Engage

About whether she likes to see people wearing military uniforms, although Jiang Ran denied it, but Qi Lian already had the answer in her heart, she didn't say anything, just picked up the bowl of aloe vera panna cotta and ate it.

Qi Lian has a little obsessive-compulsive disorder.It may be an invisible relationship. She spends more time cleaning each time than ordinary people. For example, ordinary people usually wash their hands with disinfectant once, but she will wash them twice.If you don't, she will feel as if she hasn't been washed.

Because she can't see and loves cleanliness, she can only choose the safest method - wash it several times.

So her fingers are always so clean, and her other places are also very clean. The clothes are changed once a day, and it is rare to wear them again, because those clothes will be taken away at a fixed time, and at the same time Send new ones.

Jiang Ran glanced at her from time to time, and not long after, he found that Qi Lian's fingers seemed to be burnt, and several knuckles showed a ruddy color that did not match the previous whiteness.

She leaned over, grabbed Qi Lian's fingers and took a closer look, and sure enough, she found that two fingers were different in color from the surrounding fingers, and she felt distressed: "When did you get burned?"

At this time, it was hot, and the panna cotta that Jiang Ran brought over was a cold dessert, and it would never be scalded to Qi Lian's. Jiang Ran asked, but his gaze had already swept to the hot tea on the table, and then he showed a clear expression.

Qi Lian also said at this time: "When I just drank the tea, it was scalded. It's not a big deal. There are no bubbles. It will be fine after a while."

She touched her fingertips indifferently, and then wanted to pull her fingers back.

Jiang Ran glared at her: "Don't you cherish your body just because you can't see it? You haven't seen how red it is here!" She went to find medicine and rubbed it on Qi Lian carefully. Lian's fingernails are a little long.

Qi Lian obviously can't do things like trimming nails—it's not that he can't do it, but if he tries to do it reluctantly, he might chew his nails like a dog, and maybe even cut the flesh, so he won't be able to do it. So round and smooth.Therefore, Jiang Ran guessed that someone should take care of it for her after a while.

"Your nails have grown." Putting the ointment aside, Jiang Ran grabbed Qi Lian's wrist and checked her ten fingers, and sure enough, she saw that the nails of each finger had grown a little bit, but it wasn't there yet. The point where life makes inconveniences.

Qi Lian moved his little finger and said in a low voice, "Really?"

A trace of loneliness flashed in her eyes, but Jiang Ran didn't see it, Jiang Ran's attention was on her hands.

"Shall I cut it for you?" Jiang Ran eagerly asked.

Qi Lian withdrew his hand: "No need."

"why?"

"Someone will help me."

"My skills are also very good." Jiang Ran said cheekily.She hadn't thought about this before, but now that she thought about it, she felt very uncomfortable when she thought that someone would hold Qi Lian's hand and trim her nails, so intimate.

Qi Lian still shook his head: "I'm used to it."

"Give it up, I want to try it. I will be very careful!" Jiang Ran clung to her and acted like a baby, until Qi Lian showed a helpless expression and nodded slightly.

Jiang Ran excitedly found the nail scissors to cut her nails.

In fact, I was really careful, much more careful than when cutting myself.

Jiang Ran lowered his head and devoted himself to cutting off the nails of each finger. Qi Lian sat there quietly, unable to see whether he was comfortable or not, but there was a shadow under his eyes.

After Jiang Ran finished cutting, she took tools to polish her nails. Qi Lian's fingers were beautiful, slender and fair, and the nail caps were even and shiny. The color of peach petals, even the nails.

It's like taking care of a work of art.

Jiang Ran felt that she had never been so serious and careful in cutting her nails in her life. She did it very slowly and meticulously, replacing one finger when it was ready, but Qi Lian would always be careful every time she changed her fingers. Shrinking her fingers, her expression became more dignified, as if she was enduring something, finally, she couldn't help it anymore, she shook off Jiang Ran's hand.

The hand was empty all of a sudden, but it seemed that it wasn't just the hand that was empty. Jiang Ran was thrown away by her, and she couldn't recover for a while, but she didn't say anything, just walked out in a hurry, as if she was running away , really ran away, so that Qi Lian, who was already familiar with every corner of the manor, seemed to be unable to find her way. She fell down several times, and finally walked out while holding onto the wall. In such a hurry, Jiang Ran's thin and thin back fell into Jiang Ran's eyes, causing large scars on Jiang Ran's heart.

Jiang Ran rushed up a few steps, took Qi Lian's hand, but was immediately thrown away by her, Jiang Ran stood there, his eyes panicked: "Ah Lian, what's wrong with you?"

Qi Lian lowered his head and said nothing, just walked out with all his heart.

Jiang Ran followed her step by step, tears were forced out by her sudden indifference and refusal, Jiang Ran wiped his eyes while trying to hide his crying and asked, "What's wrong with you? Tell me."

In Qi Lian's silence, Jiang Ran forced a smile: "I see, you don't like me cutting your nails, do you? Then I won't cut them, I won't do such things in the future." She said Then, he threw the small file in his hand far away, and just touched the small round head of the sweeping robot, making a sharp sound, Qi Lian seemed to be disturbed, and visibly trembled, Jiang Ran saw this It hurt again, and I wanted to help her, but my finger fell in the air, but it didn't fall down for a long time.

She could only follow Qi Lian out step by step, then turn a corner, and then go up until Qi Lian locked herself in their bedroom.

Qi Lian used all his strength to close the door. Jiang Ran's strength was much weaker than Qi Lian's, so there was no way to stop her. She stood by the door, shrugged her shoulders in shock at the crisp sound of closing the door, and rested her outstretched hand on the door panel Finally, a hurt expression appeared on his face.

What happened?

Jiang Ran didn't understand.She didn't understand why it was worth Qi Lian's anger for such a trivial matter, she didn't understand why Qi Lian was so angry.

"I'm obviously just doing it for your own good. Whether it's applying medicine or cutting nails or something." A little unsteady, Jiang Ran turned around and leaned against the door, thinking that this would give him some support, but his body was still sliding, gradually On the ground, she squatted on the ground with a helpless expression.

Like a child who realizes that he has done something wrong, but doesn't know where he went wrong.

All of her murmurs fell into Qi Lian's ears in the room.

Qi Lian sat at the foot of the bed with her knees hugged, and glanced at the direction of the bedroom door.

In Qi Lian's eyes, it was pitch black, as if there was nothing there.But in fact, Qi Lian knew that there was a door there, and behind the door was a girl whose heart was broken by her.

The girl is still talking.

"Well, I admit, I was a little jealous before I cut your nails just now. I'm jealous that someone can touch my girlfriend's little hands. I'm being stingy. When I cut your nails, I had some secret joy. I Thinking of this, you won't be touched by others." Jiang Ran sniffled: "Is it because of this? Or is it because I annoyed you by pestering you before?"

Qi Lian shook his head, no, no, not at all!

She just hates herself.

A useless person, even the trimming of nails needs to be done by others, she can't do such a small thing by herself!

She couldn't accept herself like this.It took her a long time to get used to the "help" of others, she told herself, it was necessary, yes, it was necessary.

To live a good life, it is necessary to be touched by others, dressed by others, and followed by others' eyes all the time.

She allowed herself to accept this fact, and gradually tried to forget the discomfort of being touched at the beginning. Now, she can calmly ignore everything.However, the "little thing" that Jiang Ran did today made her hateful self-esteem stand out again.

Not because of Jiang Ran's touch.If there was anyone in the world she would most like to be touched by, besides her mother who died young, it would be the present Jiang Ran.She was definitely not disgusted by Jiang Ran grabbing her fingers, she just hated herself being taken care of by Jiang Ran.

The disgust came so suddenly and so intensely, every time, whenever the sound of the nail breaking came, it was like a knife was stuck in Qi Lian's heart, her fingers were grabbed by Jiang Ran, She can feel Jiang Ran's tenderness, she knows why Jiang Ran's tenderness comes from, she knows that Jiang Ran loves her, but what else?

This is also because she is disabled.

Because I am disabled, I need to be taken good care of, and because I am disabled, I have to turn to others for help in daily trivial matters.She knew, she knew everything, she just felt a little sad suddenly.

She thought she had already forgotten this feeling, she thought her dignity had already been thrown into the trash can by herself, but Jiang Ran came, and Jiang Ran aroused her self-loathing so easily.

"Ah Lian, you talk. You don't say anything, how do I know you think so?" Outside the door, Jiang Ran's voice had become hoarse, showing exhaustion.

She thought, maybe she didn't really understand Qi Lian.

Just like at this time, she didn't know why Qi Lian was angry, she could see the sadness of Qi Lian's back, but she didn't know what made her so sad.

Qi Lian lowered his head and said silently: "Silly girl."

Exhaustion is only a moment. Jiang Ran is not someone who is easy to shrink back. She always looks so energetic. After a while, she moved again.

This time, it wasn't an obedient begging.

She started knocking on the door.

It wasn't a very loud kind of clapping, but it was definitely something that people couldn't ignore. She knocked on the door and shouted inside: "Qi Lian, is it interesting for you to hide in there? You're not a child anymore. Let's clarify what's going on." Okay? If I'm wrong, I'll change it, but you have to tell me a reason, right?"

In the room, Qi Lian shook his head in the direction of the door with blank eyes.