deserved

Qin Huai once came to school to pick me up, but not many times.Firstly, my class schedule was capricious and there was no exact end time; secondly, he was the company's decision-maker after all, so he didn't have enough time to accompany me, and we lived not far from the school.

What I remember most is when I was in my junior year.

Once in an evening class, our group data made a mistake, and it was too late after redoing and sorting out.After the breakup, the classmates in the same group bid farewell to the dormitory one after another, and I planned to take a taxi home.Before that, Qin Huai had already arrived home, so I asked him to wait at home.Who would have thought that he would drive to the school soon after.

When I came out, Qin Huai was standing by the pillar of the school gate.He put his hands in his pockets, and the dim light shone on his tall and straight body, and I recognized him with just one glance.As it was getting late, there were very few foodies eating supper at the stalls by the school gate.Only hawkers and countless bamboo sticks exist in disorder.Qin Huai seemed at a loss in the smell of stinky tofu and grilled squid.I don't know how long he stood, but when I arrived, he was almost a good meal for mosquitoes after autumn.

I ran over, gave him my schoolbag, and threw myself into his arms.

"Qin Huai! Why are you here?" I asked knowingly.

"I came to see you." Qin Huai said, pressing his mouth to my face.

I hurriedly pushed him away: "Don't, it's not good to be influenced by the public."

I don't know who just got into his arms.

Qin Huai carried my backpack and pulled me back.

"Let's go, don't run around."

At this time, the sky was just right and the temperature was suitable, Qin Huai's face became real and illusory under the combination of warm yellow light and starlight.

He is so gentle.Exactly the same as my dream yesterday.

There were no cars on the road and the distance was short, so we decided to walk home.

I carefully took his hand and dragged him out of the school gate with a guilty conscience.I'm afraid that someone will covet my Qinhuai.We kept going, and after a few minutes we were far away from familiar scenery and scattered people.I relax.

I was too sleepy, so I handed over the task of finding the way to Master Qin Huai.

I walked more and more slowly, after a while, Qin Huai was already dragging me, "Are you sleepy?" he asked.

I answered truthfully: "A little bit."

"Then close your eyes and I will take you away."

I obediently closed my eyes.It was pitch black in front of his eyes, and his hearing and senses didn't take advantage of his drowsiness. There was only Qin Huai's big and hot palm and the unknown road in the world.

We didn't talk, and enjoyed this short and simple peace with each other.It's a little embarrassing to say, Qin Huai and I have been together for a year and a half, but we haven't really gone out on a date.This is mainly because our time is extremely misaligned, and we will only follow our instincts when we meet, and spend most of our time at home.

We walked like this for about four and 10 minutes, passing bright and dim street lights and the occasional passing vehicle.The cool autumn wind gradually blew away my drowsiness. From time to time, I opened my eyes and peeked at Qin Huai, his focused face, and the pride of the helmsman.

I suddenly hope that this road will never come to an end, preferably as long as a lifetime.

However, this time we didn't get home: Qin Huai was walking with me along a dark path, but he turned in the wrong direction, I don't know if he did it on purpose.

He led me by the hand, and I took out my mobile phone to look up the map, but Qin Huai would never compromise on the facts he believed.He suddenly stubbornly doesn't even believe in modern technology.I watched him die, and we almost fell into an open sewer. Fortunately, Qin Huai reacted in time, and the result was fine, but my ankle was scratched with a layer of oily skin.I was so angry that I wanted to pinch him, but I could only feel the muscles in his arms.

There is nothing in the side street.Qin Huai could only squat down/body up and carry me on his back, with the backpack on his chest.I put my hand on his chest, feeling his breathing and the bumps of his walk.The stars were very bright that night, and the ground was covered with silver light. There were only him and me on the street, and Qin Huai began to sing for me.It doesn't matter whether his singing is out of tune, or whether an egg will drop from the sky to make him shut up.I put my face against his neck, feeling the vibration of his vocal cords.

I suddenly felt a little regretful.I decided that if he begged me, just ask a few times gently, and I would accompany him forever, regardless of whether I would become old and ugly.

Later, Qin Huai carried me home and made a big fuss to call his doctor friend.He was asked to come over to treat the wound, but his doctor friend rushed over in a hurry, wanting to beat us to death.

In fact, all I need is a bottle of red medicine.

He just wanted to break Qin Huai's leg, and throw Qin Huai into the hospital justifiably.

I laughed, approving with heartless hands.

Qin Huai closed the door in front of his friend, and he covered my mouth.

I found that Qin Huai had a strange fear of the hospital.When his friend mentioned the hospital, Qin Huai's body froze instantly.

But then again, who likes going to the hospital?

Qin Huai is a control freak, and this gradually became apparent as our relationship went on, increasing day by day.

But I do so willingly, and I just like him more every day.

We did this for a year and a half until I graduated.During the graduation season, I went through several rounds, and finally found a job in City R that paid well and was not far from Qinhuai.We moved closer and got a cat, and everything was on track, and I was no longer a poor little kid who needed Qin Huai's help.

Qinhuai's career has been steadily rising.Our development is stable, our relationship is stable, and we get along well.Everything seems to be going as expected.My cooking skills finally got Qin Huai's approval. I gradually got used to getting up early, preparing breakfast and dinner. Since then, we no longer have to eat any porridge from the downstairs community.Qin Huai also gradually reduced his excessive desire to control.

We are getting more and more familiar with each other, every action, every meeting, is as familiar as a lifetime.

I wish I could melt into that lifetime-long kiss.

Drunk in this dream, never wake up again.

When I knew Qin Huai for two years, Qin Huai became more busy with work and traveled frequently, with a calmer expression on his face.He stopped smiling again.I'm not that naive anymore.

I didn't just like him anymore, I fell in love with him.I believe that Qin Huai is the beloved person who will spend my whole life with me, but this recognition makes me terrified.

Because things are going wrong.

Qin Huai is still so kind to me, so perfunctory, his heart is full of gaps.We are so familiar.

Familiar enough to see through the half-heartedness under his appearance.

does he love meI really don't know, I know very little about him.

Each of us is wrapped in each other's heavy secrets.

Some people say that love will deteriorate with time, but Qin Huai shouldn't be that kind of person.

I always worry that one day when I wake up, he will disappear forever, without any trace of existence, except my scarred heart, I am so ordinary, why should he like me.Will he and I be a dream after all?

We never talk about the past, only imagine the future.

But, Qin Huai, do you really have me in your future?