pig like age

I've never been so angry in my life!The internal organs are about to be exploded with anger!

The head was rumbling and buzzing, and it was not functioning well, but it seemed a little sluggish.So he failed to give him a fat beating in the first place, and missed the opportunity.Because my ignorant mother really "made up for it" and brought us a fruit plate of [-] colors.

Binzi thanked him and started to eat fruit.

I stood by and watched him eat happily, trembling with anger.

My mother was also standing, talking to Binzi blindly.

My mother was here, so it was inconvenient for me to make a move, but my breath was stuck in my chest, and my heart felt gagged and my mouth felt bitter.I'm afraid that if I don't vent my anger, I will get angry and have a heart attack!So the voice that was holding back a burst of anger became so harsh: "I ask you, what kind of grudge do I have with you, let you arrange me like this! Peeking at the phone number, and talking nonsense to the goddess! All right, Su Yubin, You have seeds!"

My mother was shocked, her eyes widened and she looked at me. Just as she was about to speak, the man said in a dazed way: "It was my fault for peeking at the phone number, I admit it. But the latter is not considered an arrangement, is it?" ,Did you help me squat for the goddess? For this reason, I also treated you to a copper hot pot shabu-shabu, did you forget? Later you said that the fairy sister might be your new neighbor, so I treated you to it again I asked you to keep an eye on me for a few meals. During this period, you supported me and encouraged me and said a lot, making me believe that as long as I wait unremittingly, I will wait for the fate to come. Now I finally get what I want, and the goddess appears Yes, of course I don’t want to miss it. Xiaochen, you have always stood by my side and supported me, am I right?”

fart!

It's all fart!

I endured so much that my teeth were about to shatter, but I didn't dare to get angry at home.My mother seemed to be full of question marks, so I decided to calm down first.

I forced myself to sit down and seriously think about Binzi's words.

If it is true as he said, in his heart I am the one who encourages him to pursue the Goddess, then he shouldn't have peeked at my number, and he wouldn't have said those things to the Goddess to make her misunderstand me.I think it's just the opposite. He knew I wouldn't help him, so he made this move.

Did they already know that I like the goddess?

I thought about it, and it seemed certain.

Fu Chunlei knows that I like women. I confessed to Yao Ye in front of her, which is equivalent to coming out in front of her.And she has such a good relationship with Liu Jiayang, even if she didn't tell me, Liu Jiayang would definitely guess my sexual orientation.Especially when he was in my car that day, I was so restless when he talked about the goddess, and I almost got into a car accident.If he is not stupid, it is easy to guess that the person I like is a goddess.

Recently, Binzi got closer to them again. Liu Jiayang didn't say anything, but I could understand that he liked Binzi, even if he didn't like it to the extent that he liked Binzi.Then the chances of him revealing the information that I like the goddess will be very high.

If I were still Xi Xiaochen in that ivory tower, I would not bother to nail my closest friends to the shame pillar of human nature for such a cold analysis.But I have been immersed in the fashion industry for so long, so I have at least a clear understanding of one thing, that is human nature.

This process of experience is actually quite profound.Before that, I felt that there were many good people and few bad people in the world.It's either black or white, good or bad.I also think that everyone is very kind and helps each other.If you like you, you will help you for no reason. For those who don't like you, no matter how well you do, you can make the other party recognize you.In fact, this is all wishful thinking with oneself as the center of the world.How can universal laws be accommodated to individual will?Who is not God.

I have read a lot of books, met a lot of people, and after experiencing some things, I can especially understand a sentence.It is what Liu Yong said in "A Man Who Is Neither Good nor Bad":

If you have a cat and a fish at the same time, and the cat eats the fish, you should blame yourself more than the cat.In the same way, when you clearly know that human nature has weaknesses, but you don't take precautions, and you suffer a loss, in addition to resenting that person, you should review yourself.Everyone is a human being, with both good and evil sides of human nature, and they will consider gains and losses for themselves and plan for themselves.We can never forget his human weakness just because the other person behaves kindly, or you think he will not hurt you. For his own sake, he can hurt anyone.

Liu Jiayang likes Binzi, for his own sake, he said something that made him retreat, and even revealed that even I have a heart for the goddess, so as to shake Binzi's determination, this is human nature; He asked me to call the goddess, and even arranged for me, and there were his little thoughts in it.It cannot be said to be evil, but it can only be said that they are using their methods intentionally or unintentionally for their own purposes.Most of us do this to some degree, every day.

It's okay for them to do this, but I can't help but feel chilled.

I always feel that before doing this, we must first consider the consequences of doing so, whether it hurts others.If you are sure that it will hurt, but still hurt, then you don't take the other party seriously.

For a person who doesn't regard himself as a true friend, I don't have to take this person seriously.

Binzi ate the fruit and planned to leave.I even went out to see him off and waved to him.

After returning, I set his mobile phone number in the blacklist.

I don't think I'm cruel, I just recognize a person.

After doing this, I started to feel hopeless.Because before that, I always pretended that I was a victim, that I was abandoned by the goddess.But the real truth is: because of my inadvertent friendship, the goddess is the victim.

On the premise that the goddess was in trouble and only revealed her contact information to a few trustworthy people, I leaked her number.I also let her hear that the reason why I approached her was to help my friend catch her.Think about it differently, if it were me, I was very happy to tell the other party that I wanted to meet her the day before, but I received a call from the other party’s friend the day before the meeting, saying that she told me everything about you, and everything she did was To help me, because I want to pursue you.After listening to it, I just wanted to block the other party permanently, just like I did to Binzi.

But she just ignored me and even wished me success in the postgraduate entrance examination.

The postgraduate entrance examination went well...

Now, I feel more and more that this sentence is not simple.

The goddess is extremely smart, will she completely listen to Binzi's words?Yes, it is certain that I leaked her number, but through these days of contact, can't she feel the obsession I showed to her?

Or she is not sure, and wants to use time to prove whether I am sincere to her, whether I am sincere enough?

If so, no matter how I explain to her now, she will never give me a chance.

But it will take almost a year for me to enter the graduate school.Am I going to be misunderstood and hated by her for so long?

Even if I go to her a year later, will she forgive me?Will it make sense to forgive or not to forgive?Wouldn't her meager affection for me fade away with time?Come to think of it, these are very likely to happen.

But other than that, I have nothing to do.In this relationship between us, the goddess has always occupied the dominant position.

She wanted to give time, let the past go, let the beginning begin.I can only follow her ideas.I can only persevere in one thing: let the courage to love her not dissipate over time, but condense over time.Only in this way, if her feelings for me become weaker, but I am hotter than before, I can rely on my fiery ambition to soften and melt her heart!

After I figured it out, the emotional earthquake stopped.

After dinner, I stayed in my sister's room and didn't leave.She turned on the desk lamp, sat next to me, stared at me and said, "Xiaochen, I still want you to go to the United States with me. When you get there, you will live the life you want without any worries, and the attitude towards homosexuality is more enlightened there. .”

"Are you afraid that I will be discriminated against in China? But, I will come back sooner or later. When I come back, those who should discriminate against me will still discriminate against me."

"Find a way to get a green card, and the United States will be the rear of your battle."

"I'm not fighting, I'm fighting for a way of life. I'm not forced to accept someone else's way of life. I have the life I want."

"That's why in the United States, you can obtain such freedom without having to fight for it. There, the human rights system is very sound, and they respect the legitimate and legal rights of every individual. It is politically incorrect to oppose homosexuality there."

"What's the use, my lover isn't there." I was moved by her, and it can indeed provide me with a more relaxed living environment, but no matter how good the environment is, the goddess is not there.

Ji Shuyu's expression was gloomy, she turned her head away, and said, "You haven't even met her before, if you do meet, she is not someone you like, what will you do?"

"Then I admit it too." I've thought about this problem a long time ago, whether it's a filter or a fantasy.My love for her came naturally in this way, and I couldn't question, resist, or imagine.

Ji Shuyu was silent for a moment, and said, "Maybe in America, there will be someone who likes you more waiting for you..." She looked at me with an almost pure soft affection in her eyes.I couldn't help feeling a kind of cherishing to heartache.I took a deep breath, and waited until the feeling gradually passed, then said softly: "Sister, I want her." After speaking, I smiled at her: "I'm going to take a bath."

I didn't look at her again, I pushed the door open and closed it again.

Leaning against the door, I said to her in my heart: Even if you fail this time, you are still the one engraved in my heart and fused into my blood.This point will not change just because I, Xi Xiaochen, like someone.

That important place in my heart is left to you, but it can only be in my heart.

Miss...