseverance of Yun Jin standing alone here when the boundless loneliness struck.

This stupid woman.

It was because of Qin Junlan that she took on this country. Perhaps she also married her younger brother Xian Wang because of Qin Junlan.

Be careful with this feeling for so many years, why have you ever thought about yourself?Nalan Qing was sad, but even more distressed. After all these years, she had never lived for herself.

She also finally understood why Yun Jin collapsed like that the moment she saw Qin Junlan, it was like the moonlight in her heart, illuminating her world.When people are weak, they will always miss the person in their heart more. Perhaps Yunjin likes herself, but Qin Junlan treats her with a beauty that can never be surpassed.

I have never wished that I could be stupid and not think so thoroughly as I am now.Nalanqing put his hands on his forehead and smiled wryly, feeling helpless and even more powerless.

"Who let you in?"

The voice was slightly cold, with a bit of questioning.

Yun Jin stood at the door, looking at Na Lanqing with complicated emotions, but she finally came in.She pretended to be indifferent, her eyes only stayed on Na Lanqing for a moment, then she walked to the portrait, stretched out her hand to caress it, and cared for it.

"Now that you know, I don't want to hide it anymore." Yun Jin turned around and looked at her indifferently, her eyes were so unfamiliar.

"I always feel that there is a place in your heart that cannot be reached. I just realized today that it is her."

"Yes, I liked her very much since I was a child. It hasn't changed in these years. Her position in my heart cannot be replaced by you." When Yun Jin said these words, her heart was bleeding. It was hurtful and cruel, but she had to say it.

Nalan Qing stood up and walked to her side, full of affection.She was a little sour at first, but she was relieved when she heard Yun Jin say this. The more she deliberately hurt, the more she couldn't hide her current intentions.

Yun Jin was so kind, she would not use the greatest harm to treat the person in her heart, but her words against her will made Na Lanqing even more reluctant.

"You once liked her and married the King Xian for her, so what?"

There was a trace of surprise in Yun Jin's eyes, she thought Nalan Qing would misunderstand, get angry, and feel sad, but she...

"I was a little jealous, and even my confidence was shaken when she came back. I don't know her, but I understand you." Nalan Qing stroked her face gently, and lightly held her shoulder, "If you don't like me, You will never be allowed to get close to you, Jin'er, doesn't your heart hurt when you say these words?"

Yun Jin resisted the bitterness in her heart, turned her head away, and didn't want to meet her eyes.She was self-righteous, she underestimated Nalan Qing's tolerance and consideration, and even her understanding of her, so she tried to stimulate her in this way.

But the more Nalan Qing was like this, the more tormented she was.

"Nalanqing..." Yun Jin desperately restrained the waves in her heart so that she could talk to her in a normal tone, "I will not leave Guo'er, nor will I go with you, and the palace is not suitable for you either."

"so what?"

"You should go back to your world instead of wasting time on me, I can't give you what you want."

"All I want is you, nothing else." Nalan Qing hugged her, took her lips in his mouth, and wanted to use the tip of his tongue to pry open her somewhat cold lips, but Yun Jin clenched her teeth tightly, He raised his arm and pushed her away with his elbow.

"Nalanqing, please let me go, you will only make me more painful!" Yun Jin's eyes were watery, and her voice raised a bit, and her originally calm emotions became turbulent, "I am a mother, I am a mother. Empress Dowager, from the moment Guo'er succeeded to the throne, I have no future of my own, how can you tell me to leave everything behind and go with you?"

"I can stay by your side forever, I won't force you to choose, we will assist the emperor together, watch him become a queen and even a prince, don't face everything alone, I can accompany you, Jin'er." Na Lanqing held her hands tightly, how could she be willing to let go, she wanted to take Yunjin out of the palace, but she couldn't bear her painful choice.

"Wake up, Nalanqing!" Yun Jin roared.

Nalan Qing was stunned.

"Ask yourself, do you really like life in the palace? Ask yourself, are you really suitable to stay in this deep courtyard with red walls? You don't belong here, and you don't belong to me."

"Jin'er..." Nalan Qing was at a loss for words for a moment, but didn't know how to answer.

Yun Jin put on a weak smile, her reddish eyes, and the grief after suppressing her emotions, made Na Lanqing's heart flutter with her and suffer with her.

"Does my love make you so heavy, so painful, so embarrassing?"

"Yes, I'm in pain, Nalanqing, I'm really in pain, do you know that?" Yun Jin's heart felt as if it had been hacked into pieces, her internal organs were stretching every nerve and hurting, she said Every word I uttered was like a sharp sword, deeply inserted into my heart, and the blood flowed endlessly.

"Okay, Jin'er, don't be like this, don't be like this, okay? I understand, I understand." Nalan Qing's hand slowly slipped down to her palm, even though he was reluctant to part with it, he had no choice but to let go .

Her love became Yun Jin's burden, and the thing she was most afraid of still happened.

She backed away slowly, her eyes were bottomless and deep, with heartbreaking sadness and helplessness flashing in her eyes.Nalan Qing knelt down on his knees, raised his head slightly to stare at Yun Jin, spread his hands flat on the ground, and knocked his forehead on the ground, "I will take my leave."

This kneeling broke Yun Jin's heart. She suppressed her grief, not wanting to show her broken emotions in front of Nalan Qing. She turned her head and stopped looking at her until she left.

Yun Jin just collapsed and collapsed on the ground, tears rolled down like broken pearls.She covered her mouth and let out a mournful low cry, which made her shiver.

Nalanqing had expected such a day to come, but she didn't expect it to come so soon. She didn't give herself time to grieve, but locked herself in the backyard without seeing anyone.

No one knew what Nalan Qing did after that day, no one dared to enter the backyard, and Yun Jin never saw her.She had been waiting for Nalan Qing to say goodbye to herself, but she was so afraid of that moment coming.

A choice is a choice, no matter how painful her heart is, she will eventually have to face this heavy fact.

Yun Jin's body had returned to normal, and the plague in the palace had passed. Seeing that Yun Jin was fine, Liu Qianxun and Qin Junlan left.The two made an appointment with Yiqing Yu and Liu Zhu to meet in the loquat forest next year, and asked Yun Jin to take Qin Yu there to reunite the whole family.

Yun Jin readily agreed and did not keep the two of them in the palace.

The palace returned to tranquility.

When the snow arrives, the plum blossoms will be a little bit.Old locust trees are planted all over the imperial garden, and the first snow is full. Between the strange stone jade seat and the stacked stone, there is a layer of silver makeup.

Yun Jin stretched out her hand, the snowflakes melted in her palm, and a little bit of coolness hit her heart.

"Queen Mother, be careful of catching a cold." Yuan Xi put a mink fur cape on Yun Jin.

"What is this?" Yun Jin had never seen this cloak before. It was made of snow-white plush, very soft, mixed with wool and mink, sewn with gold and silver threads. I don't feel cold at all.

"This is made by the head of the family. She said that winter is too cold, and she is afraid that you will be exposed to the wind and cold when you go out of the palace." Yuanxi sighed softly after speaking. She was surprised that Nalan Qing would be a female celebrity. I have learned several times from Si Zhifang.

"she..."

Yun Jin's heart suddenly ached, she didn't know how long this pain would last, maybe she got used to it, after a long time, it would be fine.

"Go back." She tugged on the cloak lightly, clutching the plush tightly with both hands, as if she could touch Nalan Qing, alternately sad and happy.

In the depths of the plum blossoms in the imperial garden, the lush trees beside the rockery covered Na Lanqing's figure, snowflakes fell on her shoulders, and she showed a proud posture.

"My lord..." Shihan came to give orders, "I don't know why you summoned the little one?"

"The deity is leaving the palace, you stay here, if you have any worries about the queen mother in the future, whether it is money or other things, you should pass the letter to me immediately."

"Yes, the little one will wait for the return of the Lord and protect the Queen Mother." Shihan didn't understand Nalan Qing's intention.

"This deity will not come back, but you can't leave yet. There must be members of the Nalan family in this palace to protect her." Nalan Qing's eyes remained on the place where Yun Jin left, and did not look back.

"My lord??" Shihan looked at her in astonishment, he was abandoned by the lord? "The young one, the young one is from the Nalan family, not from the palace. Do you want the young one, my lord?"

Shi Han was so anxious that he was about to cry, he only recognized Nalan Qing as his master in his whole life, and it was not because of the presence of the master that he was able to stay in the palace for so long.

"What? Are you trying to disobey orders? I didn't allow you to stay here all your life, it's just these few years." Nalan Qing's tone was majestic, Shihan seemed to see her sitting on the patriarch's position, aloof and disdainful of everything .

At one time, he felt that Nalan Qing had lost her freedom and heart when she was a female official in this palace, and she gradually left her life for the sake of Empress Dowager Yun.

Now, he finally saw Nalan Qing's previous posture, as if he had returned.

"Little one, little one..." Even though Shihan was unwilling, he did not dare to disobey Nalan Qing's order, so he bowed his head, "Young one obeys."

The snowflakes rinse, and the plum blossoms bloom by themselves.

Yun Jin stared at the memorial on the table, lost in thought.

For a long time, she didn't move.

"Queen Mother, it's time to eat." Huairou brought the lunch to her, fearing that she would lose her appetite after recovering from a serious illness, so she served it with porridge and delicious pastries.

There was a slight blush on the porridge bowl, like plum blossoms blooming in the cold, and there was a faint fragrance of plum blossoms.The pastry is also carved into the shape of a plum blossom, like a new plum picked from a branch, ready to bloom.

"She made this?" Seeing the uniqueness of the lunch, Yun Jin felt that only Nalan Qing could make such a meal.

"It was made by the servant girl. When you say this, Queen Mother, does it mean that the servant girl can become a teacher? Mr. Lan's wood carvings of plum blossoms, osmanthus flowers, and orchids are really lifelike." Huairou was a little excited. Can't tell who did it.

"What woodcarving?"

"It's the flower shape carved by Mrs. Lang herself. She taught the servants to make the pastries beautiful and delicious. The servants tried it boldly today, and finally they did not disappoint Mrs. Lang."

Yun Jin frowned slightly, "When did she teach you?"

"In the past few days, I have been telling my servants how to pay attention to food, how to regulate my body cold, how to make medicinal food when I am weak, and also reminding my servants to pay attention to whether you can sleep well at night, giving my servants several prescriptions for calming soup, and even how to light incense, When and how long to order, there are exquisite details, and the servants are afraid that they will not be able to remember, so they asked Yuan Xi to write it down in notes."

Yun Jin smiled wryly, she was about to leave, why bother to do so much for herself, it was really not worth it.

"Ai's family can't eat, let's move away."

"Queen Mother..." Huairou pouted, how long has she been doing this for an hour?The Queen Mother still has such a loss of appetite, could it be that she can't eat because it was not done by Mrs. Lang?

Alas, but she had to follow suit.

"Empress Dowager, Sir Lan, please see me."

Yun Jin's heart ached slightly, did the thing she was waiting for finally come?It's been five days, and Nalan Qing is nowhere to be seen, is he preparing to leave?Yun Jin sat upright, trying to make herself look as if everything was normal and ready to face everything.

Nalan Qing came on the snow with his official uniform in his hands.

She knelt on her knees, with a tall and straight posture, looking at Yun Jin with calm water in her eyes, "Chen Lan Qingzou, please resign, and please grant the Queen Mother."

"What?" Yuan Xi and Huairou looked at each other in astonishment. They had a faint feeling that something was wrong with Nalan Qing. They had been explaining various things these days, but they didn't expect that it would be her who was going to resign.

Is she leaving? ?

Yun Jin's heart throbbed suddenly, as if someone was whipping him fiercely with a whip, Ling Chi's feeling was no different.She thought she had prepared herself mentally, and she thought she could be calm.

She overestimated herself and underestimated her feelings.

When Nalan Qing said the word resignation in an almost indifferent tone, she needed to pinch her palm with her nails in order to control the sadness of being suppressed.

"Miss Lang, have you thought about it?" Her face was calm, as if everything was so logical.

She is Mrs. Lan, and she is the queen mother, as it should be...

"I have made up my mind. I will leave the palace today and not come back again. Please allow me the Queen Mother." Nalan Qing seemed to have built a ruthless frost around her body, separating her from everything in the world, just like five years ago, She is out of tune with the prosperity of the world and lives for herself alone.

This is Nalan Qing's original appearance, she is finally going to be herself.

Yun Jin was filled with grief and joy, although her heart ached, she preferred Nalan Qing like this.

Don't come back...don't come back...she shouldn't have come back, this place is just a cold palace, no temperature, no expectations, even the clouds in the sky are very small, and the warm sun above the head is too small. Not as bright as outside.

Yun Jin's palms turned red from being pinched, she gritted her teeth tightly, and tried her best to maintain the demeanor that her queen mother should have.

"Aijia..." Her voice trembled slightly, as if the two words were stuck in her throat, she couldn't make a sound.

She laughed dumbfounded, she turned out to be so useless.Nalan Qing didn't even look up at her, even if he wanted to catch her eyes.

She was really chilled, Yun Jin bit her lower lip lightly, closed her eyes deeply, and said those two words slowly with a heavy tone of voice, "Zuzao."

"Queen???"

"This..."

Huairou and Yuanxi were extremely anxious, but there was no place for them to intervene in the conversation between master and master.

"Thank you Empress Dowager for your kindness." Nalanqing raised the corners of her lips slightly, bowed her head to the ground, and performed a salutation. She bent down to the ground and did not get up for a long time.

She lifted the official uniform, Yuan Xi glanced at Yun Jin, and had no choice but to take it.

Obviously happiness was just yesterday, why is it like this today?

"Let's go." Yun Jin turned her head away, not daring to look at her again. The indulgence and greed she once had were all killed in her heart now.Yun Jin didn't even know that heartache could be so intense?Compared with the torment of illness, loneliness is more uncomfortable.

After Nalan Qing got up, he didn't look at Yun Jin, but turned around gracefully, paused for a while, and then left.

"Lord Lang..." Huairou couldn't help but wanted to chase out, but she took a look at Yunjin and stopped in her tracks.

"The Queen Mother..." Yuan Xi was at a loss with this official uniform, but he was anxious but didn't know what to do, so he had to remind cautiously, "She's gone."

Only now did Yun Jin turn her head in a daze, and Nalan Qing was no longer there. She walked so fast, maybe she had lost her thoughts, so was she determined to leave?

Let's go... Go back to where she belongs, the hall is empty at last.

"Queen, there is a letter..."

Yuan Xi found a thin thin piece of paper next to the official uniform.

"Let me see."

Yun Jin flipped through the paper, and saw that the withered brown paper was produced by Nalan's.

She is really well-intentioned, and she has done so many things in a roundabout way for herself.Yun Jin's brows and eyes curved into an arc, and now thinking back to Nalan Qing's past, it still feels sour and sweet.

But it's over, it's over...

The snow is flying, the sky and the earth are white, and the imperial city is cold, full of vicissitudes.

The road paved with cobblestones was covered with snowflakes. Yun Jin didn't know how he got out. Along the way, with Yuan Xi's support, he staggered up to the Golden Gate Tower.

The distance is hazy, but you can see that distant figure, which seems real and fake, like a dream and an illusion.Nalan Qing's figure was shrouded in thickening goose feathers and flying snow, and gradually disappeared from Yun Jin's sight.

She left, took away all the warmth and hope, and also took Yun Jin's heart.

"Qing'er..." With a feeble call, Yun Jin threw her head back and fell down.

"Queen Mother!!"