Light Left, Light Right [Chilu's Original Crime]

The early morning mist lingers in the air, and the rain mixed with dew drops tick-tock on the flowers and leaves on the window sill.The flowers on the balcony like the wetness, but Chi Zhen doesn't like it.

The rainy day seemed to remind Chi Zhen of his past all the time, and all around his ears were his sister's heartbreaking cries and that sound like parting sorry.

Chi Zhen woke up from the nightmare again, his forehead was covered with sweat from running in the dream, he felt as if his throat was being strangled, and the desire to retch rushed into his nasal cavity.He stumbled and ran to the kettle, just gulped down the water, not even paying attention to the fact that the water spilled into his newly bought pajamas.

"It's...it's this dream again...sister...sister." Chi Zhen slammed himself into the quilt, his shoulders kept shaking, and his hands kept rubbing his red eyes, but even this couldn't stop him. Can't stop crying.

There are many incredible things happening in the world, for example, the relationship between Chi Zhen and Lu Li is slowly getting better.

But it is a law that everything is difficult at the beginning, and it is just right for the relationship between Chi Zhen and Lu Li.

"Welcome home! Lu Li, I made you lily and lotus seed porridge today." Chi Zhen stood on the balcony and said to the opposite side just like the day before, but the only response was silence.Lu Li didn't speak, he didn't even turn on the lights in the room.

"I saw on TV today that lilies and lotus seeds are good for sleep, so I tried to cook porridge. Hey, I see you stay up so late every day, this is to soothe the nerves, you..."

"What's your purpose?" Chi Zhen was interrupted by Lu Li before he finished speaking. His tone was the same as before, as if their relationship had never been close.

"I... What purpose can I have? Aren't we friends?" Chi Zhen was flustered, with a hot and cold attitude towards Lu Li.

He stood awkwardly in front of Lu Li's house with his porridge in his hand. Although there was only one door, Chi Zhen felt that there was a mountain between him and Lu Li. out of breath.

Lu Li didn't drink the bowl of porridge until the end, Chi Zhen took the bowl and the porridge home the next day, and threw them all into the trash can.

It's not that Lu Li doesn't have any affection for Chi Zhen. He is rich in humor, gentle in temper, single and self-disciplined. He is a perfect existence in the eyes of others. Chi Zhen really did it after getting along with Lu Li, but Lu Li is different from others.

After throwing away the bowl of porridge, Lu Li didn't go home for three whole days. He was avoiding Chi Zhen's approach, and he was afraid of pulling away.

Chi Zhen would run to the balcony every day with a crisp "click" to shout welcome home, and then deliver the meal to Lu Li's door.

Lu Li rejected Chi Zhen, he thought it was awkward.It's no wonder that the two single men who are almost 30 years old have never even met each other, and they take care of their lives so wholeheartedly just by relying on the transmission of their voices.This made Lu Li panic. The better Chi Zhen treated him, the more he felt afraid to face him.

What Lu Li was afraid of was that he was used to being taken care of.

When Lu Li arrived home on the fourth day, he still heard the familiar "Welcome home".

"Hmm..." Lu Li replied tremblingly. He almost ran into the bathroom, and Lu Li could feel the temperature of tears welling up in his eyes.

Chi Zhen heard the sound of Lu Li knocking something down, but he felt mixed feelings in his heart. He was nervous. He thought, this is the last time.

"I still want you to try this porridge. It's a pity that you didn't drink the first bowl two days ago. I thought it tasted bad. I made it several times in the past few days when you were away. The taste... must be better than the porridge. It was good before." Chi Zhen put the porridge and his own carefully outside the door at the door of Lu Li's house

Standing inside the door, Lu Li just stared at the bent Chi Zhen, his bloodshot eyes were full of temptation and regret.

It seemed that Chi Zhen would never get angry, he was always smiling at Lu Li, and there were endless words in his mouth.When he knocked on the door of Lu Li's house, he would always stop three times. Listening carefully, it was quite melodic, just like his slippery accent every day.

Chi Zhen liked his new neighbor, he even bought a cookbook just to cook for him.Lu Li didn't dislike his new neighbors either. Although he didn't say it, he knew in his heart that it would take a lot of effort to eat the same dishes every day.

Lu Li had a small appetite, and every time he ate Chi Zhen's cooking, there would be half of it left, but Lu Li drank the whole bowl of porridge.Lu Li later said that it was just that he affirmed Chi Zhen's porridge cooking skills, but we all know that it was also Lu Li who silently affirmed Chi Zhen.

Lu Li seemed to have accepted Chi Zhen's existence. He stayed at the police station overnight less and less, and his temper began to improve. Even egg waffles said that his senior brother could joke.

Lu Li sometimes even looked forward to the sound of "Welcome home", but Lu Li just didn't want to admit it, he was slowly accepting Chi Zhen's arrival.

In the middle of the night, the dim yellow light shone on the empty street, stretching Lu Li's shadow infinitely, and the clear "click" sounded on time in the corridor in the early morning, but the welcome home was absent.

Lu Li felt faintly disappointed, because the lit lamp next door mixed with the smell of burning tobacco had already penetrated into Lu Li's house.Lu Li turned on the light and sat by the curtain. Chi Zhen didn't speak, and he also remained silent.

One cigarette, two cigarettes, three cigarettes... Lu Li couldn't count how long Chi Zhen had been silent. He could only smell the smell of tobacco getting stronger and stronger, mixed with a faint hostility.Lu Li rarely saw Chi Zhen like this, which made him feel strange and frightened.

"Don't ask me what's wrong?" Chi Zhen said outside the curtain after a long silence

"You don't want to say it," Lu Li said through the curtains, fumbling around for his coral fleece pajamas to hide his panic when he saw another Chi Zhen.

"Actually, the first time I talked to you about watering the flowers was just making excuses. I'm not here to water the flowers. I never water them." Chi Zhen gently stroked the leaves of the flowers outside the curtains, while Lu Li was outside the curtains. Nei listened quietly.

"Every time I see this flower, it's like the ghost of my sister is haunting it, and she's just there looking at me, full of blame."

Lu Li lowered his head under the curtains. He had seen the flowers on Chi Zhen's balcony. The not-so-thick branches had already passed the edge of the balcony, and the large leaves were always embracing the water drops falling from the eaves.That flower really has nothing to do with sin.

"This flower is not mine, it's my sister's." Chi Zhen said outside the curtain, he was gently playing with the flowers and leaves, as if he was stroking his sister's hair.

"When I was a child, my parents didn't have time to take care of me, so my sister took me. She was just like my mother." He took a puff of cigarette lightly, and the smoke scattered in front of Chi Zhen's eyes, mixed with eyes full of tears. .

"But my sister and I don't have a good relationship. I haven't seen her for almost 12 years." Chi Zhen said with his head bowed outside our curtains, his eyes full of self-blame.

Lu Li didn't speak, but listened to Chi Zhen talking about his past intermittently while smoking.

"My parents divorced when I was 15, my dad remarried and my sister went to school with my dad. I had a fight with her because I thought she lied to me. I said to her I think she is very vain, she said she was only going to my father temporarily, she said she would come back to be with me and my mother." Chi Zhen began to tremble slowly when he said that

"I...didn't know...didn't know...she had such a hard time...she was covered in injuries. I didn't know that the woman my dad married would be so bad..."

"But...but she still ran back to see me. The last time she came to see me, she said that she was admitted to the music school she dreamed of. She...she wanted me to bless her...but...but...I was still angry with her , I think she lied to me..., she kept apologizing to me outside the door, she asked me to forgive...she..., she said to me...she loves me..."

"Then...my sister had an accident on a flight abroad."

"I didn't... I didn't say a word of blessing to her in the end... My mother said... my sister's biggest wish is that I can forgive her..." Chi Zhen said that he had become sobbing.

The air was full of Chi Zhen's sad voice, mixed in the dark night, and entangled in Lu Li's heart.

Lu Li didn't speak, but his eyes had already turned red.Lu Li had never seen Chi Zhen like this before. Without a smile, he was full of sadness and self-blame.

"Here!" Lu Li tore down the curtains on the balcony. Lu Li had no other thoughts, he just wanted to rush over to hug this fragile Chi Zhen.

That was the first time Chi Zhen saw Lu Li. He had a petite frame, clean and soft short hair, eyes filled with tears, and that part of his forearm that he had seen countless times.

Lu Li flipped onto the balcony of Chi Zhen's house, and gently hugged him who was crying.

Lu Li didn't know how to comfort others, he hugged this man who was crying like a child stiffly, he wanted to share the pain for this man. "Your sister loves you, she has always protected you." Lu Li patted Chi Zhen on the back, comforting Chi Zhen with red eyes.

He lifted Chi Zhen's hair and saw the red and swollen eyes from crying.Obviously, his own eyes were already red, but there was strength in those eyes.

"I love her...I have always...missed her very much...I have...everything...I can...take her wherever she wants to go...I...can let her go to any school she wants...I..." Chi Shocking tears kept falling down

Looking at Chi Zhen who was crying, Lu Li's heart felt throbbing again and again. Maybe sadness and happiness can really be contagious, or maybe a person who is usually smiling will feel more impactful when he cries one day.

"Now that you've forgiven her, her wish has been fulfilled. She never blamed you." After sobbing for a long time, Lu Li supported Chi Zhen's head with both hands, and said while looking into his eyes.

"Look at this flower, she works so hard to live every day, she is your sister, she loves you, so even if you don't water it, she will try her best to accompany you." Lu Li grabbed Chi Zhen's hand and put his hand away. Speak softly on the leaves of the flowers.Chi Zhen was just crying, from opening his eyes to closing them, from sobbing softly to crying loudly.

"In the past, you bound her in guilt because of love, now you don't want to repeat the same mistakes, don't turn her love into a bondage to you again. She must...must...don't want you to suffer." Lu Li hugged Chi Zhen, Looking at the night and talking.

The small voice penetrated into the flowers and leaves, and then made a circle into Chi Zhen's heart.

People are not used to expressing their love, they always selfishly love others according to their own ideas, giving while complaining.They always complain about each other's incomprehension, but if they said the phrase "I love you" at the beginning, not self-blame or anger, then how much regret should be saved.

Chi Zhen just nodded and then burst into tears, but the grief in Chi Zhen's heart must have been relieved by Lu Li's comfort.

Chi Zhen will never forget that night. Lu Li jumped over the balcony, comforted him gently, and saved himself who fell into the abyss like a star.

The flowers on the balcony are still standing upright after drinking enough rainwater, and next to it are two lonely souls embracing each other tightly.

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