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Lin Ci closed the door and turned to look at him. Seeing him stomping his feet, her heart skipped a beat. She walked quickly and put her hand on Zhao Fengshi's thigh, "Take it easy."

Zhao Fengshi looked up at him, holding his breath in his heart, "Why are you still hugging Huo Xiaoshu?"

"Just..." Lin Ci looked at Zhao Fengshi's expression, and the explanation on his lips barely stopped, and he asked, "Why did you react so strongly?"

Zhao Fengshi was stunned, his fingers clutching his cuffs, his body fell back, his back was leaning against the sofa, he pursed his lips, "You told me that he treated you badly, now you guys are together, what does it look like!" After speaking, the man stood up without looking back, and walked upstairs with a "dongdongdong".

Lin Ci looked at his back, suppressed a smile and asked, "Why are you still angry?"

"Can you not be angry? Your lungs are blown by your anger." The sound came from far above, Lin Ci didn't answer it, and fell silent for a moment. Zhao Fengshi poked his head out and looked down at the people downstairs, "Why don't you Talked?"

"You're angry, I'm afraid that talking about it will make you even more angry."

It would be better not to say this sentence, Zhao Fengshi was depressed.

Lin Ci went upstairs and lightly touched his arm with her hand, "I have nothing to do with Huo Xiaoshu."

"You don't like him anymore?"

"I don't feel it anymore, it's just that he needs my help with some things. After all, I know him, so I can help if I can." Lin Ci didn't say what it was, and Zhao Fengshi didn't ask the bottom line. After the two of them said a few words , went to the balcony.

It was windy at night, but no matter how strong the wind in summer was, it was comfortable. The bamboo forest rustled outside the house, and two rattan chairs were placed on the balcony. Zhao Fengshi found a place to sit down.He had a sore throat, glanced at Lin Ci, and took out a pack of cigarettes from his trousers pocket, "Can I have a smoke?"

"Then give me one too."

Zhao Fengshi was taken aback for a moment, and then asked, "When did you start smoking?"

"In the past two years, I have been very annoyed. I would smoke one when I couldn't write anything and when I thought of you."

"think of me?"

Zhao Fengshi repeated these three words, he took out a cigarette, held it between his lips, the shredded tobacco was lit, he swallowed slowly, sparks suddenly lit up, he raised his head and looked at Lin Ci, "You... Miss me?"

"Yes."

Lin Ci's lips were slightly parted, and the tip of his tongue was touching his lower teeth. When he said this, Zhao Fengshi's heart beat violently, as if he had some serious illness, and even his breathing became constricted.

He took another puff on the cigarette, and at this moment the cigarette that was between his lips was taken away, Lin Ci held the cigarette between his fingers, and sucked on the mark that Zhao Fengshi had bitten.Zhao Fengshi's eyelashes trembled slightly, his Adam's apple twitched involuntarily, and he leaned forward, staring closely at Lin Ci.

"I'm too lazy to do it myself, you can order another one."

Lin Ci's voice came with a few wisps of smoke, and Zhao Fengshi smelled the burnt smell of nicotine, and he felt guilty, wondering if adults are so informal now?Or is he out of date?He turned his back and covered his burning face and lit another cigarette.

Turning around, he happened to fall into Lin Ci's sight. He curled his fingers holding the cigarette, lifted it up and took a small sip, and asked vaguely, "Why do you miss me?"

"Because you left too suddenly." Lin Ci moved the rattan chair towards him, and the two chairs were close together, and he sat up cross-legged with one leg bent.The kneecaps protruded slightly under the loose pants, and the loose cotton short sleeves wrapped around the fleshless body. He said, "Even if you are back now, I still don't think it's real. Zhao Fengshi, these three years are too long."

"I'm sorry." Zhao Fengshi's voice became low.

Lin Ci turned his head to look at him, the smoke between his fingers was about to burn out, and the sparks burned his hands, so he didn't move, but said: "I'm sorry for you, you don't have to do this without me."

"I wouldn't be alive without you."

Lin Ci was surprised, Zhao Fengshi sighed, he pinched Lin Ci's wrist and took the cigarette between his fingers, stood up and extinguished the cigarette.Lin Ci followed behind him and asked, "What are you talking about?"

Sitting down again, Lin Ci stared at Zhao Fengshi's face. He felt that he had missed something very important, something that he couldn't touch originally.

Zhao Fengshi turned his head away, stretched his legs, and changed his expression several times in silence. Finally, he couldn't bear the oppression in Lin Ci's eyes, and grabbed his hair irritably, "Let me tell you, but it's quite embarrassing. I used to I didn’t think about suicide when I was very young.”

Lin Ci was startled suddenly, he stood up, and the rattan chair fell to the ground.The noise was so loud that Zhao Fengshi was startled. He narrowed his eyes and said, "Be quieter."

Lin Ci took a deep breath, he stepped on the ground with both feet, every time he stomped tightly and airtightly, and imitated Zhao Fengshi's attitude just now, he stomped fiercely a few times, pointed at Zhao Fengshi, and circled around the person again, like a dog The headless fly muttered: "You still let me take it easy, why didn't you tell me about such a big thing."

"Everyone has a time when they are ignorant. I was too young at that time, and I became depressed if I couldn't be counseled."

Lin Ci thought of Zhao Fengshi when he was young, lifeless and gloomy.At that time, he only thought that Zhao Feng was very fashionable, and he always stabbed him with words when he didn't like it, but he never thought that it was not his original face. He wanted to get better, but he was trapped.

"My parents have a bad relationship, and the house has always been cold. I was thrown there, and no one paid any attention to me." Zhao Fengshi tapped his thigh with his fingers, and he said, "I have taken sleeping pills, and a whole can of them would kill me." I was about to faint, but suddenly I didn’t want to die. Because I thought of you telling me that I would compete with me in a sprint tomorrow, and I didn’t want to lose to you, so I went to the toilet and withheld those medicines, vomited all night, and saved my life.

Lin Ci, don't cry, it's really nothing, it's been a long time, if I don't mention it, I will forget it. "

Zhao Fengshi reached out to touch him, but he grabbed his arm tightly and hugged him tightly.Lin Ci lowered her head and put her whole face in Zhao Fengshi's arms, her skin was wet with sticky tears. Zhao Fengshi looked at Lin Ci's twitching shoulders and dared not move. He made Lin Ci cry again.

"The Laughing Man" writes, "In this dark world that surrounds me, in this desolate universe, in the vast and dim ruins where I stand, trembling with fear for myself and for all, I have a pillar, and that pillar is right here. . . . it's you."

Is it the same for Lin Ci and Zhao Fengshi? Everything about each other can become a pillar of survival. If you don't want to live, you can continue to live, and if you lose hope, you will be rekindled.Live in the present, instead of being troubled by the clutter of the past, as long as the sun falls, you can get out of the skin that imprisoned the soul.The good ones will come back, and the bad ones will leave.

"Is it all right now? Do you still have such thoughts?"

Lin Ci raised a face wrinkled by tears, Zhao Fengshi looked at him in surprise, the corners of his mouth turned up, he stretched out his hand to pinch Lin Ci's face, the soft skin, he said with a smile : "Now you are crying for me, how can I bear it?"

Lin Ci smiled through tears, and suddenly felt that something was wrong, he regained his senses and slapped Zhao Fengshi's hand away and stood up, "You take advantage of me while I'm not paying attention."

"What did you take advantage of?"

"No, I want to pinch it back."

Lin Ci still remembers how the two of them fought in the past, just like now, you and I have to fight each other.

Lin Ci, who was crying bitterly on Zhao Fengshi's arm just now, ran behind the chair and hugged Zhao Fengshi's neck.Two people in their thirties, still like children, hugged each other and played with each other.

Although Zhao Fengshi refused all the time, he didn't make any resistance at all.Lin Ci stood behind him, with his neck wrapped around the fleshless arm, and he muttered, "Lin Ci, you are too thin." His face was pinched, and Zhao Fengshi raised his head, looking at Under the upside-down, he could clearly see the curve of Lin Ci's mouth, the bend of his eyebrows and the small dimple under his lips.

At that moment, within a few seconds, one breath, four or five quick blinks, he couldn't hold it back, or he didn't want to hold it back at all.His body leaned back against the rattan chair, his abdominal muscles were tense, and his jaw raised sharply. He stretched out his hand and grabbed the back of Lin Ci's neck violently, like a wild beast preying in the forest, avoiding the beast. The clip quickly and accurately catches the fleeing prey.

With a muffled snort, it was not the lips but the nose that collided.Lin Ci squatted down covering his nose, tears couldn't stop, he tremblingly raised his finger and pointed at Zhao Fengshi, "What are you doing, it hurts me to death."

Zhao Fengshi was startled, and the person who did the wrong thing immediately got off the wicker chair. He couldn't squat down, so he sat on the ground and grabbed Lin Ci's arm, shook it slightly, and stammered, "I didn't do it on purpose. .”

"You just feel like I'm pinching your face. If you don't like it, just do it like this." Lin Ci's voice was muffled, and all her bad temper was poured out on Zhao Fengshi.

"let me see."

Zhao Fengshi pinched his chin and lifted it up carefully. Lin Ci half-closed his eyes and looked at Zhao Fengshi's face that was slowly pressed down. "The nose is not bleeding, but there is a red spot."

"That's it, why do I feel like the bridge of my nose is broken." Lin Ci half-closed her eyes, her upper and lower eyelashes clustered together.

Zhao Fengshi stretched out his hand to gently stroke the bridge of his nose, and slid down inch by inch from the root of the mountain, gently kneading the tip of the slightly raised nose, and rubbed his fingertips on the nose.Lin Ci felt itchy, pushed Zhao Fengshi away, turned his head and sneezed.

The two sat down from the wicker chair to the ground, their eyes met and they were speechless.Lin Ci couldn't bear to touch the bridge of his nose with his fingers. The blunt pain indicated that the impact just now was serious. He was a little worried, "Will it collapse?"

Zhao Fengshi looked at it with a guilty conscience, and shook his head like a rattle, "How is it possible? It collapsed after hitting it, you think your nose is made of paper."

Lin Cixiao sighed, her face was still slightly hot, "It's getting late, then I... I'm going back to my room."

"I'm going back now?" Zhao Fengshi blurted out the words, he was dazed after speaking, and immediately said: "It's not too late, go back quickly."

Lin Ci let out a "hmm", he stood up and pulled Zhao Fengshi up by the way.The two came out from the balcony and when they were about to reach the door of the room, Lin Ci pointed to the door at the end of the corridor, "That's the bathroom, there is no bathroom in the guest room, you can go there to wash later."

Zhao Fengshi nodded his head, Lin Ci didn't know what was wrong, his heart was beating very hard.

He walked a few steps quickly, and when he opened the door, his arm was suddenly grabbed.

"I can't help it."

As Zhao Fengshi said this, he pinched his chin, Lin Ci's back pressed against the door, and the door panel leaned back, making a loud bang.With his knee embedded, he was pressed against the door, his body trembling with excitement, Zhao Fengshi's face was pressed down, and he asked in a low voice, "Do you know that I liked you before?"