Declare war on depression, against day and night

"Don't Ming, as long as you have a little bit of me in your heart, you won't say such heartless things so casually, right?"

Mao Shiyi yelled at him like this.

Anyone can tell that this sentence is ruthless and meaningless.Such a simple sentence from Mao Shiyi vetoed their past.Bie Ming was secretly very sad, but on the surface he was very calm, and he didn't seem to care at all when he heard such words.

Mao Shiyi is just a cat who doesn't understand anything. He has neither experienced his miserable childhood life nor suffered from severe depression because of it. How can he understand, how can he understand all his current moods?He said that without him in my heart, would there be no him in my heart?

How could he know what kind of position he has in my heart?

How could he know how much I love him when I opened my heart to him from the beginning?

Your existence, my existence.I originally thought that the two of us have no distinction between you and me in each other's existence, but what we think and what is reflected in the realization are different. Since the two people have different attitudes towards this relationship, there is no difference at all. Can't say who has such bad conscience in someone's heart?

Really, what are you talking about...

As long as there is a little bit of him in my heart...

However, my heart is obviously all about him, right?

His nose was sore, and Mao Shiyi's stomach was full.Don't get up, he wants to go back to the room, back to the dark world where all the light can be blocked from the outside, back to a small room that only belongs to him and can be curled up.

"Bie Ming? Hello? Aren't you going to say something to what I just said?" Mao Shiyi took a few steps forward and quickly grabbed Bie Ming's wrist, "So I don't have any energy to argue with you, and I have nothing to say Say, am I dispensable in your heart? What is it? You can ignore it if you want to, do you want me to exist so I can exist? "

"It's nothing..." Bie Ming whispered, sniffling.

Mao Shishi frowned, even though he couldn't hear Bie Ming's voice clearly, he vaguely felt that what he said was not good: "What did you say?"

Fortunately, Bie Ming closed his eyes and shouted loudly: "It's nothing! You are nothing in my heart! You are yourself, and you are nothing but yourself in my heart."

You are yourself, and no one can replace Mao Shiyi.

Mao Shishi blurted out and asked, "Do you love me?"

Bie Ming was startled, a little embarrassed, and stammered: "What do you love or not..."

"Don't Ming, I love you, I really love you, not because you have any depression. But I very much hope that you can respond to me with the same enthusiasm, and I also hope that you can stand in my position, Think about it for me sincerely. You always look like you don’t care, which makes me feel very uncertain? If you can feel a sense of security by my side, I hope that you can also use this sense of security or Give me a little more or less."

Mao Shishi is not a person who likes to coax or flatter his sweetheart with rhetoric, and he is also very resistant to two people speaking from the bottom of their hearts in quiet time.If there is something to say, Mao Shiyi will say it in the shortest and most indifferent way.

Important things, he will use action to do.

He will show his heart by his actions.

Maybe Bie Ming is used to being alone, even Mao Shiyi, who is deeply trusted, has a hard time showing his feelings and intentions to him without reservation.

Bie Ming always hides all his thoughts, hiding behind a very calm face, hiding in a quilt that can wrap himself in warmth, hiding in a door that can shield all the sadness from the outside world. Behind the door with despair.

"I can't do it...don't think of me so bright and aboveboard?" Bie Ming shook off Mao Shiyi's hand, the tears kept streaming down his eyes, he tried his best to suppress his voice, " What kind of person am I, don't you know? You should know. You should know me well, you should be able to see me through, you should be able to understand all my thoughts..."

"How could I..."

Bie Ming said: "If you can't do this, then there is no point for us to be together, why not separate."

"Don't call you!"

Bie Ming wiped away the tears that fell down his chin with the back of his hand, turned his head and quietly glanced at Mao Shiyi, then went back to the room.

Mao Shiyi hurried forward a few steps, trying to follow, but Natsume Lizhou grabbed his clothes from behind. When Mao Shiyi looked back at him in confusion, he smiled and shook his head gently. Said: "At this time, it's better to let Ming Jun think about it alone."

Let Bie Ming think about it alone?

Mao Shishi tilted his head like an idiot, and his figure instantly shrunk, and the empty clothes fell down and piled up together, turning back into the original shape of a cat.He closed his eyes directly in these clothes, and fell asleep restlessly.

But let Bie Ming think about it alone in the room, is it a good thing?

Mao Shishi felt wronged.

How could he understand all the thoughts in Bie Ming's heart, how could he see through Bie Ming from the inside out, and how could he know everything about Bie Ming like the back of his hand?

No one knows everything about whom, right?Human beings, including monsters, can't even say they know themselves well, so how can they know others better than they know themselves?

Mao Shishi staggered out of his clothes, stood there in a daze and thought for a while, before deciding to go back to the room.

never mind...

If he didn't take the initiative, Bie Ming would never be able to take the initiative to find him.Mao Shishi didn't want the next time he saw Bie Ming to be in front of his grave.

Regardless of the outcome for the time being, he wanted to make it clear to Bie Ming.When he and Bie Ming were together, it would be troublesome for him to be in love with a simple human or a monster. It would be fine if the two of them remained flat and sweet. recovery problem.

As Mao Shishi had expected, Bie Ming really curled up on the bed and cried with his pillow in his arms.

Crying is the most difficult trouble on the road to solving problems.

"Don't ming." Mao Shiyi nimbly jumped onto the bed, lay down on the pillow that Bie Ming lay on, and gently rubbed Bie Ming's forehead and bridge of nose.

"You...what are you doing here?" Bie Ming kept sobbing, "Look at me...my joke?"

Originally, he wanted to coax Bie Ming with the cat's cute form, but now it seems that what Bie Ming needs more is perhaps a chest he can rely on.

Mao Shishi licked Bie Ming's tears distressedly, got off the pillow, sat upright, and turned back into a human form.He lowered his head, looked at Bie Ming who shrank again because of this, stretched out his hands and dragged him into his arms, holding him tightly.

"I asked you to watch the joke?" Mao Shiyi looked at Bie Ming and smiled meaningfully, "It was you who proposed to fall in love with someone, and you were the one who abandoned me. You are the one who thinks I can do whatever I want, tell me, is it me who reads your jokes or you reads my jokes? Fuck, I will definitely be laughed at by Qi Ge to death."

"I didn't want to see you laugh."

Mao Shishi's expression became serious, he pinched Bie Ming's chin, kissed the corner of his lips, and kept bending over, whispering in Bie Ming's ear: "Only the two of us, can we get along with you?" Let me tell you, why do you want to fall in love with humans?"

Bie Ming opened his eyes, then closed them, shaking his head.

Mao Shishi asked, "Why can't you say it?"

Don't cry or shake your head.

"You don't tell me anything, how can I know you? I can't read what you think in your heart from your face? You have to tell me... We have to communicate. I will know you again , and it is impossible to see through your hesitation."

Maybe Bie Ming was driven into a hurry, and Bie Ming, who had stopped crying, began to cry silently again.

Mao Shiyi sighed deeply: "Forget it, forget it...you can do whatever you want, I will ask you one last time, do you really want to break up with me? If you don't want to answer, you can just nod and shake your head. Whatever you choose, I will respect you this time. If you really don’t want to say it, I can’t pry your mouth open. When do you want to say it, let’s say it, hey..."

Humans, we all choose those who trust us the most to show our greatest regrets, or our shortcomings.Because he gave you the most trust.

And the person who loves you will always be there waiting for you.

Don't believe it.

Bie Ming opened his mouth, as if he wanted to speak, but there was no sound, only the sound of air leaking from his throat.He coughed a few times before saying: "Ten...Eleventh, I think it might be better if I first learn the methods and skills of loving others from others, and then fall in love with you. And I also feel that I It’s abnormal in a certain way, because the distance with people is too far, otherwise we would be happier when we are together.”

Mao Shishi asked: "Then do you think we are not in love now, or do you mean that you were unhappy when you were with me?"

"No, not at all..." Bie Ming immediately looked up at him, subconsciously raised his hands and shook them, then his eyes drifted away, "I am very happy, all the time with you. "

"I see," Mao Shishi asked Bie Ming to lie down first, then got out of bed, locked the door and turned off the light, then lay down next to Bie Ming, pulled the quilt for the two of them, and placed his hands on Bie Ming through the quilt. On the body, "If you think we should stop now, let's stop."

Bie Ming grabbed the quilt with both hands, covered his mouth and nose, and asked in a muffled voice, "Aren't you angry?"

"I'm going to die."

Bie Ming closed his eyes, and laughed a few times.

Mao Shishi put his arms around Bie Ming and said: "It's very late now, if you want to drive me away now, then I have no place to go for the time being. How about this tonight, we will separate tomorrow morning. There is nothing else The reason is that I want to say goodbye to you. Whenever you feel that you have the ability and skills to fall in love with me, come to Fuchun Mountain to find me. I will be waiting for you in Fuchun Mountain."

Don Ming heard his words in a cloud, so he asked: "Are you going to leave me?"

"It's you who want to leave me."

"But I didn't want you to leave."

"When we break up tomorrow morning, I will have no reason to live with you anymore. I have no status and no right to stand by your side."

Bie Ming became a little anxious, propping his elbows on the bed: "I mean, you can still live here, there are many rooms next to it, and there are also rooms on the second floor."

Mao Shiyi shook his head.

Although Mao Shishi didn't show it on the surface, in his heart, he still wanted to stimulate Bie Ming with such words, maybe Bie Ming gave up the idea of ​​wanting to fall in love with humans.He looked down at Bie Ming's eyes, Bie Ming's eyes were always dodging, refusing to meet Mao Shiyi's eyes.Mao Shishi leaned against Bie Ming, letting him pillow his arm.

Maybe some people just can't learn to "put themselves in their shoes". Bie Ming still doesn't understand why Mao Shiyi is so sad.

He was just going to learn how to fall in love with him better, they were only separated for a short period of time, and in the end, he would definitely return to Mao Shiyi's side.This decision is for Mao Shishi, everything is for Mao Shishi.

Bie Ming was made a little bolder by being spoiled by Mao Shishi, and thought that Mao Shishi would leave tomorrow.So while Mao Shishi was asleep, Bie Ming stretched out his hand cautiously, gently sliding back and forth on his Adam's apple and collarbone with his fingertips.Mao Shishi frowned and moved his Adam's apple, slowly narrowed his eyes halfway to look at Bie Ming, without even a warning, grabbed Bie Ming's wrist suddenly, turned over quickly, pressed him under his body, and held him tightly. Hold Bie Ming tightly.

"You...cough, do you still want to separate from me?"

Bie Ming said: "I stick to my own ideas."

Mao Shishi became weak instead, lowered his head, and slipped into Bie Ming's arms unknowingly, his forehead rested on Bie Ming's shoulder, and his hands hugged Bie Ming's back tightly.One of Bie Ming's arms rested on Mao Shishi's pillow, while the other wrapped around his shoulders, stroking Mao Shishi's hair incessantly, coaxing him softly.

The next morning, when Bie Ming woke up in a daze, Mao Shishi was no longer in bed.

He hurriedly sat up and looked for it subconsciously, and saw Mao Shiyi standing in front of the French window penetrated by sunlight, drinking goat milk with his head up.The thin curtains were still drawn, and the sunlight came in from the window, drawing a sharp silhouette on the upper body of Mao Shiyi, with his Adam's apple moving up and down.

Don't be mesmerized.

He thought obsessively, why is the outline of a person so beautiful, why is a person's Adam's apple so sexy?

The author has something to say: It has been two days since school started, and the campus network is finally set up.

In the new semester, everyone should study hard.

I wish everyone to eat wildly without getting fat, and to defecate and clear the intestines.