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The rash completely faded within a few days, but the kiss on the scar on the back was not so easily forgotten.

Sometimes Zhaofan was doing other things, and when he suddenly remembered, he involuntarily poked his hands back, but when his fingertips touched the scar, they retracted like an electric shock.

Yan Xiao's actions that day made him finally dare to stand in front of the mirror and observe the scars on his body carefully.

When he was first sent to the rehabilitation center, every time he saw them, he felt so ugly and disgusting, as if they were branded on his body, an indelible humiliation.I never want to see it again, and try not to look down even when I'm taking a bath.

Goodbye at this time, only to find that they are not as hideous and terrifying as imagined.

Just ordinary scars.

They are quietly integrated with flesh and blood, carrying a memory that should not be forgotten.

Not only him, but also those teammates who will never come back.

He let out a long breath, and then asked Yan Xiao for a swimming card to come to the gym.

Yan Xiao was really aware of his change, and couldn't help but swim with him, while gradually adding beef that made him sick at the first sight to his meal step by step.

Slowly, he was able to swallow.

Summer is the peak season for swimming pool use, especially in the afternoon and evening.In order to avoid peak hours, Zhaofan goes there in the morning and is often the first to clock in, even more punctual than the staff.

Yan Xiao stayed with him every time for the first time, but later let him go alone.

In fact, Yan Xiao wanted to watch him every time, but some good meat and vegetables in the vegetable market were gone when he was late, so after he gradually got used to it, he stopped staring at him, went to buy vegetables first, and then came to pick him up , watching him writhe and have fun in the pool.

He is very white, tall and tall, and has a good swimming posture, which is particularly eye-catching in a pool of blue waves.

"Come to pick up Brother Fan again!" The boy on duty in the morning is a boy with a baby face. He opens the door for Zhaofan every day, and sees Yan Xiao coming to pick him up every day. He is already familiar with the two of them. .Oh, he is so awesome, he can hold his breath longer than me."

Yan Xiao smiled and walked towards the swimming pool.

For a sniper, holding your breath is simply child's play.

It's a good thing that Zhaofan is already thinking about performing breath-holding with others.

"Brother Xiao!" Zhaofan heard the movement, turned a corner in the middle of the swimming pool, and swam towards the edge of the pool, holding his hands up, as if to get up.

Yan Xiao helped him, "Are you tired?"

"Tired must be tired." Zhao Fan said, "But it's comfortable to be tired."

"Are you still swimming?"

"Well... I wanted to swim a few more rounds. But you're here, so let's go here today."

Zhaofan's eyes were bright when he spoke, and the clear and bright pool water was reflected in his pupils, making him look very energetic.

Yan Xiao put the towel on his shoulders, "Then go and take a shower, I'll wait for you."

Coming out of the bathroom in the gym, Zhaofan lifted the corner of his lips and helped Yan Xiao carry a bag of vegetables.

Yan Xiao liked the way he was getting better gradually and the smile in his eyes so much that he couldn't help but kissed his forehead.

He froze, his cheeks flushed rapidly.

"I'm sorry." Yan Xiao said.

He shook his head vigorously, shaking off the drops of water hanging from his hair, "No, it's all right."

This is not the first time Yan Xiao kissed him, not even the second or third time.

After applying the medicine, Yan Xiao has kissed him several times, sometimes on the forehead, sometimes on the tip of the nose, sometimes on the cheek, but those were all at home, but this time it was outside.

Every kiss Yan Xiao makes his heart beat faster.He didn't tell Yan Xiao, but in fact he really likes the feeling of being kissed, it seems that the deadly heart surges suddenly, and those gray emotions are also covered by colorful colors.

But he was unable to respond for the time being, and could only accept it passively.

He didn't know that this had already given Yan Xiao great comfort.

Yan Xiao still reported Zhaofan's situation to Doctor Zhu on time as he did when he first returned to Shancheng.

Kissing is a very private matter, but after careful consideration, Yan Xiao still told Dr. Zhu.

Dr. Zhu seemed not surprised, and said: "You know, patients with depression suffer from self-denial. They can't see their own goodness, and they have a negative attitude towards everything about themselves. The verbal affirmation of people around them is more or less It will give them some encouragement and pull them out of the quagmire. But no matter how beautiful words are, they are not as good as actions, and uncontrollable kisses are the strongest expression of love. Zhaofan must have felt it, and from your During the kiss, he gradually found the confidence he should have. Judging from his current situation, you were right in insisting on taking him out of the rehabilitation center. You did give him a shelter from the wind and rain and saved him. I think after a while, his medicine can be stopped."

Yan Xiao was filled with emotion, and squeezed the hand hanging by his side tightly.

Dr. Zhu added: "The recovery of a depressed patient is a long process. He may not immediately return to his previous personality, but as long as the situation is not particularly bad, he can return to work. Appropriate work can promote the recovery of his psychological problems. solve."

At the end of summer and the beginning of autumn, Zhaofan stopped taking medicine.

Yan Xiao was a little worried, for fear that his condition would relapse, and he was also very nervous, so that his emotions were tense, either startled or stunned like a wooden man.

Yan Xiao stopped working and stayed with him almost every step of the way. Seeing him feeling a little uncomfortable, he would touch him and say some comforting words.

One day, Zhaofan was swimming in the pool when he suddenly burst into tears.

I wish the doctor told me that any patient will have a certain degree of dependence on the drug after taking the drug for a long time. It is normal to have emotional breakdown after stopping the drug, so there is no need to worry too much.

But Yan Xiao couldn't do this one.

Seeing that Zhaofan seemed to be abnormal, Yan Xiao didn't have time to think about it, so he jumped into the water and swam closer, only to see Zhaofan's red eyes and tears that hadn't been wiped away.

"What's wrong?" Yan Xiao's heart ached, he hugged him quickly, and kissed his eyes, "Tell me, what's wrong?"

Zhaofan shook his head, pursing his lips tightly.

In fact, he didn't know what was wrong with him, and he couldn't tell what was wrong at all.

In the past few days after stopping the medicine, he always felt that it was difficult to manage his emotions, and he was depressed for no reason. He obviously didn't encounter any sad things, but he always had the urge to shed tears.The more this is the case, the more useless I feel, as if I have fallen into a hopeless cycle again.

"Are you feeling uncomfortable?" Yan Xiao hugged him tighter, his eyes were all on him, "I'm here, don't be afraid."

Like a person about to drown, he voluntarily grabbed Yan Xiao's waist for the first time, and there was a desire in his heart that seemed to be struggling in the chaos.

But he didn't know what that wish was.

Yan Xiao looked at him deeply, for a moment, suddenly kissed his lips.

The hand he put around Yan Xiao's waist seemed to have lost consciousness.

The whole body is numb.

The only thing he realized and felt was that Yan Xiao was kissing him.Not the forehead, not the cheeks, but the lips!

Different from the past, this is a real kiss, he is kissing Yan Xiao!

The depression and sadness that had tortured him for several days seemed to be completely resolved in this not gentle kiss, his heart was beating like thunder, and he was almost limp in Yan Xiao's arms.

This time the kiss came so fast, even a little rude, it seemed that there was a hatred to tear him apart.His scalp was numb, his mouth was swept inch by inch, his throat let out an unbearable muffled hum, and body fluid dripped from the corners of his lips.

Yan Xiao knew that he was crazy and out of control, but there was nothing he could do.The appearance of Zhaofan crying finally broke his tight strings. At this moment, he tore up all the tenderness, showing his arrogant possessiveness for the first time.

At the end of the kiss, Zhao Fan couldn't breathe, so he had to press against Yan Xiao's chest and push back effortlessly.

The hand that held the sniper rifle all year round had a rough callus, pressing on the heart, causing a slight itching.

Yan Xiao slowly pulled away from the frenzy, and the eyes of the two intertwined, with strong love on one side and heavy dependence on the other.

With his lips parted, Yan Xiao stared at Zhao Fan for a long time, and said in a low voice, "I'm sorry, I just..."

Zhaofan shook his head again, then approached and pecked lightly on his lips.

"Zhaofan." Yan Xiao called softly.

"I'll get better." Zhao Fan wiped his face, his eyes were still red, but a fire ignited in his pupils, and he repeated stubbornly: "Brother Xiao, I will definitely get better."

Half a month later, the negative effects brought about by stopping the drug completely disappeared. Zhao Fan stopped in front of the meat stall in the vegetable market and said, "Brother Xiao, I want to eat ribs."

Yan Xiao touched his forehead with him, his voice was full of smiles, "Okay, I'll do it for you."

The leaves on the streets are all yellow, and the chill of late autumn spreads throughout the city.

Zhaofan submitted an application for reinstatement to the Shancheng City Bureau, and finally put on the police uniform again.

However, due to his special situation, he is a "sharp shooter" designated by the Ministry of Public Security, and he has just recovered from psychological trauma. After consulting his own opinions, the leaders of the city bureau transferred him from the anti-narcotics brigade to the special police detachment, and he will not be out of actual combat for the time being. Task.

Yan Xiao has another job - picking him up at the gate of the Municipal Bureau every day.

Dr. Zhu is right, the right amount of work is good for fighting depression.Zhaofan was getting better day by day, with a smile on his face from time to time, and even started to complain that the food was not to his taste.

When "cook husbands" all hope to be praised, Yan Xiao was overjoyed when he heard Zhaofan say "this piece of meat is not tasty".

For more than half a year, Zhaofan never expressed his opinion, and he accepted all the delicious food or not. He only thanked him and didn't say anything else. Now that he knows how to complain, he really opened his heart.

Yan Xiao's fingers trembled, and joy flashed out of his eyes.

"Really?" Lin Haocheng was also happy, and said sincerely on the phone: "He can get out of depression again, it all depends on you!"

At the end of the year, the third book of "Yan Xiao", which is also the novel with the most words and the most popularity, was completed, becoming the champion of the annual bestseller list of "Fee Return".

It was afternoon when the last chapter was released, and Zhao Fan was still off work.He had already read the saved manuscript, but he still couldn't help it. He secretly "fished" and opened "Bee Return", and saw Yan Xiao wrote in his concluding speech——Thank you for your safe return, honor, hope and love belong to you , Fanfan 1111.

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