bother you

The ice cola poured into the throat not long ago seemed to have turned into a jug of wine boiled on a low fire, and it roared silently in the chest. Dizzy distortion.

"What do you mean?" Zhaofan frowned, his voice suddenly became cold, his eyes were fixed on Yan Xiao, his eyes were piercing, "What did you mean by that sentence just now?"

Yan Xiao woke up suddenly, sober that his whole body was covered with chills—this was the worst moment, but he was impulsive and confessed all his thoughts!

He instinctively tightened his fingers and pulled Zhaofan's wrist even tighter.

The pulse was beating there, one sound after another, faster and faster, and more intense.

"I..." Before the hottest time in summer, he felt his surroundings suddenly cool down. Zhaofan was looking at him with a very aggressive and serious gaze, completely different from Zhaofan's usual personality. Different, almost nailing him immobile.

He is very clear that Zhaofan is like this during training and competition.

Like the most sensitive and ferocious falcon.

Zhaofan understood.

Zhaofan became angry.

This is what happened, and covering it up will only make it worse.He looked directly into Zhaofan's eyes, slowly spread his fingers, and after completely loosening his hands, he clenched his hands into fists, the line of his neck stretched again and again, his eyes were like ink, "That's what you understand. "

Zhaofan's lips were pursed into sharp blades, his brows were gloomy, and his exposed arm muscles were tense.

"I want to be with you." Yan Xiao almost stuttered every word, saying it very hard - Zhao Fan's reaction was like a blow to the head, he could already foresee the ending.

But even so, I still want to express my heartfelt nostalgia.

He swallowed hard, his Adam's apple rolled frequently, "Last summer, I, my first night at the police station..."

Zhaofan's chest rose and fell several times, and a cold light flashed in Peach Blossom's eyes, as if thousands of springs withered in an instant.

But this scene is still beautiful.

Standing in the withered spring, Yan Xiao said the last sentence, "I fell in love with you at first sight."

A heavy punch came oncoming, and the wind of the fist almost brushed his cheek.His eyes were wide open, his heart was beating wildly, and his body was leaning to the right, narrowly dodging this sudden attack. While feeling extremely lost, his heart felt sweet and sour.

Zhaofan's fist hadn't been withdrawn yet, it lay stiffly on the side of his face.

How could he not know that Zhao Fan was being merciful, because he couldn't bear to really hurt him.

Not long ago, he made that bastard Li Siqiao blindfolded, and said to Lu Xiaochuan, "I have practiced", but he knew better than anyone how much he weighed.

This body's fist and kick skills are more than enough to deal with others, but against Shang Zhaofan, he will definitely lose.

Zhao Fan was hesitant to punch him, he didn't hit him hard at all, he clearly wanted to teach him about his absurdity, but he couldn't bear to let his fist land on his face.

He raised his eyes and looked into Zhaofan's extremely angry eyes.

Zhaofan finally withdrew his hand, masseter muscles moved on his cheeks for a moment, his voice was much lower than usual, with straightforward anger, "Yan Xiao, I have always regarded you as my good brother and friend. You actually..."

Yan Xiao was shocked to find that Zhaofan's eyes gradually showed something other than anger.

disappointment?Unwilling?still sad?

Zhaofan is sad?

As for him, the worst thing he can see is that Zhao Fan is sad.

My heart suddenly throbbed, and the pain actually overshadowed the pain of being rejected.

"Zhaofan..." He stretched out his hand in vain, wanting to touch the person in front of him, but he didn't dare to touch the person in front of him.

Zhao Fan shook his head lightly, looking extremely disappointed, the bottom of his clear eyes seemed to be covered with dull gray, "You actually look at me like Li Siqiao."

In the last few words, Zhao Fan spoke very softly, as if there was no strength, and it seemed that the strength had gone to other places, such as the whitened knuckles and the bulging veins.

Yan Xiao fell into a brief blank, completely unable to understand what Zhao Fan was saying.And when he understood Zhao Fan's meaning, Ma Yi immediately rushed straight to Tianling Gai from his tailbone, "Why would I look at you like Li Siqiao?"

"Isn't it?" Zhaofan sneered, raised one hand, supported his forehead wearily, and then put it down again, "I didn't expect you to approach me because you were thinking about that kind of thing."

"I like you!" Yan Xiao found that he could not control his emotions more and more. He knew that he should give each other time at this time and talk about everything after he calmed down, but his words were like ignited sparks, constantly splashing out, "I like you, Of course I don’t want to just be your brother!”

"Tsk." Zhaofan's eyes were bloodshot at some point, "You just said it was love at first sight. You know, Li Siqiao told me that before. Then he said, when he sees my face, fuck me Want to fuck me."

There was a "hum" in Yan Xiao's head, and the wind splashed in his ears, pulling Zhaofan's voice away.

"What love at first sight? Bullshit love at first sight!" Zhaofan scratched his forehead in agitation, "What bothers me the most is love at first sight!"

Yan Xiao couldn't speak, as if a blood clot was stuck in his throat.

For him, love at first sight means all kinds of beauty. For this love at first sight, he vowed to become a better person.

But for Zhaofan, love at first sight is mean and nasty, and it directly indicates possessiveness, aggression, and sex without emotion.

Zhaofan waved his hand and turned half sideways, "Forget it, I can't tell you this. Thank you for helping me today."

Yan Xiao panicked, took a step forward, and almost grabbed Zhaofan's wrist again, "Don't go!"

"I'm not gay." Zhao Fan backed away, his tone calmer than before, "I thought we were close friends, but I really didn't expect that, you don't think so in your heart."

Swept by such disappointed gazes, Yan Xiao's proud self-restraint, restraint, and calmness were all mixed into a messy porridge, his eyes turned red, and his words could no longer pass through his mind, "Why do you think we are Friends, we must be friends? I want us to be lovers and walk together in the future life, why not? Why do you insist on comparing Li Siqiao with me? Did I say those frivolous and vicious things to you? I forced Have you? Why can't you..."

The next words stuck in his throat, the world was spinning, and a voice kept shouting in his head——Yan Xiao, stop!Give Zhaofan time, don't force him!

He took a deep breath, trying desperately to bring his out-of-control emotions back to the original track.And those surging unwillingness are like endless fire, wishing to burn his heart, liver, spleen and lungs to ashes.

"You..." Zhaofan's eyes were cloudy, and he couldn't see whether it was disgust or horror.

The two stared at each other at such a close distance, and described it as embarrassing.

"I'm sorry." After a long time, Yan Xiao opened his mouth first, but his words couldn't convey his meaning, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have yelled at you... That's not what I meant."

Zhaofan still stood where he was, and left without turning around, but he didn't answer either, as if he was still in a daze.

Yan Xiao took a breath, and his tone became gentle, "I was too impulsive just now, and even now, I can't fully express my thoughts. Everything related to you, I, I can't be completely calm... But I said I am willing to do anything for you, I love you, this is not a lie, nor a trap."

Zhaofan's eyelashes trembled, and his fingers that had just been opened were clenched again.

Yan Xiao saw it, sighed in his heart, and forced himself to be calm, "I know it's all too sudden. You can't accept me, or even understand my mood. Too impulsive, it has nothing to do with you. But..."

The bell was ringing again in the distance, but many majors have already suspended classes, and students no longer need to be bound by the bell.

For the first time, Yan Xiao discovered that it is such a difficult thing to accurately express what is in his heart.His palms were sweating, and his eyes were hot. The Zhaofan in his pupils was so perfect. He wanted to keep him in his eyes forever, "But I really want to be with you. I can't control this anymore. You may feel that I have cheated your friendship. I understand that you are angry and angry. I also understand that you don’t like men, and even feel disgusted. Now you may be as confused as I am, so what about tonight? Tomorrow What about it? If not, what about the day after tomorrow? Can you think about it when you calm down? Zhaofan, I am not Li Siqiao, I am not anyone who coveted you in the past. I want to love you. It’s been a long time, but after this year of knowing you, I have understood that I only want to love you in this life, and no one else.”

Zhaofan didn't go back to bed, he walked to the sports field alone, sat on the parallel bars with a blank mind, watching people who were playing football or running.

In summer, the sun is poisonous, and there are not many people who come to the sports field to suffer in the afternoon.

The sunlight was so bright that it was hard to keep your eyes open.

The jug of wine that was boiling in his chest had long been boiling, muttering and splashing a large amount of wine.

His chest was very hot. He let out a long breath, feeling unbearably irritable. He wanted to extinguish the fire of cooking wine, but someone kept adding firewood and charcoal to the stove, and blowing the wind from time to time.

The fire was burning more vigorously, and the wine rose even more vigorously.

It was Yan Xiao who added carbon to blow the wind, even if he could only see his back clearly, he knew it.

- I would do anything for you.

--I am in love with you.

--I like you.

——I just want to love you in this life.

Sentences of Yan Xiao's words resurfaced in his mind, and they could not be erased or driven away. Every time they passed by, the wine splashed a wisp of hot star foam.

He gripped the parallel bars tightly, his eyes burning.

Because of his flawless face, he has been confessed to by many people, men and women, rarely interrupted, but this is the first time he has been confessed by his buddies.

It is really hard for him to accept that someone who thinks he can be a good brother all his life suddenly says "I just want to love you in this life".

In the grove just now, he was extremely angry and angry, hating Yan Xiao's frivolity, and hating Yan Xiao for ruining this friendship he cherished, but the fist he swung was in vain.At that moment, he was numb all over.

Because he knew better than Yan Xiao that if he really wanted to do something, this punch would definitely hit Yan Xiao in the face.

Yan Xiao couldn't hide at all.

The body stopped the irritated brain in time, and the punch was suspended in the air, which was more difficult to dispel than hitting cotton.

Time seemed to stand still, but it was running faster than before.

He was exhausted from sitting on the parallel bars, and the sun had already set when he jumped off.

The heat is subsiding, and there are more people on the sports field.

He still couldn't sort out those messy thoughts, Yan Xiao still said "I love you" in his mind.He couldn't stand it anymore, rushed to the track, and ran around and around.

Until exhausted, until drenched, until night replaces the sun.

He lay on the court, letting the sweat flow, panting and looking at the sky.

There were no stars in the night sky of the city, and only the purple-red radiance fell in his eyes.

He was at a loss, and after he finally stopped breathing, he murmured to himself: "Why——"