deserved

I knew that Qin Huai would never make me happy.

When I laughed, he became furious.

After washing up, I went downstairs with Qin Huai.Two o'clock in the afternoon is the hottest time of the day, with heat waves rolling in and flames scorching the earth.

I waited for Qin Huai downstairs for a while, then quickly entered the co-pilot, closed my eyes, my head was swollen and uncomfortable.

Qin Huai kicked me out and said displeasedly: "Don't sleep, you drive."

I fell to the ground, covered my eyes under the scorching sun, and said in displeasure, "Okay, I haven't driven a car for three years, so it's probably safe."

"What?" Qin Huai squinted his eyes in front of his beautiful white business car, "Isn't that much money enough for you to buy a car?"

I knew that he was going to start taunting again, and it was all trivial matters. I was so quarreled that my head hurt, and I said perfunctorily: "I apologize, I deserve it, it's okay."

"No way," Qin Huai said condescendingly, "It's too fake."

"Then what do you want me to do?" I asked angrily.

Of course Qin Huai didn't know, he carried me into the car and decided to continue spending the afternoon as planned.

-

Then the air pressure between us was low.

With a cold face, Qin Huai drove me to a fancy shopping mall.

Looking at the price tag of the clothes, I was flattered and almost immediately forgot about the unhappiness just now.

"Don't be like this," I said to Qin Huai who was lying on the sofa with his head up, "There's no need to buy such expensive things. It's too expensive."

"Don't imagine, it's not given to you for free," Qin Huai said angrily, "Aren't you very rich? It's all on your account."

He directed the enthusiastic shopping guide to take off one piece of clothing after another.

I opened my mouth, wanting to tell him that I can give him all the money back.

Qin Huai waved his hands impatiently and said to me, "Shut up now and move."

I shut my mouth and decided not to make too much noise outside, the shopping guide has already started to look at the two of us

In the beginning I was extremely compliant.

Qin Huai asked me to try on all the clothes, shoes, and accessories that Qin Huai liked, and I turned into a moving doll, changing clothes one after another, posing in front of Qin Huai, showing my ugliness.

"Look up, Jiang Lin."

I raised my head and looked at me in the mirror: the man was strange, pale, with dodgy eyes.

Qin Huai made comments one by one.

He picks on my narrow shoulders, thin legs, too long hair, too white lips, and how ugly I look in everything I wear.

The warm smile on the shopping guide's face became more and more forced, as if he had been forced to eat something very sour, with a fake smile on his face and a bitter heart.

In the end, even I couldn't bear it anymore and rolled my eyes at Qin Huai.

Qin Huai was probably waiting for this moment, he pushed me upstairs and said to the clerk, "Find him a skirt."

The clerk obeyed Qin Huai, the big customer, and quickly found a dozen skirts, and put them all in my arms, in case Qin Huai would change his mind.

I started to shiver, partly from the air conditioner and partly from the gas.

"Absolutely not." I protested loudly.

Qin Huai said coldly: "Don't forget what you said just now, why, are you going back on your word?"

I stood there, but I wished I could hit my head to death.The shame started from the center of the body, and quickly spread to the limbs. After 1 minute, even the ears were burning red.

I glared at him, "How could you?"

Qin Huai didn't answer, as if he had lost patience with me, he stood up, turned around and left.

Let's go, there is a voice in my heart clamoring.Never meet again.But, he is gone, what should I do?Back in the dark house again?

"Don't go," I begged through gritted teeth, "I'll change it right away."

Qin Huai turned a deaf ear to it.

I rushed forward to grab his hand, humbled.

"Can't I be wrong? I'll listen to you."

-

I don't know how to describe the time that followed, it was both a dream and a nightmare.

We took a seat at a well-known grilled fish restaurant in City C. Since we didn't make an appointment in advance, we were by the bustling window.

Pedestrians on the street come and go, sweeping past the bustling grilled fish shop from time to time, and some even stop at the chic lanterns.

Wearing a light blue dress, I lowered my head and covered my face with my hair, trying to tighten my legs in shame.I always have an illusion, as if everyone's eyes are on me, looking at me making a fool of myself.

I really hate Qin Huai.I regard it as a fish, grind my teeth and suck blood, and eat it all in one bite.

The food is extremely delicious, but the damn thing is, Qin Huai only gave me a small portion.

"Trust me," Qin Huai brushed away my messy hair and took my chopsticks, "This is what's best for you."

I feel baffled, but as long as it makes me suffer, Qin Huai will probably do it.

In the end, I stared at the empty plate reluctantly.

But all this became insignificant after returning home.

Perhaps it was my reward for being obedient that day, Qin Huai even called me into his bedroom and took out the phone from the drawer and returned it to me.

I turned on my mobile phone and connected to the Internet, and immediately a steady stream of messages popped up: from my sister, from Li Mu and his wife, from Yu Jia, from my college classmates, from the landlord.There's even a number I know so well, my parents.

I read the text messages and WeChat one by one, and replied, saying that I am fine.After all, they all know that I like to be immersed in my own world.

Until the end, I stared at the phone at home in a daze.

Did they miss me?Or did you hear that I was so down and out and told me not to appear in front of my eyes?Or, is this a prank my sister made when she came home?

"What are you thinking about?" Qin Huai asked behind me, water droplets fell on my screen, "I didn't ask you to come here to watch you play with your phone."

"It's nothing." I replied, turning off the phone while recovering.Looking back, Qin Huai's hair was dripping with water, he was wearing a white bathrobe with a wide neckline, and his abdominal muscles were faintly visible during the period.

My eyes were scalded, and my face flushed immediately.

"Come here." Qin Huai hooked his hands.

I was fascinated for a while, and I couldn't wait to do it. He pulled me into his arms, raised my face, and wanted to ask for a kiss.

Qin Huai touched my eyes with his mouth, then picked me up and sniffed my hair - it smelled like grilled fish.

"Go take a shower." He pushed me away disgustedly.

I reacted and staggered away to the door, the bedroom door was locked.

I can only hide in his bathroom, turn on the water, and throw away the grilled fish skirt.

What is Qin Huai going to do? How can he talk to such a face that I hate? He drank a lot of wine, did I become someone else?

I dare not ask.

Until the water was cold, I curled up in a ball in the bathtub.Qin Huai opened the door and carried me out.

"Close your eyes." Qin Huai said.

I will do so.

-

Finally, after a long preparation, Qin Huai finally lost his patience and started to eat me.

Rough kneading, sharp pain, I was spread out, rolled.

"Qin, Huai, I will promise you everything - treat me better, okay, okay?"

Broken words spit from my mouth.

Qin Huai didn't answer.

He let go of my hand.

Tears flowed with terrible joy.

I also know that the promise I got at this time is too fake.

But I'm really desperate.

My head was forced to empty, exploded into a cloud of fireworks, and disappeared into the sky.