Light Left, Light Right [Chilu's Original Crime]

Bureau Zhang withheld Lu Li's one-month bonus after receiving the complaint, but Lu Li didn't care.The captain of the criminal investigation brigade is more than enough to rely on the attendance bonus and additional bonuses alone, not to mention that now Lu Li's three meals are almost covered by Chi Zhen.

Chi Zhen was also rushing to serve Lu Li.

Later, as soon as Chi Zhen mentioned the subway in front of Lu Li, Lu Li's face turned black, and his usually seductive eyes stared at him blankly, full of hostility, Chi Zhen didn't dare to bring up this matter again.

Chi Zhen tried every means to get closer to Lu Li every day. When Lu Li came home in the early morning, he would stay up until early in the morning before going to bed. Lu Li's car had no limit on the number of cars, so he took a hard ride to work. Lu Li didn't turn off the lights when he went to bed at night. He began to sleep bathed in the light diffused by the visor.

Chi Zhen began to understand many of Lu Li's habits. For example, he likes to look directly into your eyes before he gets angry. knew.

Another example

He sleeps with the lights on

Rather than saying that Lu Li is unwilling to turn off the lights, it is better to say that he dare not turn off the lights.

Everyone has something that is difficult to talk about, such as the flowers on Chi Zhen's balcony, or the lights that Lu Li never turns off.

Chi Zhen didn't shy away from anything, and said whatever came to his mind every day.

"Lu Li." Chi Zhen stood on the balcony and looked at Lu Li who was eating.

"Huh?" Lu Li's mouth was full of food, like a chipmunk.

"I..., I... have something to ask you... I wonder if it's convenient for you to say it." Chi Zhen stammered and asked Lu Li.

"Say." Lu Li turned his head to look at the stuttering Chi Zhen, his eyes were not surprise but amazement.

He had never seen Chi Zhen like this before. Usually, he was full after eating, and Chi Zhen's mouth kept talking like a tape on the machine. Although what he said was useless, Lu Li did. willing to listen.

"I...I...I'm afraid you'll be unhappy." Chi Zhen stroked his curly hair with his hands, and his arms leaning against the balcony felt a little stiff.

Lu Li's eyes widened. He even turned around to watch Chi Zhen's hesitation while eating, for fear of missing the wonderful moment when the industry's famous mouth stuttered.

"talk"

Lu Li put down his plate, as if he was full.

"you…"

"Why on earth do you keep the lights off every night..."

Chi Zhen hesitated for a long time, but just asked such a thing, which made Lu Li always think that Chi Zhen committed a crime and asked him to surrender himself. He was even going to turn over the balcony and handcuff him the second Chi Zhen confessed. handcuffs.

"I'm afraid of the dark." Lu Li looked at Chi Zhen and said.

Chi Zhen was stunned when Lu Li said he was afraid of the dark.It's normal, no one would believe that Lu Li would be afraid of the dark.

"Impossible, impossible, you have to find a smarter reason to lie to me, I'm not a fool." Chi Zhen shook his head and resumed his usual slippery tone.

"Really." Lu Li looked into Chi Zhen's eyes and said.

"Then...then...why...." Chi Zhen stopped laughing, and Lu Li was looking at him.

Those beautiful eyes reflected himself in the late night light, and Chi Zhen knew that Lu Kai would not look directly into his eyes when he was joking.

"Because I'm afraid." Lu Li turned around and looked downstairs. He didn't know where he was looking, his eyes seemed to have shifted focus, and he didn't know where he was staring.

Don't look at Lu Li who dares to go into any tiger's den and wolf's den by himself now, and can stab a knife in the waist without screaming pain. He was not like this in the past.

Lu Li's hand rested lightly on the edge of the balcony, and he didn't care if he rubbed his hand with dust.

Chi Zhen turned around, leaned against the balcony, and listened quietly to Lu Li's words.

"I was very timid when I was a child, and it was my father who practiced it." Lu Li said on the right side of the balcony

"I didn't want to be a police officer at first, but my father forced me to do so."

"He is a music professor. When he was young, because his grandfather didn't agree with him entering the police academy, he insisted on making me a policeman."

"He always said, I can't live up to his expectations, I am his hope." Lu Li said calmly, his eyes were dark.

"I was very timid when I was a child. My father always took me into dark alleys. He said boys should be strong, but I'm really afraid..." Lu Li's voice was trembling slowly.

Chi Zhen kept looking at Lu Li, as if he saw him in the past through the voice.

"I'm afraid of the dark, I'm afraid of being alone, but every time I want to open my mouth to shout, my father will say that you are my father's hope, you can't...can't... live up to my father's expectations..."

Lu Li lowered his head, his hair half covered his side face, his hands grabbed the edge of the balcony, trembling non-stop, causing the ash to scatter around.

Chi Zhen's eyes were full of distress, as if he followed Lu Li's voice to the alley, and then he saw the terrified Lu Li, walking alone in the dark alley.

"Later..., once I took the elevator alone, and it turned out...the elevator really broke down...."

"I was trapped inside for three hours, I was too scared to say anything..."

"My mother had a big fight with my father, and he hasn't bothered me since."

"But my father..., his eyes are... full of disappointment..." Lu Li turned around and looked at Chi Zhen, his red eyes were full of tears.

"I studied hard later, and I took first place in every subject. In order not to disappoint my father, I took the initiative to walk that dark path every day. I finally, finally got admitted to the police academy. My father especially He showed off my acceptance letter to everyone, and he said to me... said... that I was his pride..." Lu Li kept talking about the past as if out of control. Years can not be removed traces.

He kept slapping the edge of the balcony, making bang bang noises.

Chi Zhen regretted so much, he uncovered Lu Li's scar out of curiosity, and when Lu Li showed him the wound dripping with blood, he couldn't caress the pain for him.

"I'm sorry... I'm sorry... Lu Li..."

He kept apologizing to Lu Li, what was he apologizing for?Was it because he talked about sad things, or because he showed up too late and failed to protect the former Lu Li.

"But I still remember his disappointed eyes, which I have never wanted to see, that kind... that kind of eyes that failed his expectations..."

Lu Li looked at Chi Zhen, ignored his apology, and just talked, as if, through Chi Zhen, he was talking to his father about his difficulties for many years.

"Now whenever I do something bad, my father's eyes will come to my mind. I can't remember what he said...but I'm afraid..."

"As long as I get scared at night, there is silence everywhere... It's like... I'm in that elevator... I keep losing sleep, and then I keep turning on the lights..."

Chi Zhen couldn't tell what Lu Li's eyes were like, but the emotions in them were too complicated, including sadness, fear, and self-blame.

Chi Zhen was even more panicked than Lu Li. He was afraid of seeing Lu Li who was sad, Lu Li who was crying, and Lu Li who was blaming himself.He was even more afraid of facing the self who couldn't protect Lu Li.

Suddenly, it became quiet, and Lu Li just looked at Chi Zhen straightly, as if... he wasn't looking at Chi Zhen, his eyes were full of emptiness and helplessness.

Chi Zhen had been listening to Lu Li's talk, but his eyes had already become moist.He wiped away the tears that were about to fall, and turned his red eyes from rubbing hard to look at Lu Li again.

Chi Zhen was separated by a balcony partition, and Lu Li was right in front of him, so helpless and desperate.

But he couldn't touch it, he was so anxious that he became restless.

After a long time, Chi Zhen's voice sounded, it was hoarse and depressed.

"Land from…"

"Lu Li... don't be afraid, from now on... I can fall asleep without turning off the lights..."

"I wait for you to go home every day...everyday...at night, and talk to you every day...when you eat..."

"If you are afraid of taking the elevator in the future, ask me to accompany you. Even... even if you go to see your father, I can accompany you..."

"As long as...as long as you don't be afraid...don't be sad..."

"OK…"

Lu Li's empty eyes suddenly focused on Chi Zhen's face... as if there were only two of them in the whole world...

"You... accompany me..."

"You accompany me..., you... accompany me... ah... ah... uh..."

Lu Li suddenly cried out, a heart-piercing cry with intermittent words and choked sobs.

Lu Li tugged at his sleeve and wiped away his tears vigorously, but the tears kept falling again.Then he simply ignored it.Let the warmth spread across his cheeks.

Lu Li looked at Chi Zhen who was even more flustered than himself, just kept crying and then nodded, as if he wasn't the frightening Captain Lu, but just the kid who was scared alone in the alley.

Then Chi Zhen stretched out his hand and grabbed him.

To be honest, Lu Li's heart was about to stop at that moment. He had never seen such a reaction, the kind of person who would shed tears because of his past.

The air is full of his temperature, layer after layer of hard work wrapping his scarred heart.

That night, Lu Li's eyes were full of hope and brilliance that he had never seen before.

Parents always like to hope that their children will become dragons and daughters will become phoenixes. They put shackles on their children in the name of love again and again. They use the simplest language to smash the hammer into the children's bone marrow again and again. , Let the child restart the cold in the tense and painful days in the future.

cuteness and hope

Never excessive expectations and blame

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