We don't understand love (The ten years when I loved you the most)

He Zhishu stopped talking again, or because he didn’t have time to say, he only got up after Jiang Wenxu went to the company every day, and he went to bed before Jiang Wenxu got off work

I still made two servings of breakfast, but one of them was kept cold, and I poured it out untouched when Jiang Wenxu came back at night

He sneaked into the bedroom once in the middle, he worried that Zhishu became lethargic because of his unwell body, but he found a lot of sleeping pills beside the bed

He knew that He Zhishu would not do such a thing. He was not alone in the past with only Jiang Wenxu. This time, he had parents, studies, and friends. No matter what, he would not despise his life

Jiang Wenxu can only guess what He Zhishu did every day by observing the changes in his home. He ate fast food, fed the cat, took a bath, watched TV...

In another week, He Zhishu returned to Hangzhou to accompany his parents to celebrate the new year. He could only guard the house he had guarded for many days and nights alone. He was very scared, but He Zhishu endured all this

He opened the door with the dishes and said "I'm back" out of habit

He knew that He Zhishu was not at home, so he didn't need to observe, he just felt that the man's breath was gone

Prepared dinner as always, sat at the dining table and waited piously, Zhishu He will not leave

The sky is getting darker and darker, no matter how sure He Zhishu will not leave, now it is inevitable to panic

Waiting patiently until midnight, the kitten was running around energetically, making some noises from time to time, so that the big house was not so lonely

Hearing the sound of the key turning, Jiang Wenxu moved. He didn't know where to put his hands for a while, flustered like a child who made a mistake.

As soon as He Zhishu entered the door, he saw Jiang Wenxu whose eyes were a little dodgy, the corners of his mouth raised, and he walked over calmly

Still reeking of alcohol, he took off his black overcoat, the white shirt inside was ironed flat, and the collar button was unbuttoned, revealing his fair neck

Jiang Wenxu thought of He Zhishu who used to participate in the bidding. He always revealed an unstoppable elite aura in his speeches, but later he was forced to subdue him at home, acting as a docile housewife who dared not even "catch rape".

What did you say at the time, oh, yes, the company is stable, so you can rest at home if you don’t have much work, and when you have time, go abroad to register for marriage, travel around the world...

Obviously it was my own strong possessiveness that was at work, and I didn't want him to be remembered by others by showing his face outside, but he still expressed it in such a charming language, deceiving He Zhishu and himself

Seeing the flash of light in Jiang Wenxu's eyes gradually dimming, He Zhishu finally sat down beside him

"Still... not like it?"

"what"

Then carefully look at the person in front of you, what is on the ears, shiny, what is put on the face, it is fragrant, and the hair is specially done

"Doesn't it look like intoxication? I only saw him once, and I didn't look like him, but I haven't seen others. I don't know what you like. I can't pretend to be a woman. It's easier to pretend to be a man, but I I have only seen intoxication..."

Can't hear He Zhishu's emotions, Jiang Wenxu, who was surprised just now, is only full of sadness

"Do you think it's cheap if I don't leave now? Do you wake up and find that I still love you as before and think I'm cheap..."

Without warning, He Zhishu overturned all the dishes, and the thunderbolt sounded like a broken heart

"Do you think I want this? Do you think I don't want to start a new life? Do you think I want to torture myself all day thinking about your old shit?..."

The roaring voice stopped abruptly and turned into a sad tone, "But I can no longer, I can no longer put other people at ease, I can no longer love frankly..."

Jiang Wenxu stepped forward and hugged He Zhishu who was in a crazy state

"No, Zhishu, I've never had one...don't do that"

He Zhishu struggled to break away from him, "Don't fucking touch me with your dirty hands, I'm sick... You think I want to lose my temper with you like a woman, I'm not such a petty person, isn't it just cheating, Everyone knows it...but...but, you said that you will never let a Zhishu He down in this life."

The harm suffered in those four years, just this one sentence, was worth half of the pain. Catalyzed by this promise, all the pain was doubled...

Jiang Wenxu doesn't quite remember when he said this sentence, but he remembers that he said it, because it was once a firm belief in his heart. He worked hard because he let Zhishu live a better life one day earlier, but he It is also clear that what Zhishu wants is not the so-called good life, but his heart

Everything in the past was a big old sore, which was not painful or itchy before, but now it was torn apart by He Zhishu, pus and blood, but it was one step closer to a real recovery