pig like age

I hugged her, hugged her tightly!Suffering, bitterness, love, reluctance for a moment... all kinds of feelings rushed to my heart, and tears poured down.

She trembled slightly, grabbed my shoulder, and asked in a shy voice, "Are you crying?"

I was choked up, unable to express the turbulent emotions at the moment.

She pulled me away, her eyes were foggy and dewy, but she restrained herself and said: "You, are you having a bad day?"

Am I doing well?

After leaving her, it seemed that, with a thud, the lock was locked, and the key could never be found again.I can't fall asleep every night, thinking about her over and over again.

I couldn't speak, I just wept sadly.

She stared at me, her eyebrows were slightly raised, her expression of worry and heartache welled up, her eye circles were already red, and she asked again: "Did she treat you badly?"

I shook my head, bit my lip, and said nothing.

Her wrist seemed to be hanging down weakly, her voice faded into Liu Xu: "Then, don't cry. It doesn't look good when you cry."

This sad tone made my tears more difficult to hold back, and I suddenly wanted to ignore it and just follow my heart at this moment!Even if you will regret it later, even if you will hurt her... Hurt her...

No, I can not.

The atmosphere was depressing and desolate for a while, she forced herself to turn around and stop looking at me, then left the guest room and went straight to the living room.

In the early morning, the sky is already clear, but the heart is full of sadness.

My heart was beating wildly, my heart was in a mess, madness and persistence tormented me at the same time!I'm not afraid of stepping into the air and falling into a deep cliff, I'm just afraid that she will fall with me after she grabs my hand...

There was a severe pain in my heart that I had never felt before, as if cut by a sharp knife, and the knife was dripping with blood.

But no matter how painful her heart is, her actions seem to be out of control, and she will unconsciously follow her.Xu Shi cried too hard, and as he followed her to the living room, he couldn't help sobbing, unable to restrain himself.

When she heard this, she felt uncomfortable.Stopped, put his hands on the back of the sofa, and slowly tightened them. Seeing the pale joints turn blue, his expression was so lonely and cold: "Xiaochen, I have nothing else to ask but you. So, don't crying, okay?"

I shook my head, and the tears became more turbulent!

She immediately turned pale, and found a facial tissue for me.I do not accept.

She frowned, and slowly wiped away my tears, her movements were full of care and care, her eyes were full of pain and pity.

Her voice was soft and choked with sobs: "Don't cry. You cry so much that I feel so distressed..."

How could I forget, she is afraid of me crying, she is most afraid of me crying!

"Yes, I'm sorry... I didn't mean it." I hiccupped and explained, "I, just, I'm a little, sad..." I didn't want to make her sad, I was alone for any sin Just accept it.I am willing to give everything I have, in exchange for her life without any worries, with the same smile as before.

But she couldn't help blurting out and asked, "Why are you sad?"

I was stunned, yes, I proposed to break up, since I was so decisive at the beginning, why are you so sad now?She doesn't know that I have become deeply obsessed with her, and she doesn't understand my behavior and mood at this moment.

I can't explain it, and in today's field, it seems that there is no need to explain it.

Jian Nanyin came to me, looked straight at me, her voice trembled unconsciously: "You're not with her, are you?"

My throat is choked, and there are bitter tears in my mouth, and what is even more painful is my heart!

What can I say, what can I say?Back then, I was the one who acted for her, and I chose to give up on her in that decision... It was me, it was me!Now is the time for me to taste the consequences.

She fell silent, with watery eyes floating in her eyes, staring at me blankly, and said in a low voice: "I can probably guess something, but it's hard to believe. I thought that the only way to decide to be with someone is to fall in love. Even if There were unavoidable difficulties at the time, why didn’t you explain it later?”

She let me go, lowered her eyelashes, and said in a lonely way: "If it was forced by the situation at home, it would be resolved soon. Is it because of my father? If so, why didn't you come to me? Can we figure it out together?"

After all, two lines of clear tears finally flow down the cheeks...

I suddenly panicked!

I didn't bother to look for a tissue again, so I wiped her tears with the back of my hand, but the more I wiped, the more I wiped!My heart thumped hard, and the pain made me break out in a cold sweat!

"Xiaochen." She suddenly grabbed my wrist, her eyes conveyed complex emotions, but they were layered and clear, seemingly sad, but also felt deep affection: "Am I very bad, so you want to leave me?"

I felt panicked when I heard this, and shook my head and said, "No...not...you are fine." I choked up my sobs.

The gloomy color between her brows is so intense that it makes my heart ache!No matter how difficult this situation is, I want to confide all my thoughts. I want to let her know my heart. No matter what the consequences are, I am determined to do so!

But she heard her say indifferently: "That's what they said too."

I was puzzled and stunned.

She smiled, her eye circles were slightly red, and her lips became lighter: "It's been like this since I was a child. Say I'm fine, but I'm not satisfied."

She let go of me and stood up, with an indescribably depressed and lonely figure.

"Now, even you... It means I'm really bad. I'm sorry to disappoint you." She said quietly, her long eyelashes drooping.For some reason, these words and this gesture shocked me!Maybe it's not bright yet, and the light in the room is dim. Jian Nanyin is clearly in front of me, within reach, but I feel that she will disappear in the blink of an eye.

The weakness and panic of being powerless surged from the bottom of my heart, and I hugged her tightly in a panic.The words that I have accumulated in my heart and want to exchange with her, one sentence after another, say to her: "It's not what you said... It's because I have too low self-esteem, it's my fault, it's all my fault! When I'm together, you will be under a lot of pressure, from family and society... I'm afraid that your ideals and ambitions will be delayed... I'm weak and inferior, and I can't give you a good future, and I can't even get along with you. You don't even have the courage to face the future together side by side. It's not that you are bad, it's that you are too good, I can't deserve you...so for you, I can fight with my life! I want to prove that I can have you! I can give You have a great future! Are you willing to wait for me? It won't take long, really, it won't be long..." I touched her back, but it was cold?

"You, why is your back so cold?"

She gently pushed me away and stood still, as if her posture was frozen.

I just feel that the person in front of me is like the last thin ice on the lake in spring, with a kind of fragility that can be broken in one place.

"What you said are all from your heart?" Her eyes were red, and her voice was desolate.

"Yes, absolutely true."

Hearing that her breathing seemed to be choked in her chest, she stumbled a few steps, supported the back of the sofa, and exhaled slowly.

"You..." I was about to ask my worries out when the familiar cell phone rang, and it was my cell phone.

I didn't care, I only had her in my eyes and in my heart.

For a while, there was only the persistent sound of the mobile phone ringing in the room.

It wasn't until the ringing stopped that she leaned on the sofa, her voice was low and clear: "I'm tired and want to rest. Let's go."

"No." I wanted to ask her for an answer, wait, or wait.I tried to touch her, but she pushed me away.I saw that her hair at the sideburns was a little damp, and a few strands stuck to her face. Against the backdrop of the black hair, her face looked like sapphire, giving off a sense of lightness and fragility.

"Let's go." The words became cold, full of orders to chase away guests.

I know that she is rarely so cold and hard, and once she does, she is irresistible.I don't think I can force others to make things difficult for me. This is my own inner demon, and there is no reason for her to cooperate or fulfill me.I never even thought that I would tell her my true thoughts, but now that I tell her, I feel a glimmer of hope for the future.

Besides, right now, she has been irritated by me to the point where she is in a bad mood.

It was the bright morning sun hidden under a mist, but under the dim morning light, Jian Nanyin's complexion had never been brighter than before.The skin that seems to be transparent has a bright and clear color in the dark light.The figure looks frivolous and frail...

The pain as if her heart was being picked off alive, Jian Nanyin is the person I can't bear to hurt the most, the person I cherish the most, I absolutely shouldn't, I shouldn't have made her so sad.

At this moment, my heart was empty, and before I knew it, tears rolled down again.Maybe, staying away from her is the best thing I should do.

After I came out of her house, I was in a daze like a dream.Somehow, I arrived at the school and sat in the library.Later, I was urged by someone, only to realize that I had been sitting for a whole day.

Back in the dormitory, I took out my phone to check.Surprisingly, I saw that the phone call in the morning was from Producer Wang.

I went to wash my face. In the mirror, my eyes were red and swollen, my hair was messy, and I didn't look like a ghost or a ghost.I tidied myself up a bit and adjusted my mood as much as possible before returning the call.

Producer Wang didn't care about my not answering the phone, but decided on a time and place to meet with me tomorrow.It was obvious that he cared a lot.After I hung up the phone, I went back to the company and called everyone for an emergency meeting to discuss the precautions for meeting him tomorrow.

Surprisingly, I slept well that day.I woke up the next day feeling refreshed. It seems that she is my insomnia cure.

My insomnia is because of her, my anxiety is because of her, and I work so hard every day because of her.The demon is her, the panacea is her, everything is her...

Xi Xiaochen lives for Jian Nanyin.

The meeting with Producer Wang went surprisingly smoothly.It turned out that after Wang Xiang parted from me that day, he went back and checked our company.Knowing that we are the brokerage company that has recently sprung up and signed Xiao Youzuo, I immediately became interested.

"Sister..." Wang Xiang has a problem. When he gets drunk, he likes to call me brother (sister). "To tell you the truth, I have followed her for a long time. Before she went to America." He called Jiu Hiccup continued: "As for her movie "Yali", which won the San Sebastian Newcomer Award, I watched it five times."

"After I got this movie, the image of the protagonist in my mind was her."

After listening to his words, I completely understand one sentence: It takes no effort to get it.There is nothing to say about the latter, the cooperation intention is basically reached, both parties are satisfied, and everyone is happy.It's just that Wang Xiang still gave us a problem in the end: "This play is adapted from a novel, and we have been inviting the original author to participate in the creation of the script, because there are still many hidden plots, and we want to go deeper. dig."

"What can we do?" I felt strange for a while, finding a screenwriter is a matter for the film crew, what does it have to do with us?

Producer Wang frowned and wondered: "This original author is very mysterious, and he never sees the end. He still refuses to meet us. But..." He smiled and looked at me : "We found out that she has some relationship with you."

I:"???"

"She and you are alumni, both from the 03 class of the Normal University."

"Oh?" I became interested for a while, I didn't expect that there would be a famous writer in our school: "What's her name?"

"Qiu Menghan."

I was startled: "Qiu Menghan?!"

Producer Wang's beard trembled: "Why, it can't be such a coincidence, you know her?"

"..." is more than acquaintance.I want to say that she still liked me, I don't know if anyone will believe it?

"Ah, that's great. I'm relieved to leave this matter to you." Producer Wang began to put a high hat on me, saying how we hit it off with me and how Fanhua was amazed in the industry.He also told me that if Qiu Menghan can join in the writing of the script, how the script of this drama will be worth looking forward to.

After being fed bowl after bowl of misty soup by him, he agreed to be a lobbyist for him without knowing it.

Before leaving, I thought of asking: "What's the name of this novel? Xiao Youzuo also has the temper of an art worker, and she won't accept scripts that are too unsuitable. I'll go back and talk to her."

"Don't worry, she will pick it up." It seems that this Wang Xiang has studied her thoroughly, and he is also very confident in this drama, especially confident.

"The name is "Pig-Like Years", and the adaptation is temporarily called "Nianhua". You can go to the novel first. When the first draft of the script comes out, I will personally send it to you."

Pig like age? !

Wheat? !

Qiu Menghan? !

The world is crazy...

Mai Mangmang is equal to Qiu Menghan, and Qiu Menghan is equal to Mai Mangmang.Although I haven't verified this matter yet, it is probably true.Because in the long river of my memories, there seems to be traces to be found.

I decided whether it was true or not, I would not let Mais know.If she knew that the girl she had a crush on, the girl she couldn't ask for, liked me... I can't even imagine how unimaginable the consequences would be.

It is also to divert my attention so that I don't have to think about the goddess. I spent a day and a half reading "Pig Love" carefully.I have to sigh, it is indeed the author I have been following. Although I was too busy to follow her novels, I can feel that her novel has made great progress compared with her previous novels. .Every novel of hers is improving.

In my impression, Qiu Menghan was still the girl who blushed when she saw me.Wearing her signature black-rimmed glasses, which were later changed to contact lenses, were so impressive that they became her signature.Introverted, quiet, and even a bit reserved, she is a talented woman who makes Fu Chunlei afraid.Later I heard that she went to write online novels, and she became a god... I should try to think about it, maybe I would have discovered that she was Mai Mangmang.

Therefore, the fate of people goes round and round, which is wonderfully tight.

Just when I was thinking about how to get close to her and complete the task that Producer Wang gave me, an unexpected thing happened.

Jane lost contact with North.

When the word "lost contact" is mentioned, the first thing I think of is the goddess.Because I am often "disconnected", so after someone reported it to me, I didn't pay much attention to it, and even wondered like a joke, is it true that Jane's family has this problem?

But after hearing that his film was about to start filming one day later, I realized the seriousness of the problem.

The company arranged for him a role in an ancient costume TV series, which can be regarded as the male fourth, and the roles are mainly fighting scenes.The drama is divided into groups AB, group A mainly shoots literary dramas, and group B shoots martial arts.He mainly followed Group B.Anyway, he has nothing to do in school, so he has been hanging out with Group A, learning acting from others, and eating box lunches by the way.

But seeing that his film is about to start filming, this is no joke.How much does it cost for a crew to rent a venue for a day, and how much does it cost for dozens of people to eat, drink and sleep from top to bottom? Delaying working hours for him is tantamount to throwing a lot of money.

"The crew gave an ultimatum, saying that they can shoot other people's scenes first, and wait for him for three days. After three days, the crew will be stationed in Gansu. If he doesn't show up again, it will be a breach of contract." Xiaoyan, his assistant, was in a hurry. Cried.

His phone was about to be blown up by the company, and it was always turned off. I suddenly felt that one head was two big.I found the contract he signed with the company, and the emergency contact on it read: Jian Nanyin.

I haven't looked for the goddess in the past two days. First, I want to calm myself down, lest I can't control myself and keep looking for her, so that all previous efforts are wasted.I also want her to digest it. I think she was already chilled by my anger that day.Her reaction was completely within my expectation, I don't ask her to understand me, I just hope she won't be too emotionally fluctuated because of me.Whether she is angry or sad, it makes me feel extremely guilty.

But right now, only she can contact Jane Xiangbei, the overall situation is the most important.I thought about it again and again, and called her.

Surprisingly, her cell phone was also turned off.